friend meir someone dear, someone who cares, someone who likes, someone who's there. 981026 ... sage something like that 981027 ... dallas a friend in need is a friend indeed. that's an awfully cynical thing to say. I am a cynic, though. 981027 ... angela friends are like a burning candle. No matter how hard you try to keep the fire lit, it always eventually burns out. 990207 ... nice they usually don't mean a thing. 990301 ... adam people use this word too much around me, and i don't understand anything about it. 990303 ... daxle the higher my standards get, the less friends I have, because the high school pool is limited I'm getting out so soon! 990426 ... ceorl alright, I'll admit that love is tough, and may not even exist, but everybody ought to be able manage a friendship. Sometimes you have to be indiscriminately nice to a bunch of strangers until somebody starts being nice back, and it probably won't be who you thought it would be when you began. It starts with you. Be one to get one. 990427 ... jason what the hell is this-i don't understand what the hell's going on here-this is weird shit-it stated out talking about chew-(i dip the rooster by the way) and now i don't have a clue what's going on 990514 ... emsie My best friend is Jules. I love her, but she's been making me sad lately. But, she's my best friend and nothing will change that. We have too much fun together and so many amazing memories of stuff we've done. But still. When I think of her at this point in my life, I'm a little sad... 990630 ... Joana Iiris is my best friend... Never had a best friend before... I like it. Tomàs, Eoin, Manu and Ayna are my friends too... we're cybernetic... I never saw them... we live in a dream world... it will end soon... they'll get tired of my complaining... they'll get sick of me... I'll be lonely again. 990715 ... Colleen have you ever met someone you became close friends with but sooner or later she says something that really pisses you off that gets you into a huge fight and for a couple of months you don't talk and at first you feel like calling her just to curse at her in japanese but then you feel that loss of friendship so you decide to take the first step in reconciling but you feel uneasy about calling her so you write her a letter and the next day you chit-chat at school and you chit-chat less and less until you chit-chat no more yet you decide to give it another try so you call her one night but she's on the other line with her boyfriend and says she'll call you back after letterman but never does so you feel like such a loser even though deep down inside you miss that friendship but even deeper inside you wanna tell her to "kiss my butt?" i didn't think so. 991112 ... beyond one you touch with minds eye and sight of what is real inside of the both of you Ren 991226 ... me? ren, to make a friend, all you need is f i and d. we'll see what we can do. 991226 ... Tess "But think about it... Strawberries are...(searches for words) passionate, perfect... gratifying, even. They symbolize everything that is wonderful about love. Andrea: You're full of shit, Jen. Jennifer: (satisfied) I know." this is why anybody would love being Jennifer's friend. (Andrea included, i'm sure) see: strawberry 000108 ... see me there and i walk up you pass away yes you A thought an imaged to be seen as a mirror, my heart close open to what you say and yes my friend what you say is still keeping me told my breath 000124 ... amybeary i say friend when i mean aquaintence. i saw "someone i love" when i mean friend. this word is changin for me. 000409 ... michelle I would love to have a friend. I'm so isolated, anti-social, then turn around and realize that there is no family, nor friends. Just me and I am so sad. I think it would be okay if every now and then I felt loved. Yes, that would be just fine. 000625 ... bird approaching denouement judas the enemy waiting to happen decorate me in such a way that if i crouch low and stay still, i could be mistaken for a cutlery rack fucker 000625 ... Merigrace Hey Michelle- I've been there before. I understand what it's like not to have anyone who cares. Drop me a note. I care. 000712 ... marissa what does it mean? "i would never do anything to hurt you. I just don't want to hurt you, and i would never lie to you." Oh, if those words were true.... but they aren't are they? I wonder why I never could see it before. 000715 ... Zoe although i use the word too much for people who i just know and don't care about, i think i would kill myself if it weren't for my true friends. they are always there for me and love me. god, there are a lot of negative thoughts on friends here, and i know that probably even my best friends will leave me, that's why i enjoy them now. 000716 ... michael i have so few the list diminishes every day it's lonely but keep looking who knows what is out there 000717 ... Thub Yall gotta all play nice. That's what keeps friend's going. 