hate drew hate and violence perpetrated upon others, in speech or in act, is a sign of one's own guilt, fear, and insecurity of self. 990402 ... daxle I used to hate I'd say "I hate." Now I'm just too tired to care that much 990426 ... ceorl both love and hate claim to be "pure" emotions, undiluted with fact or logic or even healthy self interest. the wisdom of succumbing to either is suspect. 990427 ... allie du hast mich 990501 ... Enygmatic I don't know whether or not I'm happy that I haven't had the chance to truly hate somebody yet. I haven't had the chance to love anything yet, either, though, I suppose... but it seems like it'd be really fun to be so pissed off at somebody that you'd think of ways every day to spite them. Hey... I'd have something to do. Then again, I suppose love is a much healthier way of having something to do. I don't know... either way, I'm just sick of the uneventfulness of childhood. 990602 ... jake enk. is real in sincerity. without sincerity, we love as much, which is just as easily lied about. 990603 ... steffen why? 990606 ... matt. You've taken over my mind. You've raped my thoughts with your image viruses then sold me fake cures for your own disease. Your words and pictures scream orders at me like angry prison wardens. When I cover my ears, your voices echo in my head. I hate you. When I see your billboards, your talk shows, your rock concerts and your factories, when I see the work of your twisted libidos, I want to kill you. I want to set fires, plant bombs, derail trains. I want to smash your buildings and tear at your bodies until the skin of my hands is worn to the bone. I am filled with a rage that burns my eyes. I don't want to feel this way. You have done this to me. These feelings are the fruits of your multi-billion dollar sowing. And I am not alone. There are others like me out here. Every suicide, every madman, every man and woman who gets a gun and just starts shooting -- these are your illegitimate children. They don't all know what they are doing. All they know is hate for the invisible walls which you have raised around them, hate for the narrow path you have tried to make them walk. And the innocent pay in blood for your negligence. Remember this: My mind is big. The more you try to push me down and make me small, the greater the pressure inside me becomes. The greater the pressure, the greater the chance of an explosion. There was once a time when I felt love, but now I feel only hate and anger, and fear at what I might do. And you can tell me to "BE HAPPY," but I know that you really mean "BE QUIET". Believe me, I want to be happy. You stand in my way. 990726 ... adam i used to have a skinhead girlfriend, but she beat me up all the time cuz i listened to snoop, and cuz my favorite band was the cure. i hate hate. 990731 ... h8r h8r.com i'm sorry, i had to do it. 990921 ... Morphean Hate is no fitting spine for a hero, or inspiration for an artist. 990930 ... Drennan I usually find it hard to hate anything. To hate, to despise someone or something. I find it difficult to hate most things, except racism, I truely hate people who hate others without reason (and Tories, I really, really hate Tories but that's probably because I'm Scottish). 991004 ... tex I hate me 991104 ... me? theology & practice of a contemporary religion 991110 ... . . 991116 ... elimeny is the same damn thing as love. and i mean that. if i hate you, then i love you. if i love you, then i hate you. there is no real difference. Both possess your mind and spirit. Both are the strongest emotions I feel. And I can slide from one right back to the other so quickly, they most just be different degrees of one another. So there. 991207 ... unrighteous1 Hate's like...Uh...The second strongest emotion. If I said 'I hate you' to someone, I'd mean it. As in, I'd want them dead, as in I'd want their foul stench rid from the world, cause hate is that strong. And if someone said 'I hate you' to me I'd be pissed/upset, as in very. But now the word hate has been used out of contexed just as much as the word love (the strongest emotion)has, I hear so many people say 'I love you' and 'I hate you' I can't help but wonder if they really mean MY definition of the word. I guess they mean their definitions of the word, but it's like everyone has the same idea except me. Am I weird? 991212 ... R.A.I.N. is what I feel for the higher class, for the sell outs, for the corporate leaders, for the ones who try to convince me to change my beliefs and ideals so i can be happy like them. I want to kill you all. I HATE YOU! It clouds my mind and eats at my stomach. I feel diseased, please don't give me a chance to act on my feelings. I don't want to cause trouble. I WANT YOU DEAD! I try not to be hated, i'm hated by the shiny people, the brand name people, the influenced peoples parents, I hate being judged, yet I judge their kind so readily. I'm not a fake and I fear for my own well being. I am just a malcontent youth. I will never make any difference in this world. The majority pushes me down. Each time they do it becomes harder for me to breathe. HATE ME FOR THE CLOTHES I WEAR! HATE ME FOR THE THINGS I SAY! HATE ME FOR THE THINGS I DON"T SAY! HATE ME FOR NOT KNOWING A BETTER WAY! YOUR WAY IS NOT A BETTER WAY! I HATE YOU TOO! And it leaves me unguarded and vulnerable. I feel too full of hate. 991215 ... jennifer my father is on the phone, and the poor girl on the other end has no idea how evil he is. He screams and doens't listen to what she says, and because she speaks in a slight Hispanic accent, he lectures her about how people in America should speak American. And he has the girl on speakerphone and I can hear everyword, and I realize how much I hate my father. 991221 ... mad madame mim burning with a desire that only you understand 991225 ... gaudior no longer let these chains bind you. faith. 000112 ... bane somewhere, someone said there are more people living now than have ever lived before. and for some reason, just about everyone believes it without asking who this person is. so why is it so hard to believe i hate cheese? 000124 ... spikey-ho you have no idea. 000124 ... PHONEY a bright light concealing the spitting darkness. 000127 ... kari who really hates but people who have too much energy to waste on something that just doesn't matter? apathy is much easier and more respectable. 000127 ... oodles "Let God deal with the things they do 'cause hate in your heart will consume you too." I used to think that I hated my stepfather, and I do still dislike him as much as one person can dislike another. But Kari's right--hating is a waste of energy, we should be putting energy into positive things. However, I don't think apathy is more respectable. 000128 ... meggie fate, gate, mate, state, late, estate, relate, masturbate... 000304 ... Shar is useless 000306 ... Brad I don't think you should hate anyone. Even when some random person decides that they hate me (it's happend twice in my life) for no reason, i still dont hate them. It's mental masturbation and it gets you nowhere... we're much better off without it. 000309 ... girl ive come to discover it is not a matter of like, dislike, and hate (love wasnt mentioned on purpose because it is a separate entity) it is all am matter of tolerance. how much can i tolerate a given person. aside frome the one person i love i dont care about people enough to wory about liking dislikeing or hating them. 000327 ... Free Hate is a sure sign of insecurity. A dark, destructive, egotistical emotion. It seems to me that Hate and self pity go hand and hand. 000408 ... Tal fucked up fuel inside my soul knawing, chewing and eating it whole 000430 ... lisa_is_bionic "You don't /have/ the capacity to hate everyone, Lisa. It's too hard." 000526 ... BIRDMAD MORTIS VIVAT NIHIL i want to hate you but i can't i try but it only makes this empty aching of desire burn more fiercely inside. 000526 ... WoNDERGIRL I never really hated you. I only loathed what you were. Somewhere deep inside my self-satisfaction, I wished it wasn't so hard. 000528 ... Zoe i think that hate is the most powerful emotion, even more powerful than love. hate can destroy love and does often. love hardley ever destroys hate. even though i've always said i don't hate people, i only dislike them, i know that that is a lie. i do hate. i just don't say anything about it. everyone hates everyone else, and yet everyone hates to be hated. 000716 ... the bisexual apathetic psychopathic bitchwhore (em people... people who i hate whom i love are interchangable. they are all the same. i love them and hate them equally. as i walk down the stairs with them, proclaiming my love, i wish to through them down those very same carpeted stairs... my tears are not for them. they are for me. i pity myself to depths i knew not existed. i hate myself for my pity and that which causes my pity. but i never pity my self-hatred. pulling at my souls equal forces neither can pull apart my heart and so i stay in battle with myself a battle between life and death of another and of myself because i regard myself as a stranger i am not alone because i am with myself. i am alone because i am the only one here. all of me is my companion, i'm so lonely. i dont want people i dont want pity i just want to hurt and let that be known i am the bisexual apathetic psychopathic bitchwhore now get over it. 000812 ... u2zoo is such a strong word, perhaps one should say something else. 000823 ... oshekono hate to wait for fate. its usually late, without a date, and can't relate to my state. 