reality meir@sadan.com my cruel, abrupt look at the mirror every morning, wondering if i can ever escape my terrible destiny. 980819 ... sarah this is my reality what's yours? 981021 ... ashley what i sleep to escape from. i wake up screaming in the middle of the night when there is the realization that it's behind be, breathing down my neck, and that it is essentially inescapable. 990205 ... emily That place I hate to live in. 990305 ... s bites heh heh 990419 ... Ari Raven The arch angel of insanity... Its what drives men mad and causes them to to see true reality 990622 ... jordan is what I try to escape with drugs but always finds me you can only truly escape it one way and that is by death 990709 ... Jim I contend with reality This force of society: The ending of insanity 990810 ... lisa reality is relative we exist in our own bubbles of reality truth is relative my existence is dependent upon which reality I actualize and to exist is not necessarily to be 990914 ... mathias subjective? objective? collective? individual? just more post modern bullshit, methinks. how abou just living, and damn the pragmatist stigmata 990914 ... who me your reality may say I'm here but my reality doesn't I probably won't be here for at least a few more years 991122 ... valis "reality is that which, when you ignore it, does not go away." -p.k. dick 991209 ... amy i was waiting for you to say that, valis. :) i couldn't quite remember what the quote was, but i knew there was one, and that's the one. 991210 ... me? so what did good ol p.k. know about reality anyways? hehe. 991210 ... Quintessensual sucks. the only reason we have it is to belittle it, step on it, and change it for everybody's benefit. 991221 ... aradia reality is the illusion the old have fallen in love with , the middle-aged are dependent upon and the young long to see through . Reality is only a dream and affects me as far as i let it . reality is my hell . 991226 ... mareberry my mind twists in the wind and cries out for answers, but all i find is an illusion staring into my eyes. can you tell me what is real? i can't hear you. i can't see you. i can't make sense of this. i'm falling in this façade, crying out to anyone who will hear. what happened to my reality? what happened to me? truth doesn't exist in this world. 000106 ... marjorie reality exists to be distorted, contorted, enraged, and changed. reality has no place here. we have better things to think of better things to make and better things to live to remember to hell with reality. 000118 ... beth it depresses me. sometimes i stand there washing the dishes, the disgusting process of mushing up variouse foods up with warm water into a greezing grayish water, and reality is somehow snuffed out. why at this point? a time of reality at its worst. a saturday night spent cleaning. amazingly my mind goes in another direction and begins to listen in as two men discuss strange topics in a bar. they look at my life from there x-ray eyes and change situations that i have ruined and play them over the way they could have been. So many times have i listened and imagined these ideal events only to suddenly realize that i have run out of dishes. 000129 ... amy another bit r. and that's something you can count on, like time. oh but that brings up another big r, relativity. oh, god. we really don't know what to do with relativity, do we? 000308 ... girl kicks my ass every day 000326 ... Free Reality is. 000405 ... Left The Building. drugs are only good for musicians 000610 ... Marjorie i was craving it in my dreams craving the light of being awake that keeps me safe from those monsters of dream world the ones that show ugly teeth dripping with blood or the ones masquerading as loves who want to devour you piece by piece i want to be awake in reality where when i smile i feel it and when i try to fly i fall 000711 ... eruth be i refuse to turn my face towards you i do not trust you i blather on will someone please fucking tell me how it is i feel? i fucking cant even see through my own eyes anymore. shit. i mean they are mine eyes arent they? when will i be able to hold you in my arms again? when will you want to be with me? or do you already? i have such a tendency to mess things up. my love of tragedy. ok. fine. now i will be honest. as i remove my face i scream on the inside. so loud my eyebrows ritualisticly raise higher than the heavens above...i imagine my face stretching like the characters in the black hole sun video. ok.you busted me. so i beat around the bush in hopes to avoid a confrontation with the reality of me. fuck the media. i refuse to allow you to fucking brain wash me you evil little fucks. kings of manipulation. no hesitation or reservation to devour the ignorant and naive. oh you deserve hell for that you clan of darkness. so i am real angry about a whole bunch of things. so i am freaking more desparete than ever and lonely as i have ever been. and what the hell am i supposed to do with this beautiful mess? anyone have any fucking suggestions? who am i talking to anyway? i'm going to smoke a cigarette. 