000813 ... jennifer hmmm 000823 ... filia someone who you meet in passing and have a good conversation or six with but eventually you lose touch cuz its a hairy world out there and you're just trying to survive and friends aren't really all that necessary... all MY real friends aren't real! they're ANIME people...hey wait, those people are too real! i'll find them somewhere! HEH EHEH HEH. 000907 ... Jon That's all you are. It's not fair. It's all you'll ever be. You're a friend and I want you to be more. I love you 001006 ... Verdulum Where is he? Where IS he now? I must find him, and clear my mind. 001109 ... Mlle Avril Someone who doesn't know you for five years before deciding he wants a sexual relationship instead, even though he's engaged. 001221 ... Sarah sup! friends rock but I don't have one. I lost my best friend lately and have no one to hang out with, sucks. any who I got to get going. LATER!!! 010103 ... PinkSnowStorm I met my best friend in the first grade. She moved away in the second to a town about fifteen miles away. Fifteen miles is a lot, when you're in the second grade. We still came over to each other's houses and such. We called each other. In the sixth grade, I moved out of state. We still talk, and visit one another on summer vacation. Recently, her mother (who was extremely flighty to begin with) went to West Virginia (my friend lives in Arkansas) for some reason. Anyway, she met a guy there and decided within a week that she was going to marry him and that her children would just have to move in with their grandparents. Is that messed up, or is that messed up? 010106 ... cj Die till your dead, dead till you die, once bitten twice shy 010201 ... Lucien Though you hate me and detest me....I will always love you, and you will always be my dearest friend 010201 ... unhinged friends are people who use you for everything you have and leave you when you need their help. friends are people who tell you that your problems are worthless when you need someone to tell you that everything is going to be okay the most. friends are the people whose words enter your mind at night and those words are the ones that make you pick up the blade and say "today i can do it....if i just pushed a little harder that vein would pop..." friends are people who burn you with their cigarette with absolutely no provocation at all just because your laugh was "annoying" them. friends are people who are weak and selfish that can't live any other way than cutting other people down. i have a lot of friends. 010217 ... florescent light friends are girls who date 8 guys at once and can have any guy they want, yet they steal the one guy who is interested in you. 010218 ... Morelen Someone or something that will make you forget or end it all 010219 ... your mom keep your friends close and your enemies closer 010328 ... ladybird What a cynical bunch! Goes to show you've never met Nessa or Carolyn or Gráinne or Damo or Kevin... Friendship is something you have to work at, but, well, it's what makes life amazing really. 010520 ... JessieLee I've had millions... But none have touched me like you... 010626 ... TruSoulja friends don't treat me like Lone_Raven does. only Lone_Raven treats me better than a friend. 010715 ... RAH Friends.. backstab bitch and shit you to tears. they come they go never seem to stay. can you really trust them. and then you get the friends your stuck with through association. they sux too. I love my friends but they suck but i love them 011002 ... Devious1 is another word for buddy 011028 ... Alexander Beetle Used to denote purposefully concealed hatred or disgust towards a person. Example: "we are the elite and you should not bother us any longer" "Don't take things so serious, friend." 011029 ... ellen cherry charles You're the strangest person I ever met, she said, and I said you too and we decided we'd know each other a long time. --Brian Andreas 020106 ... angie fab 4 sometimes you are there sometimes you are square my supposed friends some fake some real conformity drunk is it really there? our outings are centered around alcohol i have never realized that before now... wow... joanna, ashley, whitney and angie forever remain the fab four 020110 ... quote from Ernie Morrison A Friend Is... Gonna burn tonight, Gonna be in pain, But that's okay, A friend is... the mega-colossus 020110 ... Syrope she told me i could call her crying any time..except 3:00 am. she said 2:59 am and 3:01 am were fine. there are so many reasons i love her. she's my best friend ever and i can't stand the thought of us going to two different colleges...i'm gonna miss her terribly. she'll never be replaced, and i hope she knows that. 020611 ... Heathen ...is my best friend matt, who will go further in life than i will ever. it is also Tim and Tim who exposed me to drugs for the first time, and kendra, who tried in vain to get me off them. With her, i was looking for two things: justification, or condemnation. i found neither. 020615 ... 