000920 ... unhinged "don't say hate. you can't mean that. it's such a strong word." what's the point of being water-colored blue when you can be tempera paint blue? or red or yellow or green? i mean what i say. i was raised in hate and i try to escape it but there are certain things that can beget nothing but hate. all of you that say you don't hate are liarss. we all hate rainy days when it rains for days on end and it gives you a cold...we all hate intolerance (or at least we all should)...fuck it 001203 ... chanaka i hate myself when i am jealous. i know that no one can replace me. i know that we talk about her, and they don't talk about me, because they don't ever talk anymore. but i burn. thousands of tiny teeth eating away my skin, gnawing my bones into green-tinged dust. i hate that i am so unsure of my effects on other people that i must resort to an emotion so horrible as jealousy in order to ensure my place in someone's heart, even if that place is only a little corner. most of all, i hate uncertainty. isn't hate such a strong word? a word that is overused, sadly. but it is the only one that describes the intensity of my emotions. so i must use it. 001203 ... JACKIE THE REASON I HATE YOU SO MUCH IS BECAUSE I LOVE YOU:( 001228 ... JACKIE I LOVE YOU BUT I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU LIE TO ME YOU LIE TO ME SOOOOO MUCH IT HURTS CANT YOU SEE I JUST WISH I COULD ERASE MY LOVE FOR YOU AND JUST HATE YOU BUT I CANT I WANT TO HATE YOU BUT INSTEAD I JUST END UP LOVING YOU MORE AND MAKING MY HEART ACHE WITH SO MUCH HATE:( I DONT WANT TO HATE HATE IS NO GOOD HATE IS EVIL ... 001228 ... rollins If you really have a lot on your mind, and you really want to do something with yourself..(as i'm sure that all of you do) Hating someone is giving them too much of yourself right there, Just leave them alone. Its like when someone wants to hand you a big pile of horseshit, you don't have to take it. just say, "Fuck you, man" 010106 ... alex311swim Hate=Love=Jimmy 010204 ... the elf king If you flip through the Bible, you'll eventually find the parts that say it's a sin to hate people. Well, then, I'm sinning. I hate him. My father, I mean. Just looking at his face or hearing his voice or smelling his cologne makes me feel positively sick. I don't know how to forgive him, and I don't even know if I want to. I can't forget what he did to my family. I'll start to feel guilty about holding a grudge, but then I start to remember...Mom spending every night in the bathroom, crying, because of him...Stephen being black and blue, because of him...His hands around Julie's throat, choking her, and then slapping her in the face...David hiding in the closet because he was so scared...Me, when I ws 5 years old, backed into a corner and screaming because he was so angry and I thought he was going to hit me...I hate him. For breaking apart my family, for putting us all through years of pain. I'll be 18 next year, so I can move away, if I want to. And I want to. Of course, I'll have to live in a run-down apartment building and work at some sleazy grill or something until I finish high school, But it's the lesser of two evils. No one knows much of anything about all of this...I feel like I'm lying to my friends by not telling them. But I've already lost one friend because of this whole mess, and I'm not going to lose any more. I have to go now, and eat lunch, and pretend that absolutely nothing is wrong, the same way I always have. If it weren't for this website, maybe I would have gone crazy long ago. But I don't know, and I don't care, really. It's the hopelessness of this whole situation that gets to me...I look back at the past, I think about the present, and I see no hope for a brighter future. Well, that's not completely true. One year, and I'll never have to see him again...freedom... I don't like turkey and cheese all that much, but I don't think there's anything else to eat around here... 010206 ... firehunden popular hate? self hate? love hate? cruel hate? the power of hate? hate of hate? keep hate simple. 010223 ... god fling your arms madly, old lady with a daughter. 010223 ... god scream_thy_last_scream 010223 ... arayer judge me, kill me, stone me, rape me. who the fuck are you to judge me. Escape, escape from my heart, escape from my mind. you'll never know, you'll never understand me. DONT EVEN THINK YOU KNOW ME. twisted, fucked up suicidal mind 010226 ... Dafremen ...to burst your bubble, but I wasn't really HATING you, in fact I hadn't really NOTICED you before. As for you hating ME, like I said, I hadn't really noticed you before. 010226 ... Little Hawk ...just the same as love, though people seem to mistake it for a beast of its own. You love someone...you hate someone; either way you think of them often, and without them you'd be absolutely empty. 010228 ... G_wiz13 in essence the thing that drives me and many other people. the thing that makes me breath. If it wasnt for the childhood i had maybe i could be happy just maybe normal. Then again if i was normal I wouldnt be "freak" that i am.*sighs and thinks* if only my mother hadnt taken drugs just maybe i would have had a normal childhood. 010228 ... Dafremen Waaaah! Been there done that. Get over the hate, get over the love you never missed, get on with living. A childhood lost to someone else's irresponsibility isn't worth being hateful over. Your hate is like a monument to what they did to you. Is that your intention? To immortalize the fact that they didn't give a flying f*ck about you with a psychological memorial? See also: People Painful Sister Children Love Computer Daddy Dad What_i_want_to___have___but_can't 010301 ... cheeze i love the way you hate me i love the way you hate me i hate the way i love me what is hate when it is subceeded by love. 010302 ... johnny west A strong word? Yes. I hate everything, while simultaneously loving everything. Is that possible? Probably not. 010304 ... cheeze i think that it is possible to love everything and hate it at the same time. but where do you draw the line is there anything that you hate more than you love. i hate everything that i love 010311 ... Aimee I hate being hurt. Everytime something good happens, it's taken away from me. I really didn't want to get hurt this time. I really didn't. I thought, wow, this may finally be the end of my bad streak. But of course, it wasn't. I am so tired of this. Someone please tell me it's almost over.... things were looking so damn bright.. and in a heart beat it all went to shit. 010311 ... johnny west In a lot of ways, life is shit. The challenge is to work your way through the shit...and, ultimately, to become "happy". Whatever that is. 010311 ... cheeze i agree life treats me like shit 010312 ... Dafremen Good gawd here we go again. Waaaaahhhh!!! Life is soooo hard. life treats me like SHIT! I HAAAATE life. Ohhh Woe is meeeeeee! I think I know what I hate now. I hate listening to people whine about how crappy their life is. Give it a rest wouldja? Wanna talk about eating shit for breakfast and asking for seconds? Try getting a hot wheels track across the face when it came time for a beating. Let me tell you some days you were thankful for the hot wheels track too, that meant they weren't using the belt on yer head, buckle side! Bunch of whiney spineless twerps good lord. Get over it. Each crappy moment in your life is an experience that you can look back on when things are just so-so and then suddenly so-so doesn't seem so bad anymore. Especially not when compared to a hotwheels track across a 5 year old's cheek or a Seagram's bottle across the back. I mean geezus boys and girls, just read: Painful and tell me your life is sooooo bad. Here's the deal folx, this is the one you got, good or bad, you can either sit their crying about it not being everything you want it to be, or you can find the COURAGE to live life and enjoy it, like I said, good or bad. "Life treats me life shit.." sheesh. 010313 ... Dafremen how crappy their life is. Give it a rest wouldja? Wanna talk about eating shit for breakfast and asking for seconds? Try getting a hot wheels track across the face when it came time for a beating. Let me tell you some days you were thankful for the hot wheels track too, that meant they weren't using the belt on yer head, buckle side! Bunch of whiney spineless twerps good lord. Get over it. Each crappy moment in your life is an experience that you can look back on when things are just so-so and then suddenly so-so doesn't seem so bad anymore. Especially not when compared to a hotwheels track across a 5 year old's cheek or a Seagram's bottle across the back. I mean geezus boys and girls, just read: Painful and tell me your life is sooooo bad. Here's the deal folx, this is the one you got, good or bad, you can either sit their crying about it not being everything you want it to be, or you can find the COURAGE to live life and enjoy it, like I said, good or bad. "Life treats me life shit.." sheesh. 010313 ... Dafremen Ok so that wasn't too slick...I HATE it when that happens. Oh well...that's life 8 ) 010313 ... cheeze well... hows this... every part of the body hit by everything imaginalble. including hot wheel tracks across the face... any thing from spatula's, belts, boots, lamps busted over my head... scolding hot irons... for doing nothing... i know exactly how you feel... everything you just said is about my life... 010315 ... Dafremen Excellent!!! You've got plenty of memories to make the rest of your life seem like PARADISE in comparison then. Aren't we a couple of Lucky Ducks?!!! 010316 ... cheeze in so many ways we are alike 010316 ... bret Dafremen-- I don't think you should belittle people for being unhappy. Everyone has the right to be depressed or hate life as they see fit. So what if you had a worse life? There will always be someone else who is worse off. It's irrelevent. Thinking about others in worse situations is usually not conforting -- it just adds guilt to the depression. The point is, no one should feel shamed into diminishing or discounting their feelings of loneliness or heartbreak just because -you- had an unhappy childhood. Everyone lives their own life independently, with personal joys and personal tragedies. It doesn't matter if your tragedies are "worse" than mine in some sense. They are still my tragedies, and I am entitled to the appropriate emotions, without you jugding me. 010321 ... 