paranoia kittenqueen NO NO! and there's no one who'll listen to the fear that is within you... and you don't want to go because they don't care but you don't want to stay because they don't care so where do you go when the menacing stares come too close and too close and the evening just ends 000127 ... girl i find myself looking over my shoulder and hiding from large groups of people. 000326 ... magic mushroom i should really stop using these .it could get worse??? 000327 ... Seequetruth yea, I will get worse, and worse...and wosre. Then you don't know, you just don't know. And people look at you a little different, and it's hard to understand what you are saying or what you are thinking at times. Masive confusion and tramendous paranoia, it's great when you can't look at yourself in the mirror and say what you see coz you are to blind to see yourself. oF course I'm being sarcastic, but not really. I jus wish I could collect a thought. I'd act as if it was a very rare baseball card and put it in plastic to preserve it. Or maybe I'd forget about it and let myself get lost in another paranoid trip...but what fun would that be, I can go on a paranoid trip with out eating a mushroom now! Does it matter? No, not to you, but I'm not writing this for you! I'm writing this for me, as a thought that has been colected and preserved on a harddrive somewhere. My psyche has once again emerged from it's cacoon delaying it from full tranformation and developement. Hahahahaha, I laugh at modern society and don't wonder why incidents like Columbine Happen...I think we all know why things like that happen, only the press asks why...fuck the press. Fuck you and your criticism, and your parents for breeding. 000430 ... hak not if they really don't like you. like when you find out that they REALLY don't like you. it's not paranoia anymore, it's the fuckin' truth. don't you understand? when they _REALLY_ don't fuckin' like you anymore - it's the damn truth then. it ain't paranoia - it's the truth. but what can you do about it? 000516 ... amorfus just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get you. 000517 ... amorfus s violent man dies a violent death. 000517 ... moonshine When you think all the birds are laughing at you or is that just ego? 000617 ... whirligirl i dunno! i give up! what's the answer? or the question, even. and enough paranoid fantasy already! ... did you send that snake over my body or was that just "wish fulfillment"? let's write a book, or make a movie or something. 000618 ... moonshine you amaze me 000618 ... silentbob I hate being paranoid! it's like watching a terrible suspense film that no matter how it ends, you're still not going to be satisfied because of this terrible sense of angst. I can never get anything accomplished because we're always paranoid someones going to walk in. 000618 ... MollyGoLightly "accomplished?" that's an interesting way to put it. locking the door will generally solve that problem. 000618 ... miniver A soul in every trodden-upon blade of grass. An aspiration in every squished bug. A sorrow in every less hugged teddy bear. A magic in each missed meteorite. Thunk. How different would your life be, if you'd slept in for 2 more minutes on February 23, 1987? If you'd stopped in the street, today, and wriggled your toes, or perhaps just stood silently for a moment, and then kept on. Or if you'd only blinked...wait... NOW! (instead of then, just before that). I don't care, though. Fuck ya. Energuice. 000618 ... MollyCule I'm always paranoid, upon returning home in the middle of the night and walking into my garage, that some anonymous crazed killer has followed me in and will kill me before I can get into the house. I can never decide what would be better - to leave the door up until i open the house door, or put it down. Because if I close the garage door, he could be trapped inside with me. And if I leave it open, it could give him a greater chance to get inside while I'm unlocking the door. I dunno. maybe I should just try to find my housekeys so I can go in throught the front door. 001012 ... j_blue i cant beleive in your "funny feelings" they'r too dead on y didnt you have them before how come you werent psychic until after you had a reason to eaves drop i hate what you have done 001211 ... Hallkwik PARANOIA! PARANOIA! EVERYBODY'S COMING TO GET MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! 010311 ... for20 Angel when the eyes are burning into the back of your head and you turn around and then nothing is there and nobody is walking near you but the feeling is still there and all you can do is!!!....... all you can do is nothing. 010317 ... milky there is no paranoia at all... in fact, there is allways someone following us with some kind of twisted intentions 010716 ... ares "its like a whirlwind inside of my head" from linkin park's song about paranoia strangely enough the song is called papercut still a cool song tho 011110 ... TiffanyLeigh I think Ares, if he ever visits this page again, should have paranoia that someone is following him. I fully intend to do this until i see that he has noticed. Mwuahahah!!! 011203 ... ClairE I think I'm paranoid...a sucky song. Very grateful I am not. It hits a little too close to home for me. 011203 ... Bizzar The only sounds I could hear were the rain on my windows and the leaky faucet My thoughts were so much louder than the thundercrashing outside -they were of you the weather matched my mood perfectly You dont know what you mean to me or what Id sacrafice to keep you satisfied Please dont let go Im on my knees bleeding for you And your silence speaks so much louder than your eyes 020601 ... andrew If you were oblivious to it's presence then it would not be there. Maybe i want it be there, maybe it is created whenever you challenge what you think is real. 020602 ... ares ok, i noticed i'd be scared... if it hadn't taken me two years to notice 030323 ... - that is what my name means .. 