broken deb i just broke the heart.... so sad, but i cannot take back how i feel... jwhitmire4: ok Arceaon: Bec? jwhitmire4: yep jwhitmire4: such a depressing day Arceaon: remember what you were going to say last time? jwhitmire4: not really Arceaon: want me to remind you? jwhitmire4: dare i ask Arceaon: yes? no Arceaon: ? jwhitmire4: sure Arceaon: jwhitmire4: what? do you want to come to my fucking weddin? Arceaon: well, i sorta planned on bein' there anyways.. but since ya put it that way.. jwhitmire4: i wasnt going to give that an answer, acutally jwhitmire4: just because my spedometer stops at 80 doesnt mean i stop at 80 jwhitmire4: says jen jwhitmire4: sorry Arceaon: that's great. jwhitmire4: well fuck you too Arceaon: no.. seems like that won't ever happen. jwhitmire4: no, it wont jwhitmire4: i want to burn something jwhitmire4: stupid clown. now i have to go back to therapy Arceaon: hey.. you're lucky, you get someone to help ya. jwhitmire4: what? Arceaon: therapy. jwhitmire4: help me slit my wrists? oh thats helpful Arceaon: someone to help with your problems. jwhitmire4: im sure thats what you meant Arceaon: don't even say that. jwhitmire4: that that that jwhitmire4: im just being mean tonight. because im just a penny whore jwhitmire4: says jen jwhitmire4: come here... http://blather.newdream.net/ Arceaon: what's that supposed to be/ Arceaon: ?* jwhitmire4: sanity is boring jwhitmire4: blather jwhitmire4: is jwhitmire4: life Arceaon: and lie is shitty. Arceaon: life. jwhitmire4: lies are shitty, you're so right jwhitmire4: monkey bastards Arceaon: Becca, I love you all that i am. and if you want Tre back, good for you. I won't lie and say "Be happy with him" cuz, i really want you to be hapy with me. Arceaon: since that won't happen, make the best of what you get. Arceaon: and i'll see what i can do with what i get. jwhitmire4: jen says she'll be your friend if youre gay. (dont mind her) Arceaon: you get a chance of seein' him soon..maybe.. it's not like you'll see me in the next few months. jwhitmire4: ::shakes her head:: you're making this sound like i'm doing this for some logical reason Arceaon: you are. jwhitmire4: oh, whats that? that you're you? jwhitmire4: how logical Arceaon: at least i got to hear your voice.. you said you loved me.. that was so nice... how will i ever feel that way again? Arceaon: don't know.. Arceaon: probably won't. jwhitmire4: ::shakes her head:: in a year you won't remember me Arceaon: BULLSHIT. Arceaon: i'll never forget you. jwhitmire4: ::shakes her head:: i dont believe that Arceaon: i can't forget people i lost weeks of sleep over. jwhitmire4: you will find someone who is so much better for you than i am and you will fall for her and never think of me again Arceaon: I Arceaon: DON'T Arceaon: WANT Arceaon: ANYONE Arceaon: ELSE/ Arceaon: ok? jwhitmire4: i get it Arceaon: you understand? jwhitmire4: i heard you jwhitmire4: i do Arceaon: good. jwhitmire4: but you dont seem to understand that i would never be as happy with anyone else as i would with tre jwhitmire4: he is my world. when i think of him i cant think of anything else and its not fair to keep you thinking all is well when i think like that Arceaon: ::breaks:: then be with him. Arceaon: go with him. Arceaon: you love him. jwhitmire4: i am so sorry, but i cant do anything BUT be with him jwhitmire4: i'll never be happy jwhitmire4: all those days when i was silent on the phone. Arceaon: yeah.. everyone has their own Fate. jwhitmire4: that was because i missed him jwhitmire4: all those days when i cried or wanted to slit my flesh so badly that i would never wake up again, even though you were there... jwhitmire4: that was because i needed him so badly and i couldnt have him and it broke me into pieces Arceaon: y'know.. I'm gonna leave now.. because this whole time i've known you.. you've just lied to me. jwhitmire4: i cant do this anymore and im not being very fair but i cant jwhitmire4: i never lied to you Arceaon: GoodBye REbecca. jwhitmire4: not once Arceaon: don't end this with a lie. Arceaon: I love you. Arceaon: goodnight. jwhitmire4: IM NOT FUCKING LYING im not lying jwhitmire4: i swear to god jwhitmire4: well fuck you too sweet even to the end, isnthe? now watch him end up dead in the morning... great therapy for myself, im sure 991208 ... deb god, how did that happen in the first place? word to the wise... don't RP.. some people think it turns to reality 000102 ... WALK...dont run I am 000106 ... universal cynic If something's broken there are usually two things to do, brake it some more in an act of random violence or make an attempt to fix it. I'll leave it to you to decide which is the most likely. (violence violence) 000114 ... kyvin he has no idea how i feel 000123 ... lotusflower "and i battered, broken, barely hoping remade token i would crawl back to you and say thanks i needed that it's been a while..." (jude) 000306 ... birdmad after being used, but before being thrown away 000414 ... starbug did u mean to distroy me? or was it merely a happy coincidence? 