loneliness me? Love is only loneliness Divided by another Love is only living for the lonely Love is only loneliness Divided by another And I know that life is lonely 991111 ... BoofPixie is for those who take themselves too seriously. 000308 ... reviuquer thou art more female than male (for example, posts today on girls and women) 000326 ... silentbob Loneliness is my constant friend. whenever i have no one else, i know loneliness will always be there for me. Loneliness is the one person it seriously wouldn't matter if i told "Fuck Off" too, and believe me, i've tried. it doesn't work. 000604 ... michael like a tiger with a big slab of intimacy to chase away the loneliness, but it can't be caught and is always hiding in the hurting. 001224 ... j_blue when i was 8 years old, i was listening to the depeche_mode song, somebody, off of my sister's record, some_great_reward, and realized that i was going to spend most of my life alone. its funny, but that was only true for a little while. these days i am in demand, obligation sucks. anyway, whatever 001224 ... Barrett if you are alone on Christmas, please avoid listening to Pink Floyd The Wall. I do it to torture myself, but that's just me... 001224 ... florescent light My mouth is dry It lingers in the anticipation of water And I am lonely- I tell myself I shouldn't be It's not socially correct to feel lonely. I convince everyone around me of my happiness; including myself. But when night comes and I am alone the thirst plagues me. And when I do have some water oh how it poisons. And suddenly tastes bland - quenching my thirst- I knock over the cup in frustration. And I revel in my new found freedom. Until my soul thirsts for more. Always wanting what I can't have. Happiness is unattainable. 010125 ... birdmad message_in_a_bottle 010125 ... Dafremen ...is my best friend. Guess we all die alone at the end. THEY'LL be lonely, I'm with an old friend. Guess the last laugh is mine in the end. 010216 ... G_wiz13 something suffered by many. I can be around a large group of people and still feel Lonely.Its because hardly anyone understands me. there are 3 people who really understand me. they are my best freind shawn(Thyarshallshant) my girlfreind Susie and one of my other freinds. 010216 ... ? I will never experience lonliness As long as you are with me I can breath for you Smile for you Live for you As long as you don't leave me I will never be lonely 010314 ... Joseph It was only 1am and I just got home, Tonight my girl was out so I got home alone, I walked through my door and just stood there starring - at my empty life through a switched off television, I sat in bed and just watched tv, its one way to help me feel not so lonley, cant sleep or rest, feeling really alone Its 4 am now I pick up the phone Cant get hold of my sweet on her mobile phone. I go to call my girl at home, I feel so bad, I feel so alone Theres no reply, maybe she's out, I wait a while I have a doubt I try her on her mobile again, she picks up - what can I say? She talks to me and asks whats up, I say to her "not much" Couldn't sleep, just tossing and turning since I got in Her voice begins to settle me in. The next day we speak, "hi, whats up?" She's upset with me cos she thinks I was checking up, I wasn't at all, just lonley you see How can I tell her that, she'll think I'm a weed? What can I say, what can I do, I'm empty and lost and lonley too. 010610 ... nemo i'm lonely, so fucking lonely. its just something that wont leave me alone untill i've found a way to kill it or be killed by it......... (evil, yet confused, laugh) 010611 ... kingsuperspecial pick one - suffer the feeling of being pulled apart by chaining you legs and arm to the bumpers of 4 Cummins 10 wheel dump trucks going 4 different directions go through life needing desparately to know that someone loves you unconditionally and will never betray you, while at the same time knowing with ever fiber of your being that this will never happen because nobody can be trusted that deeply, that no matter what they say or do, they will some day turn and abandon you. 010721 ... Photophobe_burning If only we had that choice. Funny, though. If I were to offer the painful violent death option to you, and you accepted, I'd go to jail. :) Stupid clouds on my shoulders. I'll never be lonely when I'm full of dark energy. But is pain by angst really preferable to pain by lonliness? I can't decide. I'll bear the driving force for as long as I need to. Then I'll be lonely and weak again, until I can pick up the helltrail again. 010721 ... Casey It and I are now almost like one being. I no longer try to run from it, but embrase it. And I can't run from it. I know it will follow me where ever I go. I have to face it head on. I am cursed with it, so I might as well make the most of it. Maybe I should take up origami. 010721 ... Gollum when your hand falls asleep while you're masturbating. 010721 ... transatlantic ..is when you are crying inside but the room is full of happy people 010820 ... Shugarhi Loneliness is just a highway of painful thoughts and remorse is just a way of letting go. 010920 ... oh in love i want you. but do you want me? 011005 ... nah....! unbelievably agonizing. 011113 ... Aimee emptyness is loneliness and loneliness is cleanliness and cleanliness is godliness and god is empty, just like me. 011114 ... j_blue sometimes i think you are a drug sometimes a death sentence i used to assume that most people grow to be happy now i think that happiness (and satisfaction) are things we really must be concerned with i see too many people struck ill by loneliness, and wish that circumstance would allow me to take it from them 020129 ... schroedinger I don't know why I'm so afraid afraid to be alone in the world because it's all about me my world - my life - my thoughts my hopes - my choices - my dreams but what are these without another I love you 020324 ... no reason the cottage felt so surreal...spent the entire weekend being happy and not lonely and realizing and remembering what it was like. then i came home, and everything is back the way it was and has been for so long. makes it harder now to accept things the way they are, when i had a sweet taste of what they could be. 020527 ... Eric I get lonely sometimes. 