who_are_you Midnight Bliss i was just curious as to who some of you are, age, sex, location, things like that. i'm 16, female from Kansas 000407 ... reviuquier Great idea, Bliss! I'm 35, male, Dublin and Ballyconneely, Ireland 000408 ... Free I am what I am. 000408 ... Saorise 33, female, Dublin and Ballyconneely, Ireland 000410 ... birdmad male of unspecified age, Arizona (aka "Hell" between May and early October) 000423 ... ladyg I am me, myself, and I 000820 ... heel turn formerly a babyface with no permanent gimmick now a vicious heel who will cheat to win stopping at nothing to get over 000820 ... silentbob i am bobby i am iowan i am 17 18 october 28th so there 000820 ... klairchen I am directing a long-deserved hatred towards myself. I am pathetic. I am 19 and don't really deserve another year. 20, october 28th, so there, stupid girl. 000821 ... jennifer born on Feb 22nd 1981 in Omaha Nebraska and never left 000821 ... Q Woohoo! Klairchen and silenbob have the same birthday! Is the moon always full at the end of January or something? 000821 ... roxy emily, 20, may 22, 1980 is me birfday, knoxville, TN, soon to be a Londoner! 000821 ... grendel grendel 28, madman, bureaucrat, musician, aspiring writer by turns either painfuly shy or astoundingly obscene (and occasionally dwelling somewhere in between) i live in a cave (beneath the sunburnt landscape of central Arizona) 000821 ... gwyllynne 4-10-79 making me 21 at the moment New Orleans the city that care forgot 000821 ... splinken 20 years old. in college for no good reason. average height. eyes wide all the time. 000821 ... The Schleiffen Man I am 20. I am tall. I am smart (or so I am told). I am weird. When I am good, I am good. When I am bad, I am very good. 000821 ... moonshine February 10, 1983 Locations more or less limbo. Yeah.. California. Shinya onna, moonshine, and vix. And those who you don't know I am infact female. 000822 ... moonshine A moonstewardess rather moonsteward.. 000822 ... Joana. Still perceiving that knowledge. Trying to find the self of me somewhere in the stillness of this existence. 17, 18 in November 22th. Always wished not to live longer than that... currently not wishing anything at all. Appreciating the wind as it blows through. That is all. 000822 ... amy 8.17.75 Sun in Leo, Moon in Capricorn. if there's one thing i hate a lot it's when people try to define me. but then again, i've only done an okay job of actively evading definition, including just for myself. personality seems to form in the presence of other people, or in the presence of ghosts of other people. i am a member of the Stan, Jan, Pam, and Loel McClanahan clan. i move inn and outt of the naughty naught... i seem to sow my seeds deep... i like my coffee as black as a moonless night (pretty black). (don't try to figure that all out, they're just references to past obsessions). here i've been amy, Tess, Lisa, Homer, Laura, perspie, larla, lola, yolanda, youla and whirligirl. heh. is that enough? 000822 ... daxle 19 san diego to davis and back (CA) tortured soul, easily amused and easily upset, secretive and confessional, deviant and conforming, full of love and hate blathered under daxle and occasionally under alyssa or someone I am quoting long time knower of blather 000822 ... Azreal TELNET COMMAND: 'WHO AM I?' 000822 ... typhoid flo.dhs.org!typhoid pts/1 Aug 22 07:31 (truth.casa-z.org) works for any "who ARG1 ARG2", if they don't start with - assumes -m option so "who are you" would get this output also 000822 ... cam Only you I choose among the entire world. Is it fair of you letting me be unhappy? My heart is a pen in your hand. It is all up to you to write me happy or sad. I see only what you reveal and live as you say. All my feelings have the color you desire to paint. From the beginning to the end, no one but you. Please make my future better than the past. When you hide I change to a Godless person, and when you appear, I find my faith. Don't expect to find any more in me than what you give. Don't search for hidden pockets because I've shown you that all I have is all you gave. Rumi as Trans. Nader Khalili 000822 ... miniver (Madeyoulook.) 000822 ... Wayne just as i suspected i'm the old man in the bunch :) had my 40th in lebanon this year, helping out in an orphanage not bad for someone who used to be severely depressed rescued by jesus i have to admit back in canada now taxed to death (they say) but happy maybe cuz i'm only working a few days a week right now by my own choice young friends, multicultural community white supremacy is a myth as far as i have ever seen carpenter's helper, actor, musician, camp counsellor, shipper/receiver, music minister, janitor, mail sorter, warewolf, embedded programmer just titles really but some people judge everything by education and job 000823 ... Q LOL. Sorry, Wayne, my friend, but of all the good things you are and you're doing, being the eldest of this blathing cabal is not one of them. See http://profiles.yahoo.com/quintessensual 000823 ... Wayne Thanks Q. Graciousness accepts differences, and this makes the world a better and more interesting place to live in. 000828 ... dallas transcendentally experienced, heavyweight nutcase. 19750730 000830 ... silentbob my icq number is 57602675 i know thats not dallas' icq, i checked, im just saying this is mine. so find me, you blathering blatherskites 000830 ... sarpedon icq rocks 2233115 -- easy to remember 000830 ... Shar a silly and willy-nilly hyperactive suburbanite currently trouncing around the Iowan cornfields in between engineering classes 000906 ... ladyg I am the girl that sits alone at the back of the room that no one notices. I just sit and watch everone else. No one notices me, talks to me, or looks my way. I just sit there and wish I could be as everyone else is, laughing, talking, and having a good time. I just sit and talk to my shadow, wondering how it would be to be able to express myself as everyone else does, without the fear of being laughted at or made fun of. I'm the one that if you catch my eye, I look down. I'm the one that is to scared to express my feeling out loud. I'm the one that feels alone because he's not here. I'm the one that is alone because he's not here. Thats who I am. 000910 ... MollyCule 08/03/80, which makes me 20 (bah!) tall, big feet I can never find shoes for (so I just wear all-stars) aspiring poet/writer, owner of a bad webpage (www.angelfire.com/zine/mollyculeandatom) I'm a tenth grade dropout with a 143 IQ that is basically going to waste. I nearly went to jail last week. I'm a lesbian, yet I have a boyfriend (it doesn't make any sense to me either.) Pastimes include - Scrabble, reading the same 10 books over and over, falling hopelessly in love with a new song every two days and not updating my webpage nearly as often as I should. I have lived in the same Ohio town for my entire life. Help me. Let me come live with you. I don't take up too much space and I can cook okay. Caveats - I hate sun, heat, large dogs (or small, mean dogs) and I'm a chainsmoker. Someone please rescue me!!! 001029 ... startfires hi. i'm erin the psycho gypsy. i'm 19. i wish i could be a bear. or a dog. im from kansas city missouri but im going to college in warrensburg right now. im going back soon i hate it here. happy birthday yesterday bob. sorry i missed it. 001029 ... tourist 11-17-01952/M/JAX.FLA.USA/EARTH=3SOL as I remember things:always have been airplanes.television (black&white) vaccinations. I am Pre sputnik, color tv computers. At least in this lifetime. I suspect that we've all been here from the beginning. 001030 ... kr8 man (?) twenty-nine, 20 november raised in rural southern ohio recently emigrated to raleigh, nc after leaving the woman i still love overly experienced tired of crying happy to be alive now i am going to go live from the heart even if it kills me (and regret can kiss its own ass) 001030 ... SCOTT i am scott-but i don't know that it could be me-but i don't know myself i am a WARRIOR pathetic poet dreamer/FOOL/seeker always seeking-someday i'll find new eyes 001108 ... Barrett Age: approx. 26 years, 10 months, 22 days since conception. Sign: Virgo Region: South Eastern Michigan Occupation: Bartender/Carpenter/whatpaysthebills Studies: Wildlife Management, Forestry, Ecology Hobbies: Kayaking, Birdwatching, Music, Art, Beer. 001108 ... kx21 Are YOU really exists? given that YOU are changing all the time... 001108 ... SCOTT existance is a DREAM 001109 ... Rhin age: 29 - 02 march, 1971 sign: pisces habitat: indy occ: instructor/education, web & graphic design my chocolate, in no certain order: criminal psych., profiling, research, graphic design, writing, jazz musicians - really only just the one - the mused one, my jeep, life, planet earth, a good book, fine wine, and saying..."that was great, what was your name again?"...teasing my soulmate: as yet to be announced icq: 96054248 001114 ... chanaka no one cares who i am....3/20/82 and fiesty i am a learner and a councilor of humanity (or so it seems) blather is my councilor 001114 ... psychobabe I dont know who I am.... I am different... I am katie.... I am a figment of life... I am what everyone thinks I am... Which is why I hate it.... Any replys?????????????? 001121 ... god fuck what everyone thinks. there must be something you enjoy about yourself. 001122 ... misstree "you are what you pretend to be." -Vonnegut, i think you are what you make yourself. other people can only draw your outline with their limited social radar, make you the way that scroedinger's cat is killed or saved from an amorphous state by the observation of a scientist. 001122 ... j_blue 22 years have gone, but i only noticed maybe 8 a native to the golden state living in the city i was meant for, though wasnt born to slowly convincing myself of my insanity 001122 ... Satan satan omnipresent, but not omnipotent or omniscient (just very intuitive) i am the template from which your souls were stamped 001122 ... SCOTT ok i am 29yrs w/an 21yr outlook poet/fool/seeker/dreamer starrider virgo/leo cusp kinda guy six foot two and kinda shy skinny/still a little to lose born and raise in alaska lives in denver 001129 ... Thyartshallshant I am: -a loser/failing high school student/ crazy mofo with a love for Tom Green, Green Day, and Pink Floyd (two greens and one pink). -a tall, *usually* long haired (beatles style) freak who enjoys laughing alot, making other people laugh, and making an ass outta himself. -a aspiring-to-be-comedian with no life and tons of time to sleep all day and blather all night. -up at 2:43 AM writing this. -a sophmore Cali based kid who lives in a place that looks nothing like "California" and that pisses him off every time he goes outside. -a 15 year old, with a bday on June 20th, 1985. -a guy who has a rather good sized porno collection for a 15 year old i must say. -on no drugs curently, but am on icq with the icq#55046385 and IM with the SN Thyrt32. -wondering how anyone could really want yo kno all of this about me. 001231 ... cazzi i am a 15 year old, nearly 16 year old girl. living in england. doing my gcses. fun fun fun. 001231 ... G_wiz13 I am 16 live in cali I live near Thyartshallshant. I am a guy. oh yeah congrats to thyartshallshant for getting the title of "head of masturbation" 010208 ... the spork the wisdom utensil 010208 ... sabbie what defines me? how does one claim to be someone? is it my name? but then the one i was given or the ones that i choose? is it my age? my apperance? my job status? my feelings about myself? but they change daily, sometimes hourly. is it my relationship status? my religion? (thats me in the corner...) or where i'm at? .:ahems:. the lovely sabbie is a lady of lesure, a kept woman. she no job (atm) but a lovely boy who doesnt mind. she is 23 and seemingly the only blatherist in her hemisphere... this is me in cloudy, blissfully cold melbourne, aus. (there you go bobbie.) 