happiness Bill Like bitterness, happiness catches on. 991202 ... marjorie is overrated. too much emphasis is placed upon something fleeting. dwell dwell dwell... 991203 ... apr!l almost decidely the goal of life.....but i think more often than not, people forget that.....or else it sounds cliche and overdone...but it's not, because it's really what we're all searching for despite what we may think. cuz i know that i am seeking to find.....and i know other kids who are too...and i think we're on our way to that sparkling summit called self-actualization. and i can't wait to get there. 000218 ... divine orchid Never will truly be found Disappeared without so much as a sound Queen of the world she has been crowned Her feelings have been twisted and bound The millions that she used to astound Never will truly be found 000218 ... MollyGoLightly so easy to find. come out of your corners and revel in it. 000323 ... girl is fleeting 000326 ... frippy The more you try to dissect and understand it, the less your chances of feeling it. 000505 ... MollyGoLightly that particular firecracker was called Happiness. it came in a pink package. it cost twenty-five cents. we spent forty dollars on fire crackers. we set Happiness off at 2 a.m. Happiness shrieked something awful and sparked into the tree. i covered my ears. i heard a neighbor's door slam. we'll be getting a few phone calls in the morning, no doubt. 000703 ... silvre at times when it's far away, happiness seems incomprehensible. it almost seems unreal. but when you have it, there's nothing else in the world (a little like love). i guess it's a positive feeling of a carefree nature. a lot of positive vibes surround you and a lightness is within you. everything's good. you laugh and enjoy the echo when it comes back, delighting in that more than laughing itself, which makes you laugh even harder. nothing can really get you down and you have an optimism in all respects. basically, it's a childish nature. everything's good, everything will work out, and there is no evil. it's an innocence, but as you get older you have to choose that innocence to be happy. basically reject the worries and the hardness of life and choose to let your laugh vibrate through every bone in your body and laugh to feel the tickling sensation. do i sound childish? it's cuz i'm happy. i'm the happiest i've ever been. honestly. 000709 ... For sure! I'm happy cuz I made it through my winamp playlist finally! It was a goal and I stuck to it! Wooyeah! 000713 ... disorientated Is so DAMN fleeting. 000722 ... Grammar Police happiness is knowing that there is no such word as "disorientated." Disoriented, yes... "disorientated," no. Grammar police. 000722 ... Barrett What most had as a child, and are lucky for just a taste of as adults. 000728 ... erin ....i saw the movie happiness...and was depressed for days. i think its main goal is to tear at your faith in humanity, and it's pretty successful. i kept thinking that it would get less upsetting and disturbing, but it just didn't. a sample scene: a father and a son (8-yr old) sit crying while they discuss the father's homosexual pedophilic tendencies. son: what did you do to those boys? father: i fondled them and then i fucked them. [pause] son: dad, would you ever fuck me? father: no [long pause] father: but i'd jerk off. ok, that was the climax (pun intended) of the movie. disturbing, eh? it's actually worse when you see the whole thing. i highly advise against it. if you're in a bad mood, it'll make you depressed. if you're in a good mood, it'll knock you out of happiness for days. 000728 ... hoodrat I used to think that happiness was something you looked for, something that was out there in open space hiding. All you had to do was find it, then everything would be perfect. This had been my thought since I was a child. Now that I'm older I've come to the conclusion that happiness can't be found. You already have it. It's inside, waiting for you to see it again. Happiness is the memory of all experiences, trying new things, a good tequila buzz, and your first consented sexual experience. Happiness is shooting a rubber band at my boss's head while he is on the phone with a client and watching "the graduate" with your brother for the first time,. Happiness is getting your heart broken and realizing that you still can love. This is one of those fleeting moments. You know the answer, but all is forgotten by the next day. I am happy. I am alive. I have family and friends. I have a good job. I have this moment all to myself 001126 ... miniver I have a pin from my younger brother that I keep on the little pocket-flap of my bag. It is Gismo, from The Gremlins, and he is holding a big red heart that says "I Love You" in white letters. 001126 ... the repeater silentbob- everybody everywhere i have this fetus in my hands i found it in a toilet stall why it was in the mens room, i dont know but would everybody everywhere please stop screaming? 