000713 ... skiblu I didn't have a choice in the matter 000725 ... chelsea Faceless,nameless,lonely and desolate,memories of random faces lingered like the images of a forgotten god.Mechanical crowds traveled aimlessly through the streets,and any benign soul could have been mistaken as a prophet on the streets.Children are born from crimson brick and cold clay.On these streets children are molded from the fevered strength of a loaded gun possessed by the pride of a man-made deity.From shallowness and manufactured dreams of comic books and barbiedolls born from the insatiable vision of a capitalistic paradise.From the tainted lust of a prostitute`s red dress and the remains of feminine beauty sold out and degraded for the power of the almighty dollar.Reality is a shattered mirror which children stare into struggling to find features of their own identity only to see the image of a stonewall sturdy and unbroken by their iron fistof American individualisim.Children are not blank slates waiting to be written on by societal quills,Inked with the blood,sweat,and tears of cultural constraint.Children are not blank slates,nor are they the production of the latest pop culture craze.But it doesn`t matter what they think because thoughts are no more than wordly representations of the network of interacting neurological impulses and natural chemicals that create our mind and the spirit of freedom lies battered and broken while companies manufacture happiness in cheap little pills that societies swallow.Children are not blank slates,just the offspring of psychosomatic millenial hysteria.Just sightseers staring out their apartment windows onto this opium poppy Garden of Eden wanting,waiting to see Jesus standing at the street corner. 000802 ... Seth. Changeable, shapeable, bendable, elastic. Reality is like a small puddle of water. You can cause small ripples, or large waves, or you can create a big splash. It's your choice. Do with it what you will. 000911 ... d .... is relative. 000911 ... stan there was once a blather on this page after Chelsea's but it has been removed by some quiddler. It said "and of course, he's late."... i believe i signed it Kaskarkaminski...got it on a diskette but not sure which one..doesn't matter much to me. 000911 ... ABW so america. i am supposed to be everything you just mentioned. with a hotel head full of radio and bookshelves for brains i run away. from committment. from anything. run away. but of course i will not be open in my music. you really do not think i would let you know what it felt lie to be me. so you say it's all washed away. not so esy to let go. everything i've known. everything i dreamed to be. no of it. reality. 001025 ... freud it's all in your head 001025 ... kx21 Something more than your head/ mind? Your reality is somebody's illusion. Your illusion is somebody's reality and is part of your reality. Reality is relative, subject to change, evolving (e.g. Virtual Reality) , ..., seemed near yet so far!!! 001027 ... Wayne Reality is a dream when you're asleep, an illusion when you're awake. I would like to say at this time that if we observe our feelings and thoughts we'll experience reality here and now. But the minute we start planning, um, desiring, avoiding, hating, craving, we come out of reality and fall into an eternal dream. Therefore, consequently, who knows? - Pedro Nietzsche Mora. 001028 ... kreeyis i know who knows what reality is... i have had extensive mind conversations with the little latex gray alien who stands, posed, in a very gay dance step... anyways, HE knows reality, he told me about this BBQ he was at in the confederate part of the gulah quadrant, this transvestite-looking yoda guy with a NRA hat showed up and started drinkin all the booze and hittin on the ladies...there were all these secret service- like dudes with 3d glasses on, presumably protecting the swingin visitor.... the latex alien said that when he was playing poker with one of the "guards," the dude informed him that the person he served was Reality... Truth, that scoundrel, had died and not left the guard with any $$ (the guard's former master) **the guard also told the alien that he didn't believe Truth was really dead, he believed that Truth was hiding out with Elvis somewhere** 001029 ... Jack Nothing is real. Reality is an illusion. All is nothing. 