010208 ... kx21 I_am_NOTHING, a Partner of EVERYTHING... 010208 ... Meara I Am Who Am. (God said that, not me.) 010327 ... lost I am nothing. I am no one. I live nowhere. All of that is true but they say I am Harlan, that I'm 16, and that I live in California I still dont beleive them though. 010327 ... Dafremen Attention NOONE known also as Harlan: This is the Existence police. It has come to our attention that you do not appreciate your existence and are therefore in violation of Apparent Reality Code 65435-J Section II Your claim to existence has hereby been suspended as of 2:30 tomorrow evening Galaxial Mean Time. You will be expected to report back to the nothingness from whence you came prior to that time. You will not be eligible for existence privileges for a period not less than one lifetime and not more than an eternity. If you feel that you have been unfairly charged, you may file a complaint with the Universe, be aware however that due to a backlog your complaint may take as long as TWO eternities to be processed, which must take place before a hearing date can be set. This is your one and only opportunity to go peacefully. Should you choose not to cooperate, your existence will be taken from you by force. Thank You, A Big SOMEBODY also known as Crelm Farnstark Chief of Existence Task Force Operations Message delivered c/o Dafremen 010327 ... dB You are wondering, who am I? Noboby. Where am I going? Nowhere. Such is existance as far you you know the meaning of the word. 010327 ... unhingedd wouldn't you like to know? i don't know enough about myself to share but that i love images and making them with words and music. i love music. sometimes...well most of the time...i hate my life. but i like to wallow in it. when people like the albino try to help me it just makes me push them farther away. what i really want is a person that will let me help them. that would make me happy. but i'm still waiting for that. quite impatiently i might add. i'm 19 i live in northeast ohio and i have my entire life. i could never live somewhere where it doesn't get as cold outside as it does inside. 010327 ... Aimee I'm 17. I've just been rejected from the college I've dreamt of since I was 6, and am facing the reality of having to leave my safe little haven for the first time in my life and it scares the hell out of me. So now I'm going to Des Moines. I don't know anyone, the thought of sharing a room with someone frightens me too, because I've never shared a room with anyone before seeing as how I'm the youngest and the only girl in my family. Being the youngest hasn't helped me much either because i've never had to deal with financial things in my life and now I'm facing the expenses of college with complete terror in my heart. Oh well.... 010327 ... jete don't worry aimee, i'm 20 go to kent state, at first leaving home is scary, but just find yourself some good friends to spend time with, and enjoy the experience. It's the only time in your life that you will get one like it. 010328 ... jete and if anybody reads this, check me out, i would love feedback 010328 ... unhinged you go to kent? i go to youngstown...i'm headed to kent in a few weeks to see my friends' band play at the robin hood. that's a cool bar. 010328 ... lost its not that i hate myself I just dislike myself alot.I try to change it never seems to work though. OELL!!! 010329 ... dB Who are you? WHO Are YOU?!. When you get asked this question, why do you prattle your age, sex and location like it's written on a fucking dog tag? The question is; WHO are you? People think that little details make up who they are. So if somebody asks you, ANY OF YOU, who you are, you make sure you say exactly what you feel, and we can stop this bullshit. 010329 ... firehunden i wish i knew enough about myself to know for sure.... the people around me are not the communicative type.... i have only thier reaction to me as a foundation of who i am.... that and what i think about myself.... but does that matter? are we not what others see? are we truely ourselves? or do we simply try to be what we want other people to think we are? i have no idea who i am....i only can tell you what i think i am. 010329 ... unhinged ok dB sometimes you piss me off buddy. most of the time i bite my tongue. i'm just going to talk this time. a little one-on-one time with our resident friend and all-around cheerful guy dB. maybe the reason we prattle of seemingly meaningless facts like age, sex, and location is not because we are conditioned to by this stupid internet protocol but the simple fact that maybe those facts have something to do with our identity. i think maybe the fact that i'm 19, female, and live in youngstown has a lot to do with who i am. and maybe you get this bullshit because not all of us are so self-assured. did you ever sit down and really think about who you are and become scared by the answer? we all cover up things we don't want to see. and some people actually lead relatively pain-free, simple, happy existences and their identity really means nothing more than their age sex location and maybe their family. sometimes i just get the feeling that you are attacking people dB and i don't like it. i'll get over it in the morning. 010329 ... frozen i'm suburbia, a reflection of a reflection. i'm anticipation, faced with a closed door and afraid to open it in case there's nothing more than what i'm leaving behind. i'm watching because it's so much easier. 010329 ... tit i dont think db was attacking anyone. i agree w/ everything he said and i am sorry that you took it personally. i think it was more a comment on life and existance and reality than a slam. it was a philosophical question. what is real? is anything real? or are we merely products of perception. and of who's perception and how is our indivdual perception formed? 010329 ... mmm i am me and no one else. 010402 ... carden i am the one who doesn't speak i am 19 i am an iowan i am the one and only me i am a friend of friends i am caring and compassionate i am lost in a sea of people 010402 ... dB Ok, Unhinged, fine. I attack people. Believe that if you will. Maybe I was trying to open someones eyes. Maybe not. Maybe it's time to stop trying. I fought the fight for free speech, for truth, dignity. I fought in the hopes that maybe I could make this place better. Maybe get some people out of their boxes, or at least take a look outside. The fact of the matter is that people are what they are and will never change no matter how much people like me try. And I'm sorry if I offend people. I'm sorry if I get nasty, but that's the way that frustrated people act. I'm so sick of trying that it doesn't even seem worth it any more. Maybe it's time to swallow my pride and join the human race. 010402 ... nocturnal oh please don't do that dB. keep doin what you're doin, fuck those who can't deal. whatever you do, never give up, never lower yourself to be a willing member of the human race. 010402 ... dB Maybe you are right. But I've only achieved some small victories in a war bigger than you can imagine that still goes on. For every small victory, there are 10 huge losses. Why should I continue to fight for people who hate me as much as I hate them? When every time I win one, I get scorned by those who benefit from it? It's a large scale political battle that I have been fighting for years now. I've retiired from my job, maybe I should retire from this as well. Or just keep on going. Geting up every morning and just going. Kepp on doing it. Becasue if any of you know anything about me at all, you should know that I can't do anything else. 010403 ... dB You asked who I am, have I ever looked inside myself to see what I truly am. The answer is; yes I have. I'm the guy who is going to keep sticking up for you people against all better judgement, because I am too damn stubborn to give up. Even if I'm losing. It's who I am. He who fights. 010403 ... nocturnal I am so relieved that that's your conclusion. It is only he who counts his losses rather than his victories, however small they may be, who truly loses in the end. As long as you keep pushing for what you believe, you remain true to yourself. Otherwise, what the hell are you doing? 010403 ... monadh 'I have taken on a host of shapes before acquiring my final form, the memory of them is clear to me. I have been a narrow, gilded spear, I believe in what is clear, I have been raindrop in the air, I have been the furthest star, I have been word among letters, I have been book in the beginning I have been light of the lamp. For a year and a half I was a bridge spanning three score creeks. I have been path, I have been eagle, I have been fisherman's boat on the sea, I have been food at the feasting, I have been drop of the shower, I have been a sword gripped in the hands, I have been shield in the battle, I have been string of a harp, in this way for nine years. In the water, in the foam, I have been sponge in the fire, I have been tree in the unchartered wood.' From the work by the Welsh bard Taliesin entitled 'Cad Goddeu', or 'Battle of the Shrubs'. Translationtaken from Jean Markale's 'The Celts'. Who am I? hmm .. hard to say .. I am the one I am the many I am so many things aside from that I am just a silly gal from Canada who's going to turn 21 this year..live out in the middle of nowhere on an old orchard in the mountains, and I love it. A hermit in sanctuary. Seeking for answers in riddles. In awe of the universe...and all that we are. I exist. 010403 ... _ I Don't 010404 ... Dafremen Heheh This is all so amusing Db. I've been accused of the same thing, attacking people, or judging them. Let's face it though, I'm no more responsible for your reaction to my words than you are for my reaction to yours. It seems to me that when these wannabe critics spout off, what they're really doing is no different than what so many of these FORLORN teenagers and young adults do all the time...WHINE and cry and complain about their lot in life. Ohhh woe is me, Db is so mean. He's just like everyone else, he doesn't understand me. Nobody understands me and life is ooooo unfair. I'm 19 I'm from Bumfuck nowhere and I like roaring fires, long walks on the beach and jello pudding snacks. Ignore them, they'll outgrow their angst one day, and when they do, let's just hope they get stuck with kids that are as pathetically self-absorbed and unwilling to face the harsh realities of life as THEY were when THEY were young. 010404 ... Dafremen Hey unhinged, do you have a birthday in October by any chance? 010404 ... Dafremen Hey unhinged, do you have a birthday in October by any chance? 