000520 ... MollyGoLightly better to brake than to wind up broken, i say.. 000520 ... emily sometimes i wonder if i was ever really a whole person, because all i can remember is the me that came after you left--the broken me 000530 ... silentbob He crys out her eyes a fire unfurnaced the curve of her spine is heaven unbound but heaven is harsh a fire unfaithful like a bird that you hold in your palm i know where you hang i drive by there often i spot on the surface the make of your friends heaven is harsh a fire unfaithful like a bird that you hold in your palm broken eyes in your head broken arms at your side broken burn on that string shake it till she sings and you realize the suffering by that broken baby wing and you shake her till she sings and you shake her till she sings he cries out her eyes as blue as her fingers the curve of her ass is unparalled heaven is harsh a fire ungrateful like the bird that you hold in your palm broken eyes in your head broken arms at your side broken burn on that string shake it till she sings and you realize the suffering by the broken baby wing and you shake her till she sings and you shake her till she sings 000616 ... grasshopper I am broken and battered weary and weepy sad and tragic restless and relentless hopefully and happy aimless and pointless determined but tired I will keep going 000619 ... birdmad like the Colossus of Rhodes who sleeps at the bottom of the harbor 000909 ... psycho insomniac Cold, blank stare; tear glazed eyes. I hang my head in shame at the very thought of speaking what was on my mind. My heart gags my throat and I look away from you, so ashamed... And I wait for your hand to thrust upon my pink cheeks. So I make sure my eyes are shut tight so no tears can escape. Because, if I don't, you will see my broken soul... and slap me again. 000926 ... guitar_freak Here I lie, broken on the floor I do not wish to go on anymore The bottle of pills is by my side I attempted to live, I really tried I can't go on I doubt I will see dawn Yet, there still is a fire burning This need for life is yearning The bottle rolls out of my hand And I look up to the sky I pray for better days They had better come soon What if my fire fades away? 001110 ... b0 fr0m my life y0u've taken me th0ugh happy i have been t0 my life y0u've given me s0 much it is a sin but n0w what have y0u d0ne t0 me y0u've stricken me fr0m grace fr0m heaven y0u have taken me n0w hell's my 0nly place this wasn't meant t0 be i sh0uld've killed y0u first h0w c0uld y0u break my heart i sh0uld've killed y0u first and n0w y0u have my inn0cence my G0d i'm g0nna burst i gave y0u everything i had why d0 i have t0 pay my life was y0urs and y0urs al0ne y0u threw that life away anger and h0stility are running thr0ugh my veins the bl00d that c0uld n0t heal my w0unds has filled my sheets with stains this wasn't meant t0 be i sh0uld've killed y0u first h0w c0uld y0u break my heart i sh0uld've killed y0u first and n0w y0u have my inn0cence my G0d i'm g0nna burst my s0ul is filled with misery my heart lies 0n the fl00r i see y0u laughing in my head y0u m0ther fucking wh0re 001218 ... Meara Broken...Broken heart, that is. He broke my heart. I really loved him, too. I spent months trying to fall out of love. And now he's back. I want to say no, ignore his e-mail, ignore his phone calls, and forget about him forever. My heart still isn't fixed from last time, and I don't want it broken again. But I still love him...Should I give him another chance? 010102 ... Budrozatva Someone broke my head It appearantly has been broken for some time How was I to know I thought everyone looked out through cracks I don't know when it happened I wasn't given the manual No one taught me how to use it I just been making do Then I stumbled on to the rough edges The fringes of the mind I had never been there before But I noticed that someone had broken my head Couldn't have been me For I have been trapped inside But now I have a way out 010124 ... 13lueee "my life is a pink floyd song...I am just another brick in the wall" 010324 ... katie now i'm fixed in a daze of complete oneness, never even knowing how to be incomplete 010505 ... David Mitchell Broken, our tie, time, rhyme rhythm and reason. Can nothing be all the same again? Broken, and I made her cry, and I made her cry, and I made her cry. 010524 ... daydream believer others sell their souls. mine is so damaged that i pay you to take it. for $33.50 twice a week, you sweep up the shards of my shattered soul. what will you do with the pieces? can you fix my broken soul? 010614 ... yoink It burns like a hellcat leaping from inside of me and tearing out my insides behind it. 010814 ... indust smashed up my purity, smashed up my sanity, smashed up whats left of me, i don't know what else to do 010914 ... Glory Box Oh, very seldom am I ever really broken. I just like to assume the role of wounded martyr, as the one that let you walk away. As the one that set you free, with a cracked smile and a broken heart. 