030323 ... Marjorie It could have. I mean it might have. There was no telling really. And I curled up on the bed And watched it all move You went around Long and lean and back And my face distorted And I thought I might be stuck in the stories in my head forever. But it was only two minutes That seemed like ten 030717 ... jane they're after me... they're after me... they're after me... 030717 ... They yes, we are. 030717 ... jane fuck! you found me!! 030717 ... They you can run, but you can't hide. 030717 ... User24 almost impossible on blather; you always know who's saying what (unless they use tbttrc or morse_code) and you can find out who's been talking about you by, for instance, going to http://blather.newdream.net/cgi-bin/blather?refs;word=user24 it's nice that blather's so open. 031010 ... me?im billi lol ur all freaks ur so stupid no ones after you are you stupid?GO OUTSIDE AND PLAY DUMBASS NO ONES GUNNA KILL YOU 031011 ... cupcake some days i feel like everyone is watching me, and like people that are just talking are talking about me does that make me paranoid?? 031106 ... Whitechocolatewalrus Paranoid about many things, paranoid that no one likes me, that its all just a show, just a dream, a show to somehow make them feel better about fooling someone who thinks they care. Do people really care about anyone but themselves? I mean really, I am not pretty, or funny, and Im not really that nice, so why do I have friends? I mean I really am paranoid, Dear God I need to stop thinking so much. 031106 ... Smurf I keep thinking people are trying to read my mind. But I never tell anyone that. 040419 ... fortune cookie Don't look back, the lemmings are gaining on you. 040420 ... broken__ 1. Fact: I hate me. 2. Logically, others hate me too. 3. Fact: Others appear to show affection, kindness. 4. Logically, because they really hate me, they are showing kindness merely as a plan to exploit me. O, how I loathe these inescapable thoughts! 040424 ... Smurf oooOOOooohhh. That sucks, Why do they hate you? I don't hate you. oh wait.. Yes I do. 040424 ... Smurf But for different reasons 040424 ... Ski I had visions, I was in them, I was lookin' into the mirror To see a little bit clearer The rotteness and evil in me. Finger tips have memories I can't forget the curves of your body And when i feel a bit naughty I run it up the flag pole and see, who still looks But no one ever does I'm, I'm not sick but I'm not well And I'm so hot Cause I'm in hell Been around the world And found that only stupid people are breeding Cretans cloning and feeding And I don't even own a TV Put me in the hospital for nerves And then they had to commit me She told them all I was crazy They cut off my legs now I'm an amputee God damn you. I'm, I'm not sick but I'm not well And I'm so hot Cause I'm in hell I'm, I'm not sick but I'm not well And it's a sin To live so well I wanna publish scenes And rage against machines I wanna pierce my tongue And it doesn't hurt it feels fine It could be your so blind I'd love to turn off time And kill my mind you kill my mind...... Ah! Paranoia! paranoia! Everybody's coming to get me Just say you never met me I'm running underground with the moles...digging holes Hear the voices in my head I swear to god it sounds like their snoring But if your poor and your boring The agony and the irony They're killing me well... I'm, I'm not sick but I'm not well And I'm so hot Cause I'm in hell I'm, I'm not sick but I'm not well And I'm so swell To live this well 050719 ... Sandman Weighted by the paranoias, he walked along his path until he decided to drop the stones from his pockets. one for pharmaceuticals, he could not afford to pay the apothecary a dime more. he continued, this time he knew for sure. then he found himself in a position where he nearly killed someone. the thoughts and fantasies of strangulation and stabbing, poisoning. he stopped again to collect. this time he dropped his cigarettes and his bottle. suddenly his footsteps were lighter he sprung and skipped. but yet his heart was heavy. as he went to drop his heart he felt the world become cold and dark. he decided then it was best to keep it and continue on his journey. 070814 ... Ryakoth strikes deep, into your mind it will creep, it starts when your always afraid step out of line, the man come and take you aaaway Paranoia too can be accepted with the help of arrogance, I'm sure everyone around me is out to steal my body mind and soul, but I'm also sure THEY CAN'T HAVE IT, NO I WON'T TAKE YOUR DRUGS OR DRUGGED FOOD OR DRUGGED TOOTHPASTE YOU MAY WATCH ME BUT I WATCH YOU BACK DO YOU REALLY WANNA QUESTION MY ACTIONS? because to do that you are going to have to make contact with me, and you know i can ruin your mind before you ruin mine, you know i know kung-fu, and magick, and psionics, and psychology, I'm strong enough to be a threat if you approach me, but not strong enough to attack you so if you keep away nobody gets hurt. you could try to swarm me but there is no guarantee it will work, no guarantee that i can't turn the crowd against you, no guarantee and conspirators like guarantees. If you think being a victim of the conspiracy brings fear try being a conspirator. they know we are more powerful than them, they know we watch them back as they watch us, and if you are onto their game you already have the upper hand. 100115 ... Lonbot I believed I was no longer afraid then it suddenly returned 130912 ... Lonbot we are all in this together it is not your fault but it is your responsibility 130912 what's it to you? who go blather from