1 Blackeye In love with a friend...Known each other for a while ...pretty good frinds... She must know that I feel this way for her. She knows, She knows, She knows. But doesn'r feel the same. She doesn't feel the same. I see her, say "Hi". I die a alot a bit. So purposely oblivious. 020804 ... Rae i came back to Texas and learned the boundries of friendship. my Twister sets the bundries here. i can't be friends with Trey because my Twister thinks that he belongs to her. i can't be friends with Shelly because my Twister hates her. the boundries here are set by my twister. 020810 ... mcdougall there are so many people that i call 'my friend'. some are better friends then others, while others are even better than that. my best friend in the whole world will always be who it is now. she has changed my life in so many ways, and has always been there for me. she is my best friend and i am her best friend. i would do anything for her. i hope she knows that. her sister is my other best friend. they both share that title in my mind. her sister doesn't relize that i think of her as that good of a friend but she does know that i would do anything in the world for her. i love them both and i don't know what i would do without either of them. 021028 ... morbid or absurd a six letter word 021029 ... *silent screams I've already dug 6 feet into the cold hard ground, already laid down and closed my eyes. I already cried my last tears and pushed away all my fears.I was waiting for the deed to be done, waiting for u to shovel coldness upon me. What i never expected was for u to be the one who pulled me out, help me to my feet, and kiss all my problems goodbye. Your the one who knocked me down, just to be the one who realized how wrong u've been , and helped me outta my living hell. u my dear, are a true friend...give or take alil 021206 ... liquid silver ...hello? sigh. 021206 ... Plastic Jesus Friends.... I sit here and think of them quite often, One specifically comes to mind and my heart becomes softened, I try my best to be the best friend I can be, There is not much left for me to do only infinites sites to see, With them I hold my infinite respect, No matter the wrong I trust them never to be that suspect, In life we rely heavily on those we hold close in out hearts, Is it human nature thats the end of where it all starts. 021225 ... minnesota_chris A good friend will help you move. A really good friend will help you move a body! 030124 ... jane a friend is someone who will always be totally honest with you. of course, i'd like to expect that from everyone, but i guess that's not going to happen 030124 ... chicky who are your friends? does anyone actually have real trust worthy friends that are always honest to you and will never stab you in the back? 030213 ... -Shelly- Is not someone who brings you down while youre in your glory. Is someone who will take part in it with you. Is not someone who stabs you in the back every time youre facing the other way. Is someone who seals the wounds when those bastards do. Is not 2 faced, or one who tells you what you want to hear. Is one who tells it like it is, bad or good. Im sick of these people who think they are a true friend. Ive lost a few of those over the past year, and I like it that way. I keep the ones worth keeping very close to my heart. Trust is not something to be spread like wild fire. 030218 ... je55iccafletcher the one's that stick around and don't drain you. 030404 ... s b 030404 ... /anon When you forget to bring your paxil to their house they loan you one of theirs. Bri's been my best friend since I was three. Through everything. When he almost killed himself and when I cut my arm up. Its stronger then ever now though. He never drew back like I did. We share our love of making fun of Brandon, the friend in our group that no one seems to like. But we can never have real fun alone. We can talk and about facts of life and stuff but two depressed people cant make their own fun. That is our special bond. I'll give it another year. 030404 ... niska you know... my ex was on paxil. somehow, he blamed all his woes on me. then he'd call and need my help. i know it's because we're broken that he can't be himself anymore. but without him i am broken too - maybe not in the same way, but broken none the less. his dreams weren't mine to live and i needed to find me. someday, i'm sure it'll work out for both of us - even if he's never happy, he's the only one in the world who understands me. keep those you love close - and those who've loved you, even clser. i will always love him, and he knows it. there's no need for him to be drugged so he can be alive. there's something else causing this terrible existence. He's too wonderful for this kind of pain. 030404 ... e i b love have to be friend 030518 ... drunk with rum and lonely lovely confusion Friend? Yeah right. Why do I always believe the lies? "We'll still be friends," you say, "You'll always be my best friend." Bullshit. You're not my friend. I love you, I love you more