industrial_abandonment unhinged credited the source what more can i do yeah, it was all my fault i trusted the wrong people and now there's nothing left but i'm gone i'm so gone i don't want to have anything to do with you anymore except the pieces you left me in which was all my fault delusional spiral down the swirling drain inaccurate chemical disposal radioactive wasteland they built the fence neat and straight to contain me keeps them out keeps me in fight yell scream it doesn't mean anything anymore i'll sit in my little yard 040406 ... unhinged i've found it. it is a secret dream of mine to be a writer. maybe around here it's not so secret, but you know. and i've been thinking even more lately of making a composite of my work and sending it off, trying to get somewhere. so i've been trying to think of a title for a book cause i was never very good with titles. with a little help from my friend bethann and making a concerted effort to not steal the first phrase that came to mind from frank i think i've got it. industrial abandonment: the youngstown effect i wonder how many more years it will take me to actually get the balls to finish what i want to start 040408 ... unhinged or maybe unhinged: the youngstown effect would be better since a majority of the stuff i would put in it would be stuff i wrote on blather. 040426 ... MAILER DAEMON You've been well noticed around here without failer... I have failed I need help. 081023 ... unhinged i stumbled across a mention of the book 'fight against shutdowns' by staughton lynd in a different sociology book i was reading about divided small cities in the midwest so i checked it out at the library. my rediscovered voracious reading habits focus a lot on history and politics now, but this book hit me right in the gut. to know exactly what happened in the days that destroyed youngstown twenty years before i lived there...doesn't change the fucked up shit that happened to me there. but there is something soothing to have something to point to; to see the path. to turn back into the pages of history and see where all the bullshit came from. staughton lynd was one of the lawyers that helped the union fight against the corporation, with the ultimate goal of the community owning the steel mills. (the fight, the scrap, the collectivism...what a surprise that i ended up a socialist. ha!) as they were trying to build up the case to have the corporation sell them the mills the judge made these statements: 'we are not talking now about a local bakery shop, grocery store, tool and die shop or a body shop in youngstown that is planning to close and move out... it's not just a steel company making steel....steel has become an institution in the mahoning valley. that city...built around this industry. everything that has happened in the mahoning valley has been happening for many years because of steel. schools have been built, roads have built. expansion that has taken place is because of steel. and to accommodate that industry lives and destinies of the inhabitants of that community were based and planned on the basis of that institution: steel.' - judge lambros 180924 what's it to you? who go blather from