010404 ... the spork ahh, the unequaled brilliance. You seem to forget, Dafremen, that this is the generation of children raised by the baby-boomers ( a generation that defined self-absorption ) In spite of the "nice" homes many of them may come from, their only parent was a TV set. They may not have experienced the real world, but they've had to bear witness to it through the great glassy eye of their electronic "mother" these are the cries of untended children. nearly old enough to fend for themselves but all too aware of what awaits them when they leave the nest i don't totally disagree with you, but i don't endorse what you have to say here. 010404 ... dB So you think the whole 'TV mother' issue is an excuse? Come on! Walk in the light here! I am from that generation (I'm 20). I grew up seeing all the things that the children of the baby boomers saw, experienceing the same shit. Rather than sitting there whining and worrying about the big wide world out there, do you not think that the prudent course of action would be to get out there en' masse and change things! Come on! Wake up! Generation X? They sit there and fear what they can change. They have their little 'alternative' scene thinking that it was something they created, something that is theirs and they can use it to hide. In actual fact it was created for them. It is a big merchandising machine that you fell for. You wallow do the Def Tones, and get angry with Limp Bizcuit, but you don't actually do anything other than you were told to do. TV generation? Lost abandoned youth or whatever. You think it's an excuse, but that's all it is; an excuse. You can't hide from the fact that it is a world you created for yourselves. You didn't bother to try and change anything, you left that for people like me to do for you! And fuck, did I try. But no more. It's not worth it. Time for you to get off your couch, put the kleenex tissues away. Do something, anything, but don't keepon going the way you are. Soon enough, there will be no one left to fight for you. You'll have to do it yourself. 010404 ... the spork Wait a second. Just because i offered a defense for them, don't lump me in with them. I take whatever action i can when i can and where i can, but i can also see why some people let themselves fall into the hole that all of these people think they're in. When a sick evil ranting fuck like me becomes the voice of reason, something must really be wrong. my only point was that another venomous and/or sanctimonious tirade isn't going to change or improve anything. this whole thing has turned into a simple and sad exercise in "You're angst is less valid than mine because no one ever beat you with a hot-wheel track" People react to things within the context of their own experiences. take the time to recognize that and cut these kids some slack, a lot of theam are still kids, after all. I won't deny your right to speak your piece, but goddamn, does everyone else need permission from you and dafremen to say that something bothers them, to say that something made them unhappy today. Heaven fucking forbid you two paragons of suffering might actually have some contructive advice. No, wait, i forgot, it's more fun to shout "my pain is worse." ..one-upsmanship... Remember, it's not just what you say, but how you say it. "I may disagree with the things you say, sir, but i will defend to the death your right to say it." say what you will, this is the only truth i know. 010404 ... dB hey Spork (formerly ?). You do have a valid point. I won't deny anyone the right to say what they will. I actually spent alot of time getting the youth a voice in the media (film, TV and radio) so that they can actually have a chance at being heard. Free speech is a thing that I hold very dear to me. I'm sure you can understand why I am so angry, and I admit, I did over-react. My proposal was to simply meet the 'baby boomers' on their own ground, not any radical action. My philosophy is "educate, then deligate". The theory is if enough of us actually prove ourselves to be worthy business adversarys and politicians, then maybe they will see us as equals and not just a target market. *sigh*. I dunno. In theory it works, in practice... well, I've never really had any backup so I don't know. What do you reckon though? 010404 ... Dafremen I don't think ANYONE is really arguing the validity of anyone's angst. It's ALL invalid...mine his..hers or anyone else's for that matter. It's a pointelss exercise in self pity that serves no purpose whatsoever. When I relate my experiences I'm certainly not relating them in order to engage in some sort of "abuse-a-thon" or "angst-off" for GOD sake no. It's just so easy to see right through all of the moaning and whining and realize that it's not at all justified and/or helpful. What does complaining about your lot in life do to improve it? Getting it off of your chest? Well hell there's a neverending tirade if I ever heard one. If life has taught me anything it's that self pity and angst are BOTH worthless negative expressions that do NOTHing to make ANYONE'S situation ANY better. The one thing that has always been most helpful to me when I was tempted to wallow in self pity, was to look at times I've had that have been worse, or situations that OTHERS are in that are worse. This then is the ONLY purpose behind my relating my own personal experiences. It's unfortunate that so many people are used to relating such experiences in moments of self indulgent whining that they can't FATHOM someone relating such experiences for any other reason. Well I'll stand as a perfect example, and if those who read of my experiences would stop ENGAGING in self pity and would stop trying to DEFEND the blatantly INCORRECT notion that their life is horrible and use such experiences to put their own into the correct context. Perhaps, just perhaps they would start to see the true VALUE and beauty of their life, instead of seeing it as worthless. As for me...I think life is just DANDY...thank you...hot wheels tracks aside...I know kids that were abused with battery acid and shocked with lamp cord...which helped me to realize that hot wheels tracks...aren't so bad...not bad at all... - - P.S. So I've said it once...I've said it twice..and I'll say it again...stop yer sniveling and get on with living. 010404 ... katie a confused girl 010410 ... unhinged i was born october 11th, five weeks early. i was impatient and snippy even as a fetus. 010417 ... Dafremen Heheh I knew it. YOU are an observer of human nature. You are the type of person that feels FAIR is the most important thing. I imagine that you have absolutely NO problem putting yourself in the shoes of others and empathizing with their situations. I'm not certain, but I can just see you imagining what other people are thinking, and you're usually right. You can "feel" whether someone is lying to you or telling the truth, and you DESPISE being lied to. Or I could be 100% wrong..who knows? I was born on October 14th. Peace, Daffy - - 010418 ... Dafremen I am, as one of my critics so succinctly put it, "one-dimensionally trite". What can I say? Guilty as charged! 8 ) Daffy - - 010418 ... florescent light I was born October 19th. Your description describes me better than I could have described myself. 010418 ... unhinged hahahahaha very very accurate my dear dafremen no wonder this place is always so touchy. there are too many libras around here. 010418 ... birdmad refer to grendel above some months ago not much has changed a few new sharp points and rough edges WingedSerpent, grendel, birdmad ( i am my own neurotic, psychotic trinity, nor particularly holy for that matter) Boo! 010418 ... Dafremen www.gnarf.net/users/dafremen/Zodiac/ 010418 ... dB Unhinged, Daffy, you are right. Maybe I should lighten up some? Whaddya think? 010418 ... Dafremen No way man. We already have enough of these sunshine-snorting carebears-hugging nitwits blathering all over the place. Stay JUST the way you are. It suits you just fine. : ) Daffy 010418 ... dB Thanks Daffy. Right, NO LET'S KICK SOME WHINGING KIDS ASS. I'm kidding, dammit. 010418 ... lil red girlie Born Oct 25th at 11:49 pm little red haired punkin too many stuffed animals dreamer dancer clarinet player loves to cook, loves to eat loves to laugh, loves to love wiener dogs and a space suit grandpa london 3 times but never paris overworked and underpants anything banana or chocolate or both long black skirt and lobster bisque weddings and monet periwinkle polka dot fantasy world these are a few of my favorite things 010419 ... johnny west The most cynical, angry person I know. But I keep it to myself. Most people think I'm just some nice, easy-going guy. They don't see the look on my face that says: "I'd like to kill you. Please piss me off now so I can kill you." And, of course, they never piss me off when I'd like them to. Only when I'm feeling pretty good. I'm not firm enough with people. It seems like I have to be angry in order to stop thinking about the feelings of whoever it is I'm supposed to be confronting. It's hard for me to put myself first. Maybe the solution is to be pissed off all the time. But I already am, on some detached level. FUCK...ME!!! For being such a spineless piece of shit. And fuck THEM for making me that way. And fuck me again for being strong enough to be myself SOMETIMES, but not when it matters most. FUCK. 010419 ... db Johnny, chill. Here, have a Stinelager. 010419 ... johnny west Normally, I can never drink a lot of beer because I don't care for the taste. But... :::takes a swig::: That's pretty good. That's not bad at all. I feel better already! :::takes another swig::: 010420 ... Im JAM 010421 ... WAYNETTA oh god Waynetta why do I always have to do it, it's so unfare, your not my parents, -Cor look at that bird, -cor that looks like a partrigde, -no not the one in the tree, -the one with the nice arse. -Oh -hi, how do you do my names Alan. quick run its one of those transient things, chuck a stone at it. 010421 ... elisabeth who are you, who am i, who is anyone? 010422 ... Miner Young in years Yet old in mind An intellectual idiot An English madman Creative and imaginative Compassionate and caring While cruel and cold Observant While blind to details All of the above and so much more, for what I am, who I am, what does it matter, none of the above tells you anything, for the person I am, is the person you see me as, to some I’m a great friend, to others hate filled and vengeful. I am whatever you make of me. 010425 ... dB Your words do tell me alot about you. Far more than a/s/l. They tell me you are a literate, open minded, intelligent, sensitive human being. Truth & Words. It's all we've got. 010425 ... Dafremen Well..AND flattery...Truth Words & Flattery. - - 010427 ... ignoramus thought i would think of something clever. but, it doesn't really need to be. and i don't have the energy. nor the aptitude. this is a great place to people watch - show me all your sides. 010427 ... unhinged i don't show just the sides baby....i show you the W-H-O-L-E thing... 010427 ... Jen Jen A dreamer... I am sam... I am. Spam I am not. Oh I forgot. What's the plot for this spot? Not! Trying to ryhme but I whine...I wish I was divine.. maybe in time on somebody's mind..I AM WOMAN HEAR ME ROAR AND A BLAH BLAH BLAH....etc....and more blah blah blah. Blah! I like that word, it's such a wonderfully descriptive word. Bah! Naw I'm just a girl who likes to write what is now known as BLATHER. P.S. You realize that we are all a bunch of blathering idiots... 