001126 ... Barrett is a warm gun bang bang shoot shoot 001126 ... the repeater Rhin- I remember the screams of the refugees, fleeing the eruption of Mount Pinatubo. They stumbled off the ships, and the cargo planes, in masses, on our tiny island. Some were silent. Others screamed uncontrollably. All of them were in shock, and more than I wanted to count, carried dead infants, or their dead pets in their arms. Some never made it to the island alive. The one's who did make it, were alive, but only physically. They would mumble bits and pieces of their ordeal, as they seemed to perpetually re-live their ordeal, over and over. The blank looks on their faces, as they mentioned walking by buildings, and seeing the buildings collapse, from the weight of the soot, and in the process crushing the people, seeking shelter, under it's formerly solid structure. They spoke of stepping over bodies, not knowing if they were alive or not, but afraid to stop and check. Some of the women screamed for their missing children. Some of the children would scream for their missing parents. For days.....I would drive to the flightline, pick up a few, bring them home, feed and bathe them (which was no easy task. the ash crept into every imaginable body part. it was unreal). I hugged them, begged them to eat more, and held them while they screamed. Then I would return my charges, back to the flightline, for departure to the U.S. mainland, while picking up more to bring home. This went on for days, and nights. I have never felt so helpless, or at a loss for words. What do you say to someone, who has just received the wrath of a natural disaster, of this proportion? I just screamed with them. It took a little time, before the ashened air, reached our island, but when it did, this display, made our normally beautiful South Pacific sunsets seem to pale in comparison. They were absolutely breath-taking. Isn't it ironic, how some things in life, can be so beautiful, and at the same time, so ugly? 001126 ... cazzi i am going to be happy, someday, oneday soon, i can feel it, it will be fine, everything is going to be alright, life is a blast, it's moving really fast... 001227 ... jaypeg when i'am happy, my mind drags me kicking and screaming towards sadness, because i feel i'am happy at the expense of someone else. i've spent a week being happy, like i'am in love, but i'am not, am i? A whole week. On my horizon i can see dark clouds, please no, not again. This time run, as fast as you can, away from the pain inside you. These humble words ease the strain on my mind, till next time. 010108 ... hoodrat is the day i when i remove my foot from this hole (kentucky) that i haphazardly stepped into 010117 ... danielle is this the natural state of being? im so sure its not... now a days we have to struggle to find happiness... it used to be struggling to find sadness.. when we were innocent... ...happy... 010123 ... nomad reaching happiness is not some fucking white circle that comes with a glass of rust water 010131 ... *Matthew* isn't a fish you can catch 010131 ... kinkazoid happiness is like peeing your pants, everyone can see it, but only you can feel the warmth. 010612 ... kx21 Real happiness / False happiness Spiritual happiness / Material happiness Happiness_is... 010720 ... translucent lying next to you, knowing how much I love you, wanting this moment to never stop, having you in my arms 010909 ... ClairE Here. Happiness or contentment? I say contentment. 011126 ... Becky ...is higly overrated.. but I wish I was happier most of the time. I don't like being sad. .. it makes me.. well.. more sad. 011126 ... kerry when i'm happy i don't have to write in my notebook as much because i don't want to overanalyize it. then my mood is ruined and it's back to old depressing stale sheets and dirty breath sadness but happiness is so sweet because i can imagine you kissing me or sandpaper hand holding mine and not feel sad because YES i do have you 011206 ... ClairE I am jealous of myself. Damn. 011212 ... some girl kittens. you cant see a kitten and not be happy. 020224 ... Mr. Wonderfully Fabulous Happiness is: Waking up to the smell of last nights sex. You can smell the alcohol, and the cigarette smoke thats become part of your clothes, and that strong odour, the strong fishy smell mixed with stench of semen. Thats happiness. And the feeling of pride, contentment, peace. I pulled. I pulled the young, shy, blonde boy in the corner, with the tight white shirt, and the strong, mature, experienced man by the bar, and the overweight, wealthy, business man in the toilet, and the hot, healthy, P.E teacher with the small breasts, and the dark haired slut in the dress with the zip along the side. As all five of them sleep, i lie there, tired from last nights sweaty, passionate, crazy sex. I'm HAPPY. Third time that month i had such an orgy. I will not feel happiness , until the forth comes along. Now for the sadness of the wait for next weekend. 020310 ... blown cherry Thats some month you had there Mr. Wonderfully Fabulous. Damn. When he laughed I could feel that instinctive wave of happiness flood through me. Fuck that. 020319 ... lotusmagic "HAPPINESS IS LIKE A BUTTERFLY, WHICH, WHEN PURSUED, IS ALWAYS JUST BEYOND YOUR GRASP. IF BUT WHICH, YOU WILL SIT DOWN QUIETLY, MAY ALIGHT UPON YOU." 020331 ... Kiana* the first three months of a wanted relationship. The first week you get your nails done the way you wanted them. knowing you have your favorite bands concert tickets in advanced. Being in love, and them loving you back just as much. 020403 ... KaiJe slavery 020406 ... Freak Happiness comes through doors you didn't even know you left open. 020507 ... blown cherry The most transitory of emotions. A fleeting phase. 