than I could possibly say. And no, I'm not quite sure what form that love is in. I just know that I want to talk to you, to laugh with you and share my feelings with you. What happened? We had everything...now it's nothing. We were supposed to stay friends, I wanted that more than anything in the world. That's why I did it...I wanted to keep you as my best friend. You're still my best friend, but I'm not yours. I miss you so much. Will things be different in August? Will everything change by then? Will you be in love with her? Will you care about me? Will you even remember? Best friends... Bullshit... ... ... ... I miss you... 030604 ... Bizzar Is what someone swears to be until someone better comes along. "Best friend." Someone youre supposed to care about deeply, someone you would do anything for, and not just pretend to care with intentions of hurting in the back of your mind. How was I fooled for so long? False promises, and fake emotion. How was I awakened? Real friends. People who I KNOW would do anything for me, people whose faith and motives Im not constantly questioning. People I truly care about, and have helped me to realize I dont need friends like you. A friend is someone you can share emotion with - whether it be good or bad. A friend is someone who will share your grief with you, but also share your joy when you accomplish something, not make you feel like your accomplishments arent enough. Not someone who will make the good things in life seem inferior to you, because of their own insecurities. A friend is someone who looks forward to your company, not someone who only wants you around when theres no one better available. If this sounds like one of your friends, do yourself a favor and cut them off before they hurt you. Because they WILL hurt you, because they know you, and theyll get you where it hurts the most. 030616 ... crimson I think of us as some Romeo and Juliet tragedy. Lost teenage much deeper and wiser than we should be. As though whatever love we have to offer is so intense that it isn't allowed to last very long; we'll have to run away or die. 030722 ... Meighan This ones for the people I get in most trouble with. To the people who cheer me up when I'm down. To the people who spark up a joint when I'm hurtin'. To the people I despise, love and hate at the same time. To the people I party with. To the people who get me shit-faced. To the people who make PMS so much easier. To the people I couldnt imagine my life with out. This ones for you. To the people who are exactally the same only complete opocites. To the people who I get into stupid mindless fights, and forgive the next day. To the people I worrie about most. To the people who are always willing to party with me. What would I do with out you? This ones for you. To the people I've lost contact with. To the people I wish I'd talked to more. To the people I need a break from. To the people who can't stand me any more then I can them. This ones for you. For the people with Real atittudes. For the people who like me for me. To the people who think I'm damn sexy. You know who you are. This ones for you. To the people who help me forget my stresses and worries. To the people who suply me with shelter when me and my mum get into fights. For the people who got arrested for B&E with me. This ones for you. To the people who got exspelled from school with. To the people who stuck by my side. To the people who at one point or another wanned to kill me. Thanks for getting past that. To the people I hit on when I'm drunk. This ones for you. To the special people who I admire, you will always hold a place in my heart, no matter what. This ones for you. My firends. 030728 ... Claudia You sit with me when I need to scream, need to cry, need to laugh. You say nothing to me, just hold my hand, bring me to your shoulder and let me know that someone is there. You make me laugh, you make me understand. You make me. 030729 ... you should know by now jonah you're an AMAZING friend and i will love you always for it. no one makes me feel as happy as you. thank you for the past year and thank you for the years to come. one day we'll be on the same coast and i promise you, we'll have the time of our lives. thank you for making my life matter to me again. i love you. 030731 ... icy will get her piercing when i get mine so i'm not afraid. another will help me design my tattoo so it looks how i want it and means what i want. more will commiserate, party, cry, laugh, smile, pout, tease, talk, scold, gossip, yell, and scream with me... along with a lot of other stuff too. they come to your grandparents' funerals and someday your parents' because they loved them too and they love you. they loan you anything without expecting it back because they know you and know you're good for it. some may come and go, but you never would forget them. some don't let you. one and all, they make a difference in you life and help you see who you are as well. and you do all the same for