stuck deb i sit unmoving eyes glazed staring sugarily ache grows and wanes within the hollow gap between my ribs clocks spin hours in seconds world turns turbulant around the secured fixture of me upon the chair lost in perplexing silent pain until midrin wears off if only slightly and i breathe shallowly once again i hate those FUCKING migraines and their shitty ass medication 000213 ... emily ...at work...and all i want to do is go home and lay on my bed and sleep... 000524 ... water nymph ...simply because I am. I want to ask you to not turn your back on me, to not walk away from me, and to forgive me. I am only a lost little girl, lacking direction and seeking guidence. I will walk behind thoes with a path and run blindly infront of emptiness.I know that it troubles you to the soul, but if you abandon me how can i ever find my way home? 001105 ... typhoid stuck in this chair can't go to bed for the life of me even though i look forward to dreaming happily. and happily waking up. ive been tired twice before tonight. but i can't pull myself away. absorbing useless information spouting useless thoughts nameless troubles lurking, but just shadow puppets. dispelled with a hearty laugh. 001226 ... Agent008 like bubblegum 010118 ... florescent light Here I am Stuck in this little universe I have created for myself. This universe that I swear makes me happy. Why am I always alone then? Why is it so hard for me to enjoy your company? I will always be alone because I keep pushing you away. And I always will I can't stop. My parent failed at raising an emotionally healthy young woman. Any emotional health I do possess I have worked for. They raised me clamping onto anger, fear, resentment, and bitterness. It is with their eyes that I look out into the world I can't find my own- my own eyes have been furiously wrenched from my consciousness. 010429 ... jester in time and space. untill i think. thinking is key. YOU are stuck because you want to. because you think you won't move. in your subconsious, at least. and don't think you will get motivated. doing nothing. willpower is all you need. freedom from yourself. 010608 ... yummyC and its all MY fault. But I will free myself soon. 010724 ... Gollum all I wanted was a pepsi, just one pepsi 010724 ... marjorie Maybe if I moved my leg back this way... no... You lift your arm. Try swiveling.. Hmm.. Oh dear. This cannot be good! 011204 ... Yogurt crescentwhench Lol, Space Balls...that made me think of Space Balls! .......uhh isn't that from Space balls? 021215 ... story of eau ism. against conceptualism, hedonism and the cult of the ego-artist. 040523 ... nom i'm starting to feel stuck here 061019 ... spoken stuck in a cycle of servitude to the ones you love longing to find the courage and energy to reclaim a part of yourself you have long since abandoned and let go as mere childish whimsy i miss that inner child why have i forsaken me why have i lost touch with my own mind and creative flow that breaths the life back in to me i have stuck a wrench in my own vital pump of knowledge seeking self expression i do beleive it important to speak your own mind and feel out your own heart exploration of ones own soul is the only way to gain the wisdom we all seek in life and the answers will come if you have the courage to ask the questions of your conciouse 090406 ... spoken stuck in a cycle of servitude to the ones you love longing to find the courage and energy to reclaim a part of yourself you have long since abandoned and let go as mere childish whimsy i miss that inner child why have i forsaken me why have i lost touch with my own mind and creative flow that breaths the life back in to me i have stuck a wrench in my own vital pump of knowledge seeking self expression i do beleive it important to speak your own mind and feel out your own heart exploration of ones own soul is the only way to gain the wisdom we all seek in life and the answers will come if you have the courage to ask the questions of your conciouse 090406 ... no reason i don't know how to do things and everyone who knows how to do things is leaving and i can't be expected do things all by myself and more people should be hired to help do things but i don't know if they will and sometimes i don't think this job is worth keeping but i need to stay in it until i finish what i started which will be difficult without knowing how to do things 090717 ... no reason there are some things i really don't want to leave and some things i really do 091123 ... no reason but it's next to impossible to leave those things while being close to those other things 091123 ... no reason i need to learn to unstick myself 091123 ... . . 091123 ... hsg reality_is_a_product_of_infinIte_comPROMISE teflon_for_your_soul 091123 what's it to you? who go blather from