anticipation daanuh antici... 010221 ... daanuh --SAY IT!!!-- 010221 ... daanuh ...pation 010221 ... jete The anticipation of an event and event that is comming the comming of an event as it draws near And then a figure in the corner in the corner of a room in the room and in the corner you appear And then a feeling in my heart from my heart to my eyes then my heart and my eyes start to tear Then the look on your face as your face begins to smile at the smile on your face you disappear 010328 ... like rain. i'm twisted up in knots inside, but it's making me smile, making me glow. i'm gonna see you saturday, yeah, and it's the first time in a long while that i've felt safe with us. find me see me hold me: discover elysium in this typical night. 010503 ... deb i can't stop smiling, you know- even the days filled with constant grey skies are not enough to take away this mounting joy- soon, i won't have to wake up and wish you were beside me- i can leave the bathroom door unlocked, hoping you'll join me in the shower... make pancakes, so much better than last time, and have strawberry syrup on top, and fall asleep to your heartbeat- i can't wait to lay there in your arms and not have to worry about who might wander in the room- the days draw nearer and i'm sleeping through the night for once soon this waiting will be finished and the paperwork will be done soon, my love, soon~ 010726 ... pralines&cream I see you shiver in ...... 010826 ... deb the anticipation ends and the perfection begins... sigh 011014 ... Piso Mojado but i am always left with the sick stomach anticipation when a door opens and it is not you who saunts into the room, but a small jewish girl from upper new york with too much lipliner and a fat ass, when all i want is the smoothness of your neck and to feel your sweet lips linger on mine just once more... 011107 ... me anticipate 011112 ... unhinged my first real_life blather experience commences in a few hours i'm so excited god_wrote_a_poem 020329 ... Syrope the welling up of a happy swarm of bees in my abdomen 020330 ... devalis bittersweet ecstacy. 020811 ... pansy slowly I diminish fall into darkness I loose my dreams and wind my hands down tired of motionless anticipation 040127 ... JdAwG She's coming home soon. I can't wait to make her sing. To make her squeal. To make her scream. I can't wait. 040605 ... Seraphmodel.03 it.feels.like.rain.is.trickling.down.my.not.so.rosy.not.so.peachy.not.so.energetic.really.rather.quite.weary.sick.and.tired.cheeks.oh.God.if.only.it.was.sweet.release.but.no,.this.is.a.BLAckkkkk NECK TIE AFFAIR nO cryiiing IIn publiiiic not even at 11 o'clock at nIIght no not even then yea i bet you think you're so cool with all this clichéd jargon that loads of peasents and kulaks have said before so piss off because you're not cool you aare really quite sad you moron. I WILL BEEE AS DEROGATORY AS I LIKE the rains is trickling againn a an andd again (notforthefirstorlasttimelikelasttimeyesthatsrightyoumoron) jeez thjis is A looOOOoong sooOOOoong LIKE BEING HURRLED ++++FROMAHIGH place .....ORbuildingWHATEVER(orwhoever)YOULIKEI'MFRANKLYNOTBOTHEREDI'MTOOOO busybeing(NOTabusybee) anxious and worried and impatient 060505 ... . Your gone from here From me From us But I can feel you I can feel you feeling about feel you thinking About me But not only about me It's strange That pain I love_and_hate that pain There's a little green light It tells me when you call It's dark right now And I'm waiting Will it be alright When that little green light doth shine Will I still be waiting Anticipating? I don't know. But probably. 100119 what's it to you? who go blather from