them. 030731 ... grassmonster light as a feather stiff as a FRIEND 031027 ... misstree water_brothers 031027 ... hangthedj friend...someone that will always be there for you no matter what, someone who will always listen no matter how much you talk, someone who will always give you a hug, even when they're mad at you friend...something that i don't have 031030 ... dazed and confused back-stabbing,gut wrenching, unrequited love of your life, confused, dumping, i'm more popular than you so i'll dump you! DUMP YOU! cos i can. 031118 ... i care in my head it is a rose someone left under my windshield wiper i didn't turn it on and im afraid to leave something beautiful and pink there because it is going to fly away always 031203 ... Shinequwa Friends are nice michele is my friend 031227 ... Alexis I don't get it. I'm so nice to everyone, and I try so HARD to be their friends, but I am just shunned away. I guess you can't make new friends in high school, unless you're some transfer student or something. That's what I'm waiting for...a new kid. I'm great, I'm loyal, but something, SOMETHING just makes it unbelievebly hard to make friends. I don't WANT to be a social outcast. For heavens sake, I have blonde hair, blue eyes and designer clothes...but the one girl that I think I may have a chance with is never near me. Friends...friends...friends...an odd word. 040121 ... minnesota_chris I think you gotta have a whole hell of a lot of fun, and then the friends just come. I spent all of high school wondering what everybody thought of me, and it was a friendless misery.` 040121 ... minnesota_chris and even if they don't come, who cares? You're having so much fun anyways. 040121 ... bite_me this is an email i was sent. this will prbably take up too much room, so sorry for wasting space, but i wanted to share this because i feel like this a lot of the time, and i want to see if others do too. Saying something and wishing you hadn't? or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs. Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own....when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had. * What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye? *What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? *What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? *What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?* People live, but people die. And I want to tell you that you are a friend. If you died tomorrow , you would be in my heart!!! Would I be in yours? If you care about me as much as I care about you, you will send this back. You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that. So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you if you consider them a friend as well. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and .. always will.. 040218 ... bite_me don't kill me for taking up so much room please. 040218 ... .fallen thank you for sharing, bite_me, words put to good use are more than worth the space they take 040218 ... bite_me awww thankyou, people don't generally want to hear my words most of the time, so i just wanted to share. 040218 ... bite_me that makes no sense whatsoever :S i just wanted to say thank you. i'll stop there so i don't muddle everyone up again. 040218 ... her royal highness the quirk i guess all that was a lie. some friend you turned out to be. 040221 ... white_wave he's a friend, but he's a boy. he'll always be my friend and he'll always be a boy. so when he's my husbend, he will still be my boy-friend. that's a weird thought. 040222 ... cinzento You were my friend but now you're not. So just my self is all I've got. 040222 ... x twisted x i have been disappointed and hurt by friends. especially one. and yet...i find it hard to leave anyone i consider a friend. why do people who love you hurt you? isnt it kind of an oxy moron? or do they really love you? does love even exist? oh...this is digging into something i dont feel like reliving right now. 040319 ... misstree water_brothers fire_brothers the pixie doesn't understand she's not my girlfriend she's not even my friend being around friends isn't a chore, it's effortlessness, and when it's at its best, it *is* love. not that romantic crap, but genuine heart-swelling feelgood movie of the year. 040319 ... misstree and grins too. lots of grins. 040319 ... misstree and strong hands outstretched when you fall down. and reciprocation. and sharing yourself in every aspect without fear. 040319 ... kay-tie you're soaking in sympathy from friends who never loved you nearly half as much as me. --- late night conversations over cans of five-alive. lay the blanket out, lets stare at the stars and you can tell me all about the moment you realized you couldnt pretend any longer. im here for you, thick or thin. you want me to reassure you that you arent crazy and weird, but you are... that's why i love you. you're just like me. 040405 ... ciaran a freind is an ass as in kiss my ass ,bitch! it means kiss my freind, bitch! 