021016 ... Chase everything lost nothing gained nothing changed still the same except for the death felt in every breath this is life this is sorrow maybe it'll all be a dream tommorow probally not but i will cope after all there's always hope 030201 ... cube "The lonely one offers his hand too quickly to whomever he encounters." (Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche) ³ 030202 ... theonegodforgot Always looking for something, but always ending up with nothing. Mistakes will be made, the past will sometimes shade, but will forever remain. "this quote means something different for every person, hope it helps you in some way" 030212 ... delial how to fight loneliness: smile all the time shine your teeth til meaningless and sharpen them with lies and whatevers going down will follow you around thats how you fight loneliness you laugh at every joke drag your blanket blindly and fill your heart with smoke and the first thing that you want will be the last thing you ever need that's how you fight it just smile all the time 030319 ... drunk with rum and lonely lovely confusion How is it possible to be lonely when you're not alone? Why? It's not fair. When you have someone, you shouldn't be alone. But I was...I was so deeply, inexplicably alone. I still am, but now I'm supposed to be. Now I really am alone. But before, he was there. I spent every day and night with him. We were always together, but I was alone. He was there, but he wasn't really there. He didn't hold me the same way as he used to, he didn't talk to me with the same tone, or look at me with that amazing look he used to give me. He didn't want me. There was no desire, no romance anymore. No love...and an intense love at the same time. I loved him, maybe I still do. I don't know. I just know that I'm lonely...and I know that he is too, well I think he is. Maybe not, I don't know. But I miss him. Loneliness is such a horrible feeling. 030604 ... jane eats away from the inside like acid but you don't know it's there until it's too late 030605 ... Mahayana at times like tonight i wish things were the way they used to be that i was loved by the friends i used to have... i made a sacrifice between my friends and for a woman i loved ... it was always just her and i and thats the way she perferred it ...and i didnt mind after i got used to it... years went on and i thought i had made the better choice and as time went on even further i questioned my actions... we were partners and best friends ... time went on and so did she ... i lost not only a partner but my best friend, my only friend. although if i hadnt perhaps taken those wrong actions i wouldnt be with the one i love now ... however, i cant help but to wonder and esp. on certain nights when im alone, its late, and i just need to hear the comforting voice of someone i love and that someone who loves me ... i really miss my friends ... maybe nights like these wouldnt hurt as much if you were here with me, my love, but you are not and i understand that you wont be able to till approx 11-12 months from now ... on nights like these though i hardly feel worthy enough to even live anymore and she once told me that she was surprised i could live without her, im surprised that i lived at all, im still surprised im still living... im doing more then well in school- im growing in ways i never thought i could, yet im still so alone and just wanting to feel loved [to feel love-able] to feel love [& my words are lacking, & the flow is jagged, not even worthy enough for blather anymore... living is going through the motions going through the motions when i dont wanna stop long enough to see the reflections] its all a blur all a blur 030606 ... poul gunner exner loneliness is for one person only. and i take your hand and my fingers are like foreign coins in your palm i have payed for your body i have payed for mine with a language we don`t understand 030607 ... a sweet girl i owe you then 030607 ... minnesota_chris re: drunk with love, etc. above Loneliness disappears when you have someone who cares about you, wants to know how you are feeling. Someone who would come to your funeral and actually feel bad that you're gone. And spend time with that person. It's possible to be sleeping with someone and still have nobody who cares. 030607 ... /anon i always feel lonely even if i have someone. im defective 030607 ... Meridian She wanted the attention. She had expected it. But she didn't get it. So now she was out spending money to make herself feel better. She was on the net. She was blathering. She was running away, because she was lonely. Self pity. Guilt enveloped her. As usual, the solution was right there, but inside a titanium can. 030607 ... endless desire it seems that when i am the loneliest, i learn the most about myself. i guess i try to think about that when sadness overwhelms me. i just try to think. . . that good must come of this. that something good must come from everything. but sometimes, when you are down, that is just a lie. happiness itself is a lie. all lies. and i am just feeding the lies to myself. using them as a crutch. religion and happiness. crutches. one for my right arm one for my left arm. and if i didn't have them, i'd fall flat on my face and never get up again. i don't wish to spend time with the worms in the ground, but rather, the sky and the clouds and the sun. so i will use my crutches. ignorance_is_bliss? or denial? 