13lueee I hate him...all of them for making me cry and being the reason for my depression and self-destruction...and they didn't even care.none of them... while i cried they were with her...happy... and thats the worst. it was all because of her...and they didn't even know what it did to me, how it hurt me and they wouldn't even have cared... 010321 ... Dafremen Indeed this IS an independent journey. One which we each must go through alone. On my trek I see so many whining sniveling people who wallow in their self pity and so-called "misery" and I think to myself, MAN I'm sure glad that I haven't CHOSEN to feel sorry for myself or bitter for the hand that life has dealt me. Indeed it COULD have been MUCH worse, I realize that and I temper those moments when I am most tempted to indulge in self pity with the knowledge that my plight is not so bad as it could be. Belittle someone? How could I possibly make someone feel litte? As you said this is an independent journey which each human travels alone. Each person's thoughts and feelings are his own and therefore if someone reads my OWN personal thoughts and is made to feel little, that is on THEM not on me. I simply expressed MY feelings on the subject, MY thoughts on the matter, THEY are the ones who turned to my thoughts, considered them and then modified their own feelings of themselves (or didn't) based on what they read. Such hypocrisy! In the same breath you say that we are each entitled to our own thoughts and feelings and then you BLAME another human being(me) for somehow influencing the thoughts and feelings of others with the written word. I am not capable of making anyone feel little, that is something that can only be done by each individual who reads my words and then adjusts their attitudes or opinions as a result. Change occurs from the inside, not from the outside and therefore your attempt at judging ME is falling on deaf ears, because I erfuse to let it change my perception of ME. It's just another bout of whining, something which as I have already said, I am tired of hearing. Keep ranting if it makes you feel better however, it doesn't change my thoughts or feelings one way or the other. How could it? I am responsible for my OWN feelings and thoughts. : ) 010322 ... lost fuck you deframen I dont feel sorry for myself. I use what has happened to me for a way to remind myself not to do it to anyone. If you've gone through stuff i have gone through you would cry like a little bitch. I will admit i am pretty fucked up, but it makes me an individual. 010323 ... hated they will. they have. you might again too. it's partly a gender thing. there is hate. it is not my problem. 010323 ... Dafremen My aren't you EVER messed up. Cry like a little bitch..mmmm..ohh now what is this an abuse-a-thon? Hit me with your best shot tough guy, until you've been lying in a gutter in Tijuana with some cholo from San Ysidro putting his cockroach killer boots upside yer head, I don't suspect yer silly ass could come CLOSE to even making me shut up, let alone cry like a little b*tch. I'm tough as nails because of what I've been through and to tell you the truth, the tone of your post leads me to believe that more of your rant was bragging than truth. Get over it...move on. Hey and good idea, don't do it anymore, any LAB RAT knows that..if you get hurt, don't do it anymore. Sounds like you've learned a very important lesson that just about EVERYONE learns in life eventually. Don't be a schmuck, sit down! Yer making a fool of yourself. 010323 ... Dafremen P.S. The wife told me not to go out that day. She said she just had a bad feeling about it and she wanted me to stay home. But when a man has 6 mouths to feed including his own considerable one, he does what he has to do with no regrets. Besides, overtime pays time and a half and at the time I was making squat as an a assembler. Well she got her way anyhow. When they dropped my silly ass off at home bleeding from head to toe with a broken nose, two black eyes and contusions on the sides of my head that gave it the shape of "The Fly", she immediately knew her hunch had been right. Guess I should have given that big ugly motherfucker my walkman after all huh? Wait til you've paid your dues kid, then you can step to me. Right now yer just stepping off the porch with the pups. Go sharpen your little teeth on some other old geezer's bones. 010323 ... 13lueee i'm sick of playing your game what would you do if i fell? would you say it was your fault or would you fuck up like last time??? 010327 ... bluedaisy33 i'm sick of playing your game... because i know that when i fall your all gonna act the same... ...and i hate you for that... 010327 ... bluedaisy33 that just fucked up isn't it??? 010327 ... bitter bird none more than him 010328 ... lost lol... I'm good at making an ass out of myself. Its kinda fun to do to. I dont give a fuck what you think Dafremen. I just come here to talk and shit so fuck you again. 010329 ... dB Hey DaFreman, I think he's steppin to ya. What do you reckon we should do? Call in the possee? 010329 ... just some mean bitch alls I'm saying is that I hate dafreman. he thinks people should feel sorry for him because his life has sucked a whole lot and he's been through a lot of shit. well guess what buddy, most of the people on blather have very similar stories so quit your bitchin and stop telling everyone all about how whatever fucked up life story they have, you've got one that's worse. good for you, really. congratulations, your life sucks too. shut up! 010329 ... Dafremen Looky looky...I'm so proud of you young whippersnappers. It's nice to see you doing something besides whining about how pitiful and miserable your lives are for once. As for where that mean bitch got her information, I'd really like to know. She obviously hasn't read a word I've written. In everything I write, I say, DON'T feel sorry for yourself, and HELL NO for GAWD SAKE DON'T FEEL SORRY FOR ME!!!!!! What's past is past and all that I ask is that those of you who think yer life is rotten look to others who's lives were more rotten and realize that you don't have it that bad after all. My past and the experiences I have had define who I am and how I feel about life, which is this: I LOVE it!!! I wouldn't change a THING about my past my present or my future, and since I really can't change my past, and the present's already here, I guess all I have left that's within my power to change is my future. I have NO idea how you read that I want people to feel sorry for me in ANY of my blathers you mean bitch, but whether you want me to or not, I forgive you for your ignorance. Keep on growling and snarling, if you must, growl and snarl at me(in fact I INVITE it, you soft spineless wimps need a punching bag to get you in shape!). It's a refreshing change from the usual pathetic whimpering, pissing and moaning I hear from so many of you here all of the time. smooch baby P.S. I'm so proud of you all. - - 010404 ... Dafremen Db, Heheh these little ones will get smart one day. One day they'll realzie that dafremen isn't the problem, db isn't the problem, life isn't the problem, the world isn't the problem and everyone else isn't the problem. They'll realize that their attitude towards all of the above is the problem. Til then I guess it's just you and me and the other realists kicking back and watching them make fools of themselves while we sip a brewski or two eh? - - 010404 ... Chrity Hate is the poison of the soul. I don't hate, I just harbor strong dislike for some things/people. People who hate other people are mean. Mean people suck. That's all I have to say about that. 010408 ... chanaka i hate that i put up a face, acting like i don't care that he says he loves her. how free the words fly from his fingertips. words that he never will say to me, never think, never feel, never believe. we all must be strong, to not give in to the hate. i must be strong and not let it show. he my hate away with his words. he does not lie. i cannot stop them, nor him. so i smile away my hate for a day. 010408 ... mmm i hate my parents right now, they still don't trust me 010410 ... elisabeth I hate that wet drop that runs down my cheak it comes from my eyes, i hate the felling of it and the cold chilles it sends up and down my body. Most of all i hate the fact that i can't stop them they just keep comeing. 010411 ... Tim!!! i hate looking at this tree, sitting, looking waiting for me to join it. i hate the things that it does to me. i hate the tathered piece of rope that still hangs from it. i hate the fatct that the rope didnt hold my weight. i need a stronger rope... 010411 ... Tim!!! i hate the fact that i cant spell or type 010411 ... keeper hate me, you really should 010417 ... the iron sausage prove it 010417 ... Rayne I hate feeling 010417 ... unhinged it is a losing battle but there is one thing to be said for all of this. connotation and being a literalist and trying to make words vague that are abundantly clear is even more annoying than all the 'whining and crying' that goes on around here. i don't think anyone started judging you until you started telling all of us that our problems aren't worth your precious time. i've tried so hard to just keep my mouth shut because i realize it is a battle lost before it even begins. you are the kind of person that is always right. that is apparent. thanks for trying to change my childish view of the world. i have walked away from our encounters a better and more complete human being that now lives life to the fullest. 