040504 ... Interloper A friend is someone to whom you give much and ask little of. That's why everyone should have at least two friends. Do you understand my meaning. A friendship is akin to a marriage. You share their joy; you help them to overcome their sorrows. A friend is like a lover. There's something you like about this person, you want them in your life. Friends sometimes make mistakes just like you do. A friend is a life lesson and worth keeping for that reason. Sometimes they turn from you and it may be that your standards are higher than theirs and they feel they can't keep up with you. Don't feel bad, just let it rest a while and try to inquire later as to how they're doing and let them know they are missed. A friend is more about THE FRIEND and not so much about you. Over time you will find that you have become a better person for all of the above reasons. 040616 ... jolie laide Email me. I want to be your friend. (All of you) 040627 ... hsgatincamail connect guide lightning bolt screw nuts oil protein 040701 ... _bizun Definetelly no FRIEND - allways FRIENDS! 040811 ... iit friend, sometimes you're really really stupid 040922 ... bloocurlz friendly with: people in life who are around, in and out everyday. Say hello, tell jokes, make small talk. true friend: supports you, helps you pick yourself up, asks you the hard questions, helps you be true to yourself, calls you on it when you are not, would listen to you at 3 in the morning on a Tuesday night when you really need it, even when they have work to do Wednesday morning, you can pick up with them after 10 years and there be no time gap. 041115 ... TrueNight i believe there are 3 kinds of best friends and that everyone should have one of each kind. i do. lets start with tasia. she's been my best friend for around 5 years now. she's fun, but she doesnt like my other groups of friends other than the other girls in my grade that i hang with. we dont hang out much but we have stayed best friends through it all. she is great to me. then there is kyle. he is my fun friend. he's been my best friend for about 4 years. he makes me laugh so hard. the only thing wrong with that is he thinks im always either happy, or mean. then there is kirk. he has been my friend for about 3 months. he is my favorite best friend at the moment. he is the one i can talk to about my problems and i know he will understand. he comforts me when im sad and makes me see the good in life, and in myself. i would have never thought i would be best friends with him if i had thought about it last year. i think we got a lot closer after we dated. kirk, tasia, kyle, im really glad all of you are in my life and i hope all of you know that i love you very much. never go away. 041130 ... LessonsFromAngels I can't stand my "best friend" most the time. What I dislike about her most is that she has good ideas, but she wastes them on boys. She has intelligence, but she puts it towards coming up with cheesy lines to try to win him back. She spends hours on the phone, complaining about how she got drunk and he got drunk becuase they're so depressed that they're not dating anymore. So why don't they just get back together? 050221 ... palm I have enough shitty friends thank you. 050221 ... palm I have enough shitty friends thank you. 050221 ... sirflaccid I am tired of being a friend. Am I not worth more than that. Don't just care for me. Don't "love me like a brother." Feel me. Accept what I have to offer. You have all said that I will make someone happy someday, and to not settle for any less than what I'm worth. How many times, from how many people, do you have to hear those words before you realize they are empty. 050228 ... me i have a friend. she's super cool, i love her dearly as a friend. i trust her with my life, if it came down to that. i can tell her anything. except she has a weed problem. she smokes weed 5 out of 7 days a week, sometimes twice a day. everytime she visits my room, its to get ready to smoke with my roommate, or when she just gets back from getting high. she's gotten worse. it never used ot be this bad. i'm worried she might get back into crack. how do i talk to her and tell her she needs to chill with the pot? she once told me i could tell her anything, and i do, but its not usually important stuff. funny. now when i need ot tell her something that is important about HER, i can't. this is the one thing i can't talk to her about. help. i actually hoped she'd get caught by the cops or something, to help her quit. how do i talk to her about this? help. 050303 ... a chaotic gift to idealism write that down on paper. sit with her, have a moment... tell her you have something you want to read to her. read it aloud. remember this... dont push. dont be demanding, dont be expectant of anything, and let her know that is how it is. no expectations no forcefulness no questioning but then, i wouldnt tak emy advice on it... i'm just a fuckup. if you DO take the advice, do it at your