030607 ... Jacqueline Your words express my inner most feelings... 030727 ... Syrope there just comes a point when it's not that bad it's not as bad as letting you make me feel this way about myself i thought we could be lonely together but you deserve everything you get 031023 ... xyz it's liberating. 031106 ... quinn echoes down an empty hallway the tears dried on her face as she stood in the doorway wringing her hands hopelessly "i feel like i really loved you" he never looked back not once 031205 ... apathy king there is nothing colder than a vietnamese girls heart 031214 ... girl_jane is an illness 031215 ... ofsuch so cold 040430 ... Derghaust Solitude is the reward for loneliness. 040507 ... J is stewwwwpid. 040508 ... _alone & lost_ loneliness keeps me company loneliness teaches me how to not feel........ i mean..... not feel at all...... anything...... loneliness helps me to become invisible loneliness tells me to turn out all the lights and curl up in a corner loneliness is a nice feeling loneliness is only a nice feeling after you get used to it loneliness is the essence of being alone in the world without anyone to trust loneliness is my best friend right now...... 040522 ... hsgatincamail sistinas 040613 ... pansy -I beg you, leave me alone -I’m by your side because I love you – Me, the Loneliness who guides you 040625 ... ben is jamin now!!! loneliness is only bad when you hate yourself. when you love yourself, then you will love loneliness. but when you love yourself, your never lonely... 041107 ... sab im so tired of feeling like a fucking teenager feel like fucking a teenager? Dont Get Caught unless your one too i guess is too tired to make much sence 041107 ... magicforest . 041107 ... broken.words I suffer, lonely; Nobody knows who I am, But would they want to? 041214 ... blown cherry somebody will always want to know. That's what I'm telling myself at the moment anyway. 041214 ... starrydrmr I can only fathom for a moment how I would feel if someone didn't want to share me, if someone became jealous if aother guy touched my hand, if someone was there to protect me, if someone was with me at night just to simply hold me and watch me sleep. Such a love as that is a fleeting whisper that vanishes with reasonable doubt that I can never experience these feelings. And after these dreams are gone, I'm left with sadness and fear. Why does it have to be this way? Things get so complicated so quickly, yet, they seem so simple. 050105 ... hermit crab the price one pays for independence 050113 ... Geoff McFetridge Loneliness. The hidden radiance which dwells in every existing thing. 050314 ... phil impatience. 050314 ... dreamer I'm not sure I truly know loneliness. I'm not entirely sad about that fact. It's not that I've never been left out or ignored, I just never cared that I have been looked over or not loved. I live my life in spite of such things. I ignore being ignored. 050315 ... The Man Who Can Not Write loneliness is such a drag. but ive gotten used to it, and i can be insane in myself without having to put up a facade for the people i would associate with. But you'd be lonely there too, true happiness is being lonely with 5 friends in a garage at 6 am on a cold morning drinking cheap booze and talking about bullshit, listening to music too loud and watching the sun come up over the tree, free to be yourself in all you imagined uglyness and insecurities. 060619 ... the awful truth the space between the stars the time between the bars the kids inside the cars the parents they have no idea the sadness in your eyes my questions, no replies your voice with little sighs and i have no idea the thoughts inside your head the lingering of dread the wishing you were dead and i still have no idea. the lines you draw with knives the pointlessness of lives everyone fucks, then dies still think i have no idea? i know, i've seen the carnage i've seen them up in arms and i've seen them drunk at parties smothering their bodies and taking off their clothes and driving blindly through the night sometimes forgetting to stop at traffic lights the end result, a burning car, or heart or wasted life so if you want to really hear me say the awful truth i could care less for me, my life, and all of you. 060620 ... the awful truth the space between the stars the time between the bars the kids inside the cars the parents they have no idea the sadness in your eyes my questions, no replies your voice with little sighs and i have no idea the thoughts inside your head the lingering of dread the wishing you were dead and i still have no idea. the lines you draw with knives the pointlessness of lives everyone fucks, then dies still think i have no idea? i know, i've seen the carnage i've seen them up in arms and i've seen them drunk at parties smothering their bodies and taking off their clothes and driving blindly through the night sometimes forgetting to stop at traffic lights the end result, a burning car, or heart or wasted life so if you want to really to hear me speak the awful truth i could care less for me, my life, and all of you. 060620 ... anothersylvia though this is quite and awfully true. i find disappointment in everything but you. 060620 ... somebody most of the time i am content to be alone but it begins to weigh upon me that i am to work work work with little or no prospect of finding the thing i seek most, namely the love of some unknown entity whose absence i feel most acutely and whose presence i have forseen in dreams and in my childhood and whom i see reflected in the corners of society but cannot find incarnate though i have searched and searched... where are you, and will i ever find you, this despair over your absence is unrelenting, and the worst part is i don't even know if you exist but resigning myself to your nonexistence is even worse than the torment of doubt, so i perservere in hopes that i will find you... 070228 ... ungreat loneliness and the dark are the only two fears i know i've had since i was a child, that persist today. It makes sence to fear the dark at least, things lurk and most crimes are committed at nite. but being alone, shouldn't i find solitude that i need no one else, shouldnt i be enough in my life? But i'm terrified that something is broken and that i will never find that missing piece in the big life puzzle, a piece that i would pretend isnt missing. 