020510 ... popokelvis suenos frustrados alegria alegria de una vez alegria de una vez suenos trabajo comidas salida diversion suenos nostalgia tristeza alegria alegria alegria!! mi canto mi canto nos llena mi canto nos llega consuelo consuelo consuelo alegria alegria alegriaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! los ninos cantan en el funeral los ninos rien mientras lloras los ninos cantan en el funeral alegria I'll translate it some day, when I can control my fucking me to do it 020511 ... florescent light maybe their is only a limited amount of happiness in the world... and when one in happy, it takes a little away from someone else. what would happen if everyone in New York was ecstatically happy all at the same moment? what would it be like if everyone America was happy at the same time, everyone in the world? could so much positive energy emitted at once have any physical effects in our environment? for every action there is an equal opposite reaction-- what is the opposite reaction of happiness? it's strange to think that such a simple feeling, felt on a magnitude of different levels, may be impossible to be achieved by everyone at the same time. 020523 ... CrAzYpInKmOnKeY something that is so great its beyond words.. ........................ ......................... ......................... 020607 ... Rower1 For 16 years of my life i thought i was happy with my life, then i found something new....my best friend. If what i had was happiness then this must be heaven. It came to me by pure luck, or was it my destiny? Either way i was leading a 'normal' life with general ups and downs, but i was the only one to be happy for my ups, and be fucking depressed for my downs. NO one was there for me, but now one person is there for me and sometimes i feel that if the whole world walked out on me i'd still be happy because i have her. If you saw her in the street she would be nothing special to you, shes everything to me, but a little advice you can take or say screw you too....dont go looking for it, dont wait for it, dont feel sorry for yourself because you dont feel you have it as good as others, but be in control of your thoughts, and maybe then happiness will come within your reach. Dont get bogged down by inconvenience...theres never a convenient time for happines or unhappiness. Allow your self to be your self...you cant be happy in someone elses shoes. Try doing the thing it is you think you cannot do....because yesterday there was grief and today there is hope....tomorrow annything is possible. Smlie because its better the happily impossible than the unhappy possibility. I love my soulmate because she is the only person in my life that has made me un beleivably happy in this shitty world. I thank you for that MY baby. 020804 ... december u seemed so sad that i wanted 2 cheer u up. u claim that i have a cheery attitude whenever u'r depressed, but the truth is u inspire me to make ppl happy. there's never any1 to cheer me up when im sad. but when i c u, so alone and depressed, u make me want 2 make u happy. 020822 ... eddie monster the door alice doesn't fit through all of her potions the rabbit, the mouse 020828 ... LIL CHRIS Happiness is only a cookie away. 020829 ... LIL CHRIS I use to be happy when I had my homeboy by my side but now he's gone. When I say gone I don't mean that he passed I mean that he's not a big part in my life ne more. We use to talk all the time and just act stupid. I had his back and he had mine. Now things between me and him have changed. I guess you can say that we took seperate paths in life. Now that he's gone I see things in life a lil different and start to question if the people in this world are true to what they say they are or if they're bullshiters here to waste my time and brake my heart. 020829 ... jane happiness comes in small portions. it's a cigarette, a beer, a chocolate chip cookie 020830 ... you forgot ...an orgasm 020830 ... daxle if those are small, you're not doing it right 020830 ... jane i just mean small in the large scheme of things don't worry, i'm doing it right 020905 ... eddie monster happiness in slavery 020908 ... daxle I have found, you can find... 020908 ... Majoun Fuck happiness. Girls suck. See "The search for Saque" 021012 ... eddie whats that? 021013 ... lost i dont really know what happiness is, but i think lately i have been the closest to it that i have ever been. i have found myself smilling for no apparent reason which kinda scares me. i didnt notice it until friday when this guy, that i worked with at the rating company i work for, said to me when i saw him " is there something wrong? cuz your smilling" and i had no reply really. i also have noticed the slight decrewase in my suicidal/homicidal thoughts. 021013 ... eddie thats great to hear lost i think ill kill myself now 021015 ... TDH is a gutted flounder. 021015 ... lost happiness if it was, is very short lived for a depressed person like me. i think the only times i am happy normally are when im drunk high orgasming, or if i was in a band. i think those could be my only truely happy times. oh and while im kayaking. and thats not supposed to be "rating company" thats supposed to be rafting company. 