011010 ... Sonya I can't even breathe now. Do you even know what you've done? So many things I believed in and hoped for are now just figments of my imagination. You told me to believe in you, to believe that you wouldn't hurt me, to believe that we are one and always will be. And so I listened to you and loved you and learned from you, only to allow you to break me physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. And I love you still. Does that even matter? My dreams, my heart, and the core of my being are broken. I fear they can only be repaired by the person who broke them...you. 011011 ... Inanna One side says broken The other side says fixed 011028 ... Mike It was broken before I got here. I found it in pieces on the parlor floor. I'm not a liar. My love is true. Deny it, and I will be left holding a broken heart. 011110 ... she trying to fix or change something, only guarantees and perpetuates its existence. 011216 ... ClairE It can always be broken one more time. Tinier pieces. 011216 ... calypso calling in order to love, we must be vulnerable... once we're vulnerable, we can be broken... once broken, i cemented my heart back together and put up walls of stone... i guess that's why i'm now alone and love has become so rare. 020104 ... Julie* But I've got a bad case of broken heart. and your the only one whos got the cure, and I can't live another day with out seeing you smile. 020327 ... Tiffa Oh, you've left me broken A tiny plaything on the floor Oh, you've left me broken Like so many times you've lied before. And what do I do now that there's nothing left to hold me up Spine to string to your tiny plaything Oh, you've left me broken stripped of all my sane defenses Oh, you've left me broken Visions shattered in my teary lenses. Nothing left for me to see and nothing left for me to say As every minute blood and tears drain away. 020501 ... lizardqueen the worlds a breeze the kind to tip the bird with the broken wings 020609 ... girl_jane But I super-glued it back together, and all is well. 020609 ... daxle His voice over the telephone, cracking, desperate, pleading "I'm broken". Oh typed this means nothing to you all. To hear someone you love's voice in such pain, to be blamed for that pain, to be told that the best thing is for you to stay away, like you're a plague... We both cried at the situation. It took forever and a day to fade away. 020609 ... Cole You are not your broken heart You are not your knotted stomach You are not the raw edges of your broken self You are beautiful 020717 ... devalis less than whole but never more than can be fixed 020807 ... devalis I swear I never wished you ill but yet your loathing plagues me still your words, those words so harshly spoken leave my being bruied and broken (exerpt from A Thousand Tears) 020807 ... EECP As much as I would deny it, I am still broken. Shattered, in fact. Broken into many peices. Only one has the ability to mend me. I am asked if I am ok and I say "Yeah, I'm ok" knowing that I will survive the moment, but hoping that I don't. I can't explain the extent of the damage. I don't want to tell you how often I feel it. I don't want you to feel inadequate or helpless. I know you know, but denial is so much more precious....don't you think? I try to be clear about what I am and how I feel, but feelings don't follow logic. I can't make my spirit deny what it knows truly. I am sorry that I have broken you. You said that it wouldn't happen, but I know better. No matter what happens, you will always be you to me. Know that I will never forget you, no matter if I am someday fixed. You are always allowed access to me, perhaps not in the way you would choose, but access. I hope for the day where these dismal feelings are a thing of the past. A day where we can be truly happy. I am sorry that I can't change that my future doesn't feel right with you. I am sorry that I broke you. I am sorry that I am me. I am sorry that I brought you into a realm of pain. I am sorry for what I am. 020808 ... eklektic all evening, even when you were waving wildly as rachel handed me my music folder, i slightly ignored you, just to show you that i'm really not into you like i used to be. i didnt follow you or tag along. i even broke off from you a few times. and while the three of us stood outside, waiting for our respective rides, you said that you were upset because you'd broken your cd burner. you then told me you were upset because you had planned on burning me your classic jazz cds and putting them in our tree. i didnt think you'd remembered when i told you i had wanted those two cds. i told you that when you had given me a ride to Stow Highschool. i was flipping through your cd case and gasped when i saw them. i said "i've wanted these cds for so long." you then said "well, maybe one day, if i'm feeling generous,i'll burn you a copy." i didnt think you were serious. and to go as far as to plan to put them in our tree. i totally love you in a sisterly way. but you're still beautiful and i would still marry you, as incestuous as that may sound. 