sad deb snow falling just outside chills my soul and buries my dull heart muffling its beating purple toes peer forth while hollow eyes look heavenward to orange sky and empty glares of streetlights and suddenly i realize this is my life 991216 ... koti when you turned away from me, when your lips were frozen and your eyes lowered, unable to look at me the way they used to.. when i could no longer come to you and give you kisses. when i had to walk away and forget it all. 000108 ... vicious bad mad glad rad dad fad (did I say "rad") plaid cad had gad lad thad 000108 ... nameless dead shade 000122 ... sweets bews At times sadness is just what I need; for to be happy all the time is like eating sugar without ceasing. Eventually you will crave for some salt or something sour or even bitter. Kahlil Gibran said that your joy and sorrow comes from the same well. And only when you are empty are you at a standstill. 000212 ... SomeoneElse Seasonal Adjustment Disorder. When will summer come..? 000425 ... daxle I get confused a lot about when I am mad and when I am sad hurt is a good combination 000425 ... lisa_is_bionic I can't imagine feeling any other way. 000526 ... Tank i feel this way because i failed to make you laugh. because i love you and the devil stops me from telling you. because i am afraid there will be no more... 000702 ... amy i had a boyfriend once, and he said that Portishead reminded him a lot of me. (we were apart at the time) Portishead is very sad. I resented that, but I tried to see how it could be true. I think it is true, sometimes, for long periods of time. I like Cat Stevens, Tea for the Tillerman, instead. 001127 ... miniver But, it works, I guess, so far. Psychological painkillers, that is. Or, I could be taking it for granted that people look at my personality and think of it as being functional. Besides, I'm not actually on any real, medical antidepressants. That says something, right? I don't even really believe in taking painkillers! Like Tylenol or Aspirin. I think the whole idea is a little scary. Although, I do still use Midol once in a while. I am weak. Menstrual cramps suck. 001127 ... purple lady Will it always be this difficult? Perhaps . .. But last night, in darkness, I felt the despair Total despair of an empty life What have I got to live for? This whole existence is an act And the actress is tired The face-paint is smeared with tears The colours have faded The audience no-longer applaud The house is empty and the production is closing The curtain falls And I fall with it 001128 ... snakeyes i'm sad & nothing works anymore writing this just made me sadder 001214 ... jackie boyfriends ...arent they suppose to make you happy? if so why do they make me so sad:( 001228 ... rlzp I'm gonna go with what Jackie said 010331 ... the one I want to shut the whole world out and pretend that im not real. i wish i could escape. i wish i was different And that i didnt feel the way i do about so many things. Im sad because Im alone again and I have no agression towards him, all i want is for him to come back. Im sad because it wasnt a breakup it was a forced seperation. all the way across the country and here i sit, wondering if i should just forget the way he made me feel, just forget the way we were. I miss him. I miss me. The old me, that wasnt so lost. 010822 ... lost you know the one you sound like someone i know. whats your first given name? 010823 ... Fairy Juice My mind groans with secrets All my little wars marching though the furniture. All my wounded thoughts excitable butterflies Angry smiles litter my bedroom floor like coprses on a bomb-swept battlefield. Folding all of my heartaches into the shape of a bird, I tear off the wing to use as a bookmark... The Papercut dissection of sadness... I realise now, I'll spend forever like this. I've taken a running jusmp and dived into the rainbow of ecstacy. I'm floating in a lake of the purest form of heaven. And yet, I wont let myself be submerged. I can't tear myself away from this devine beauty which i call sadness. I live for beauty. And if BEAUTY is sadness where am i left? So i guess this is it. I still percieve innocent glassy eyes... tears rolling down my cheeks- sodden like a blur of troubled rain- as being... PRETTY how i want to be. Im still *sickened* by my own toughts, but i know that what will always fill this shattering heart, is the deepest, darkest shade of my passion... for Life. xXxxxXx 011101 ... lovechild the darkness opens itself up to accept you under its wing. 011224 ... taya i could write the book on sadness. sadness is a lot of things. i think mostly, being sad is not trusting. not trusting anthing or anyone in your life to be honest or good or right or true. being sad is watching things you hate happen daily and never doing anything about it. sadness isn't being weak, its just giving up; giving in. i'm sad. i'm broken. i've given up everything. and got nothing in return 020410 ... blown cherry I hate being sad. Being sad entails a sense of helplessness, and that's worse than almost anything. At least when I'm angry I feel powerful. Just as well I'm not sad right now thanks Softly spoken 020412 ... phil The old folks home, where my great grandma died. 020706 ... Sailor Jupiter Tonight I am just feeling sorry for myself and sad. I apologize. 