sadness stacy Why dont they want us to be happy...Is it insanity? Jealously? Envy? They hate me for no reason at all, they are trying to take him away from me, why do they hate me so much, all I have shown them is kindness, they doubt my purity and hate my family, But tell me how beautifull I am every time they see me.. 990410 ... James I found it more my family who pushes me down, who hates me. My friends try but they cannot understand and that makes it worse. Saddness is the only constant thing in my life, in any life, and the only thing of consequence anymore. Saddness is the only thing we all share! 990411 ... OTK It's merely that momentary longing after a good bout of depression but before that ever lovely slide into self-abusive suicidal insanity. Or maybe it's from seeing other people making your own mistakes. 990918 ... troy -James: We all share strength, anger, and joy, too.. 000106 ... Tess my brain churns out probabilities according to fact, and my heart has nothing new to rebut with. 000130 ... lonas i've stared at these four walls so long, i swear to god it feels like this room is it's own little world, shut off from the outside, except for the window that the Box crawls through when he's hungry. friends hardly ever call, and when they do i hardly feel like talking. praying for snow. it's the perfect excuse to stay inside. honestly i'd rather spend my days listening to the softies and watching the snow fall while drinking a nice hot cup of tea. or pounding away on my old royal typewriter. writing the script of a conversation i'd like to have with you, but the words fail, and i sink into this gentle sadness and hope that the snow keeps falling. 000209 ... Rachel What does it matter if I say something or not nothing is going to change. My heart keeps beating and that's the only sound I hear on this cold lonely day. The pounding is driving me insane. 000302 ... lola i don't want to be sad anymore. which means... i no longer want to believe in the reasons. 000518 ... Silent Bob It comes and it goes. Some nights are worse than others. And there's nothing I can do to stop it when i cannot see her. So i crawl into bed put on a cd maybe countingcrows or perhaps the cure and just make the day end by falling asleep. 000614 ... i got the devil in me "i want to find some laughter 'cause when you laugh they can't kill ya these hopes i have they seem to pass me by like a cloud" 000614 ... silentbob if my sadness i get from missing her were a black hole, and believe me it can seem that way sometimes, well it would swallow everything that light touched, and some shadows too. Then i'd see her on ICQ and probably regurgitate it again. i miss her so much sometimes that i take everyone else down with me. desire. 000709 ... katie whens the pain going to end? does it take a bullet? or just one word? 001030 ... Snakeyes There’s a sadness about looking back when you get to the end: a sadness that waits at the end of the street, a cigaret that glows with the glow of sadness and a cop in a yellow raincoat who says It’s late, it’s late, it’s sadness. 001106 ... SCOTT SADNESS IS WAKING IN THE MORNING- TO THE MOON TERRIBLE AND HORRID BLARING AT YOUR EYES W/WHITE FIRE AND DEAD DREAMS DEAD-END HOPES AND FINDING MORE SORROW-UNDER MY SLEEPY PILLOW-ITS CRYING TOO- SADNESS IS WAKING-IS IT TIME TO DREAM? 001108 ... lovers lament darkness. impurity. my weaknesses. my blood spilling from my wrist, knife next to me on the bed. shadows screaming through my head. then silence. unimaginable peace. almost euphoric. ecstacy. i don't understand myself anymore. 001121 ... snakeyes i thought i understood but now i can even understand that................ 001121 ... grendel threatens to overwhelm me, knowing she will be gone soon and knowing also that my overture was not well-received. 001121 ... grendel or do i know that this is so? maybe the not-knowing is what makes this harder 001121 ... unhinged i'm so full of it right now...i want to break down and cry in this big empty house but i'm too full with anger and tears for any of it to come out. i don't belong here anymore. i'm always so full of shame and guilt when i'm here because i'm not what they want me to be. i know i'm not. and i just don't think that it's fair to disappoint my father who did so much for me and sacrificed so much for me and that i love so much. but then i get so angry and it taints everything and i have to live two lives now...the one at school and the one at home. and i just can't switch off everything when i come home. i still love everyone there when i am here and i miss them and it just angers me so much that my parents are that selfish as to keep me locked up here. just so much sadness and addiction that i can't get rid of here. i just want it all to go away. 001229 ... last_star666 sadness is when you find out that the person you love doesnt love you... when you long for a person so much that you'd do anything to have them back, only to find out that they've forgotten you.. it's when you realize that your life is empty and fucked up.. sadness is when you've got nothing to live for........ 010118 ... SCOTT sadness is me, w/in me, and all that i know and feel, besides lonely and desperate sadness is staring at that bottle of pills on my counter night after night asking, why not? and still i continue 010123 ... SCOTT sadness is me, w/in me, and all that i know and feel, besides lonely and desperate sadness is staring at that bottle of pills on my counter night after night asking, why not? and still i continue 010123 ... raechel is what I have been living with for 6 years. It's my comfort-zone now. I welcome it. happiness is untrue and goes away....sadness....sadness lets you know you are a live. 010211 ... TeriiK Sadness is the street that we drove down together. The shows we used to watch. Sadness is my morning, and my evening. Sadness is the pillow i lay on. Sometimes i imagine that i can still smell her scent on it. But its been so long. I fear, when i go out. I fear i might see her, that she might shatter me with a word, or a look. I'm so fragile these days, im a mockery of what i used to be. Like a great building that has been gutted by a raging fire... she still burns inside me. 010309 ... dls i miss you i love you i don't know what else to say so raw seeing these things put here they are you and i as we were and i miss that 010414 ... Jimbob sadness is the salt on my food, the illness in my stomach, the longing need for me to say something, do something. Sadness is that thing that shadows my every footstep, pulling me deeper into that void I call self. Sadness is the trigger that makes me think "I used to be so happy." Sadness is the thing that makes me wait until it is too late to say I love you. Sadness is the only thing keeping me sane anymore. 