020813 ... Neal Boortz It would seem that the Neal Boortz bobblehead doll has attracted the interest of a young Afghan girl in Kabul. Also, if you could see the enlarged picture you would note that his golf club is broken. Probably the work of the Taliban who outlawed golf and cancelled the PGA Tour stop in Afghanistan when they took over. 021211 ... femme tiny people tiny feelings that matter to no one. 030412 ... Me Take away these broken wings, teach me to fly again.... 030522 ... power trip i'm perfectly broken and sublimely lost. ode to those who destroy my life, and make it worth living at the same time. fuck you for makeing me love, for now i am lost and i want to go home 031029 ... Caxton This silence is killing me, a broken word indeed. Just the thought of words from your mouth..is exactly what I need. Parallel to life is the lost part of my soul. And the last thing that I say to you I probably can't control. A life caught in human spider webs, and locked up in a trunk. All of these mountains of my thoughts...have finally,quickly sunk... Portraying life so vividly,and the moments that I've held. The dimming blackness of my mind, the great heights that I fell. Conquering the greatest of my fears, and killing whispers of the wind. The aching in the back of my mind...to tell me that I've sinned. So quietly I've undergone the pain life always knew. And the last thing here, that I will say, is I still love you too. 031115 ... Nancy broken down with so much pain, the weight of failure, the weight of depression, the weight of his fist..again. i am 11 again, he's in my room again. love isntsafe in a world of broken trust. broken was the glass, then broken were my veins. i want it to end. broken is my silence. broken are my boundaried. Broken is my heart. broken are your bones soon...dad 040220 ... misstree sometimes you have to be broken before you can be fixed. he has open invitation to the interior, and trust that he will not strike blindly; he is wicked chiropracter, giving slightest warning before a bend here, pressure there, a sudden snap, and pain and release flood. my eyes unfocus as leg is snapped to be reset. it will be stronger, it will be rebuilt with godflesh. let this moment pass into the proper one. 040220 ... Syrope i came in tonight in such a good mood.. but suddenly i feel so broken. i feel like i've done something terribly shitty and i don't know what. so instead of getting started on my java project before work, i'm going to nap. i'm such a complete waste. 040220 ... stork daddy four horses could easily pull you apart, but never put you together. 040220 ... Syrope i think i may have figured out why i felt so bad...i think the feeling may have been homesickness...either the first homesickness i ever remember feeling or homesickness a place other than where i'm from. i guess...homesickness for a lifestyle. tonight remy and i went an hour away to this tiny little town where she used to live to eat at a really southern mom & pop's place...and the roads, the southern houses (porches!) and neighborhoods (sprawling), the clean smell and the pretty sunset...i just wish i had somewhere to go like that. not home, but somewhere that could be a home like that. i love the city and i don't miss MY tiny town at all, but to watch the city slowly fade away into suburbs into country, to smile at people smiling at you for no reason in a quaint little restaurant... *sigh* i need a vacation somebody take care of me 040220 ... smileygirl i think the word escort is broken 040225 ... c.cowan thats my place you are not here stay my peices are a mess that dream it is yours my place is not here 040316 ... love & hate I am but a broken cup that someone put back on the shelf with hope that noone will notice the chips. Huge cracks appear on the surface but noone notices until they start leaking. I have been 'droped' too many times in my life time to ever be able to be fixed. I must be replaced. Thrown out in the garbage where i belong just so i dont clutter up everyones perfect life and shelf full of lovely whole cups and saucers. I am but an annoying one left there until someone can be bothered to throw me out. If i could jump out of the cupboard and onto the tiles, i would. Shattering into a million pieces which all lie inside me. Waiting to be droped one more time. To release this torment of not being perfect, not being what people want me to be. Just throw me, smash me on the tiles as i see you doing everytime you look at me. I can see it in your eyes, you want to, you need to but you let me sit here suffering being incomplete. End the suffering, throw me away so my pieces become completely broken for the cracks are deep and unfixable. I am not unbreakable, it is so easy to break me, just throw me on the floor in a fit of rage and it will all be over, for both of us. 040425 ... minnesota_chris we are all cracked and chipped. What makes you think that your life, or your persona, should be flawless? 