010417 ... Dafremen Hate to think that you were being sarcastic.: ) Oh well, life is good anyhow. Best wishes in whatever trips your trigger, Daffy - - 010418 ... dB Unhinged, Daffy, How about that brewski. No point getting bent out of shape about other peoples ideas/thoughts or whatever. Fremen; you said us realists should just kick back and enjoy the show, then let's do so. Could be entertaining. Anyone up for a Bud? Oh Yeah, Nancy, I think you'll find that in this sense it is a COMMUNITY of hypocrits. 010419 ... Dafremen Bud gives me a headache. HARP Lager here. 010419 ... dB Harp? Never heard of it. You wanna try a Stienlager? 010419 ... Dafremen HARP is an Irish beer. Sure I'll take a Stinelager 010419 ... oh pee um it's only the mirror of love. an intensity so pure and volatile, it will burn who dares to touch it's fiery soul. 010420 ... claudia i went to a birthday a long time ago, after i had a huge fight with a group of my friends. We were all talking about it around the kitchen table while doing crafts and one of my friends said "you must really hate them, eh?". my only response was "yeah". then, my friends mom jumped in and said "never say 'hate'. you can never hate a person until you love them first". and so i thought to myself that i never loved anybody, so what was this hate shit i was talking about? But that was years ago. And i can truly say now that i do hate. i hate with my whole being because i loved and was repeatedly stabbed in the back without so much as a whimper from me. I used to think that it was called 'uncondional love'. but being treated like shit isn't really love, now is it? but i know what hate is. HATE IS: wanting somebody gone not only from your life, but from everybody else's. not resentment or pain. a sickness which only fresh blood can cure. an incessant fire within that cannot be defeated, only fed. so i say right now to anybody and everybody reading this: don't deny your hate. It drives us with a desire for justice and change. It is the greatest motivation i've ever had. 010430 ... melvinwang i hate it when people say that this is such a strong word, and ask us not to use it. we use it, like any other word, because we mean it, it is the only way to express our feelings. it's like any expletive speaking of which, i hate my life sometimes. life is hate. hate is something we should learn to accept but never act on. it's a part of all of us, our commun human nature 010504 ... anon I HATE LIFE!!!!!!! I HATE MY DAD AND MY MOM!! I HATE MY GRANDPARENTS AND SOME OF MY "FRIENDS"!!! Funny thing is, I don't hate myself........... 010508 ... anon I HATE LIFE!!!!!!! I HATE MY DAD AND MY MOM!! I HATE MY GRANDPARENTS AND SOME OF MY "FRIENDS"!!! Funny thing is, I don't hate myself........... 010508 ... Dafremen Here we go again. Hey folx, Umm after this anon guy..can I PLEASE rest my case?! I mean can the next person that hates life, their parents and the world PLEASE just say "ditto" to what the previous "rage filled" angst-ridden teen said? I'll stop if you folx will. 010509 ... Dafremen I hate that as a parent, I have to be the BAD guy all the time. It sucks, I'd rather be having fun with the missus,or playing some Quake, but I have this stupid job to do called raising my kids and paying to keep a roof over their heads. A perfect example of Daffy the "Bad Guy Asshole Parent" My 15 year old tells me that she hates me and she wishes I would let her do what she wants to and leave her alone. I left, and came back with a suitcase and a 10 dollar bill. I said "Fine, get the fuck out." (I normally don't swear at my kids, but I had a point to make and I think it was well served by the expletive.) "Here's a suitcase for your stuff, and some money to get started." "Where will I go?" "That's not my problem, you want to live your life, you hate me, here's your chance. Get the fuck out." "But I don't know where I'm going to go and that's only 10 dollars." "Hey, I came up from Mexico with only 10 bux in my pocket and a suitcase. You've got it easy. I had a pregnant wife and a child with me. Now get the fuck out." "But I don't know where to go and I'm afraid." "Tough shit, so was I. If you don't want to live by my rules, here's the alternative, leave. If you don't like me and want me gone, here's your chance. Get the fuck out if that's what you want to do. I'm not stopping you." "I don't want to go, why are you doing this to me?" "You said you wanted me gone. Well there are other people in this family who don't. The easiest way for me to be gone from your life is for you to leave. I love you and I'll miss you, but if you hate me that much and you can't live by my few EASY rules then get the FUCK out if that's what you're going to do. Cmon, get packing." (Sobbing)"I don't want to go." "Well, that's your choice, but if you're going to stay, you've got to live by my rules. This is MY house, this is your mother's house. It can be your home, but it can't be YOUR way. It's my way and your mother's way or you know where your suitcase is and I'll keep this 10 dollars in my pocket just in case." "You hate me!"(Now THERE'S a twist. I hate HER! Sheesh F*cking teens!!) "I don't hate you, I'm just not gunna put up with your shit. This is MY family, I built it NOT you. I'd rather watch you walk out that door than watch you tear this family apart with your selfish, immature, I-wanna-do-what-I-wanna-do bullshit." "You would REALLY let me leave huh? Why are you so mean?" "Mean? Mean? I'm not the one telling YOU how much I HATE you. That's you telling ME that. All I ever did was put a roof over your head and love you to death. Screw you, YOU'RE the mean one. All you think about is your friends. Your friends haven't given up a THING for you. What have your friends ever done for you? Name ONE thing that your friends have done to feed you, clothe you, protect you. I'm mean? No YOU'RE the mean one. I'm just some hard working sucker that fell for a cute little baby that started to HATE me when she turned 14." "Would you REALLY make me leave?" "No, and I wasn't making you leave, I was giving you the choice. If someday you decide you're ready to leave, don't look back because you WON'T be coming back. I'll still love you and I'll still worry about you, but you're a tough girl, you'll make it and I still have your brothers and sisters to think about too." "I'm sorry I called you mean. I don't really hate you." "Thank you. I'm sorry I yelled at you. You gunna be able to handle living by my rules or not?" "Yea, I'll try." "That's all I've ever asked." - - 010509 ... swanker I hate Taco Bell But Love Green Cheese 010517 ... Ninny Nu Nu I just hate you. Ii really hate you. I really really do. 010528 ... nemo i hate me 010604 ... Dafremen I hate it when blather slows down in the middle of the day. Not that these Dog_Boot_Company RangeHunter LS's don't make it just a bit more bearable. 010605 ... nocturnal at work I hate that, too. I will ignore the second portion of your statement. 010605 ... Sheena such a strong word...even if u dont really mean it. watch how u use it and try to never say it. hate can hurt someone 10 times more than u can imagine. hatred is one of the worse things anyone can ever have. it brings u and the person u hate down. dont hate but LOVE! 010618 ... josh hate--- hate is very strong word. i think that people hate because they fear something. If people call themselves Christians...they have two obligations....Love God and Love people. If we all lived up to this, there wouldnt be any room left for hate. I know that in life there will be people u dont like and thats fine but hating them is not the asnwer to anything. God made them beautiful and hating something of God is blasphmey.email me any time. 010618 ... dB Disney created happiness Bon Jovi invented love (otherwise their records would be even more inane) Alanis Morisette made guilt Hate just is. It's there and everyone uses it, everyone. It's a human condition. There are pills for it even. If you don't hate, then how are you supposed to be objective? 010618 ... me its bad 010619 ... nocturnal at work a hobby of mine 010619 ... Sol this is depressingly long, so i felt i should add to it, I dont hate, I dont feel much at the moment, other than a creeping depression, (similar to that described in Nausia by Satre, if anyone has read it) and a sudden elated calm, serenity topped by blissful happiness, irritation is the closest i come to hate, i may use the word, but i mean something much less severe than what is described by people on this page 010619 ... sgsdg its bad 010622 ... lostchild pointlessnessnessnessnessss. at least if you're angry you get things done. 010627 ... jane Dafreman...clever clever...was it your point to get people to hate you on this page? I respect you for what you've been through, not pity you. Good for you for reflecting it. but then you said you forgive for ignorance...don't "forgive," pity. some people just aren't capable of comprehending what others do, so i say just let them blather and be on their merry way. 010706 ... in-sanity RAH I hear you speak RAH the trumpets sound RAH the madness is beginning again ... 