010430 ... soy "i am = soy" 010509 ... recovering addict i've been finding myself looking at the road on the left lately. i've been reminding myself of the past lately and it's hindering my recovery. he found his page here and he thought that it was harsh. he felt bad for hurting me. i find my words get me in trouble. we had something once but we won't ever get it back. i have a lot to look at. a lot to change. a lot to evaluate. i feel bad that he came along two weeks too soon. 010517 ... yummychuckle oh crap I think I might be the youngest blatherer, and I'm most likely down there is the dumbest. Of course there are some idiots on this website that are predjudice and all that crap, and I'm not one of them... anyway I am feeling very inferior about now, after reading a whole fuckload of well thought out (and possibly not well thought out, and typed spur of the moment, yet the thought is incredibly intellegent and meaningful which makes it even worse...) Alright, so as for who I am. ermmm... bulimic-- (trying to stop, i know its dumb, I'm working on it and I a angry at myself for starting the whole thing) self mutilating-- yeah kinda goes with the bulimia thing. confused--who isn't? Libra--born october 19, 1986 which makes me 14 :) (if anyone younger than me reads this, do tell, cus i think i AM the youngest...) fan of punk-- yeah. and stuff. I don't like blink 182. I do like nirvana. ok, actually I'm questioning why i like nirvana now. I mean I enjoy learning crap about kurt cobain cus he was such an interesting mess, and I prefer reading about people and psychology. and i dont know. and I used to have this really long chain of labels for myself, but its lost now. It was good, too. Like a security blanket or teddy bear or something. It kept away people that didn't want to be involved in my messy life. which isn't as messy as everyone makes it out to be. OK WAIT....I know one guy was talking about his dad taking stuff away. hes not younger than me but he is a teen...what was his name? dammit... so continuing. 14/female/hawaii (damn this rock.) I want icq cus i wanna talk to silentbob (who probly doesn't want to talk to me....) but my aol_instant_messenger name is yummychuckle or capturedpawn. im me sometime, i'll be nice. my favorite movies: Office space, Mall rats, dark city (ok it wasnt that good, but i liked the concept), and as for shows...the simpsons, futurama, malcolm in the middle, sifl and olly (canceled and was on mtv...u know, the sock puppets. dig chesters crazy voice). yeah. someone email me at least. please? yummychuckle@hotmail.com 010603 ... nemo i dont like who i am, why should i tell you? 010605 ... dB Nemo, then don't. But if you don't like yourself, and you have said it, then you have already given much away. *Much Peace* 010605 ... Dafremen I emailed yummychuckle and she emailed back. What a bubbly little thing she is!! Nothing more adorable than a classically talkative young Libra person. Heheheh you go girl! P.S. I'm a very OLD 32. 010605 ... Sol so did, i it wasnt very long or interesting tho' I havent got a reply yet, 010605 ... yummychuckle GASP!!!!!! Dafremen, you told me!!! you are old!! I KNEW IT!!!!!!HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAH MWAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA and sol, i am gonna email u back sometime soon, when i'm done blathering. same with other person that wrote me and for some reason i cant remember the name... me? bubbly? thats so silly!!! 010605 ... narpf edith i am 753 trillion years old 010705 ... User24 I'm 18 from Uk, a web designer and a geeky type thing. Ja. 010705 ... CATS the one who set up you the bomb 010705 ... confabulation familiar talk. also a plausable but imagined memory. 010711 ... Aimee I am me. I am finally comfortable with being me. I am actually excited to be me. I am almost 18, and I'm not scared of being alone I am Aimee and I love it. 010712 ... Dafremen And that, my dear...is why we love you. 010712 ... kx21 we_are_the_universe... 010713 ... black-dyed gel product i am a monomaniacal musician. A singer in particular. I'm 18, a college boy, and enjoy drinking, smoking, and the occasional bag of weed. Long Island is where the heart is... and its dangling between your legs. I like rice. 010713 ... Casey Hopeless writer, hopeless life liver, hopeless lover, hopeless person, hopeless friend, only talked to out of pitty 010713 ... Persona I'm 17 I'm a Nova Scotian I have freckles and blonde hair, and a high hairline I hide. My eyes are big and brown and slant upward a little I have a wide smile and nice teeth despite my nicotine habit and my inability to remember to floss them. I look older than I am despite my roundish face. I have a big head. I am strong physically and mentally despite the way life and events have been shitting on me. I'm not as happy as I used to be with my body (since I've been working at KFC I've gained 15 lbs, luckily I quit: despite terrible grease withdrawal symptoms). I like my boobs. I like to fight despite my guilt of hurting someone after I calm down. I have problems which make me pissed when I cry about them because I despise my own weakness, despite the fact I can be numb enough to scare myself. When I'm really upset and freaking out, I think mostly about how I'd look to someone else, and how my life would make a pretty good movie. Maybe I'm vain, maybe I'm detached. I would rather worry about others' problems than my own, and I like to offer comfort. I am a hopeless slob. I try, oh how I try... but neatness and organization are elusive talents. I want to be an artist, though I consider that title to be impossible to acheive because acheiving that title means I've stopped learning. I dream so vividly. I forget stupid things I should remember. I hear many words and voices when I'm quiet and alone (minus the ones telling me to burn down my friends and family). I turned out pretty good all in all, but my brother....poor Jeffy, he fucked up. I'd like to talk to you. 010714 ... lost_2 september 1st...born under the sign of an annoying need for perfection and order. The bachelor sign..do you know why? because everything i see i analyse to death. I pick apart evryone who gets close to me so that i can push them away. I dont understand myself and my incresing tendencies to act like a schitzophrenic. but i am who i am 010715 ... the_one he walked into the room and in the back of my mind i knew that i would always be one step away from really knowing him. he smiles so easily and i wonder if he means it..I want to ask but i won't. then it blinks in the back of my mind. a snobby response to the lack of his personal depth. "Who ARE you?" 010715 ... tonya i_am_god's_cat 010716 ... The Truth I wasn't always religious. I first pondered all other options. I was raised by my loving family to be polite, well mannered, and educated. I was poor enough to be humble, I was fat and weak enough to be teased in junior highschool, I was fortunate enough to have learned at a young age what it is like to be hurt... A LOT. I was blessed with a mellow, laid back disposition, so I didn't let it bother me too much. When I was in high school I started working out and I joined the wrestling team. I wanted to be a badass. I was sick of getting picked on my entire life, and I was going to take no more. I lost a lot of weight, gained a lot of muscle, and developed a very aggressive attitude. I had a violent phase for about a year where if ANYONE even looked at me funny, I would get in their face. I got in a few fights. The last fight I got into was bad, I seriously hurt the other guy, I didn't even know him. It was then that I realized how immature I was being, what a waste of time and life violence is. I didn't solve anything. I greedily sought after a reputation of being untouchable so I could avoid conflict and humiliation. But I found myself instead, seeking conflict and in the end, I was embarassed of what I'd become. This was not the way I was raised. I decided to stand against violence from then on. I started college and from the ages of 18 to 21 I actually witnessed myself maturing. My first purpose on earth was to have fun. I needed to enjoy life. I was good at this. It seemed right to me. This also gave me the exercise I needed for a strong body and mind. Whatever I found to be fun, I did it profusely and loved doing it. Which led to a wider range of social implications beyond just personal fun... My second purpose was to be cool. I needed to make the party fun. I needed to be the center. I was good at this, but I attracted too many of the wrong kind of people, so it did not seem right anymore. I decided that it was selfish, and therefore pointless. I still remembered my days as a geeky fat-ass, and valued those friendships more than the large quantity of superficial aquaintences that I collected as a popular social coordinator. I picked the friends that were truly friends, the ones I respected, and withdrew from the larger social circles that I once habituated. I learned that I had a gift of listening to people. People enjoyed talking to me and I enjoyed sharing life's experiences, not just waiting for my next turn to speak. I found that I could lift people up with my words alone. Encouragement caused many friends to blossom and say "Thanks, man." These people are still my friends today. I experimented with drugs and alcohol at about the same time that I craved a knowledge and understanding for everything in the universe. Those formed a symbiotic relationship of self discovery. "Destructive self discovery" is what I found scribbled on a torn piece of paper next to the heap of messiness that was myself after a long weekend of partying. I decided to start writing poetry when I was high, and alone. (which as you guessed, means I did more than experimentation, and I crossed that line of abuse.) I posted many of those at a_glimps_of_the_inside . These poems are not from me, they just came to my mind and I wrote them down. I also started questioning existence, God, time, reality, ghosts, souls, people, WHy, why, why, why and how, and why. I wondered if any religion could have an answer. I doubted that organized religion could ever be true, because of corruption and the general greed of humankind. I started to read the bible. To proove my suspicion that it was a hoax. I had read it as a kid, but never understood it. I was amazed that the thing actually made sense. I honestly didn't think that it would! I found myself leaving the parties early to go home and read the bible in my drunkenstoned buzzedness stage. I was so relaxed that when I would pray before falling asleep, that I would sob and cry sometimes. It was moving. I had called myself a christian all my life, never even knowing what it means, or why it mattered. I heard the people, and read the bumper stickers that said "Jesus died for your sins" etc. etc. but I never gave them a second thought. I discovered that the bible was too perfect to be authored by any human. There is no other way to articulate that. I still distrusted the entire bible, thinking that some of it must be altered over