001125 ... *CatMeow* continues to ruin my life... 001207 ... philip k. dick (1928-82) that which when one stops thinking of it, does not go away. 010102 ... Quiggz I doubt it exists. At least, in the sense we think of it. "Reality is the boundaries man sets for himself" -M. Mosher "Reality, as a way of life, is highly over-rated" -Some guy who's name escapes me at the moment 010102 ... kx21 ups and downs twists & turns hit-and-miss 010103 ... fig doritosnlemonade 010218 ... unique butterfly wow. where'd it go. 010309 ... johnny west For those who wish to remain happy throughout life, reality is best avoided. 010309 ... monadh there is no expression it takes no course runs freely from moment to moment life turns takes precious gifts of hope and with an angel's song devours your heart enlivens the subtle moods of tide and time 010310 ... mikey is a ride on a bus 010310 ... lydia im just working on understanding this reality " then maybe ill let go and bend and drip and well, trip a little 010312 ... mikey i took a bus once from nashville TN up to kokomo IN then all the way back home to CA. let me tell ya you really get to know all kinds of people when you do something like that 010312 ... unhinged if there is anything that doesn't exist it's 'reality.' the ultimate truth of existence he says. every reality is based on some number of fabrications that we have. we can't read minds. we will never know the ultimate truth in every respect. 010323 ... tit isnt real,it is all about perception. therefore i am what i think i am to me alone. i am but i mere idea. what is your perception of me? you too are but a mere idea, unfortunatly i like the idea of you more. i have created a you that is so wonderful. too bad you dont have the same ideas. together we could be something, or rather dream something. 010324 ... kx21 Reality is the superposition of the_Gene_of_Nothing and the_power_of_Creativity... 010324 ... Pink Paint 69er without fairytales reality doesn't exist! remember. when you stop dreaming you die. live a dream .......... your reality should also be your dream, you can live your dream if you work for it . but to be handed it on a plate you could never appreciate it in the same way. eat more caramel. breath some better questions, more passion less action. Do you want fries with that? 010413 ... dls reality is found only in my dreams 010414 ... kx21 It is none other than Q_As... 010415 ... Casey I always like to escape it Yet I know That one day I may have to face it. 010415 ... PCD if as dls says, reality is found only in his dreams, then the reality must be a handsome, talented, creative young man, happy and vital, vibrant and charming, clever and careful, cautious but willing, honestly coasting through life, never taking advantage of anyone, never leaving broken hearts behind, never having a regret, never penitent. That is a dream. 010423 ... aeiou mine is not yours is not his 010425 ... dls no. that is not my dream. 010425 ... KELLEY IT IS SOMETHING WE ALL FEAR,I KEEP WANTING TO WAKE UP AND KNOW THIS REALITY I'M FACED WITH IS SO UGLY IT CAN'T BE REAL.I WANT TO WAKE UP AND BELIEVE THAT NO ONE HAS ANYTHING BETTER IN THEIR LIFE THAN TO SHOOT MY BOYFRIEND IN THE HEAD THREE TIMES AND HE LIVES. BUT HAS TO LIVE WITH REALITY STARRING HIM BACK IN THE FACE WHEN HE LOOKS AT PEOPLE LOOKING AT HIM BECAUSED HE IS PARALYZED FROM THE NECK DOWN.THATS REALITY,WHAT A FEAR OF NOT BEING ABLE TO FEEL YOUR BODY.PEOPLE ARE FACED WITH THIS EVERY DAY, IT DOESN'T DO ANYBODY ANY GOOD.BUT IT HAS TO BE DONE.IT CAN'T BE AVOIDED....ITS APART OF THIS THING CALLED LIFE.... 010501 ... Alexander Beetle kick yourself in the teeth reality did it! oh what fun we shall have you and i 010501 ... kx21 It's here & there all the times... 010502 ... snow_angel is what escapes me every day and makes me feel so damn high 010503 ... NOLA in reality this is an illusion for sure o.k. happy now? 010526 ... mmm reality is what u want it to be 010527 ... ! your words 010527 ... nemo i sometimes wake up from lala land, and take a look around and see reality... and wonder if its all a dream cuz its fucked the hell up haha... 010607 ... Twisted reality is too stable...... what I mean is uuuuuuummmm that the future is unsure therefore a ummmmm an illusion as such.... is the past realitiy is th present just fucking me around? 