021121 ... eddie monster sometimes you just gotta say fuckit 021124 ... Chilly D Not really... I think sometimes it's just our egos that are keeping us from being happy. Accept what you have ... rather than what you want. 030111 ... poeticmisfit And happiness is just a dream or so it seems It's something that I can never see And I just want to lay my head in your arms And bleed awhile Sunshine go away I don't want to play Come back again some other day When I've got something beautiful to say And stay awhile 030111 ... lie down i look at your toes 030112 ... lie down look at your toes 030112 ... phil happiness is... staying up late. 030124 ... Mo happiness is sleeping all day, and then not feeling bad because you didnt get anything done 030124 ... sigma Happiness is going to a friend's party, watching the friend get hopelessly stoned, consoling her in the train station and letting her fall asleep on the train as you stare out the window... It's walking in the freezing cold with someone with eyes that light up from the inside and who can make you laugh... It's lying down somewhere where you shouldn't and looking up a sky that isn't allowed to be so beautiful... It's remembering those who loved us, like the father who knew me once as his own, who held me close and told me bedtime stories, it's remembering their souls even if they are dead or in his case, still living and yet not there. Happiness is the absence of pain or the acceptance of it. Happiness is remembering and experiencing and being. 030130 ... star girl Life is surrounding me My tinted glasses have been removed And I can once again see its beauty I was almost lost Another casualty of a boring life Almost sucked into the dark depths of winter once again But then I saw the sunshine And was pulled out of despair I was pulled towards warmth and hope Given another chance And now with my arms wide open And a smile on my face Pure and innocent I embrace everything With new eyes I think I can keep the dark glasses off for a while 030401 ... /anon [enter] I havent really felt it for going on 4 years now. All of a sudden it can all be taken away in one night for me on fucking night. now the only happiness I ever feel is watching the moon on my roof or a sunset over the river even that I know isn't true like the feeling I would get in grade school when we played on the green under a yellow sun I was out side it just felt so serene I will never feel like that again and now all I feel is chaos in my mind always worriying over things that did not bother me at all back then and I never felt so left out till now and I never felt so alone till now. The worst part was adjusting to it when it was the feeling was taken so abruptly it was like I had lost everything and I was dead walking for a while I would wake up in the night and couldent sleep everynight my chest felt like it had an anvil on it every day for a while I was nauses and had heart burn from it every night I almost threw up but managed to avoid it by starving myself I had a few panic attacks I will never forget those the worst feeling I have ever felt much worse then any phisical pain I am glad I havent had one since. No one knew what was wrong with me I was tested for ulcers or any sort of phisical illness but nothing was wrong with me. Bu I got used to life like that after I had help from the magical zoloft. oh well Cest La Vie why the hell did I type so much no one cares anyway. Prolly just cause Im bored. And this is a place to seek sympathy without ever having to talk to the person again or being embarrased because you dont know anybody! 030401 ... minnesota_chris a. I do care. b. So why did you type so much? You could have cut out about 2/3 I think. And what was left would be very very good. c. You sound like you're at a crossroads, or just past one, where you failed to make a decision. How old are you? d. Why am I not doing homework? Grr! e. Welcome to blather! We need more Brits. 030402 ... /anon [enter] hehe 14. made that decision, or failed to make that decision two years ago. I dont know. wait what did I write I have to review. 030403 ... /anon [enter] oh maybe I am at a cross roads I dunno im not the one to dictate that. man I must have been looking to vent that night or something. and thanks. 030403 ... hello hello 030405 ... kidka it's something spejal, when you are very content blablabla 030518 ... slyphides miniature_rusted_boxes 030518 ... scuzz and I came here with a load, and it feels so much lighter since I met you. Green eyes. 030518 ... me everything that you need is already inside you...and wherever you go, whatever you do, you take it with you 030624 ... homo_boy happiness is being in the arms of the boy you love! heterosexuals can never know true happiness!! 031123 ... arielle "he stood looking vaguely at the room, feeling her presence behind him, enjoying that sense of certainty which he found so rarely. then he turned and took her in his arms and kissed her; her lips met his softly, eagerly; but she was neither frightened nor excited, too happy to accept this in any way save by taking it for granted" --ayn rand, the fountainhead 031223 ... freedom ice cream on a hot day seeing someone you love that you haven't seen in a long time hugs kisses running in the forest breathing in the fresh air puppies love long drives meaningful conversations beautiful sunsets 040322 ... Blinky Babe happiness is something two years in the making. the feeling that everythings alright coz this is how it was supposed to be. i want him here in front of me, in my arms. that's happiness. true infatuation 040405 ... Blinky Babe happiness is something two years in the making. the feeling that everythings alright coz this is how it was supposed to be. i want him here in front of me, in my arms. that's happiness. true infatuation 040405 ... dudeinanigloo "Happiness is worth the price." -Avery Carrington 040409 ... dudeinanigloo For all you keeners out there, tell me: - Who Avery Carrington is; and - Where the line appeared. 