010929 ... RAH HATE oh to hate friendly hate evil hate hate hate love hate kill hate 011007 ... Wicket today I hate him today it feels like the only right thing today I could kill him today I should hate him today I should do many things But I should stop doing this... coming back you you everytime I'm hating you I can't keep from coming back to you ....I'm hating myself for that... 011007 ... Wicket today I hate him today it feels like the only right thing to do today I could kill him today I should hate him today I should do many things But I should stop doing this... coming back you you everytime I'm hating you I can't keep from coming back to you ....I'm hating myself for that... 011007 ... Caseys Deep Thoughts I used to think everyone hated me. Now I think everyone just hates certain things about me. Like the fact that I think everyone hates me. 011007 ... Fairy Juice ....is something i dont **UNDERSTAND** yet fills me to the brim.... 011101 ... turbocharged jet black bird (re-entryburnout) i can hate myself better than anyone else i've earned it i worked hard for it prove me wrong for every dark secret i can confess i hide five more worse than that when i thought i could shake it off, some one always came along to prove that it is pretty well set in stone this is my express_handbasket_straight_to_hell bought and paid for with a bit of blood and a whole lot of dirt (figurative and literal) maybe i wasn't quite wired together straight to begin with, but this is where i am now 011101 ... anti-social butterfly i am incapable of hating people, well, except for myself. this is an emotion that i do not understand, yet i wish i had. if i could hate i would not be able to get so hurt. if i could hate and hold a grudge then i wouldn't let him hurt me. i would blame him instead of myself. hate must make one invincible. but i do not know how to be mad for more than 5 minutes. i do not know how to not forgive. i wish i could learn to hate. but instead i love, even through the abuse, and i get hurt, all because i cannot be mad at him. all because i love him anyway, all because i forgive him no matter what, all because i do not know how to hate. i think it is very unhealthy for me not to hate him. does anyone know how to teach me to hate, i mean truly hate? it may be my only means of avoiding more self-destruction to help me forget. i cannot hate, but i can never forget. 011101 ... Lover Hate makes you ugly. 011109 ... nocturnal hate makes me happy. but only with a few certain people. 011109 ... blue i hate calculus 011211 ... no reason i hate you and i thought saying that would make me feel better but it really doesn't. i hate the way you talk so animatedly, so full of life, so happily, to other people who aren't like me, who aren't me. Who is me, anyway? And i don't mean Who am I, because i know that, unfortunately, i know myself really damn well. Why the delicacy, the fragility? i won't break, there's no room for pity. Never any room, I loathe pity, makes me feel that i'm a person worthy to be pitied, that i'm a pitiful person. Why can't you just be true to yourself? and i never want to see you again because i hate you and i hate myself because i'm a hypocrite and i know that i love you and i only don't want to see you because you remind me of who i am, which i'm usually able to forget, to deny, to squish back in my confused and delirious mind. i need to call for help but you ask and you're too afraid to know and there i go again reversing things because in effect i'm the one who's afraid. It's so crazy and confused and it pounds and it buzzes and i can't stop it can't deny it can't hold it in much longer before i lose myself. 020210 ... blown cherry I don't hate calculus. Calculus, when it works, when everything fits neatly into place, is beautiful. A type of neat poetry. I just wish I were better at it. Anyway, hate. I don't think I've ever really hated anyone. Not for more than a few minutes anyway. There are plenty of people I dislike, but disliking them entails not giving enough of a stuff about them to bother hating them. I'd have to really care about someone first before I could come to hate them. I suppose I'll learn to hate you someday, and you'll be the one to teach me how. 020211 ... blown cherry Hahaaa! I beat you to it didn't I! Notice the particular irony considering my above blathe :P I made you hate me, and I still don't hate you, even though you told me you'd like to see my kidneys pulped out throught a straw in my back then force fed to me! !!!!!! Exclaimation marks for everyone!!!!!! I should hate you. Why can't I make myself hate you? Fuck me. Fuck me to hell. Hmm. Does it look like I've flipped out here or what? 020223 ... glenn what a word the strongest word in the english language i dont hate i cant hate i wouldnt want to hate i would want to be hated. opposite is love i want to love i could love i want to love i want to be loved 020310 ... continuous ache when we first began to talk again, i asked you with laughing seriousness to think next time i made you angry. i asked you to remember how small i am and how strong you are. i had to look away from you then because i felt that little spark creep into my eyes... -i knew the hate was showing- things seem better now, don't they? we sat around last night listening to INXS, ZZ Top, Floyd, Fat Boys Slim, just enjoying each other. candlelight, cocaine, and conversation. you looked up at me and said, "You know, i really expected you to hate me...i'm so glad we're still talking." And again, i looked away...and lied. "i couldn't hate someone i love so much." i do love you, but the stronger the love, the stronger the hate in this case. i hate you so much because i can't stop loving you. i wish i could. i know you....you won't stop hurting me. 020325 ... Ikarikun McGreggor Hate is a meny splendous thing, hate, take us up where we belong, all you need is hate!! 020406 ... Invisible Butterfly grrrr! 020525 ... cheer-up-emo-kid how can I hate and love someone so much at the same time? 020527 ... no reason it's a fine line 020612 ... blaber mouth hate is love and when you love you hate why is there some much of each to equal the same you want when will it end with your love! 020709 ... Corvus Misanthrope I hate people, I hate words, I hate voices, and I hate hearing seeing and smelling the SHIT of Life. I hate being here, I hate that so called “Teen Angst”, I hate styles, I hate hair, I hate having to deal with things I don’t want to deal with. I hate the way you can’t just be yourself, the way people think you have to fit in. I hate the way people beg for attention and pity. I hate the way people think its cool to cut your-self. I hate the way they want my pity. I hate school, I hate the bullshit the school puts you though. I hate the way I feel inside. I hate the way people try to show me unwanted pity. I hate the way I have to put on a mask to keep people from acting like they care. I hate the way people show UN-sympathetic Sympathy and the way they try to make me feel bad, and bring me down because I don’t show it back or because I just don’t care. I hate the way all my hopes and dreams are CRUSHED at the Realization of Life. I hate the way all my wishes are only Bitter Disappointments. I hate the way the word Love is used so easily and so UN-thoughtfully. I hate the way every thing I DO love, I can’t tell, and they Unknowingly slip by. I hate the way I hate everything. I hate the way I don’t understand why I hate me, I hate why I don’t understand at all. I hate the way people value life, not knowing why, or for all the wrong reasons. I hate the way people can’t just accept that we are just here, and there is NO “Greater Force”. I hate the way everything has to be explained that some things can’t just be. I hate stupidity and the idiocy that I have to deal with everyday. I hate that Innocence is something to strive for. I hate that people change who they are, simply for the sense of acceptance that others show, but talk about you when your not around or listening. I hate the fact that people revolve their lives around things that mean nothing to them. I hate that nothing brings me joy anymore, and the things that do bring me joy are either taken away, or leave me. I hate the way I feel apathetic towards everything, when in actuality I’m not. I hate the way people try soooo hard to be liked, while everyone unconsciously seems to do this in a way, just without such desperation for some. I hate how pathetic I am, and I hate how everyone else is even more pathetic than I am. I hate the way everything I say, I contradict in the end. I hate the way I find the weaknesses and flaws in people, so that I can push myself away, and seem to have a reason. I hate the way that I don’t know that I do these things until after I have done them. I hate that I cant accept who I am, simply because I cannot understand who I am. I hate the way everything has to be right. I hate that everything that is fun is wrong. I hate that any imperfection makes you a Failure, when in fact we are all Failures. I hate the way I set my standards higher than I will achieve only to disappoint me when I don’t meet the standards. I hate the way I can’t comprehend the things I should. I hate the way my mind holds things back from me, so that I am unwillingly unable to comprehend. I hate the way people stereotypically judge people by the way they dress, and not by their personality, and attitude. I hate that nothing every goes right, and when it does, something always screws it up in the end. I hate that my perspectives differ from that of other peoples, so they automatically don’t try to understand. I hate all of this shit, and the fact that there is nothing I can do about it. I hate the fact that I know that I will never amount to anything, and even if I do, that when I die none of it will matter anymore. I hate that I can’t figure out where I went wrong, and how I can fix it. I hate that I am nice to people I don’t like, then when I tell them how I feel I feel bad about it at times, no matter how much I don’t want to, or don’t think I care. I hate that hate and love are complete opposites, when love will only amount to the hate of something. I hate that I cannot do the things I want to do, and am sure I never will. I hate