020706 ... Micah J. L. the missing of love is the saddest of all... when one feels alone, remembering the feeling of my love, and having it no more... I am sad 020707 ... blaber mouth Sad like the time when you first fall down on your first walk sad like your first cruch sad like your first love sad like your heart before death 020709 ... Kate I nod my head and read the screen and it's incidents like these that make me want to monitor my every move to make sure of it's acceptedness. I'd hate to watch a video of myself. I can picture you in my head imputed from the wires in my screen and I can see you laughing, smirking. But why does your opinion matter, I ask myself this question. I force a smile and put on my running shoes because it's time for practice with Coach and the girls, who I haven't seen all summer. I'm anticipatorily nervous and sad. I feel like watching my back. 020710 ... eddie monster maybe it's my problem one less, god bless might just be a feeling messed up, placed on hold can't find any resolve flipping out, face the facts sad excuse it figures 020818 ... daj sad is like life...always there but not always shown...like a covered emotion of living. other times it is the cover, the sheet thrown over you to protect you, or to detatch you from others, or to distinguish the differences between your experiences and others, between you and others. 020831 ... somegirl we put bootsie to sleep we KILLED him my baby im sad i feel hurting inside me it's heavy i want to cry and die and take it back but we had to did we? yes did we? yes question myself over and over if we had to why does it feel so wrong he was sleeping upstairs on the bed innocent my dad brought him down put him in the cage his big yellow eyes looking at me what have i done im sorry bootsie i opened the door and my dad left and bootsie left forever i used to come down at night and cuddle with him id smooth my face into his soft fur and he would purr and lick my fingers he'd stretch and i'd rub his tummy i couldn't even go with him i couldn't pet him goodbye i couldn't sit with him when he died im sad 020929 ... eddie im sad 021229 ... Strideo im sad . 021230 ... Strideo well actually im bored and sleep deprived . 021230 ... me "what are you goin' here for?" "because I'm sad." 021231 ... ferret sad, does that word have any real meaning anymore? i could just as easily LIE and say that i was sad, i can fake tears, i hear that good actors can too. isn't that what we all are anyway? actors? little puppets on strings? DON'T PULL TOO TIGHT OR YOU MIGHT BREAK ONE!!!!! sitting here thinking of my relationship with god, is that supposed to make you feel sad and empty? needing more? i don't know, maybe this whole thing is all a dream, i wish i could close my eyes and feel. for the first time. sad. 030301 ... francois sadness has its own beautie. it makes you feel weak in a smooth way. it blows your weak body up till it breaks out in an shattering scream. hate, fear and an shaddow surounding you all the time. 030320 ... ..kyle.. stale_doritos make me sad... not as sad as other things, but pretty darn sad. 030320 ... unhinged how am i supposed to leave them? god how am i supposed.... 030320 ... wednesday sad is the slow, tear that slips, so softly down my cheek when i think about good times, for me it is true to say that good times make the bad seem more real,looming over head, waiting patiently for your gaurd to be withdrawn, and when it is, the sadness will come. 030517 ... a thimble in time depression 030623 ... Mom of teenagers Children who were friends Loom tall And act like strangers. I miss these friends who were my children. Will they return when they having finished pulling away just to show they can? Look down on Mom But my love is taller than you,, 030819 ... realize when i try to tell you how i feel and you tell me to get the fuck out of your house..... 031030 ... Mahayana *hugs realize* Dont give up on expressing your feelings, they have great importance, no matter others poor reactions. 