the thousands of years, (later, my research would proove me wrong.) And I forged many of my own theories about religion and God. some of those I kept, others I discarded. But I knew one thing. If the whole God thing was true, then I understood why He couldn't just place a permanent sign, or tell us with words, or make a moon with a glowing cross on it or something big, and unmistakably easy to identify as "coming from God". I struggled with God's methods for a while. I even tried to pretend God didn't exist for a weekend. Seriously, that's all I lasted for before I came crawling back, he forgave me! I felt worthless and alone that weekend, I almost died, I broke my toe, got a concussion, dehydrated myself on mushrooms, that weekend sucked. Later I realized that "who am I to question the Universe or Creation?" Can I do a better job? No, I can't create a universe. I'll let God do his part, and from then on I decided to try to do my part. Success and fruition followed, along with peace of mind. I took with me the love of friends that I had who were mostly athiests, so I wouldn't become one of those judgemental, holier-than-thou type of christians. I still greatly respected them and thier beliefs. I began to love discussing theological possibilities at parties. With my shiny new vocabulary and freshly painted zeal, I was Pure PASSION. I always found someone to argue against God. One party comes to mind when we were all on ecstacy. This gorgeous girl and I got into a heated debate about karma. I told her that all religions believed in karma, she said that Jesus never said anything about karma, I said yes, she said "no, then what did he say?" I tried to tell her that's what the whole bible was basically about, but she kept insisting I was wrong. I paused for a minute to think, besides, she was screaming and I wanted to go out and smoke my tasty cigarettes, I said, "Do unto others what you would have others do unto you." She melted. I smoked. I still love discussing it, especially here because I've always wanted to write stuff down, but never found the excuse. I met my soul mate. Fell in love. I got married. And here I am. Ok...I've written way too much tonight. Sorry. 010810 ... florescent light just a random person I can be anybody it kind of depends on who you are who you are determains who everyone else is 010811 ... florescent light I'm someone who nobody sees I'm someone desperately crawling on my stinging hands and knees slamming the door behind me and hopelessly locking it caging myself away from the artificiality of everything 010811 ... Dafremen I'm sort like her except I've come to terms with the ambiguos nature of my existence. Oh and I'm a do0d. 010811 ... Dafremen I'm sort like her except I've come to terms with the ambiguous nature of my existence. Oh and I'm a do0d. 010811 ... Dafremen Hurrah! 010811 ... grrgurl i am me brenda leigh soon to not be, just 40 hey it rhymes if you read it right :) 010812 ... User24 see: portrait_of_a_goddess_aka_personals_ads 010817 ... celery someone who never receives mail from out of town, even when it is sent to me, it is returned to the sender as "undeliverable". I guess someone at the post office doesn't like me. 010822 ... Mushroomman i don't feel i have any obligation to tell you 010822 ... monadh we_are 010910 ... seeking i think at times believe that i am one of they who want to bring it all out of this spiral 010910 ... kx21 A product or byproduct in / of / from an amazing Hole... 010910 ... Norm Fucked if I know. 010915 ... psychobabe bah 011107 ... Casey I am Casey, still feeling new to the world of blather, and the world in general. I have never been kissed or been on a date, but it no longers bothers me as much, because I have people who like me that are my friends, and they will cuddle with me whenever I or they need it. 011107 ... Dafremen See also: AMAZING_WHOLE 011108 ... Aaron i'm 20.. 04/05/1981, i'm from aberdeen maryland, i'm single at the moment.. have been for almost a year(it's 11-10-2001 right now) i write, listen to music, go to raves, i'm drug free... have been for about 3 months. i love sex. i love women. i'm an internet junkie. i collect knives and swords. i'm moving to california in about a year if i save up enuf money by then. i have almost all the symptoms of schitzophrenia and i take meds for it... which sucks.. but what can you do... to many drugs and not enuf reality. go figure. 011110 ... CheapVodka I'm 17 and a girlie. I have a boyfriend named sEth (yes he spells it like that) and i'm crazy in love with him. He blathers sometimes. I smoke Camel Wides and I live in New Orleans, Louisiana. I turned 17 not all that long ago.. September 7. I like girls and I like guys. But I like girls way better. I have lots of pets because I worked in a pet shop for like..forever. I smile too much, especially when I'm sad. I have a birdie on my shoulder right now named Spikebirdie. I had a car, a Chevy Corsica but it is dead now (RIP). I had a pipe too but some moron broke it being a clumsy ass. I smoke alot of pot and sometimes dabble in random other drugs. I dislike myself sometimes but hey, who doesn't. I've come to the realization that we are all the same in the end. I'm short and itty bitty, I even sound itty bitty. I wear giant pants and small shirts. I cut my legs with razor blades. I write lots of poetry and sometimes I write none. I smell like fruit for some reason, I think it's my shampoo. I'm obsessive about brushing my teeth and washing my hands. I wash my sheets at least 3 times a week. I hate dirty things. But sometimes I think really dirty things. I like beastiality and blood. I have a fetish for feet. I'm obsessed (infatuated) with Angelina Jolie and Deftones. I live a life that everyone thinks is awful...but I don't. I have spent countless years in the psych ward and I take meds. I sell pot and work sad jobs to keep myself supported. If you want to call my cell and leave me a voice mail go to my_phone_number and look for it. I love drummers and guys with glasses but sEth doesn't have glasses and still is perfect so I guess they're not necessary. I dislike tall people but will tolerate them if they're good enough. Me being 5'3" makes it a bit difficult to converse with anyone over 5'11". My bestest friend is leaving tonight to go to Michigan...his name is Kevin but we call him BGK (Big Giant Kevin). He's my only friend exceeding 5'11" (He's 6'5"). I'll miss him. I like where I live. I'm a hobo: Hoboism or Hobo_style or I_have_no_home. I listen to Punk and Ska and occasionally grunge. I like to jump around and do silly things. I fear I have too much to say about myself and no one has read half of it...so umm...you should read it.. Read It All! Aim: MiloGoToCollege Email: CheapVodka@zombieworld.com or MiloGoToCollege@aol.com MSN: Milo_Goes_To_college@hotmail.com so yeah...fucking email me or IM me...either way it doesn't matter 011110 ... niki i'm niki i'm 18 as of may 11 i louisianian...baton rouge to be exact i am a dancer and love it more than anything i am a music lover...all music...i love when people turn me on to new music that i never even knew exsisted i am a theatre major...my life long dream was to dance with janet jackson or be on saturday night live...now it's just be on snl i am so immature in the love game...but i guess it's just not my time i am not a smoker...i had to watch my grandmother die of lung cancer and that really turns you off of smoking anymore? just ask and i'll tell ya anything 011110 ... nocturnal do you go to LSU? 011110 ... CheapVodka Nocturnal...where do you go to skool at? 011110 ... sEth Im 17...Im a guy...I live in California now, but shortly Ill be with Tiff'ny in Louisiana living as a hobo...I like some punk/ska/rap/hip hop, but am mostly into rock...Such as Dredg, Incubus, Tool, Deftones, (hEd), and other bands that not many people know of like Floater and Thumb...I smoke cigarettes: Camel Turkish Gold...I used to smoke pot, but stopped...But when I get to Louisiana, Ill be a pot head with my girlfriend...I cut myself on my arms, legs, stomach, chest, and what not...Ive cut "Tiff'ny" into my skin 4 times, so I guess you could say Im obsessed with her...I love her more than anything...I play drums, but am not good enough to be called a drummer...I write poetry, and short stories some times...I paint, and take photos of whatever the fuck I like and feel like taking pictures of...I also surf...I was in a mental hospital for a few days...haha, should have been there longer though...My family sucks ass, I hate them...I have disorders...And heres my website: http://www.angelfire.com/wy/experience 011110 ... nocturnal UT Austin!!! HOOK 'EM! 011110 ... CheapVodka did you ever go to LSU nocturnal? 011110 ... nocturnal hell no. no offense to either of y'all fellow louisiana kids, but new_orleans is the only place worth being in that "wonderful" state. if I went to tulane, I'd literally be almost walking distance from my parents' house and closer to home than I was at high school. and UNO? don't even ask. I went to franklin, so I'd be going to school across a field from there. plus, I wanted a big school, so UT is perfect. I still make it home for mardi gras and jazz fest, though. that's a necessity. 011110 ... CheapVodka agreed... you can't miss Mardi_Gras OR Jazz_Fest...it would just be wrong 011110 ... Becky Becky. 17. September 24, 1984. Massachusetts. Loved. 011111 ... piercedjenny i am jen. i am pierced and tattooed. i am constantly redefining who i am and where i want to be. i am an aunt, a sister, a child, a singer, a poet, an employer and an employee. i am addicted to piercings (although I only currently have 14 - it was as high as 24) and tattoos (more to design than have, i only have 3) and i like to drink. i don't do drugs anymore, i am a raver, a punk, a freak and so many other labels that i don't even care. i was a mom, but now i'm not and that too is ok with me. i was engaged but thats over, and now i'm single and that's even better with me. when i meet the right person i'll know it. i live in southern ontario canada, but my mind resides somewhere else. one day we will meet and get things together. 