void deb as grey envelops all the earth and smiles fade to tears the weary trees droop heavily, life withered through the years. noiselessly the cold wind blows and chills the dampened skin while up above the cold expanse a winter's rain begins 991216 ... gaudior so empty of reason for existence, so completely that one becomes a carrier of nonexistence destroying all that one touches in a fire no brighter than reflected light. 000115 ... Chloe it is an emptyness dark and saturnine, like a veil. Through the tiny little holes of the lace you can see the happiness, and joys and loves once held in the palm of your hand. Now they are memories displayed across the canvas of your mind to which void tortures a desolate and lacking soul 000116 ... psyki [empty space] 000124 ... anastacia sniffed a lotus flower... danced my lunatic dance... choked by their tresses... drowned in the chaos... 000318 ... psyki does not return anything. just does something, then it hands back the reins. kind of like an indentured servant. 000329 ... dean-bean SPA CE 000330 ... girl is a strange sounding word 000403 ... birdmad where prohibited by law. 000511 ... miniver I was going to write something here. Do you know where it went? 000511 ... miniver World be of weekend knees, gimme gimme, lovely, leverage, leverage if you please; whatever magic that you can, says the only galaxy of man. Over clouds, and under trees, and sideways through philosophies. I could have used a number there, you know. But I didn't. 000511 ... miniver That wasn't the something, though. That was something else. 000511 ... typhoid if detached 000511 ... tiny angel My best friend leaves a void whenever she leaves me behind. She's does it a lot. I don't even know how she got the status of best friend.. when she's supposed to fill the void, not create it. 000820 ... PiRho the purpose of aurvedic meditation is to gain access to the spaces between thoughts. A wise man once told me that. What's it all mean. Seek the void... the void... the void... I don't want to think that there are voids between my thoughts. But how would I know? I'm not thinking when that happens. 'Cause I'm voiding! *thi________nking... * 001226 ... G_wiz13 its amazing how this word sums me up. 001226 ... TeriiK All the times that i cried for u, all of the pain that wrecked my life for months, its all in vain. I lie awake at night, wondering where all of my torment goes when im through with it... its like it sinks away into a void, until a small token of what we had arises, and awakens my daemons. They are eager, my daemons...for they only have one purpose, and one goal inside me. With out that, they would stay in the void. I pray that someone can rescue me from my circle of pain, I go out at night searching, looking, like a small rescue boat, on a giant, grey, angry ocean. A glimmer of light steers me, intuition guides my hand, but to no end. Ive gone and fucked things up again. I just want this to go away...please, i want peace inside me for one more hour...please... 010512 ... toruslovesyou I just blathed a beauty, but I think my words are lost, as when I sought to see them written on the page that I had noted, there was nothing but anothers peice of blather that is bountiful but not quite what I had in mind in sharing what I had to say I hope that this addition is mistaken in impression that the words I blathed were lost in the confusion of the void. 010625 ... distorted tendencies I'm stuck and drowning. This isn't how I wanted to die.. 010916 ... distorted tendencies It's closed up.. just lightly chipping still. I've healed. 011007 ... Casey All though life you hang on the edge. You may chose to let go whenever you like. Just remember, climbing back up can be a bitch. 011007 ... Sonya A void... within my soul, within my mind, within my heart Nocturnal ramblings drifting into afternoon daydreams A void... within my hands, within my breath, within my eyes Clusters of stars forming you in my thoughts A void now tyrannical, relentless, expanding... The maze of distractions is tempting. I divert my eyes from it to gaze only at you. A void... with your hair, with your voice, with your smile A void that can't be filled. A void left by you. 011012 ... The Persin "Avoid" colors of brick disgust dirt blah no trust unproducitve flem mentaly incased lava night biker freedom fighter blah and the machine gun skirt hiker kiss kiss cum alone fall is over find him slow sandbox of sins razor sharp before the end ThePersin02 020424 ... Torch Walked alone in the dead of night. Cold damp grass brushing my toes. Cold breeze against my clean shaven face. I sit on a dewed over bench and stare. Stare at the grass shining with water. I loose myself into nothing A void of no thought no emotion no feelings. I realize the cigarette half burned in my hand and finish it while I can. I again loose myself in the blades of grass the void of nothingness. Somehow a safe place but somehow a dark place. Occasionally