mum blown cherry "She's not always as sick as you treat her you know!" Words I will never stab my dad with. 020616 ... broken cherry I had a conversaion with her tonight. A real, proper conversation with my mum. And for a few minutes I felt like I had my mum back. Add up the minutes and I might just have felt like that for, maybe, 3hours in the past 14years. I love her endlessly when she's like that, but when she's not I hate her. Or else it's pity, and I barely know which is worse. 020804 ... endless desire it is the only proper thing to call her. it is the only thing that has ever fit. every other word i have been angry with mom mother nina nan. they have all made me so angry, longing to leave. as i ((scrub)) mum--that is the only proper thing to call her. that is the only thing that has ever fit. 030613 ... Ester ...Will She Ever Learn? 040702 ... shower singer will i? 040702 ... Mikhos More than a mother. Much more than a mother can ever, ever be. 081016 what's it to you? who go blather from