agony typhoid my pain is greater than yours. but how would i know? i can only feel myself 000122 ... Joana. Agony is to see you there and not being able to do a thing to help. That's agony... that's torture like I've never experienced before. I'm so cold... I cannot talk or move... everything I say is irrelevant... I want to lie down and see you there, hurting... just to feel you near...... please... just don't leave me... not now... 000122 ... Brad Life really sucks when i'm not playing as well as I'd like to. Being a serious musician is a continual process of improvement and plateau, improvement and plateau. Periodically I get these stages where I know i'm probably playing as well as I ever have, but it just feels like shit. Like I should be better. I suppose it's good, because it means that i'm getting better and that my brain is ahead of my fingers, etc etc which is a place that's good to be. Still, it's hard to use the resources you have to make something creative when you're frustrated. People will tell you "you sound great, man," or "you were absolutely killing up there" but somehow it seems hollow if you don't believe it yourself. It's a painful struggle... these low points get really bad. And they affect other parts of my life adversely. I get very very depressed at times like this. It's a horrible feeling of worthlessness. :( 000619 ... klarchen Damn, Brad, you took those words right out of my mouth. Gasp! 000803 ... stan me too! 000803 ... stan check out what i wrote under "Rachmoninoff", you will feel even less alone. 000803 ... stan and when that doesn't work, try Rachmaninoff! 000803 ... Sonya the sullen feline Agony torments me every waking second I know not where you are, what you feel, or what you think. Agony is my enemy, but the only problem is I have no means to fight back. Agony has now taken your place by filling the void you left. 011014 ... blown cherry Need to see you so very badly so very badly too badly. Need to feel your arms around me holding me together, because I'm falling apart falling apart falling apart 020731 ... eklektic in jamaica, "agony" means the sensations felt during sex. 020731 ... other than And I always thought it was the sensation felt during love. 040610 what's it to you? who go blather from