011111 ... niki yes i go to LSU...unfortunately 011111 ... vampers "Van Gogh’s was done with brilliant yellows, Picasso’s with cubes of blues, so it is only reasonable that I should create my self portrait with my media: the binary code of technology. Simple, yet elegant, the black text against the white background of the computer screen shows the contrast that exists in me. On the outside I appear to others as petite with long, thick dark brown hair. Small oval glasses frame my hazel eyes. My steps are silent in my size four sneakers. A simple glance at my hands shows my disgusting habit of nail biting. A pale complexion tells the world I hide from the sun. I am a self-declared computer nerd, an online freak. I enjoy sitting for hours in front of my seventeen-inch monitor writing code in the language of HTML. In the background one can hear my eclectic collections of mp3s. My desktop shows my love for fantasy art with a digital drawing of a sea dragon cradling a naked woman in the water, surrounded by fantastical lands. An art enthusiast and lover of ballet, a poster of Edgar Degas’s ballerinas hangs above my bed. Since the age of six, I have dreamed of becoming a ballerina: of becoming the great Sugar Plum Faery. I long to be the beautiful, thin, graceful dancer that little girls adore and aspire to be. Dancing has been my passion, and remains to this day, one of the few things that make me completely happy. On the inside however, in the deep chasms of my mind, lies the dreams: the inner me. I am a dreamer. I dream daily of far off kingdoms with kings and queens. I long to be royalty ruling a kingdom from my own castle on the Irish coast. I express my dream through my collection of medieval weapons: a gold handled dagger that represents beauty and power, and a doubled-headed morning star representing strength and courage. I travel to my far off places whenever the chance arises. Unfortunately it is these dreams that keep me going that bring me down. Reality would never allow me to view the magic of Merlin or Arthur pulling the sword from the stone. Instead, the reality has become the figure of a petite girl sitting in front of a computer monitor, dreaming. Farther down, deeper into the abyss known only to myself, lie my fears, my sadness. A smile on the outside hides the pain on the inside. Pain that I cannot explain, tears I cannot cry, words I cannot voice. My mind can only be compared to today’s most thrilling roller coaster: climbing slowly up the track, only to plummet down abruptly at increasing speeds. When the day is over, and the park has closed, the ride is in constant need of repairs, just as I am in constant need of repairs. I endure the aches of clinical depression, social anxiety, low self-esteem, and perfection. Every morning and night I am belittled by own mind as I swallow a pill. My happiness is artificial." -from my selfpotrait for writing and research, thats who i am 011116 ... ever dumbening Nuts & Bolts: bolts first: -11/24/69 (only eight shopping days left, so get on it) -born in st louis, have lived in: tuebingen germany (twice),oakland, l.a., new_orleans, beijing, and berkeley (currently) -youngest of four from parents still married after 42 years -ucla undergrad--hated the town and the people, enjoyed most of my classes once i got out of engineering and into biological anthropology now the nuts: Yeah, I'm straight fuckin nuts. I have a generally calm, sunny, exterior with a largely plain, conservative look. 6', brown hair, and eyes that change with my mood--blue/green/grey. I'm patient and have a good sense of humor. Inside is a sublimated storm. I don't have much faith in people. I have met and read about many wonderful people, yet the ignorant, hateful, greedy ones are so ubiquitous. I spent 4+ years in therapy and tried wellbutrin, luvox, zoloft, prozac, etc; they all made me plugged-up, limp, sweaty, sleepless, and even helped some. Though currently not in therapy, I know it will certainly be a part of my future, for even as I hate the fuck out of it, I feel it's the only way to really deal with my repressed anger. I'm still not certain whether it will allow me to achieve enough of a balance, but at this point I don't have much choic, and there's a small army of hope-gnomes fighting for their fucking lives inside. I love: beauty, intellect, the earth, science, food, language, music, analysis and synthesis, learning, acceleration, big weather, sex, literature, honesty, dragonflies and raptors, resourcefulness, live_jazz, oh, and blathering_idiots. I am new to blather and am grateful for stumbling blindly into it. Things like blather and burning_man just might keep me on this planet for a few more years. They are both filled with good people. Neither is utopia, but I would be much happier living in a world filled with burners and blatherskites. Corporations and governments are driving us to the shitpot. The problem, though, is that WE are the corporations and the governments. I work for a giant liquor distributor and consume goods and services from giantmegacorp just like you. I am a part of an economy that is a cancer to the rest of the world--environmentally, socially, politically. The U.S. is hated for a reason. We do many wonderful things, but we are also selfish and blind--it's human fucking nature. No culture, country, or populace is better than the next. We are all guilty. We just happen to be in the place that has all the marbles; anywhere and anyone else would behave the same with the same givens. A=B. I took symbolic logic in 7th grade; maybe that's why I'm so loopy. Buddhism seems the closest to uncovering at least a small part of the truth of things_as_they_are. But DAMN if it ain't hard to do. Just Watch Your Breath So what am I left with: loving friends and family, self-loathing, self-absorption, and a world full of humans that make a mockery of their near limitless potential. Imagine what we could achieve if we weren't such a bunch of lazy, spiteful PIECES OF SHIT. It's been interesting to watch my reaction to people's self-portraits here and in other blathes. I know that no one wants to listen to negativity, yet I still spout it here and lay it on my friends and family. I was told I'm a social_masochist. I am working on, and getting better at, not identifying myself as depressed. The more I learn, the greater the uncertainty. Yeah, I know, Einstein and Rilke and some other goombahs had something to say about how really swell uncertainty is. tchyeah. As far as pieces of shit go, however, I'm a pretty damn good one. And I'm not bad in the sack either, so, uh, whatever. Oh, this was about who_are_you, not who_are_we? "Never mind" --emily littella 011116 ... ever dumbening errata: that was supposed to be A implies B, not A equals B, just in case 011116 ... pralines&cream I am 16. I am tall, brown hair, cool eyes (they're brown). I am in love. I am in Riverside, California. I am 17 on Jan.7, 2002 011117 ... ClairE How the hell should I know? See: 100_facts_about_me. 011220 ... pushpins ~a plausible but imagined memory that fills in gaps in what is remembered. ~a rather tasty giggle. ~an adhesive bandage with a gauze pad in the center, employed to protect minor wounds. ~too young, too old, too depressed, too happy, too short (never too tall though), too stupid, too smart, too little of too much. 011221 ... she -short -blonde -19 -saggitarius -native arizonan 9 (mesatown) -very much a girl -shy -100_facts_about_me -the one by herself in the back of the room -in need of someone to love her 011222 ... living dead girl I am Jennifer... I'm 16, and I live in Kilgore Texas. I'm a violinist and I love hardcore rock music. 020101 ... kerry +strawberry blond +5'3" +high school student +obsessed by music +writer +poet +full of angst +full of wonder +full of curiosity +sick of being alone +female +pisces +in search of someone to love 020101 ... sphinxradio another blatherer. 020413 ... unique butterfly i don't know 020413 ... KindreDSpirit I think...hang on a sec...yes, yes, I'm fairly sure that I know who I am today. And it is truly a day-to-day process, finding out who I am. Some things, I find, never change but stand solid: this is me, I can say, and mean it. Other things stand on their heads, leap, dance, hide, make faces, put on clever masks and ugly disguises. Such antics that I sometimes have to laugh out loud at myself. All right, fine, you might be saying. So? Who_are_you? Well...I could tell you who I am today. But, forgive me (or thank me)--I don't think I will. You would probably disagree. And it would almost certainly bore you. After all, the things about me that you would find most interesting are the things I might not even know yet, the things you will discover for yourself. So--if you will, please do. And then share what you find with me, so I can discover those corners and corridors of myself along with you. I will put everything that is found in a box (marker-scrawl: Me-Stuff). I'll sort through it all, sooner or later. I'll take things out, ponder them, remember the people who gave them to me. Remember you. Then I will treasure them--or discard them. And then we'll both know as much of me as we want to know. 020414 ... Syrope i have a box sorta like that, maybe...lol everytime i see something that represents me or that means something to me, i squirrel it away in a box...i've had to size-upgrade several times. it would make little sense for someone to go through it and understand (they'd probly just misinterpret...) but to me, I can sit down, paw through, and find myself there every time. 020414 ... kill rhythm i am 17 from sharon pennsylvania. i turn 18 december 31, 2002 and i cant wait. maybe then the real wait will be over. 020414 ... black lodge i am the arm (and i sound like...) 020415 ... mahayana i am slowly becoming beautiful once more in my lifetime i am reclaiming who i once was all shelved away i am dusting dusting off & adding new accents with each new breath {every moment} who am i someone coming into her own who am i i am my own person {once again in life} [[god... does it ever feel good]] 020416 ... misstree 25, waitress, bartender, performance poet, swordfighter, seamstress, central illinoisan, trisexual, hostess of the apocalypse, jingly jezabel, and still trying to really be *me*. 020416 ... Casey Casey, 18, currently standing at another crossroad in life. Will be moving to a big town where I have no clue where the hell anything is. And I'm really tired. 020416 ... Toxic_Kisses I am perpetually changing so if I told you who I am Now it probably won't be the same person I am say a month from now, and any way I don't want to categorize myself and than feel that I have to constantly live w/ in that definition of me Hummm, I hope that made since? 020417 ... jessica fletcher i am jessica fletcher. i share my name with the chick off she wrote and the old lady tea pot in beauty and the beast...ahhhhhhh pop ure..anyway, i am 17 and i live in oklahoma- ing beautiful place, let me tell ya- and i am so glad i am alive. i began so beautiful, as most babies are, and i grew to be a fabrication of all i wished i was. it really was quite a disgrace to all my mom tried to teach me. now i simply am me, and i am generally alone or with my amazing ryan. i am again beautiful, though a bit bleh in the physical.anyway, i can't stop smiling; it's really unattractive, but who gives a but the mirror.... 020515 ... jessica fletcher i am jessica from oklahoma-it's a beautiful place, let me tell ya- and i am unbelievably happy with the fact that i was born. nice to meet you all. i could never put my true identity into words, though. 020515 ... sarah i'm just sarah ok 020623 ... yoink i'm 19 i'm short, i'm built, and i hate all honda civic si's i pick my nose and wear a beanie hat thing i like 311 and hank williams junior i am skilled in the arts of being an asshole i am shy around girls unless i think they are ugly 020623 ... yoink i am 20% hippie, 20% steakhead, 20% punk, 20% preppy, and 20% nerd 020623 ... spoons just andrea, like anyone would care... 020624 ... Sailor Jupiter I am the flame fighting to burn The strong gusts of wind stab me in turn I'm growing weak from forcing my light But I will not die I'll try to be bright 020624 ... cube I am your conscience. I have been througwh a hell similar to your own and have walked the dark side before you. I have known terror, madness, and have paid my dues before God. I can help. But then, if you you do not already hear the answer in your own heart - it may be too late... ³ 020624 ... special snowflake i am truly unique. 