070810 ... f past is past - a wise man told me that. 070810 ... help me 070901 ... no reason i'm fucking sick of this recurring theme 091003 ... perfectly_chaotic Even in rooms full of people and in a relationship I still often feel unbearably alone. To think I used to get jealous when I saw people in relationships that looked happy from an outside perspective. In reality, there is no way of knowing what is really going on in someone else's inner life without their telling you and even then you cannot really know how they are spinning their truth, what they are holding back, what they are exaggerating, you will only see what you want to see and what is shown to you. Being with people and in relationships is only a small facet of the experience of this life, these sides of the jewel, shiny as they may be, are not in and of themselves happiness or the cause of happiness. In fact, though I cannot deny that they do at times bring happiness, they are often the cause of much pain and misery. Sometimes loneliness, when you are not experiencing it, can seem like a comforting thing because it is always there to be taken if you simply look for it. I need to remember that I have waited a long time to have a relationship like this one and it is not worth throwing it away over a few rough spots to purchase some more loneliness. The rough spots are just like the potholes on the path. If nothing else I am learning much about myself and the world from this relationship. Perhaps I can handle a few more potholes. Potholes are not a reason to jump out of the car. You would be stuck in the same place and still want to get out of it and then just have to walk or get back in the car or just sit there. Maybe a pothole would make a decent cushion. 150104 ... perfectly_chaotic Even in rooms full of people and in a relationship I still often feel unbearably alone. To think I used to get jealous when I saw people in relationships that looked happy from an outside perspective. In reality, there is no way of knowing what is really going on in someone else's inner life without their telling you and even then you cannot really know how they are spinning their truth, what they are holding back, what they are exaggerating, you will only see what you want to see and what is shown to you. Being with people and in relationships is only a small facet of the experience of this life, these sides of the jewel, shiny as they may be, are not in and of themselves happiness or the cause of happiness. In fact, though I cannot deny that they do at times bring happiness, they are often the cause of much pain and misery. Sometimes loneliness, when you are not experiencing it, can seem like a comforting thing because it is always there to be taken if you simply look for it. I need to remember that I have waited a long time to have a relationship like this one and it is not worth throwing it away over a few rough spots to purchase some more loneliness. The rough spots are just like the potholes on the path. If nothing else I am learning much about myself and the world from this relationship. Perhaps I can handle a few more potholes. Potholes are not a reason to jump out of the car. You would be stuck in the same place and still want to get out of it and then just have to walk or get back in the car or just sit there. Maybe a pothole would make a decent cushion. 150104 ... perfectly_chaotic Even in rooms full of people and in a relationship I still often feel unbearably alone. To think I used to get jealous when I saw people in relationships that looked happy from an outside perspective. In reality, there is no way of knowing what is really going on in someone else's inner life without their telling you and even then you cannot really know how they are spinning their truth, what they are holding back, what they are exaggerating, you will only see what you want to see and what is shown to you. Being with people and in relationships is only a small facet of the experience of this life, these sides of the jewel, shiny as they may be, are not in and of themselves happiness or the cause of happiness. In fact, though I cannot deny that they do at times bring happiness, they are often the cause of much pain and misery. Sometimes loneliness, when you are not experiencing it, can seem like a comforting thing because it is always there to be taken if you simply look for it. I need to remember that I have waited a long time to have a relationship like this one and it is not worth throwing it away over a few rough spots to purchase some more loneliness. The rough spots are just like the potholes on the path. If nothing else I am learning much about myself and the world from this relationship. Perhaps I can handle a few more potholes. Potholes are not a reason to jump out of the car. You would be stuck in the same place and still want to get out of it and then just have to walk or get back in the car or just sit there. Maybe a pothole would make a decent cushion. 150104 what's it to you? who go blather from