abandoned erinicolejax I wait for your return. 020718 ... megan alone. completely and utterly alone (but without a care in the world). 021116 ... X the band rocks out 031127 ... someone say: i 8 a tnerd 031127 ... sexy beast a rubberband went and hit me on my hand! OUCH that hurt SEE i can ryme! 031127 ... thieums When my soul abandoned me, I first felt very, very sad ; but then I realized that a lot of people were able to live without one, and so did I. 040413 ... Piso Mojado ditched unimportant 041104 ... from now on discarded 041104 ... Piso Mojado tossed away like a food wrapper or yesterdays paper- with out a second thought 041104 ... misstree i've watched them recede like a tide, ears growing deaf, eyes flat and pale. there are no sobs or screams that could will them back. and i so close and so far, one foot in each world, trying only sometimes for my own sake. with each step back they become more unreal. without reference, i spin and fade, anchors cutting loose. i don't know what's on the other side of this veil yet... and i don't know if there will be a scrap of me left to tell you. 050805 ... nim funny, the very feeling of well not so much abandonement but missing someone lead me straight to blather.... googled my 'abandoner' and found traces of him here. 050805 ... Syrope it's silly, really. i miss things you never even did for me. i miss things you did for me begrudgingly. i was craving the feeling of a torso against my back, and i thought of how sheepish i felt when i would ask for such a pose, and how i held my breath shallowly and my muscles prepared, for when you'd move away. i laughed. then i threw up. the scale shows numbers i didn't expect to see this soon. 080516 ... unhinged industrial_abandonment ytown youngstown living_in_a_karmic_hell and i don't put up with shit. i'd rather be alone. keep walking. i don't remember the last time you turned back to look. (who was the last person to call me?) 080517 ... unhinged y_town guess_which_posts_i_did_fucked_up 080517 ... snss the first is on the opposite coast the second is in the middle of nowhere and cruelest of all the third is with me always 080707 ... . 101012 what's it to you? who go blather from