020701 ... phil I am Nique I have no heart Home is where the food is I am like ladyg, alone in the back of the room talking to my shadow looking at noone; I am a jerk for that though I am a hard person to deal with Can't quote anything Live in Omaha without work Philosopher, mental illness Quit smoking, it was a good move Quit doing drugs (don't know how) I used to be a lot different, but now I dance. Tired listener. Born May 11, 1980. 020701 ... m m 020716 ... wateredown My neck is off centered to the right 020716 ... jg I really don't know yet. 020716 ... silent screams 020725 ... loud whispers 020725 ... blamethesky want to know everything? http://livejournal.com/users/invalid_twist10 have fun.. 020726 ... phil today 020729 ... colors20 who are you? What is this hole between us? Where are you? I cannot even see you anymore. I would jump into the void. I'm always looking for an adventure. I wish I could know if there was going to be someone to meet me. 020818 ... eddie monster yoink, visit me 020819 ... slugweed this page feels too weird like an aa meeting or something i liked the anonymousness of it all i'm eddie eddie fat sack eddie monster eddie blows up the world eddie is short for my last name i'm twenty something i fell in love with a sixteen year old in my dreams last night 020819 ... D y a n n e Who are you? When will you be through? its just a phase itll be over soon its just a phase I am Diane 15 soon to be 16 in November ok maybe its not that soon but I just wanna drive lol I dont know what else to say how I am and its not like anyone cares too much so I will just leave it at that... 020822 ... eddie monster i am simply a loser i hope that bothers you becouse i'm fine with it money is an issue but a loser doesn't really mind i'm okay doing without i'm okay i think if i just keep telling myself i'm ok 020823 ... eddie monster someone different from day to day 020901 ... andshit I am content with reading my eyelids like horoscopes: you will get rich and sleep with hookers; flash to a face from a dream, only to dismiss it as an excuse to be mysterious for a weekend or until imagining you have kids, who wonder why you act like such a kid all the time, with exception to weekends wasted pensively; you'll need excuses; I GO NOWHERE AND AM LED THERE BY DREAMS, occurs to you as you face the wall, sleep waiting for the destinies of eyelids, the softening spiral, Will this be the night? Will I change my life tonight. 021011 ... merf fuck if I know hard to tell with no fucking window 021012 ... sensationalsalad I am a free-wheeling gay male by the name of Chris DiBiase. I make my home in Massapequa Park, NY on Skylark Rd. in lucky house number 31. It's quite a slice of Americana, spending my summers working and having a meaningful life with lovers and friends abound. There's very little to desire in life, with the possible exception of fear. I don't fear much of anything in life, and, because of the life I lead, there's very little chance that anything might come around naturally to instill this emotion. I am generally happy in all aspects of my life, accomplishing much and experiencing joy in many forms. I feel powerful and indeed invulnerable in many aspects of my life. When life feels so right there's very little to unease one's mind. People sometimes find me a positive role model and relish my words of wisdom; I like to help people and have been known to go out on a limb to do so. If anyone truly needs help or someone to talk to, my number is (516)-799-2451. 021012 ... eddie monster i feel sorry for you tossed salad. not really. 021112 ... misstree who do you want to be today? 021113 ... p2 who do you want me to be today? 021114 ... dried up tied up and dead to the world i'll be your lover i'll be forever i'll be tomorrow i am anything when i'm high 021114 ... freakizh singing "h." i am too connected to you to slip away, to fade away. days away i still feel you touching me, changing me, and considerately killing me. a:18(06/30/84), s:f, l:mex 021114 ... devalis no one in the sea of everyone i_wish_i_was_special 021202 ... *nat* I am Nat. 15, from Birmingham, England. I have short brown hair and brown eyes. I am 5'2", and desperately need to grow. I go to Kings Norton Girls School, and hopefully ill only be there for about 5 more months. 021202 ... colors20 According to Erikson's stages of psychosocial development stage 5 is the one where you define and refine your identity and role in society, or you become confused... if you define your role as a nobody, where does that lead you... personally I think you somebody special to a lot of people.... 021203 ... A Viking In Peru I am known by many names. A Viking In Peru is just one of them, and there are many extensions of that one. You can call me Viking, Vike, AVIP, or whatever else seems to fit. Just don't call me Peru. I was born three minutes after midnight on May second in the year of 1988 CE. I live in Vermont, New England, USA and always have. I somewhat doubt that this blather will ever be read, and will merely be lost in the infinite depths of this very large blathe. 030701 ... birdmad vs the AFI CD "nothing from nowhere i'm no one at all" 030701 ... x i wonder if anyone has read what i said here earlier in years, or ever would had i not blathed this 030701 ... endless desire i did. and note even because that was said, but because i read the whole damn page. i am 15. and i hate to be so young. i look older than my age. and i like that even though i pretend it doesn't phase me. i live in fullerton, california. and i am really tired of this place. i am girl. . . and i still don't call myself a woman. i believe this life does not fit with me. and i would appreciate it if life changed to fit my every desire. i have something deep inside of me. and i like keeping it there as a secret to tempt your further. i am really not as interesting as i'd like to be but i mine as well lead you to believe that i am because i'd like to be. in the brilliant words of eyedream, i am ME. 030724 ... Fire&Roses For you to understand exactly who I am I would have to tell you how i was born and what my family was like... I'd have to grind out the convoluted tale of my childhood and present to you the relevant facts and then let you judge for your self... But you may have all ready, for much of who I am is written in the warren of words that is blather... so what I'm saying I suppose is that if you really truly want to know who I am... go look. 030724 ... poop WTF ? is this thing loading ? well if it is ..... U_guys_rock 031122 ... orangine 18-32-27-6 i like to take pictures of rotting swingsets and the inside bits of people's ears i have no willpower i wear bikinis instead of pajamas i hate apple juice i'm a student 040128 ... orangine 18-32-27-6 i like to take pictures of rotting swingsets and the inside bits of people's ears i have no willpower i wear bikinis instead of pajamas i hate apple juice 040128 ... orangine 18-32-27-6 i like to take pictures of rotting swingsets and the inside bits of people's ears i have no willpower i wear bikinis instead of pajamas i hate apple juice 040128 ... orangine shit computer illiteracy 040128 ... jenny enny dots born November 28, 1969 female (of course) born, raised and currently living where Arnold is governor see cats, dogs, birds and rabbits everyday at work (i don't work at a pet store) non-college graduate likes b-52's, chihuahuas and chinese noodles 040128 ... who i am doesnt matter anymore I wish I knew. During the day Im an 18 yr old in college, and feels like shes 30. non stop responsiblity on my mind. At home im an 18 yr old that acts like shes 14 and wishes she could be more stable and on her own. Sometimes i truley believe im beautiful, and sometimes my heart turns black and ugly. Sometimes im happy and proud, loveing everything around me and wanting to take it all in. Sometimes I cry, and wonder why. I am at war with myself. 040322 ... ee beep peep i'm another boring seventeen-year-old girl living in new york city. i'm just a normal ignorant teenager. 'not worth knowing. 040322 ... white_wave thirtysomething girly girl living where Arnold is governor. 040322 ... ambermoon im a 25 year old girl livin in the same state as white_wave...still tryin to find myself says...girls from cali rock!!! 040322 ... freedom Good question can you tell me? it'd be nice if I knew 040322 ... zb.octopus mud-smoking degenerate yet not a wanker, which isn't to say that i don't masturbate i'm just not a wanker or a poet for that matter 040323 ... white_wave in cali Yes!! I do, in fact, ROCK! *notices the other 49 states laughing at our election for governor* 040323 ... dudeinanigloo I am 16 years of age, my gender is male, and I currently habitate a white stucco bungalow in middle south Edmonton, Alberta, Canada. 040507 ... smurfus rex "...I'm Batman..." 040508 ... smurfus rex nooooo...I'm just another mall cop in Denver. currently considering opening a kiosk that sells tobacco products and Zippo lighters. :P 040508 ... x i'm not 19 anymore i neither claim davis or san diego anymore the rest is true 040508 ... Deomis 17, female Wears glasses Unknown famous artist Daydreaming poet/writer Loyal friend Silent observer Likes sushi Dislikes pizza Loves to sing Hates people who have poor grammar 040508 ... kookaburra 14 female wears glasses cant draw for skittles writes poems about daydreaming my friends are drifting away *shyly watches you* likes (well-made) egg drop soup hates (badly-made) egg drop soup i do love singing(though i suck) this girl havin the good grammar (but for some reason she feels hated) anyways...my b-day is 3-13-90...yay me 040508 ... kookaburra 14 female wears glasses cant draw for skittles writes poems about daydreaming my friends are drifting away *shyly watches you* likes (well-made) egg drop soup hates (badly-made) egg drop soup i do love singing(though i suck) this girl be havin the good grammar (but for some reason she feels hated) anyways...my b-day is 3-13-90...yay me 040508 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl who am i? im 15 a girl, who is very insecure doesnt wear glasses likes The Rasmus, Marilyn Manson, Evanescence, Linkin Park (i could go on) feels very alone cries a lot, sometimes in public, sometimes in private isn't a wuss has a violent temper has a lot of conflicts going on right now knows that she isn't particularly liked, here or in the real world is even regretting posting this is babbling too much and will shut up now . 040508 ... smurfus rex tosses a Tootsie Roll Pop to goth girl 040508 ... kookaburra hey! can a birdie get a little bit o that chocolatey goodness up in here?? 040509 ... smurfus rex remember when you could take a wrapper that had the kid in the Indian headdress shooting a star with his bow and arrow to the store and get one free? That was like winning Powerball when I was a kid. on topic: I am a 27 year old kid who is being dragged into adulthood by the slow marching monster called Ever Increasing Responsibility. tosses a Tootsie Roll Pop to kookaburra 040509 ... kookaburra yay!!!!!!!! im gonna find out how many licks it takes to get to the center?? *crunch* whoops... 