own will... i take no blame as, i do not know this person and i do not know of what could become of doing such a thing. i do however wish you the best of luck. 050617 ... AeonFlummox if you love her, steal her. 050617 ... who i am doesnt matter anymore i must admitt my heart felt a ting when thats all you called me. but what was i expecting you to call me? friend is way better than what i was expecting (you dumb whore). youve always been more than that to me, or am i just being dumb? is that the 14 yr old little girl trying to break back through? im scared of that happening, and i dont want my mind to race with thoughts that arent true, and never were true. if i say some foolish things, please dont hold it against me, sometimes things come over me that i dont know how to hold back. my emotions and thoughts take over. if they show and they cause a bad reaction, act like it never happend because once ive gotten it out ill return to my normal mind state and forget anything i even said. maybe its the rush of not hearing from you for years, all the thoughts and memories and emotions come slapping me in the face. and because of it i feel sure of something. and i feel like an idiot for it. shut up thoughts, stop talking feelings, LEAVE ME ALONE EMOTIONS, you get me introuble, you chase people away. i dont want that to happen again. i want to clam up, pretend to be something else, to realize whats going on around me unlike the last time. but theres that thing about you, that thing you have that no one else does, the thing that makes me pour out my heart and soul until im bleeding from the outside, in. but that was then, can it be that way now? is that possible? its more possible for me now than it was then, and maybe thats whats playing games with me. and now ive got something on my mind, something im not used to thinking/worrying about. just as i got over that part of my brain, it takes over again. oh friend, what am i to do? ive lost it. 051226 ... quince i thought we were close but it's only when you have been drinking that we speak at all 061203 ... dessiahs_song we care. at least that. and i care enough to romanticize over it, here. and you care enough to try, i hope. perfect platonic-ism, punctuation in place, and the lights fall down upon us all. we laughed, we cried. we lived, we died. 061215 ... unhinged chick you spend time with to learn from chick you spend time with to make you better chick you spend time with to make you look better 070405 ... KD First a noun, now a verb, but when will it really mean anything? 100805 ... f yes, a friend is not someone you are in love with, not to say that you don't love them or that they aren't your friend! so? when are we exactly? 100807 ... f yes, a friend is not someone you are in love with, not to say that you don't love them or that they aren't your friend! so? when are we exactly? 100807 ... f yes, a friend is not someone you are in love with, not to say that you don't love them or that they aren't your friend! so? when are we exactly? 100807 ... JAKE when are we exactly what? 100807 ... JAKE when are we exactly what? 100807 ... JAKE when are we exactly what? 100807 ... EVE FUCK WHAT A STANGE WEBSITE THIS IS. 100807 ... EVE FUCK WHAT A STANGE WEBSITE THIS IS. 100807 ... EVE FUCK WHAT A STANGE WEBSITE THIS IS. 100807 ... EVE FUCK WHAT A STANGE WEBSITE THIS IS. 100807 ... unhinged when i asked you what the word 'friend' meant to you, i honestly wanted to know. 100808 ... minnesota_chris a friend is someone who will keep you from killing yourself. There's so many ways we try to kill ourselves. 100809 ... olive i have a friend who i admire so much and who i have been so many places with (geographically and psychically). but lately people have been saying that i worship her or that i'm her side kick or something. these things aren't said behind our back and not with any kind of maliciousness but it still makes me wonder. is it like that? and if it is... what of it? i want to talk to her about it but it seems awkward and it seems like it would just go away if i didn't talk to here about it... it makes me feel like i'm like in a relationship or something. friggen whack 101111 ... a clever disguise you heard it here first, folks! 120113 ... a clever disguise so i guess what it all boils down to is that i am just a pretty shitty friend. i have this inability to pay attention or give affection to more than one person at any point in time, so you are either that one person or you aren't. doesn't make for a very good friend retention policy. i think as i age i get better with this. a counselor i had was always trying to get me to see that no two people have all the same facets so it's good to have different friends for different things (your bar friend, your book friend, your workout friend). so, i've managed to do this a bit, but as i try to fill the gaps i find that had i just held on to some of those old friends, i'd be a lot better off. 120119 what's it to you? who go blather from