010621 ... OA I stumbled upon the philosopher's stone... i had the veil of illusion pulled out... and was confronted... by the many levels of energy and many realms of consciousness which were available to man..I opened the pandora's box... of multiple realities 010621 ... me doesn't exist 010623 ... BrittStar i'm living in reality but what really is reality? i am normal i live a normal life but why does this world seem so fake? so distant? so superficial? i guess i'm not living in reality how could i be so blind? how come i never saw this before? why did it have to end this way? 010906 ... kx21 The_Memory_of_The_Universe... 010907 ... BioHazzard In a world only as chaotic as you and I make it I find myself to be breathlessly drowning in a reality of madness and hate Mixed emotions of everyone and everything have lead me to understand one principle if you are to survive this true test of humanity we call home Then trust in yourself is all you need For the next person will only do the same before they are consumed by their differences and stab you in the back for the mere pleasure of taking that one extra step over you Crooked doctors, crooked officials, crooked fathers, crooked mothers in a world where anything is possible and not everything is insured Chaos feeds on the true reality of what it is to be human The Sin, Which is followed by the Secret, which inevitably turns into Paranoia, Which is of course fixed with a series of sins usually worse than the first one, Is this what it is to be alive? Is this what it is to be Human? Only human we keep on telling our selves, most advance species on this planet...... can't see past color, can't look past our own shadows.... HUMANITY, in its true grace. 010914 ... Toxic_Kisses The problem with reality is the lack of background music 011013 ... reitoei one slender thread between me and real. fraying away, sliding across the edges of my mind. sometimes all i can say is it isn't real, it isn't real. I don't like the real. go away go away. leave to dream in peace 011020 ... Norm ignorance_is_bliss 011020 ... futility beautiful, transcendent, harsh, indescribable, painful, honest... The reason that I immerse myself in daydreams, and the reason I look up at the morning sky and smile. Now is all there is, we can accept it and embrace it, or hunt for the moments of perfection that may exist in some far-off future. 011021 ... kx21 New Matter(s) = Action(s) / reaction(s) other Matter(s)... 011205 ... kx21 Cow_mu... 011205 ... reitoei is it real? does it matter? 011227 ... shhiva is the ideia that have about reality real?? or is it just an illusion? 011229 ... Fire&Roses most of our reality we make ourselves the rest of it is thrust upon us... none of it is good. 011230 ... phil takes a long time to imagine 020111 ... Mahayana reality re-ality ality & ality again real-i-ty real-i-Thank You reality was a real fuck-up so they had to ality and ality again and again till they got it just right [reality is just ur illusion] [[wanna sawp sometime]] [[[perhaps]]] 020111 ... calypso calling True sadness comes from the realization that your dreams won't come true... 020111 ... TK Lacking spell checker What I'm perpetualy running from I hide in the shadows every now and than to ceatch my breath but it's ever so closely niping @ my heals 020112 ... kx21 The ripples of Soul(s), Sense(s), sensor(s) / string(s)... 020115 ... rockstar is cruel, but for some reason, it's bearable when your with me 020126 ... kx21 The shadoow(s) of Matters... 020127 ... kx21 The shadow(s) of Matters... 020127 ... optic discretion Reality is that which we try so hard to escape, enchanted by our dreams, but realizing each time that reality is impossible to escape. 020128 ... kx21 Reality - Illusion = ? 020128 ... ...ooo... wake up! WAKE UP. stop stalling, its all real. what are you waiting for? what are you scared of? 020206 ... squillo more_rabbit more_skydiving 020206 ... amada to put it bluntly... reality is... if i were a lost boy, i sure wouldn't be flying 020312 ... Adyana There's no such thing. What one person construes as reality can be total fiction to another. Reality is for the fools and crazies of the world, not I. Not us... 020526 ... one sensed a make believe fortress for those who rely on it being so, a hard coping problem for those who think of it as make believe, especially if in their own heads their belief of its illusion is truly justified, does justification come above personal preferance? not in their eyes. 020529 ... blake aaaaaaaaah 020529 ... oon i'll ask mornckton 020529 ... PEACELOVESHEEP bites. 020627 ... zulu I wish reality wasn't 020628 ... J im almost positive th@ the drug you and i have been lookin for doesnt even exist out there on those pArAdOx pLainZ. i think we've had it here within us all along. that infinite, unavoidable, inevitable binge. the sweetest and most intense of all AdDiCtiOnZ. the one you will never kick...cuz you know better than th@. 