relationships Jehova Relationships with ones peers is a vital envolment with the moderm mind of the young 000718 ... nnk watch them sacrifice 010611 ... Butterfly Collector : None 010812 ... silentbob a fucked up tunnel of twisted despair my god look at how vulnerable you are 010813 ... Aimee are the root of all that's evil 010813 ... ellen cherry charles i decorate envelopes for you. colorful, random envelopes, hoping that they will explain, more than words, my feelings for you. i send them off, containing largely more mundane letters. we said we needed this distance, i thought the glass would clear-- i miss your laugh, your crinkly eyes, your smile, your voice, your silly jokes. but does this equation equal some sort of permanence? will you be a different person when i see you again? will i? all i feel right now is that the physical distance between us may be large, but the mental and emotional distance feels like the width of my chain that hangs around your neck (or did you take it off to sleep?) 020106 ... Fli "Man's love is of man's life a thing apart; 'tis woman's whole existence." Lord Bryon 020106 ... kerry can be saddening 020106 ... eddie monster me and my girl, we got this relationship i love her so bad, but she treats me like shit i'm locked down like a PENITENTIARY, she spreads her lovin all over and when she gets home, there's none left for me what am i gonna be doin for a WHILE, said i'm gonna play with myself eeevil come to tell you that she's evil most definitely eeevil come to tell you that she's evil most definitely 020722 ... louie dog ahem, you forgot the part about ornery and scandalous woof woof woof 020722 ... eddie needing a relationship based strictly on sexual gratification 020808 ... blamethesky every single one ends up badly of every single kind 020808 ... eddie no shit? 020808 ... She Likes the idea of a random relationship based solely on sexual gratifacation 020808 ... jane used to have a random relationship based solely on sexual gratification and what did it turn into? everything i didn't believe in and now sacrifice a piece of freedom for 020808 ... eddie monster talk dirty to me she for i am he who fullfills all fantasies of the she was a girl maybe 19 maybe 23 i was looking for a song i had just heard by nirvana, versechorusverse, i think its called. looking back i realize kurt was a, i don't really know what he was, but can only respect his devotion to every decision he made. (to all the readers who remember kurt "heavier than heaven" is a must read)anyways i found this place where i could say things without much consequence, i think its called blather; thats where i'm at right now. reading hearts that bleed their feelings from the keyboard to the screen; drinking a beer thats way too expensive. then i met she. we talked for a few days, and then we met. i picked her up and gave her the don juan treatment. you know dinner and flowers, a nervous kiss at the doorstep. "i had fun." "me too." "would you like to come up for a glass of wine." "sure, why not, i only have to get up at seven and work 10 hours so i can support my shitty existence." "what the hell." 020808 ... eddie she kept moaning fhhuuuuuuckckckckc me fhhhhuuuuuuuckckc me harder hhharder whispers of stale breath in my ear fhhhhuuuuck fffhhhuuckckck deeper harder oh yea baby fuck me like a dog stick it in my pussy stick it in deep rip that pussy thats your fuckin pussy huh? "yea, thats my fuckin pussy tonight. who's takin care of that pussy tonight.i'm gonna take good care of that pussy tonight." 020808 ... jane is that your idea of a relationship 020812 ... jane [clearly, i put no question mark because i wanted to leave it an open-ended question] 020812 ... eddie as i understand it refuse to clarify 020813 ... eddie monster my wounded heart rejects what loves reflects in pools of contaminated blood beating now and maybe again pumping tainted love from deep within threw my lungs punctured and scarred breathing the hate they're drowning in understand i beg of you what the fuck your getting into never love never feel like it's real like it did before 020813 ... unhinged what i want to say doesn't come out right what i haven't said eats me at night and it's all here written in blue find it if you dare you might not like what i have to say about you and that's why i don't say it i'm needy you're not and i have an overactive imagination you were supposed to be something else deep down inside i can't dig myself out from under you i'm still talking about it i'm needy you're not when it comes to me 020813 ... eddie needy bodies every one needy holes needy poles needy fools 020814 ... jane everyone? i never considered myself needy. i'm too independent for a relationship most of the time 020814 ... eddie monster then why are you following me you are specifically reading my heart i understand i am guilty as charged 020814 ... eddie monster do you need a response? do you need to work? do you need money? i need to sleep. i need sex. i need friendsandenemies. a rock doesn't need anything. maybe kicked around a little is all. are you a rock? i know your not. then why should i treat you like one. your swell. maybe we shouldn't talk anymore fuck off mr. wear wolf. 020814 ... jane it is possible to be an independent follower... 020815 ... jane besides, the last time i checked, you started following me first and now what? are we stuck in a circle? doomed to follow each other and not get anywhere? i'd like to get somewhere so: would you like to follow me, or shall i follow you? 020815 ... eddie how can i contact you computer illiterate no address i'm from houston 020815 ... jane click on the jane and then once again 020815 ... eddie this is so gay late 020816 ... fred this is so straight early 020905 ... eddie this is so jagged forreeeeveer 020906 ... freds dog this is so smooth neeeveer 020908 ... megan him - how is it? i mean being with someone? me - it's nice because you always have a hand to hold, but you don't know if you are holding that hand in vain. time goes by so much quicker, but you're not really sure if you want it to. you're the talk of the town, but behind your back they whisper malicious things and plot how they will seek your revenge since you have soemthing they failed to grab. your friends are happy for you, but are hurt when you can't attend their christmas party, because it is his 16th birthday. you can get all the psychological reenforcement you need for yourself, but in the end, you wonder if it's real. you can get all the physical reenforcement you need for yourself, but in the end, you wonder if it's real. it's all very scary, living on the edge of an oblivion where hope and faith meet reality. how much can you trust this person? do you give them an inch? or do you give them a mile? does this all make sense? i guess, what i'm trying to say is, it looks very well on the outside, but there's always a curse to every blessing. 030328 ... megan it's all very beautiful to me, i love him so much. forever. seriously 030328 ... splinken it's okay to slap each other. when it's consensual. 030328 ... REAListic optimIST relationships are made up of constant compromise. no, scratch that. a relationship can't exist long - can't exist - without the constant sacrifice of your: dignity, pride, morals, most dear beliefs, feelings, dsires, friends, money, things important to you, time, and most importantly - self. always giving of yourself to ake the other more comfortable. always being imposed upon and saying that it's nothing, nothing at all. always putting up with the other's flaws while being chastised for yours. it makes you wonder if you have any true friends and lovers, or just false acquaintances. spring, 1992 (wow i guess i had some relationship issues) 031124 ... birdmad sinking in their slips, torpedoed before they ever got out of the harbor 031125 ... Truthseeker Ah, too bad! They just never ever work for me, over the years no matter how hard I try it won't happen. It's a major shame but yeah I've learned to live with it :) Anyone else like me? Wanna go out sometime? Heh, kidding XD Anyway, I am single but still happy! Sure some hot ass would be nice now and then (kidding again, I like poor ass lol) but I can do without! And I am a guy! :o 040925 ... Ivan McCoy I can't express why or how she is not able to express the openly expressive staple sandwich of Frederick's expressions 050719 ... jordie I think its cruel how it takes so long to get to the point where you can be honest with someone. Relationships are like glass. Sea glass. the before and after. 060519 ... no reason they just all seem to come with so much pain 120216 what's it to you? who go blather from