that I notice and realize all of my own flaws, and in a way, pull myself away from…myself. I hate that without love there can be no hate, but without hate there can be no love. I hate that everything has to have an opposite. I hate that everything important seems to be nothing, I hate that I don’t care, I hate that our personality is based upon you “style” rather than your actual personality. I hate that sometimes I almost feel pity for myself, but thankful that I never do. I hate that things have to be equal, but the ones who want equality really want to be on top. I hate that no matter how hard I try, when I look at myself, I will always see a failure. That no matter what I do, everything is NOT going to be all right. I hate the fact that I see, and notice all of these things, while others seem to be blinded by stupidity. I hate that I know what I will always be, because that seems to be the only purpose of life is to find out what you are going to be when you “grow up”. I hate that I know, but that I am still here, I hate that no one understands because they are too dense or don’t even attempt. I hate the way people will screw you over, and I hate that I do this too, and don’t even realize it. I hate the way I want to Cry and Scream and Die…and I hate that I can’t do this, and I hate that I don’t know why. I hate that when I think about it, I realize that it doesn’t matter all that much. I hate that when I think about everything, that nothing really matters. I hate all the pointless things people do for attention. I hate all the shit you have to go through, just to make it through the day. I hate that I have to do things, to please someone else, and not myself. I hate that I cannot do anything for ME anymore, and that it doesn’t matter to the person I’m doing all of this shit for. I hate that I cant be happy being who I really am, because someone else will make me miserable. I hate that I have no choice but to deal with this shit! I hate how pointless life really is, and how every one is so blind to this. I hate that I look down on every one. I hate that life is too short to be pissed off all the time, and that this is all I seem to be all the time. I hate that I’m always pissed off or depressed, and I hate that I know I will never be happy because I will never really be me. I hate the world and everything in it, and I hate what the world is forcing me to become. And I hate that I can see this, unlike many that don’t, but I hate that there's nothing I can do about any of it. 020807 ... Corvus Misanthrope Wow....That's alot...Sorry. 020807 ... weaktryspottedrightaway surelyyaknowbettertricks 020807 ... devalis such a strong word. i use it loosely, mostly just playing around, but to really hate someone, that takes more effort than it's worth. hating someone never hurt them unless you put action to the hate and all it does is tire you out. 020818 ... Oak Barrel I try not to hate. it is too strong an emotion. I wonder though if love is just as strong as hate, why doesn't it cause such wonderful acts to be done in it's name? if only we loved instead of hated. the problem is... many people hate the people they once loved.... that makes me sick. 020818 ... Liz I hate to see him falling... 020822 ... specialK i hate my life. and most of the time i think i hate the people in it. "hate" is such a strong word most people would say. but i don't know. it is just a word. an expression of intense feeling. i hate my world and my parents and the person that fucked me over and broke my heart repeatedly. it's something that i don't think will ever heal. if not after 4 years . . . then when? never. torment is my state of existence. 020909 ... sarah I hate when you hit me I love when you kiss my neck I hate how you never listen I love how you touch me... 020924 ... sirflaccid For once in my father's pathetic excuse for a life he said something to me that was profound. "There are very few people I can't stand. I dislike a lot of people, but there are very few that I can't stand the thought of being around." I thought that was a very true statement of my ideas as well. I can only name a handfull of people that I could not stomach being around. There is no reason to go through life pretending to hate someone just because you don't get along. 021101 ... broken I hate you if only you could feel this pain this agony... clawed hands tearing their way through your chest, through the bloody shreds of your heart, while you weep stinging salt tears. How I want you to hate yourself when you look in the mirror and see who you really are... like I do when I look in the mirror and see your eyes looking back. how I want you to scream and wail and hide yourself away while you bleed from the name carved into your arm... mine. 021127 ... just_inflate i hate how you read me like a book. i was lying right open, but i didnt want to be read was i that fucking easy? 021204 ... daxle I used to hate I'd say "I hate." Now I'm just too tired to care that much 021204 ... me why do you hate me? lesbian bi pagan (wiccan to be exact. but you don't care) liberal (she reads "bitch" magazine) What's the matter? I don't hate you. Straight Godly person Ever "righteous" conservative quiet (excpet amongst yourselves. I can remember all too many, "those niggers") why? why do you hate? them? me? what's it to you? why? 021205 ... littleidiot must transmutate leaden grudges into gold... 021206 ... crazyPUNKkait i swear i hate him now i liked him so much and he goes and gets a girlfriend. i have never hated anyone this much in my life and i will never hate anyone more he makes me forget about the things that i love and all i have been able to do for the past week is cry and listen to emo and cry some more and sleep ive failed every test that ive taken because all i can think about is how much i loved him and how stupid i was it sucks. 021208 ... girl name h a t e. matters not how ive broken you, matters not what ive taken in you. for all the tears, from all these years you could never hate me as much as i hate thee 021209 ... mrker2 because i hate the way you make me feel; longing with desire all through the night. I hate these tears running down my face, and i hate these cold winter days where all i can think about is you 021209 ... phil why do they leave me no choice but destroy them 030326 ... joda Dirty. 030426 ... starryeyes i would hate you but youre not worth it my heart was suspended for days, months suspended in all those diet cokes i bought just so i could come see you at work my heart was numbed by all that fizzy carbonation that bubbled away so quickly leaving me with nothing but dry rust colored powder we were both young and stupid but i hate you for what you took from me you took almost all i ever had without a word of thanks you didnt want me to kiss you i wont forget that it was okay for you to use me to break me but you wouldnt even kiss me you left me alone cold and naked in the basement by myself i hate you for what you did for what i let you do for all the things i said yes to for all the time i wasted i almost lost my best friend i cried way too much because of you hes forgiven me now, you bastard maybe one day, i will begin to forgive myself but until then, i hate you. 030510 ... emo-kid-who-wont-cheer-up i hate myself and i want to die, at least occasionally i do. 030517 ... Kyle hate is what i feel right now, for my self, for my friends, for everything around me. It all comes crashing down with some small event in our lives that makes us hate the world, and the people who we used to love, used to not be able to live without. When i hear the word hate, i know that it is serious, and i know that it will pass. I don't know what is wrong with me. 030619 ... god i hate hate 030619 ... crimson I love you so much It transforms to hate 030830 ... nomatter people ask why I hate God I hate that. I've never really given it much thought. I'm angry... what's it to you? 030831 ... voodoo i hate that i have to accuse you of this but what else is there for me to think i call you to say i'm staying home you joke about finding another lady for the night i take that joke as a joke like it's always been but i don't think it was stop at your house before i left for work this morning come to find out two minutes after talking to me the girl you "love" you called someone else someone you've been with before what am i supposed to think you were sleeping when i found out otherwise i wouldn't have found out at all did you ask her to come over? did she? did she stay? did you share yourself with her? i really hate having to ask these questions not even sure i want to know the answers we're supposed to be leaving on vacation tomorrow i'd hate to cancel it but how can i trust you? 030901 ... making a point http://blather.newdream.net/cgi-bin/blather?who;name=angry%20bitchy%20texan hung up on who we are in A.M.E.R.I.C.A. 030901 ... angelraping eyehategod 030912 ... nothingman "I hate myself and want to die." The greatest words ever spoken. 030915 ... Toxic_Kisses I wish I has as much controll over my emotions as you do 030915 ... Zero Hate; the only thing sweeter than love in this world. For what better emotion to unite us than pure, raw, mutual hatred? 