040425 ... love & hate Because her's is. 040426 ... love & hate and that is what she wants me to be 040426 ... shivers this word means much more then it should i want to hold u high and steal the pain away still broken, after so long i thought i'd be better by now, but your here. you'll help me. 040518 ... pete lost cold shattered, laying on the empty road i can't find my feet to stand on lost cold shattered, musing on the trails of time my self slips away and i cease to be lost cold shattered, falling from the top floor the lights shine in my eye and there is no bottom here lost cold shattered, fire lights my flesh aflame tearing away mortal games as the soul cries louder lost cold shattered, twisting away from scarlet showers as my final hours come and go without any changes lost cold shattered, sitting lost and lonely afraid of the familiar taking my heart to pieces lost cold shattered, no more anything to see fading into memory just lost cold and shattered 040518 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl that song featuring amy lee just makes me cry 040723 ... whisper_to_the_moon I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain 'Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain 'Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough 'Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away 'Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough 'Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away You've gone away You don't feel me here anymore gaetano...... im broken..... 040728 ... ragdoll broken suitcases in the sun the sun in the skye the skye in my eyes my eyes in my head my head in a shitty place called regret* 040814 ... whisper_to_the_moon "I WON'T BE BROKEN AGAIN! I'VE GOT TO BREATHE I CANT KEEP GOING UNDER DROWNING IN YOU FALLING FOREVER I'VE GOT TO BREAK THROUGH" 040820 ... pete repaired 040820 ... somepeoplesmile i'm falling apart faster that i can be fixed 040820 ... puff i tried to make you notice me. but you were never close to me. and when i fell, you fled the scene. will i ever see you again? you have my heart and always will. but you like it broken. and you break it still. you're right here, under my skin. YOU LEFT ME BROKEN. SHATTERED. LONELY. WILL I EVER BE FIXED? WILL I EVER BE BEAUTIFUL?? 050102 ... cupid* its been three years that ive been trying to repair, was so sure i did,but you came back then soon apologized. why?now i find myself broken all over again..i find myself thinking of how we used to be best friends and wish it could all just go back to that again..platonic friends you want to be..but is that really possible? 050126 ... brand the beam we try our whole lives to balance on 050220 ... Afro Sometimes there is a moment in time when putting back together the broken pieces will do more bad than good. At that point you have to step back, realize the truth...and walk away. And never look back. 060719 ... f What would you do if ... you were living with someone for 2 years and you found out in the thrird month of your relationship he slept with someone else. 2 years down the line you discover there is a one year old baby boy involved. he lied to you for 19 months ! it was kind of shocking.. but great to break free - he trapped me. 070420 ... olive its interesting how people automatically tie broken.. with hearts. maybe its just this website. a collection of people who have experienced hearts broken enough to never forget about it. im in love. i hope my heart doesn't get broken 070919 ... f Well, it can break but i would prefer to take the weight of it than see someone else hurting. The problem is some people do not understand some things and the make the same mistakes over and over again. If someone finds that no one can trust them, there must be a very good reason for it. It goes deep back you your childhood maybe and it is sharp jagged and heavy, i felt it. In order to trust somone, you must realise that a lie is nowhere near the truth, no matter what the truth is, a lie betrays your own soul. Trust is earned and gained, it is not just invented, you need to prove it, if you have broken it. There is nothing worse than a broken heart, in my case it was brutal, in the way it was presented to me. mooooo that is you, a male Ninny boo boo. 070919 ... Syrope i've come to love the bruises and pricks across my abdomen. i even like the blotchy birthmark across my knee. and the faint red vein in only one of my eyes. the flecks of blue vein under the white flesh of my thighs. i suppose i'm used to being broken. i'm making the best of it. 080722 ... hee hee and? why did you want to tell us that? oh POOR YOU. 080722 ... f want to see my soul alll broken and brooooozed? suck stones instead maybe. 080722 ... In_Bloom No, not broken but perhaps a little wrenched The day broken occurs you can climb up on the pyre with me 080825 ... kalgores best album from NIN broken and then fixed the downward spiral then further down the spiral nothing can stop me now 220903 ... unhinged after all the bullshit of the past five months getting attacked by an insane drug addict on my way home from work last week definitely broke me 220903 ... Broken_Soul A soul without a mate 240114 what's it to you? who go blather from