031030 ... sad one I have everything but yet nothing at all From the outside things always look much more pretty. My life.... is perfect.....right? Wrong! I should win an oscar for the way I can make everything look so perfect. Most people are jealous of me... there is no need to be. I have so much but I have nothing at all. My wedding ring 1.65 cts.(solitare) A huge house for just me and my husband. One room with nothing but my clothes. Hell, I even have breast implants. But none of it matters. My husband doesn't even see me. Sometimes I swear he looks right though me. I was just a prize to be won and later forgetten. Sadness surrounds me. I pray for a release that will never come......... 031225 ... ******** i'm tired of feeling this way i just want to be normal for a while or maybe not be here at all this is my life theres no end to it just tears that will go on forever it never gets better and it won't go away i don't even know whats wrong with me was i always this way? i can't even remember being truly happy so i guess i never was 031225 ... passed I am sad that you died, my love. I am sad that I am not with you. I am sad that you were right when you told me that you would die before me. I am sad that I have a life with only your memory. I am sad knowing that there is a virus called HIV that will kill me too,like you, but I will no longer be sad when once again I am with you. but for now, I remain sad, sad, sad... 040106 ... hy so empty and grey more than wondering why, i wonder if i will pull out of it in time. it would be a good day to sleep, but all my comforters are cast aside, too stifling for most moments. right now, i could really use one. too listless to resent that fact. i'll indulge it until i need to throw myself into high gear, and then i'll hope for the best. 040226 ... love & hate Sadness surrounds me, day in, day out. When i had you, sadness surrounded both of us and it wasn't so bad. Now the tears keep flowing, without ever giving me a break. I could break out if i wanted to, i could break this continuous cycle, but i made a promise, a promise that is so hard to keep, so hard to keep without you being mine, without your love, without your hate, nothing, nothing at all, i want to break it, i want to slash it, i want to cut it, i want to bleed, i want to see the darkness, the darkness that death brings, the darkness that comes from both of us, the darkness that will surely come, but when? when will it come? without you, it is now. 040419 ... yo LSD PCP 040426 ... kookaburra im not sad!!! im overjoyed with a cruel twist of fate... 040426 ... EbilSporkMonkey I don't remember a time I wasn't sad I don't remember a time I wasn't lonely I don't remember a time I wasn't awake 040430 ... arisu That feeling of emptiness... like when you're a kid and you accidentally let go of your balloon string, so it floats away. I'm sad... 040524 ... noname Tell me not, in mournful numbers, Life is but an empty dream! For the soul is dead that slumbers, and things are not what they seem. Life is real! Life is earnest! And the grave is not its goal; Dust thou art; to dust returnest, Was not spoken of the soul. 040525 ... just me its all ive been as far back as i can remember and the world just worsens it and keeps me blathering incessantly at 3 in the morning 040617 ... SA Friends who are to busy... A hard day at work... Not seeing my boyfriend all week... My best friend who nevr calls... She is too busy... She will never read this...so Fuck You... I have done so much for you. i call you and sorry call me back..sorry call me back..sorry call me back... 040617 ... SA Friends who are to busy... A hard day at work... Not seeing my boyfriend all week... My best friend who never calls... She is too busy... She will never read this...so Fuck You... I have done so much for you. i call you and sorry call me back..sorry call me back..sorry call me back... 040617 ... clementine i don't know why i am blue today. sometimes that just happens huh? i miss him alot. and then he was too busy. i miss sarah. i miss my mom. i miss my brothers. i miss being out of the city. i miss simpler things. i miss school out for the summer. i miss carefree days. i miss no bills to pay. i miss getting high. i miss the zoo. i miss my friends being happy. when i didn't have to take care of everyone. when i could be the one to break sometimes. i miss the sunshine and not computer screens. "you're mean" "you already knew that about me" that doesn't make me feel any better. i just want to go to sleep. and maybe tomorrow i will go to the zoo and see the polar bears. 