030920 ... exsists hateing him for banging that chick hating him for hitting me hating him for making me hate him hating how much power he has to hurt me hating that i'm helpless agaisnt him hating him for fucking her hating him for smoking pot hating him for getting drunk and then slaming me agaisnt a wall hating him for losing Christ hating him for not being saved haitng him for getting bad grades hating him for screaming andpunching hating him because I am loving him for being my brother 031007 ... nothingman ......some days that's all there is.... 031008 ... hangthedj hate is such a strong word. 031030 ... pure insanity i think i hate him.... i think i hate the way he behaves and they way you hides his feelings and they way he hides himself!! but do i want to stalk him... do i want to make him hate me? 031210 ... sharp i hate myself 031212 ... GOD I wanna kill the world So I can be with you Just so we can be together I would kill you too Because I am already Dead And my emotions are no more I've given up on life Only so I can be with you 031216 ... GOD I wanna kill the world So I can be with you Just so we can be together I would kill you too Because I am already Dead And my emotions are no more I've given up on life Only so I can be with you 031216 ... yyyo naughty 031223 ... yyyo naughty 031223 ... yyyo naughty 031223 ... misstree there is no way to describe the pleasure it brings me to imagine your skull opened up and your grey matter slowly drying and cracking in the sun. causing you pain would be sublime. even the jolt up my arm as your nose crunched beneath my fist would be a flash of ecstacy. feeling my fingers clamp into your windpipe, your nails tearing out chunks of flesh from either side of my grin as you struggled. your body bucking beneath me in dying throes. hate brings vitality to the forefront. i would like to excise it. 031223 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl i hate. i never really knew what it meant. but i really do hate. i hate myself. i hate the way i am. i hate the very essence of me. i try to be someone else. anything. i despise myself. i hate the people around me who have so much and are so ungrateful. i hate. simple. i hate myself because i love him. and he doesnt love me. what can i do? its my fault he doesnt love me. i hate how the other girls can love and be loved. why cant that be me? i used to like being me. now i look at all the other girls and think; how many people pitied me for my naivety? how many of them laughed as i went about my life in childish innocence? never once thinking that i was anything but normal, dine. how many of them watched me as i fumbled and stumbled? always watching. i hate them for it. i know im not perfect. i know that im not thin. i hate that i cant say that im fat. there said it. i hate the weakness and pathetic excuses that the voice says to me. i hate myself, and that hate spreads to the world. hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehatehate so many things that circle in my head............................... 031228 ... ashely polly hate is something i have i carry it around i a big black bag i never leave it alone it is what holds me together sounding scary to some not most if you had my life it would be a joke no one cares or it seems that way i wish sometimes my thoughts would just go away the pain i feel from this is a rush that all participate i hate so many things sad in a way but thats ok hate we all have it 040112 ... minnesota_chris it helps you get through junior and senior high 040112 ... queen of darkness i hate that i hate and i hate that i love i hate the fact that nothing good lasts forever i hate it all 040127 ... queen of darkness i hate that i hate and i hate that i love i hate the fact that nothing good lasts forever i hate it all 040127 ... Lemon_Soda Never really did anything for me. 040127 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl hate is my perverted version of love. it keeps me warm whilst it freezes me. 040210 ... Black Argonaut i hate my boss. i didn't put any bottled water in the cooler (however, i fully stocked the damn thing with other beverages) and that mother fucker is suspending me for TWO WEEKS. maybe it's just me, but i thought the nazis went out of power in the 1940s... 040210 ... Black Argonaut ...no offense andy. 040210 ... anonymous -_- I don't get it. I know in my heart if Jesus existed he would give me a clue. I am not talking about some old book with scary stories - I mean he would really get down with me and chill! But the funny thing is... I was walking home a few days ago passed the ghetto and three guys pulled me into an ally so deep and narrow it was like a tunnel. When I saw the first guy start to unzip his pants I just drop to my knees and started praying. Oh GOD! Oh GOD! oh GOD! He just looked down at me and pulled out his nasty weenie and said - yah grl that's jus wherr I wans ya ta b. Then he tore at my t-shirt until my breasts where exposed. Then pinched my nipple soooo hard with a twist I almost fainted. I could smell his stinky crotch as he pulled me near. I wanted to scream -- but all I do was whisper. No lord, please no. Then I heard a whoop whoop cop car thingie sound and saw a bright light shine at the end of the tunnel. Next thing I knew they all ran like roaches when you turn on the light. OK so -- it was no burning bush but it sure saved mine! Perhaps I'll have to reconsider this thing called faith! -_- 040218 ... wordsayer hate wouldn't be nearly as fun without love to provide contrast 040305 ... () what i look like to youq 040419 ... () what i look like to *you* 040419 ... Megan Words can not describe how much I wish I had never met you. Chasing me. Making me fall for you. Making me weak and then feeding on my happiness. You are my disease and I am forever cursed with the memory of knowing you. You stole my innocense you bastard. You used me up and spit me out. And for that I hate you. I will never be able to love again. At least not the way it is meant to be. And for that I hate you. Yet, I can not wish you unhappiness. I do not wish you harm. I love you. And for that I will always hate you. 040420 ... minnesota_chris you chose this, remember? 040421 ... InfectiousBunnie Loath, loathe, abhor, dislike, detest, despise, disdain, scorn--whatever... Hate is the best... 040423 ... ofsuch sad to see so much about such an evil word. no more o' that 040430 ... mr sensitivo i love to hate. i hate many things. the thing i hate most is love. so if i love to hate, wouldn't i hate to love hate? 040501 ... love & hate I hate the light that day break brings. Darkness it should be for the whole 24 hours. That is when we come, that is when we eat. 040501 ... karamula love life. really do. but the line between love and hate is very thin. hate life. really do. 040503 ... thrtnblackstars i hate everything about you why do i love you you hate everything about me why do you love me 040504 ... magicforest how apt 040516 ... lou_la_belle don't make me hate you. 040615 ... zanna give me all your true hate. i probably deserve it. 040621 ... lou_la_belle I want so badly to hate you. no one has ever even come close to making me feel this way congratulations... but I can't hate you or her or anyone I can only hate myself for being such a fool. I say I'm over it but I'm lying. I smile and laugh and shrug it off but every minute I'm fighting not to hate you. 040706 ... Miss Kaycie Rose Go to hell Haddie. I usually don't hate people, but for you I have made and exception. 040707 ... Sahiba Hate is what one feels, i feel it when i am misplaced, or mistreated, others feel it when their are alone, or abandoned. I can't think of somethinf the same but hate is made with lack of love, and love can turn into hate just as much as love can turn into hate, then love can be hate for those who hate love. love is for the weak , hate is for the mindless, love makes u strong, hate kills u alive 040913 ... datkeedfrmdefinyerd I don't think it really exists, I think it's really a cop out for when you are too busy or lazy or just plain unwilling to understand something, I know what that's like to feel that way, I'm not saying I don't, but I'm working on it, and that's what's important 041011 ... love & hate because they'll never be, good to you, bad to you, they'll never be anything, anything at all. 041012 ... sve wow some intresting thoughts here...hate.. does it matter...tomorrow will come and this to shall pass and if it doesnt... that sucks huh...so get over hating but its really not my place to say...hate all you want! but why live a life of hate... whats the point of your life... hate...im sorry...but happy to not be you. 050120 ... sve wow some intresting thoughts here...hate.. does it matter...tomorrow will come and this to shall pass and if it doesnt... that sucks huh...so get over hating but its really not my place to say...hate all you want! but why live a life of hate... whats the point of your life... hate...im sorry...but happy to not be you. 050120 ... sve (sorry about that twice thing) 050120 ... Vere i hate this shell that i'm confined to. i hate what the mirror tells me every ten seconds. i hate the fact that i love him more than he could ever love me yet i will settle for it because its more than i've ever been loved in my life. i hate the tears that i cry because they fall every night unmarked and unnamed into the dark folds of my coffee colored sheets as i muffle my whimpers so as not to stir my beloved. 050213 ... oldephebe Damn - V that was so damn well put i said to the choir of contempt howling like coyotees possessed the spirit of Cain - "it's easy to hate rather than try and understand someone different to manufacture things to be mad at because to contemplate nothingness inside of you is unbearable so to feel ANYTHING even if it's hate - is better than a slow numbing march towards that gash in the earth, where the bones are left gnawed by vermin and the blood and flesh long rotted and dryed and swept into decay - if we cannot not be joined in love, in our common race, our shared humanity then let us be joined in our hate" - all of the despair and misery collected in that house, crying within the walls - singing in the mortar - the hardness of the sharp silences - the whieght of it all as one more child is turned to the dark - one more bright eyed child shaped by hostility and neglect into things that tear and slice away at others - trying to tear away thier skin, trying to see what it covers..all the blood and bone what does it cover? what new possibilities for suffering the inspired spirit of sadism says to itself? ... 