a bubble floats across my mind. Things of the night that have driven me to this place. They are quickly consumed by the blades of grass by the void. Then comes the thought a paper to put this occurrence down before it is swallowed I act on it. I go back to the world away from the void. I meet a friend and make casual conversation about things I can’t have and have my last cigarette lonely until now in the pack. As it dwindles down I toss it to be with its companions of used butts on the ground. Back to the bench, back to void. Writing furiously before it consumes me again. I realize I can’t do this forever as I turn from the void to the shortening night. Where will I go from here? I do not know time will tell. I will end up in my bed to dream a dreamless sleep and to wake up in the mourning to a friend and a call. To be with someone who has touched the surface of my mind. She can’t help me now but soon she can. Bound by a promise that she will keep until the one who forced me here reviles her self. 020608 ... screwing for virginity peace 021006 ... cellardoor empty black nothingness from which i draw what i need 030227 ... yao Kung 030503 ... clockwork the clay/canvas for your mind to draw on 031124 ... nonsensical blank canvas. the screen will fade to black. an empty page flies away, tearing into shreds against the wind. 031124 ... april n unlike loneliness, it watches. it is what i would never call god. it listens like a heart. 040201 ... The Infinite The Void can only be seen as it is not. 040823 ... . . 041010 ... gif i am wondering who would fill the empty void. it seems that i am contantly barking up the wrong tree. maybe it's because i'm not a dog. 041010 ... phoenix drunk. a drunked nothingness. thats all. i am. drunk. void. 041031 ... who i am doesnt matter anymore im so pissed at you for this void i feel. this hole in my life. sometimes my anger just builds up and i wish i could scream and yell and cry right in your face for the way ive felt these last few years. i always held it in so you could be the one to let things out, i listend to your issues day in and day out, i delt with your shit on a daily basis and once i fuckin needed something you turned away like it was nothing. because for once someone wasnt listening to your rainy day. im not saying i didnt care but it still amazes me that your not in my life anymore. im sorry for how i acted. im sorry that i became more aware of what was around me and wanted to take advantage of it. BUT I STILL FUCKIN NEEDED SOMEONE LIKE YOU! i know i never called you back, i see now how much of a bitch i was. but if we couldnt get through our problems...then obviously we arent "soul mates". i guess it still sticks in my head that maybe we are. but how will we ever know now. i still wanted to keep intouch with you so that maybe one day we could find out. your the one that cut the line. and im the one that is still feeling it. you piss me off and hurt me so bad, but yet here i am still wanting to love you in whatever way possible at this point in our lives. im gonna sit back and eat my cheese nips now. and pet my beautiful dog. and go to sleep with a man i care about. and live my life without you, this life ive created for myself since youve been gone. and in the back of my mind still wishing u where here to be part of it. 041113 ... [~SLAYER~] my mind and soul are empty 041212 ... narcomancer trying to post on one of my favourite websites, and finding it is in suspended non-animation. All the new websites are far less charming, they lack surprise and anonymity, and possibility is narrowed way down, controlled by site admins 100906 ... () ( richard_hell_and_the_voidoids ) 100907 ... a clever disguise I don't know if you care But I know you're out there Somewhere Enchanting some lonely soul Whose company fills your whole But it's unfair Cuz you were only there To make the empty feeling go away You were everything My mind could think and all that I could say You were all I needed My heart's been bleeding ever since the day You left me all alone And I can't make this feeling go away It was so long ago Was it right? I don't know Thought so Holding hands while we slept Touch my face with your breath I can't let go But you were only there To make the empty feeling go away You were everything My mind could think and all that I could say You were all I needed My heart's been bleeding ever since the day You left me all alone And I can't make this feeling go away Do my tears drip from your eyes? Did my love penetrate through your disguise? Am I alive without you? I don't know We still meet in my dreams But I can't make myself wake up And find you next to me But you were only there To make the empty feeling go away You were everything My mind could think and all that I could say You were all I needed My heart's been bleeding ever since the day You left me all alone And I can't make this feeling go away 111019 what's it to you? who go blather from