040719 ... mmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmm 040824 ... Chrity I am sad - my dad is dead. The man who killed him will not be held responsible - the jury acquitted him. there is no justice in this life. 041217 ... Saddled Crooks this is what i am on sundays when i wake up i was up till 3:30 i called you too late? i'm sorry.... i just wanted to hear your voice. i miss you oh so much and you mean oh so much to me is that a crime? 050206 ... stray i run alot. some might even call mea runner. i was on a college team once, but i quit because i didn't like th teams attitude anymore. anyway, i've been so long, and its done something peculiar to me. i can't feel emotions anymore. well, i can, but i never know what i'm feeling. my emotions are calloused too. thanks to running. becaus ei have to be able to shove all the pain, misery, and suffering back and away when i run, i can't let it out, and it just sort of ran over into my everyday life. so i shove everything back wihtout letting it out by habit. but i cant tell what i'm feeling anymore. and it makes life very very difficult indeed. 050207 ... Lex I was nosing around the other day and I found my dead brother's birth certificate. And then I saw his little foot prints and I began to cry. I never met him. He died the day he was born. It hurts to know he could've been here right now and it hurts to know my parents once felt such great pain. I think they still do. 050320 ... *Amy* I`m sad 050320 ... dandy why? 050320 ... dandy how? anything we can do? 050320 ... dandy Did it pass right through you, in an out like breath? Feelings pass. It rachets stress to try to make restless gypsy feelings stay. A few settle, a few return but none are permanent as breath. 050320 ... dandy about Nick? That's tough. The body has memory of arms around you. Other arms will come. Different but the sadness will change. 050320 ... *Amy* it`s not nick, I`ve left him...I don`t know how to put my feelings in words, it`s difficult to me, that`s one of the reason blather is so important to me, here I can found words that reflects myself, it`s like a breathe after being a long time under the water 050321 ... ? maybe paint a picture then? 070907 ... no reason i no longer have anything tangible from when i was younger things just gradually got lost, i guess, or thrown out 071015 ... no reason losing the possibility 080107 ... Gus Ball-licking cunt-whore jesus! 080108 ... auburn It doesn't matter who you are, or where you are. Or when. It's just a feeling that blankets you. Sometimes, if it's been on you for long enough, the blanket can feel like home--almost warm. But right now. I don't feel at home. I feel sad. Like a blanket of ice is demanding my attention--of the sadness in my toes, and my ankles, my knees, hips, curves, and shoulders. My thoughts are stone-cold. And my vision obscured by the sad look in my eyes. 080110 ... no reason yeah. more than anything else, i guess. i am. and it is. 081006 ... no reason i really want to cry but i really really don't want to waste tears on you 081006 ... no reason we just resent in silence i wouldn't be surprised if it eventually led to estrangement 090318 ... no reason that i blather so much on this page 090318 ... no reason i really want to go but i really don't want to spend time with you 090318 ... no reason about natasha richardson (R.I.P.) 090318 ... ungreat I'm sad because I finally think I really know what I want to do with my life. I'm sad because I'll never have the money. Because I have all the potential and I've squandered it all. Because she's still jealous. Because I can't say what I think. Because I have this really great thing and sometimes every one makes me think I shouldn't have nice things. I have nice simple things and sometimes they make me sad but I just Dont show it, because overreacting is a choice not a disease. I'm sad because she thinks I'm defective, and can't see past it-that I'm ok. I'm sad because I have the rest of my life and it only ever feels like now. Like I'm drowning or in the desert. 090528 ... unhinged home all alone again 090529 ... blown cherry 7 or so years since I've blathed on here. I keep thinking of things that made me unhappy to be with you, but it doesn't in the least bit lessen how sad I am that we are apart. I just want to fix what's broken inside of me so I can be what you deserve to have. I feel so low inside today. 091130 ... hsg still a day o e s n ' t go by that i don't think about her... loves come and go buthisunothe same.. must. shine. on. i'm trying.. i am. i justillove you. 091224 ... no reason it's like losing oxygen 100312 ... no reason i can't concentrate on anything i'm supposed to and i'm getting worse at putting on a happy/normal front 100608 ... no reason how can i be sad about something i never even had or expected to have? i guess hope is a different story 110829 what's it to you? who go blather from