suddenly deb i looked up today- my world has changed dramatically within the span of a second how did i miss it? 991230 ... Joana. Suddenly I just realise how useless I can be and how annoyed I easily become with myself. Not a good thing to notice... since I'm weak enough to become depress over it. Nothing I do is consequential and so there's nothing in me that means something. I mean nothing. I mean nothing to you... or them. It's this 'nothing' that kills me... it's this uselessness that makes me feel so terribly. I want to embrace the world and yet I do nothing to achieve that. Ambitions? None. 000303 ... pop bollocks 011216 ... ClairE Johnny gets a feeling he's being surrounded by horses horses horses horses... 011216 ... one birdmad never begins last summer 011217 ... yummychuckle pushpins and squint and with one comment suddenly everything i have ever written looks like the worst crap i have ever laid my eyes on, or even processed through my brain. 020604 ... phil quoteth Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be There's a shadow hanging over me Oh, yesterday came suddenly 020731 ... optic discretion i realize that searching is useless. 030322 ... kss just when you thought you were okay you aren't 030511 ... Nathan88 he screams from pure frustration and wakes his mom up ont his mothers day but he could give a fuck less cuz today will suck anyways 030511 ... jane it should be sudden, something nobody expects. something that makes you happy. 030705 ... endless desire Suddenly, that feeling flows all over my body. Like the ants. . .all of them in their trails around my house. Oh I do grow tired of those ants. They crawl in my sleep and as I awake I feel that feeling. The tingling one where I am not here anymore. Just walking, step after step. Oh again? Haven't I felt this way before? Slipping on false ground, deep inside myself--no one else. I don't mind being alone. . . there are too many close ones to be alone. Loneliness is my own laziness. Self help is the game I play. Pity parties put to an end. Time to live, breath, smile. Suddenly, I push through, and, while, it's never easy, I am not alone. Suddenly, there is nothing better than never being alone. Suddenly, the sun feels warmer and this time, I don't mind. 030818 ... Spare Change Suddenly but unsuprising the sun breaks through the clouds to say, "Hold your head up, everything will be ok." The sun is shining and I am sad. I don't even know the way. All the places I used to go to, all my memories washed away. All the world is fading slowly, leaving me without a soul. The sun is behind the coulds again, someone help me I feel so cold. Suddenly but unsuprising rain is rolling down my face, it leaves it's mark beneath my eyes, I've never felt so out of place. I'm not crying though I should, I keep it all inside, the rain can't touch my hidden feelings, the rain won't kill my pride. Suddenly but unsuprising you come once more from where you've been, not to comfort, not to love, just to lay a platitude on those already worn thin. Your eyes are cold like always, i can't even here your heart. I think it's time we part ways and never come back again. So I'll be sad in the sunshine, I'll be sad in the rain we'll wear our misery like badges and hope you come back again. 030819 ... Road i look over my shoulder, i see a non descript car behind me about three deep. Shit, I'm being followed. Time for the loop de loop. pedal to the metal. And I'm outta here. 031015 ... estarocks how sudden is suddenly. is it instentaneous? suddenly, i realize i spelled that wrong... 040612 ... tomaz falling into the water realizing the coldness is piercing your skin, mind going numb and losing touch with reality as you sink conscious enough to know you suddenly made a mistake 041031 ... skyburst777 sad 050608 ... skyburst777 & scared 050608 ... skyburst777 nothing_is_sudden 050608 ... . i'm not half the man i used to be 050609 ... oblique Is inspiration. 060224 ... hsg shift 081009 ... In_Bloom That's how it goes 081009 ... squishyfish squishyfish 101205 ... foyoy foyoy 110930 what's it to you? who go blather from