010415 ... katie sadness and happiness have meaning only in their contrast. opposites are defined by their dichotomy. 010415 ... Teddybear For me it's being here alone without a companion except for this keyboard,and one day even that will abandon me. It's also there as sunlight when I want to sink into my dark corner. 010415 ... jennifer good bye joey ramone 010415 ... nocturnal I WAS JUST COMING TO SAY THAT!!! anyway, R.I.P. Joey. you will be missed. 010416 ... unhinged sadness is a lot like sleep deprivation it makes you lethargic and quiet, to only speak when it is trite and bitchy. 010416 ... wouldnt u lk2no is running out of cigarettes after an orgasm 010502 ... bad influence why is it that everything seems to be against me? why is it that the world seems to hate me? I'm jealous, they're jealous. I hate, they hate, I cry... they laugh... why is everything in this world so... painful? everytime I see this person.. I want to cry.. everytime I see that person's friends I cry... everytime I think of him I cry... I want to make the crying stop. 010527 ... amy this exists, although i don't recognize it as such anymore. 010527 ... TeriiK GOD DAMN YOU FOR DOING THIS MOLLY...you dont have to right, after all the times ive been there for you, given you nothing but the best love i can offer...and this is how u repay me. It's been 9 months, and you still torment me. 9 months of pure sadness, pure anger, and pure pain. Why did u have to choose my friend. Why did u have to choose to hurt me in the worst possible way imaginable. And now, to see your, how far you have fallen, how far...i will never forgive you, i will hate you past death. I will lash out in pain for years because of you, i will be a fucked up person, i will never be all there, a part of me will always be curled in a corner, screaming in pure agony. Every day, because of you...Pain is my life. 010620 ... TeriiK GOD DAMN YOU FOR DOING THIS MOLLY...you dont have to right, after all the times ive been there for you, given you nothing but the best love i can offer...and this is how u repay me. It's been 9 months, and you still torment me. 9 months of pure sadness, pure anger, and pure pain. Why did u have to choose my friend. Why did u have to choose to hurt me in the worst possible way imaginable. And now, to see you, how far you have fallen, how far...i will never forgive you, i will hate you past death. I will lash out in pain for years because of you, i will be a fucked up person, i will never be all there, a part of me will always be curled in a corner, screaming in pure agony. Every day, because of you...Pain is my life. 010620 ... Seeker When my sorrow was born I nursed it with care, and watched over it with loving tenderness. And my Sorrow grew like all living things, strong and beautiful and full of wondrous delights. And we loved one another, my Sorrow and I, and we loved the world about us; for Sorrow had a kindly heart and mine was kindly with Sorrow. Amd when we conversed, my Sorrow and I, our days were winged and our nights were girdled with dreams; for Sorrow had an eloquent tongue, and mine was eloquent with Sorrow. And when we sang together, my Sorrow and I, our neghbors sat at their windows and listenend; for our songs were deep as the sea and our melodies were full of strange memories. And when we walked together, my Sorrow and I, people gazed at us with gentle eyes and whispered in words of exceeding sweetness. And there were those who looked with envy upon us, for Sorrow was a noble thing and I was proud with Sorrow. But my Sorrow died, like all living things, and alone I am left to muse and ponder. And now when I speak my words fall heavily upon my ears. And when I sing my songs my neighbours come not to listen. And when I walk the streets no one looks at me. Only in my sleep I hear voices saying in pity, "See, there lies the man whose Sorrow is dead." Khalil gibran people sadness is the most domiinant emotion in life , happiness is a passing cloud , if we can appretiate what the khalil gibran says ......then maybe we can live life the way it was supposed to be ........ 010713 ... empty sadness is the corner where you can rest. its there for me when i cant take it any longer. when i feel alone and misunderstood, afraid and tired...like now...so often...deeply depressed. sadness is real 011012 ... Fairy Juice ...Is the ultimate, most ~*heavenly*~ form of ~~~~~~~~~~~ **BEAUTY** ~~~~~~~~~~~ 011102 ... Grievance *agrees with fairy juice* In todays realizations I saw more vividly the archaic means of our success. That heaven, the macrocosmos, in all its glory spread open it's heart, and though there is sorrow, and people suffer; there are people who live off their strengths to realize their dreams. At the end of a clock, hands all forward, is the relation of beauty. Of ceased suffering through realization of suffering. Sadness brings an end to sadness, that's why it's so beautiful. It also brings knowledge not only to cease sorrow but to gain insight to the positive human aspects, of which sorrow is a cycle of. it's not that sadness_is_stupid, it's that sadness makes us have passion to find our gain. if we were handed the end result of bliss, without our suffering, we would destroy it. 011210 ... ClairE I stole it from Caitlin. That is, saying it. I like it. ::no sadness:: 011210 ... flogging birdmad (such a selfish bird) ...your beauty and my sadness... 