020912 ... phil fuck you it's just a name let me try again to go insane lost without memory 020912 ... kx21 M_Bubble or M_species of past & present... 020913 ... ... www.deadjournal.com/users/velcrokitty someones been stealing your stuff! 020914 ... Rickster Reality is a nice place to visit but I wouldn't wanna live there. Friend told me that a while back, I agree. Fuck reality. 021225 ... tricky i've noticed that people don't like to see reality. they only like to see the way things should be. this is where things go downhill. it is a dangerous thing to ignore how things really work and then to say what it should be, instead of acknowledging what is truly there. and everyone does it. but this is not to say that it's bad to describe how things should be. that's how we improve our world. wow i'm very contradictory tonight. does anyone understand me? 021225 ... Rickster Tricky my friend, I do not think reality is something you cannot see. I believe it is something we choose not to see, I think most are scared of what reality is. When you embrace reality does it embrace you back? When you apply reality to your life, does it apply itself to you back? With existence being the one thing we have in common, how can we not see that reality could just be a definition thats meant for fairy tales. Nothing is real, or as it seems, everything has a dark-side eager to be keen. There is a constant pull of darkness and light, within ourselves, its a constant fight. Reality I believe can be said differently, because we each crave to create our own, better place then what was offered to us. If this is the case, then how can reality exist when we are the ones that make it for ourselves? 021226 ... *silent screams I despise reality. Itz always waiting in the dark shadows of your thoughts... always waiting to jump outta no where and say HA!... *welcome* to my reality... the one place.... ...where reality doesn't exist 021229 ... phil what ARE you doing here? 030204 ... voyager filling up my travel bag for when i escape velocity not just eternity but infinity 030204 ... Sarta your chaotic misrepresentations forged a perfect reality setting us up to fall... 030524 ... starboy i resond in a way that i think pleases me to something i cannot be sure exists. what do you do? 030723 ... ashmanzhou *reality feels to me dream or take away *like a dead thing from what i see *a carcase of a greater whole i need not to be in pity *which doth elude me as it pains thee to read *in the recoil of my self and soul my creed the simple need to be *i feel complete i am sated alone and in my self society *nothing detract from my own which is the last insanity in me *i doth not know it now for thou hast torn free of all bounds to finally breathe 030723 ... kd the totality of arse 030729 ... nihility ...Mooncalf in a moribund state, reality can not last... 030730 ... that>one>there there in no reality, only of that that is perceived 030801 ... xXShadow_GoddessXx Reality...the truth locked inside the dark... 030810 ... TK stoeing away on the train hopeing to ceatch a ride to an alternate reality, don't care witch one really, maybe this one will be better, who knows I might even see you there. 030915 ... metamantrg why is this train so hard to get into or not noto I hear one know should I get on I think Ill stay right here for my gram needs me will be there tonight and maybe for longer why is it ever once in a while I think to come here your here 030915 ... Toxic_Kisses Reality is always here, I suppose it's up to us on how to handle it 030915 ... Ni that which i cannot accept or rather that which my mind will not let me accept until i become strong enough to force it to 030925 ... BiZzY A place I'd like to visit sometime... 030926 ... Markafterdark sometimes its not my friend...sometimes it just has to set in...sometimes its sucks pretty bad...sometimes I wake up and im living it... 030928 ... pobodys nerfect thinking about my current reality cannot give me the same stress/boredom/ "calgon-(PLEASE!!)take-me-far-far-away- from-my-current-life" no worries relief that the world of daydreaming can. Which is probably why I choose to think less and less about the present, choosing instead to imagine how it COULD be. My alternate reality... 030928 ... xyz it's a brilliant thing. 031228 ... kegger realilty what is it? Is it where your mind stays or your body plays. HHMMM 040112 ... zeke Reality Sandwiches 040112 ... pansy no more shadows no more imagination only pure reality brutal truth it’s much more safer more lively 040127 ... see: consensual_reality 040127 ... pd the reason why all the fairytales in your head will stay there, exactly like that- shadows from our personal Platonic worlds. 