040511 ... z i am the one wo inhabits my life 040511 ... dudeinanigloo 16, male Has perfect vision Can draw a bit Writes poems very seldom Loyal friend to many Doesn't observe anyone (people would think I was a stalker, and that's not cool for guys to do) Never tried sushi LOVES pizza (are you kidding, Deomis?!) Can sing (keyword "can") Has really good grammar, but doesn't hate people just because they don't understand English as well as me 040521 ... dudeinanigloo Hey, how about handing me one of those, Smurfus! 040521 ... phil id 040521 ... spiffy me. i like cheetos. and the penguins won't go away. i also love animals. and i hate myself. i hate you spiffy. 040626 ... specialk I'm 16... i'm female... and i live in Florida... Delray beach to be exact 040626 ... specialk penguins are awesome... when they won't go away, make friends with them... dB... i totally agree with what you said, when someone asks "who are you" they sometimes do just want to know your age, sex and what-not, but i think the more important aspect of the question IS to truly figure out "WHO you are"... i think that if you don't know who you are you have a harder time in life...it's important to figure out who you are... you should look deep inside yourself and find your TRUE self... then you can be happy, REALLY happy 040626 ... once again I am the short girl who says what she feels eloquent or not... I am the storie weaver, vital and sensuous. I am the secret keeper, shy and too rare. I am the changing and the changed. The fire and the flower... I am the unnamed... the female... the one. _all_ these_ and again. 040626 ... spiffy i have made friends with them. in a weird twisted sort of way. they are like... a parasite. but maybe i can't live without them. 040626 ... skinny i guess im not anything... if what kx21 and everyone is saying is true... which makes me wonder why i would think to try and 'find myself' or believe in these sayings and things you tell yourself to validate your place in the world or as a person or as a sexual object... if i was nothing and noone was anything would we all be happy? no reason to get offended? what about fucking? what kind of things do i say to you, do we take a vow of silence? that would make everything even more obsolete and our structure would fall apart. i guess i should assume some kind of identity, or atleast fake one to get through the world. i could be a punk with a haircut or a frat boy with a girlfriend. or i could just be a junkie with a big needle and an overwhelming apathy... i really dont know what the fuck i just wrote, its cloudy outside and ive been hanging out here alone all day... sorry if you dont care or this bored you. im just lost, but im trying. 040805 ... cpgurrl i am a cp, who's a gurrl, who lives in boraga, which is in CA. that is all you need to know. 040811 ... ItGirl I am the girl that gets caught between today and tomorrow. The person you see in the reflection or your eyes. I am the girl who falls for the unattainable and never tries to attain it. The person who is lusting after a life all her own, but not quite this one. I am the girl who is utterly real and yet so contrived as to seem like a liar. I am a girl who has passion for the impossible. 040811 ... :) The_message_from_heaven... Amen. 040811 ... witchesrequiem FM, 8/31/80, New Orleans... However to really know someone you should read their Blathes.... even though that is still just a representative of the person.. 040812 ... laced will tell no lies am curious about ItGirl because we might as well be strangers friends, conspirators (lovers) in another life so i am no more than she 040816 ... once again ...myself... 040830 ... smurfus rex *tosses dudeinanigloo a five-flavor selection of Tootsie_Roll_Pops* dood, sorry I'm late. I didn't hear you. on topic: stupid Ever Increasing Responsibility monster...it just keeps getting bigger. argh. 050124 ... stork daddy not really sure, got any leads? it feels like there's quite a few possibilities...but then i know that really i've never been more than any one thing at once. 050125 ... falling_alone i am a year older on every April 23rd (1987). i am a dragon boater, an artist (always pronounced with a french accent). i am a dreamer, an optimist, an idealist. i am a blatherskite. i am forgetful... i am more, but i am also lazy. 050126 ... pubescent hehehehehehhehehehehehehehehehehe 050312 ... emmi i am the almighty finn, living in london and 20 years old, female. 050312 ... sahba i am noone literally said to more stupid than crazy always off the mark i have barely done anything right 17 need to live by the heart or maybe too much of that already i like flying 050312 ... well who do you want me to be ? 050312 ... eventually I'm sure you'll make up your mind . 050312 ... Amy I`m Amy, 21. I don`t like to talk about myself, so... 050312 ... Before I'm Derrick... 20 in body, 5 in mind, 16 in action... Trying to keep it all organized.... I turn 21. 050414 ... ::dbk:: I'm Rebeca, born October 8th 1985, that's 19 years. Oh, I'm from Costa Rica!! i'm weird luv to listen to punk rock music hate selfish people & adore STARS 050414 ... ::dbk:: I'm Rebeca, born October 8th 1985, that's 19 years. Oh, I'm from Costa Rica!! i'm weird luv to listen to punk rock music hate selfish people & adore STARS 050414 ... tessa When I knew, I truly believed it didn't matter. Now I don't know anymore. And it matters. 050415 ... Death of a Rose all that i have i recognize as being able to give away at a moments notice. all that i am is questionable in natural environs and unatural localities. every moment i take is returned with each exhale. i describe this pleasure in atomic style. i burn steadily in the pressure of motion. i have no sense to organize the smoke patterns i leave behind. 050531 ... Death of a Rose all that i have i recognize as being able to give away at a moments notice. all that i am is questionable in natural environs and unatural localities. every moment i take is returned with each exhale. i describe this pleasure in atomic style. i burn steadily in the pressure of motion. i have no sense to organize the smoke patterns i leave behind. 050531 ... Lemon_Soda 1980 Sept. 1 IL As of this post, 24. 050531 ... Jonathan Jonathan. "AeonFlummox, Gods lil Fukker, RebirthTheAgitator, a chaotic gift to idealism" jon, johnny, johny-boy, jonboy, jon-e-tan, `nk, jonathan, dear Jonathan. born March 10th, 1980 currently living in Warren, Ohio(again) 050614 ... thorn Kat 15 girl from Virginia Beach (which is horridly boring) wears glasses plays cello likes music+art 060130 ... greg my name is greg and i live on marble street and i am 16 billion milliseconds old.also i like to eat tasty chips.also i like to drink water because it is kick ass. in conclusion i like pants 061019 ... Delightful Greg, allow me to introduce myself. I'm Delightful. 061019 ... . i am dot and i'm ageless 061020 ... . oh, and i am pants 061020 ... misstree i want to be able to turn to someone and say, "i love you," to distract me from this momentary panic. i want to worry about someone else. i want to bump up against something in this void of meness. 061020 ... misstree messes up (sorry, forgot to change the word. would have gone under sleep_deprived_drama_fits or something.) 061020 ... Emptyness Alive i am who they see who they want me to be 061020 ... Lemon_Soda Huh. I last posted here 2 years ago. I'm 26 now. I am Adam, also known as DaSheng, also known as Boss or Mr. Ruggieri(I'll never get used to that). Firmer, stronger, and better than ever! WOOT! 061020 ... theFish i hold a mish mash of beliefs that is utterly depressing and yet i am happy, i am an optimist. i am easy going, laid back, until i find something that really matters. The rest i am content to let slide. i live for experience, new, old, adrennaline pumping, peacefull. Flying off a cliff on a deep powder day or curled up in bed with a good book, i try to enjoy life. i am a nerd, an athlete, an outdoorsman. I believe labels can define without limiting. i am 19, male, washingtonian (the state). I love the cold. 061021 ... You are... who you are. 061021 ... Emptyness Alive My name = Daniel Hutchison Age = 17 Live = Kent, England Born = 10/04/89 061023 ... Floptolemy Whoa. I thought Emptyness_Alive was the same skite as ________. Apparently not. 061023 ... Emptyness Alive Emptyness Alive started using blather as KISA 061121 ... unhinged really not sure anymore. everything has been upended for me in the past month. i haven't visited this kind of depression in a long while. stupid life. stupid work. stupid existential_crisis . one thing i am sure of: too much alone time is not good for me some good and regular friends that don't live a 45 minute bustrip away would be nice (i'm a once_a_week_friend in their little world) 090402 ... In_Bloom Shape shifting evolving creature in love with music, poetry, nature and genius 090402 ... slartibartfast my name is not important 090402 ... hsg the lovingeniusound of nature is poetry. be on tha ti'me, re sil(ly)ent angled all eGo d reams.... wHeN bloom, we see our eFlexion an d is Sol ved into inescapaBLeISs ALL_THERE_IS , i, HelpSmilesGrow, play onwards 090403 ... falling_alone Take me back to the moment I first wrote my entry on this page, and I could tell you how simply everything could be defined. Take me back to that period where I believed I could be one person, and live in one world. Find me now and I could tell you I walk a fine line between still living simply and fucking it all up. That in this moment I am drowning and somehow...somehow I think it is carving me into two separate halves. How exactly do you define yourself, how do you learn to live? 110502 ... falling_alone Take me back to the moment I first wrote my entry on this page, and I could tell you how simply everything could be defined. Take me back to that period where I believed I could be one person, and live in one world. Find me now and I could tell you I walk a fine line between still living simply and fucking it all up. That in this moment I am drowning and somehow...somehow I think it is carving me into two separate halves. How exactly do you define yourself, how do you learn to live? 110502 ... Doar you could learn to live, or falling you could learn to fall. it's up to you, just like everyone else's life. it's up to you. i would love to be able to tell you that the outside could be better, or the inside should be planted with your seeds. stick around alone, make the rest of us not a keyboard response. much love from the ether. . 110502 ... Doar you could learn to live, or falling you could learn to fall. it's up to you, just like everyone else's life. it's up to you. i would love to be able to tell you that the outside could be better, or the inside should be planted with your seeds. stick around alone, make the rest of us not a keyboard response. much love from the ether. . 110502 ... In_Bloom Older but passing time hasn't felt linear I have had to recreate myself and my life, over and over, in order to survive my stumbling, bumbling, however well intended. I have very few regrets and many treasured experiences. I am still my own pearl, layering up, sloughing off, clinging to the tiny grains of what I believe can sustain me 231213 ... . kaleidescope 231214 what's it to you? who go blather from