011211 ... FaL God hates me 020317 ... g h o s t i would say he hates me too, but i know he's not even there 020318 ... sadest girl in the universe sometimes saddness is a beautiful thing, have you ever felt that when your sad there is this little voice wispering in your ear saying: im here for you and i know im the only one who understands you? when i'm sad i sit in my room which seems like a diffrent world. away from my pain, my family, my feelings. in this world the only thing i feel is a feeling that's mixed with excitment, the feeling that i get wehn i think of being away from everything . alone in my world without a pain to worry about, a sun to stair at and a man who understand real love next to me. 020712 ... silent storm is being away from you. 020809 ... no reason sigh...no more denial...i love you SO much. 020809 ... mike Sadness is losing everything, breaking and rupturing and shattering; losing everything you've ever believed in and having a harsh reality thrust bodily upon you. Such a strong, stifling feeling of emptiness and depression. Oh, that someone could part these clouds if only for a fleeting influx of sunlight... 021011 ... Jessicat My sadness lingers on each day and I hold it all inside of me, a mask I hide behind. To all of my friends and family I seem so stable and confident, when really it's all an illusion. I'am always the one who tries to make sure that everyone else is happy and I'm constantly trying to make people find ways to help themselves or open their eyes to the world around them, when really I just want them to open there eyes to me sometimes, and listen to me! I have so much sadness and so many thoughts all wrapped up inside of me that I try to get out, and so many things that people should hear, I try to talk to my friends about these things, but I guess I talk to much or maybe they just get tired of listening to the truth, which makes me sad...I'm sorry if I realize to much. I'm sure they also get tired of trying to help me figure my issues out, because in time their attention is misdirected, or they want me to listen to them. I don't really go to my friends anymore when I have issues or want to tell someone my reflections because I don't want to impose on there already busy lives, besides they won't hear the truth. They also have there own problems to deal with and if I come to them with my problems then they'll get even more frustrated because they'll be trying to deal with their problems and trying to help with mine. So I gave up on that and went back to being the stable, confident, good listener, and advicer that everyone knew. Now I find my sadness getting worse and it's all trapped inside. I find myself fading and becoming bitter with this sadness and the only people that can truly make me happy are the one's that aren't around enough....or there the one's that are to busy with there own issues, and need my help! Isn't it sad? 030304 ... lost its a disease i feel never to be rid of. 030304 ... sigma It's the way I always feel, and sometimes for no reason. It seems to me that sometimes I don't let myself be happy. It seems to me I've been sad for so long that I make myself sad now, because it's the only thing I understand. I say all I want is to be happy. Maybe by wanting that, I make myself sad. It's a cycle, and it's vicious, and it hurts. 030316 ... Jessicat My Sadness is so strong sometimes that I wish I could leave it all behind. I feel worthless and hopeless, and see no purpose in being on this Earth because I have failed myself and let so many down. But if I died I wouldn't be hurting myself cuz I'd be gone and I'd only hurt those that say they love me....but really what is love? love is pain and pain brings sadness. When I'am in pain or when my sadness gets stronger I carve into myself and then I hurt and the one's who love me won't. So sadness is a disease...a disease of the heart...isn't that like love??? 030319 ... coco The feel when people dislike you!! When they are racist!. When you feel that your colour is a mistake of the nature! When your feelings are just anger! Feeling that you don't belong nowhere! That you shouldn't have born! 030328 ... miss empathy My friend is drowning in sadness, and I'm the one who made it to the shore. I'm standed on the land, watching her drown in the ocean, and I can't save her without drowning myself. So I'm sad for being happy. It isn't fair, is it. 030425 ... niska enigma 030425 ... 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Annabelle the beautiful thing on earth 030530 ... minder sadness is a cold knife 030823 ... nobody sadness is when lonliness catches up to you 031219 ... gathersmack I threw away my sadness because everyone got tired of it and I lost the ability to feel real emotions. I miss it the same way my lungs would miss oxygen. I miss all the beauty and the ability to truly touch something real. I've turned myself into paper so I could always wear a plastic smile and be like everybody else. It was stupid, but everybody quit complaining about me. 040303 ... lou_la_belle i am filled with sadness; this is the end for so many people. it makes me think of all the endings i've had before this and the tears that followed. the finality of it all is so blunt and brutal constantly beating into you how fleeting this all is. love hate joy anguish it all passes so quickly by like a shooting star blazing a path across the heavens; glorious in its own destruction. we watch, mesmorized by its beauty, and think deep thoughts about life and death and fate. filled with sadness, i sit and watch as the memories flicker past; each one, a falling star. 040626 ... mullet Your heart is so clear to me, and your beauty taunts me knowing it will never be, for now its just another lonley day. 041020 what's it to you? who go blather from