anticipation
daanuh antici... 010221
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daanuh --SAY IT!!!-- 010221
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daanuh ...pation 010221
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jete The anticipation of an event
and event that is comming
the comming of an event
as it draws near
And then a figure in the corner
in the corner of a room
in the room and in the corner
you appear
And then a feeling in my heart
from my heart to my eyes
then my heart and my eyes
start to tear
Then the look on your face
as your face begins to smile
at the smile on your face
you disappear
010328
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like rain. i'm twisted up in knots inside, but it's making me smile, making me glow.

i'm gonna see you saturday, yeah, and it's the first time in a long while that i've felt safe with us.

find me see me hold me: discover elysium in this typical night.
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deb i can't stop smiling,
you know-
even the days filled with
constant grey skies are not enough
to take away this mounting joy-
soon, i won't have to wake up
and wish you were beside me-
i can leave the bathroom door unlocked,
hoping you'll join me in the shower...
make pancakes, so much better than last time,
and have strawberry syrup on top,
and fall asleep to your heartbeat-
i can't wait to lay there in your arms
and not have to worry about who might
wander in the room-
the days draw nearer
and i'm sleeping through the night
for once
soon this waiting will be finished
and the paperwork will be done

soon, my love, soon~
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pralines&cream I see you shiver in ...... 010826
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deb the anticipation ends
and the
perfection
begins...

sigh
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Piso Mojado but i am always left with the sick stomach anticipation when a door opens and it is not you who saunts into the room, but a small jewish girl from upper new york with too much lipliner and a fat ass,
when all i want is the smoothness of your neck and to feel your sweet lips linger on mine just once more...
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me anticipate 011112
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unhinged my first real_life blather experience commences in a few hours


i'm so excited

god_wrote_a_poem
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Syrope the welling up of a happy swarm of bees in my abdomen 020330
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devalis bittersweet ecstacy. 020811
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pansy slowly I diminish
fall into darkness
I loose my dreams
and wind my hands down
tired of motionless anticipation
040127
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JdAwG She's coming home soon. I can't wait to make her sing. To make her squeal. To make her scream. I can't wait. 040605
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Seraphmodel.03 it.feels.like.rain.is.trickling.down.my.not.so.rosy.not.so.peachy.not.so.energetic.really.rather.quite.weary.sick.and.tired.cheeks.oh.God.if.only.it.was.sweet.release.but.no,.this.is.a.BLAckkkkk

NECK
TIE
AFFAIR
nO
cryiiing
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publiiiic
not
even
at
11
o'clock
at
nIIght
no not even then

yea i bet you think you're so cool with all this clich├ęd jargon that loads of peasents and kulaks have said before so piss off because you're not cool you aare really quite sad you moron.

I WILL BEEE AS DEROGATORY AS I LIKE

the rains is trickling againn
a
an
andd again (notforthefirstorlasttimelikelasttimeyesthatsrightyoumoron)


jeez thjis is A looOOOoong sooOOOoong

LIKE
BEING



HURRLED

++++FROMAHIGH

place
.....ORbuildingWHATEVER(orwhoever)YOULIKEI'MFRANKLYNOTBOTHEREDI'MTOOOO

busybeing(NOTabusybee)

anxious and worried and impatient
060505
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. Your gone from here
From me
From us
But I can feel you
I can feel you feeling about
feel you thinking
About me
But not only about me
It's strange
That pain
I love_and_hate that pain

There's a little green light
It tells me when you call
It's dark right now
And I'm waiting

Will it be alright
When that little green light doth shine
Will I still be waiting
Anticipating?

I don't know.
But probably.
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what's it to you?
who go
blather
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