040127 ... pansy since true does not have to be likely to happen and easy to understand everything seems to be logical, seems to be true, seems to be human. what to do with shadows then - make them real, or just leave them alone and ignore? 040131 ... xhopeisnowherex check 040208 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl i look into the mirror and see my body it feels sometimes that im not in it i can see my eyes but they arent mine; i am just trapped inside a body i dont know i dont know if im even meant to be in this body i look out at the world through windows i scream and pound at the walls that keep me hidden my soul - locked inside a cage of flesh scratching clawing trying to escape to show the world who i am; but i cant escape. another day goes by, i am defeated shut away where no one will ever know me lost. 040208 ... jenny enny dots i escape from it always i do not like it there at all it must be a paradise that i can't find because i'm lost i do believe i'll run into it someday but how will I know that i'm staring at reality in the flesh 040208 ... Prajnagupta OM Vajrasattva Hum 040224 ... Expand I laugh because i found you today, the real you. I cry because your not what I saw before. You were what I wanted to see, and today... today reality. I still want to smile at you and have you there smiling back, but please never touch my soul again, and I will forever be... 040225 ... .fallen an illusion.... a powerful ..... visceral ... throbbing .....tangible ..... illusion .... and our realities are not the same ... kaleidoscope 040226 ... ethereal i laugh because you were my reality. now i see. you were just a dream. 040226 ... Unbridled Into this expanse we fall, fleetingly yet unwillingly, always expecting more. 040315 ... Gekiganer 3 many times ppl say reality sux, and true reality as a whole is one giant oxymoron it still exists no matter wut u say or do, and i will say wut i belive and i dont know if any one will read this but i think reality is simple to cage and bind, for reality is how u make it! the future is a blank ticket and u can make it how ever u wish it to b! if u have done bad to any one or any thing u can still change, nothing is forever for the past no longer exist and the *common qoute* future is now! bind reality and make it how u want it to b! i hope i have spread hope and love in this world with this blather! 040326 ... emily is a perception. there is no such thing as reality seeing as your reality and my reality are two totally and irrecrobly differnt things. the reality you knwo and live in cannot possibly be teh same as mine. what you know and what you see is a realoty only to you, not to anyone else, my realoty my view on life is not like any others. realioty is a deception. but is it used to control our views on life or is it used to make us realise our boundries and extend them 040429 ... love & hate Reality does not exist. It never has and never will. It is just something people made up so they have something to believe in, so they can make sense of their ordinary boring existance. Reality is just a word, a simple word like god. Reality cannot be lost for it was never there in the first place. It is non-existant and is just something made up in your head that you choose to believe. When something happens, your head determines whether it is reality or not. Reality is a very unsafe place as it does not exist and those who believe it does, are already dead. The walking dead amoung us who do not realise their own reality does not exist. 040429 ... ethereal You could never know what my reality truly is, so stop trying to guess. 040429 ... minnesota_chris reality doesn't exist until you have bills that you can't pay. Then, reality comes and slaps you in the face. 040429 ... dosquatch Amen. is looking for a job. 040429 ... fortune_cookie Reality is just a crutch for people who can't handle science fiction. 040429 ... xxshadow_goddessxx The reality; look into the reflection to another day don't allow yourself to fear because reality is here to stay The reality; just another fabric to existance, just another lonely world, everything that spins inside is just another spiral in a swirl, all things are illusion, reality is never real... some need to pull away to feel the fabric of existance fray The reality; is just another dream, just another darkened beam, false images that have come and gone, just another lonely dawn... ...a false reality it is... 040530 ... pete pass the parcel over here we sing our lives we sing our cares away the day is new, so end it please the night will come and we will wash away away again into the silent tears of our lonely dreams, that reality that strives to be that new horse riding into the fading seas again the band starts to play, the day gives itself away and we run through the grass as it soaks our pants in the late night (so late that its early) dew we smile and spin, climbing up again to that highest note knowing that our lonely dreams will soon return us to this reality we seek to see again... 