040409 ... quotree "I hope you will never forget that happiness is just like chasing a butterfly. The more you chase it and chase it and chase it directly, it will always just elude you... but if you sit down quietly and turn your thoughts to other things, then the butterfly comes and softly sits on your shoulder." -A. "Joy is very seldom found where it is sought. Our brightest blazes are commonly kindled by unexpected sparks." -Samuel Johnson 040412 ... misunderstood is right in front of u-just go and fucking grab it! 040413 ... dudeinanigloo I'll give you a hint. It's in a video game. 040514 ... Ellesbette SHIMMY TIL YOU FIND IT! 040514 ... _alone & lost_ This hapiness is only skin deep. Soon it will vanish entirely. To leave me with nothing but my mind. To torture me for eternity, holding me mercilessly in its grasp. Its sharp fingernails piercing my skin. My soul bleeds out. It will weave itself into the darkness of night, and will dissapear from life. This hapiness is only skin deep. 040516 ... 8fait the greatest feeling in the world can not be defined by nine simple letters (happiness), such as i will never be able to explain my self by using these words. i guess its like a drug, the more you have it the more hollow you feel when its gone. whatever your happiness is you need it to survive. the more you need it the weaker you are, god only knows how weak i am. 040628 ... chloeNtheSUN happiness is an unproductive condition 040629 ... The Devils children in slavery in bondage to Satan 040629 ... hsgatincamail heart is the center of the mind 040701 ... daxle she's not a girl who misses much 040701 ... nonlucid wonder if I brainwashed myself back into religion if I would be happy - know that was happy back when did believe, and by some twisted logic I tell myself that that means that there is peace and joy to be found there (after all, many have found it, there must be something) some kind of security which would be really useful. But self-brainwashing requires serious effort, and a mindset I'm unsure of my ability to cultivate, wondering if it'd be worth it... postulating a God to make self happy requires total belief in it and thereby forgetting that it was invented for that purpose. Real belief is required, but I don't know where to find that either... this used to be easier 040712 ... nonlucid On second thought, maybe anyone can be happy if they only stop moaning and complaining about how horrible life is, stop wallowing in sadness and searching others who are also sad to cry with but rather simply let the unhappiness (and the feeling that it's right) go, just spread wings and flyyyy away Maybe all the reasons not to be happy are just really bad excuses... 040712 ... z to seek happiness is to define oneself as unhappy. 040712 ... :) Oops... One's "M" (Measure) for Happiness... 040712 ... shower singer You can't search for it or find it. There's no formula for it. It can't be forced. But I think you can leave the door open and the light on for it. And I think I'm learning to recognise it when it passes me by. I look forward to the times when it decides to stay for a while. So far, it's always come back eventually, in it's own time. 040713 ... shower singer I've always thought 'happiness' was such an ugly word for such an important thing. Can anyone tell me the word for happiness in other languages? 040713 ... puredream Will be when you stop blathing because you're driving me nuts. (you as in !!!!) 040713 ... hsg life will not stop until every atom is vibrating in happiness. all dirts grows into life. life defies entropy. average density decreases. volume of the universal animal increases. all things become expressed in pure spirit. the body diminishes. the spirit flourishes. particle waves hello. welcome to the new light. reflecting on itself no objects left. just happiness. 040721 ... N.P. never felt... 041107 ... elbmirt ekul this emotion can only be acheived through truth and suffering. that is when you shall experiance this emotion for yourself. 050427 ... ANSwer833.33 The only place it is in is the UNKNOWN. But this isn't about happiness, a single meaningless emotion. 060502 ... emmi i need some time to regain hope, methinks. at the moment everyone i meet could also potentially rip my heart out, drive over it with a truck and stuff it down my throat. i meet people and think, "what skeletons are in your closet?" and i am still thoroughly disappointed with humankind. i found an old notebook today, one of those where i write down poems, quotes, feelings, descriptions of events real or imagined, and draw pictures of things i've seen that inspire me or make me happy. and i thought, what happened to the girl who filled this book with happiness? i want her back. 060520 ... HelpSmilesGrow happiness is the sun aware of itself extending in all directions so that all may become awake and light. 070707 ... . . 101005 ... thy 'Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.' - Dalai_Lama 'You are only ever one thought away from happiness.' - Paul_McKenna 110918 what's it to you? who go blather from