040531 ... BLK jesus BLACKS AND JEWS.......the only races in heaven. 040630 ... Joy Either everything is real, or nothing is, or something can be both real and unreal at the same time. We live (REALLY) in a mix of reality, unreality, surreality, hiperreality, hiporeality, virtual reality, retroreality, and more. 040707 ... self Reality is what we exist in the current now, ever creating our own creative realities. Why would I want someone else’s realities, when truly altruistically I create my own pleasure and learning realities to expand self. 041023 ... andru235 a concrete monstrosity of nonsense for those whose truths are abstract those who think they know "true reality" are the most deluded of all 050101 ... jumpforjade real or not, everything exists, because all things have to exist to not exist. for example, unicorns live in the minds of hoards of young girls around the world, not to mention in tv shows, books, artwork, etc, but we all know they dont fly around in reality. thus, only because our knowledge of what a unicorn is exists in our minds, we know that they do not exist. if a unicorn truly did not exist, then it could not not exist, because it never existed in the first place. 050818 ... jay jay you look so good in blue...then i turn the page 050916 ... stork daddy is reality and human intelligibility coextensive? 050917 ... *Amy* too cruel sometimes, withering.. 050918 ... anonimo Reality is a figment of everyone's imagination collectively and also of its own imagination 060421 ... hsg reality is what we believe with all our heart. 071022 ... ... Speak not of it! 071022 ... Syrope i feel like you just skim by on the surface of reality - so that no one thinks you're completely insane, but yet you don't have to deal with anything real. anything too real, i guess. the way you just STATE things that are obviously way oversimplified and idealistic...sometimes it's endearing, but today it was just getting to me. maybe because i'd been drinking, but i just am so tired of you getting to decide when the rules of logic apply and when they don't. i see your insecurities - and i don't mean this in a mean way, because the only way i can spot them is because i have been there, so many times - and it pisses me off that you can't see them yourself. and that you surround yourself with people who will play to your sick idea of yourself. i guess because i was ..am so painfully aware of mine, i want you to be aware of yours. so in the midst of being disgusted, i'm ashamed of how selfish it all seems. should i let you be "happy"? even if "happy" means you believe these lies until you can't any more, and then you just insist that the lies were different lies to begin with, to accomodate the NEW "happy"? 080226 ... jazna If only I could pick up the unfinished stories reality gives me and write my own ending, one that satisfies my wishes. But then it wouldn't be reality. Reality needs to screw you over. 080518 ... Passer by noticed that Today, a young man on acid, realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration. That we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves. 090519 ... unhinged is different for everyone what i choose to acknowledge and perceive is so different from anyone else in my life no matter how close i might think we are. the way we alter reality; the choices we make. letting_go of unhealthy intersections, overlap. probably needs to be sleeping_alone for awhile 100812 ... unhinged my interpertation of us probably came across as harsh to you but all our months of dancing around and never quite getting to it wore down my patience enough for me to be direct we didnt hold similar enough meanings of the words 'friend' 'relationship' we were both too afraid to be honest but to this day i have no idea what you were afraid of 130809 ... Rhohypnol tearing apart your body like you tore apart my soul, this oily copper coat protects me from cold reality. revenge is not always sweet. 131214 ... Phil Everything is round and spinning. 240313 ... dafremen Yep. 240314 ... leahcar Hit me like a speeding truck. 240328 what's it to you? who go blather from