050214 ... SpaceCowboy Try as I might, I just can't hate you. I feel I should, for all the pain you still cause me, but when I think of you, I still remember the sun you brought into my life. Don't move away from me, I need your sweet warm rays. especially now, especially tonight. 050426 ... wanna fight. people who take for granted what they have 050608 ... crash attack people who take for granted what they have 050608 ... Spacey Headcase If you leave I'll hate you forever. If you go, I'll stay. I'll never talk to you again. If you leave I'll die. You've been my best friend for the past 5 years, and now you're going to throw it all away!? How the fuck does that make sense? I can't be your friend if you leave, that sounds mean and stupid but I have reasons that I won't tell you, just like you won't tell me your real reasons for wanting to go. I love you like a sister, and you're breaking my heart. I've been trying to hold things together and give you at least one thing that's consistent. You obviously don't care. If you leave Samantha, I want you to know the cost. I'm so sorry for trying. Your best friend, Veronica 050624 ... HidingOnTheWall I'm sorry. I didn't realize how much you cared. We argue a lot, but I forget just how rough it is without you. I'm so used to you're opinions, I can't make my own decisions and I guess that was one of the reasons for going was... to see if I could. I hate the idea of not being around you. There is always an odd competition between us, we're the only ones here that could pose a threat to each other, and I'd hate to fuck that up. We fight different battles, but can always relate. You're always there for me when I really need you, and I care more than I show, when my whole life is falling apart your still there, you're the only one that's stuck with me through all my hell. I try to be for you, but it never fails that I screw it up. I love you like a sister, and I hope you can forgive me. I promise not to leave. I'm so sorry I put you through that. Samantha 050626 ... henry like many of you i hate, a lot, but i hate with style and creativity. 050627 ... chiselmouth i hate all of it. all of you. everyone. everything. I want to murder murder murder the world. I hate hate hate hate this place. I want to paint the walls with all of you. 050817 ... akuma aoi keeps my blood from freezing keeps it warm even though in_hell_everything_is_hot 050817 ... oldephebe hate is a sickness, to become addicted to malice and hate drives one to manufacture wars and rumors of wars and conflicts, to have a focal point for the rage and torment and pain and pretty soon you even start to believe the lies you've told yourself just to feel the venom, that sweet elixir rushing through your tormented soul, but you know it's only the lie you've allowed to mestasize into a deeply passionate and irrepressable desire for the others death...so you conscript hundreds of others to aid you in your sickness, even though they KNOW it's all a bag of writhing serpents that hatched in your head and heart, others who are too afraid or too sick themselves to see the folly and inhumanity of what they are doing, or just don't care. ... i will resume this in the near furture ... hate is a horrible thing to let live inside of you it sickens you, it turns you into a murderer it put you in the unenviuable position of there being only one solution to your torment ... how can i NOT have compassion for my enemies? check out Romans 12:1 ... 050817 ... oldephebe hate is a sickness, to become addicted to malice and hate drives one to manufacture wars and rumors of wars and conflicts, to have a focal point for the rage and torment and pain and pretty soon you even start to believe the lies you've told yourself just to feel the venom, that sweet elixir rushing through your tormented soul, but you know it's only the lie you've allowed to mestasize into a deeply passionate and irrepressable desire for the others death...so you conscript hundreds of others to aid you in your sickness, even though they KNOW it's all a bag of writhing serpents that hatched in your head and heart, others who are too afraid or too sick themselves to see the folly and inhumanity of what they are doing, or just don't care. ... i will resume this in the near furture ... hate is a horrible thing to let live inside of you it sickens you, it turns you into a murderer it put you in the unenviuable position of there being only one solution to your torment ... how can i NOT have compassion for my enemies? check out Romans 12:1 ... 050817 ... akuma aoi "Therefore, since i cannot prove a lover to entertain these fair, well-spoken days I am determined to prove a villain" Richard III 1,1 (28-31) 050818 ... me hate and love are so close. they are such the same things that it is very easy for someone who hates to fall in love. they are identical in very nearly every way except one, and that makes the whole difference. 050821 ... sarah hate is a harsh word. i remember when my mom always used to tell me that i couldnt use that word. I was always suppose to say i dislike that. but how are you not suppose to use the word hate. this world is full of hate 051208 ... ryro It's hard to swallow - taste bad - and doesn't pass easily 051222 ... ryro It's hard to swallow - taste bad - and doesn't pass easily 051222 ... hate hater I hate hate 060130 ... me jon mouatt 060206 ... jon mouatt hate is an overused word just like if 060206 ... australian highrise "...and I'm not afraid to admit how much I hate myself." 060612 ... twisted_existence "fuck you because i loved you. fuck you for loving you too. i dont need a reason to hate you the way i do." -Marylin Manson 060801 ... twisted_existence ...and all i can tell you right now is i still havent gotten to the point where i can look back on the time we spent together and smile over all the good memories. if you only knew how much i loathe the very thought of you... was it worth it? i try not to imagine where we would be today if you hadnt thrown it all away. because what good does it do to imagine something that once could have been but now will never be? oh yes, i DO hate you. but you misunderstand... i dont hate you because of what you did. i hate you because of what you took away from me. and yet you have no idea what that something was. and that hurts even more than the taking away itself. its funny/sad how pain begets anger begets hatred begets pain... and on and on the cycle goes. well, thank you for dropping me into the middle of it. i hope you sense the sarcasm there. 060801 ... golden_sunboy hate is the sum of all the fears and sorrows one experiences through his/her lifetime. hate is only a perception. 060907 ... ofsuch once again day after day the same feeling... the one word that describes all. 061029 ... Chris aka Hate is a percepton. It is interesting to note the little to no difference between love and hate. I am beginning to think that hate is love gone retarded after situations and experiences take a toll on a person's heart. Golden sunboy. You are right on 061029 ... Infinite Luv LOL...thas hilarious...you're retarded 061029 ... the delinquent formerly known as R.A.I.N. One Hate. One Death. 061107 ... Ishutan Marylin Manson is the sum of all things retarded. He is only one step above a no-talent cover band. 070111 ... f the forgettening of light 070211 ... bluten the list of stuff i hate is long. and getting longer every day. i hate working. i hate working to reap the rewards of selling sickness. i hate the way getting into medical school seems like nothing but sheer calculation and coldness of heart. i hate when they rearrange the shelves at the pharmacy, hate it when i can't find a matching pair of socks, hate it when my alarm goes off at night instead of the morning. i hate when people talk to me and when they don't. i hate bad drivers. i hate the way my sister drives. i hate the way i tell her how to drive. i hate all these grim statistics. i hate birth control, cancer, water bans, unreliable wireless internet, bad traffic on Steeles, being cold, the british occupation of northern Ireland. i hate straight people. i hate faking it. i hate hating so much all the time. 070819 ... happyness hates me klil me 4 i lvoe u! lvoe me be4 i klil u! but lvoe to klil and i lvie! lvie to klil and i cnat lvoe! 070916 ... angie Okay let me paint a picture here You are at the gym... Trying to better your life... Gasping for air on the treadmill or whatever machine you choose... Then all of a sudden... All that comes in is FART! I HATE when other people fart at the gym... Yuck! 080301 ... jio jio 100215 ... Elise Love to love Like to like Hate to hate 100918 ... caroline 452 She gave to you, on the first night you were with her, something she only gave to me once, and then only reluctantly. I’ve been with her for TWO GODDAMN YEARS! Once, only once, and you get it on your first night. I hate you. I can’t help but compare myself to you. Your more driven, more talented, more accomplished, and you can fuck her the way she wants to be fucked (those were her words). I fucking HATE you. Now you’ve rejected her, and because of something quite inconsequential (at least to me). I understand where you’re coming from, but I still think you’re an idiot. You were there for that incredible sex too and now you’re going to walk away from that without even getting to know her? Fuck you. and thank you. and fuck you. 100919 ... hello he sounds like a cock 100920 ... the amazin disappearin *me the thing is *I really don't and never did I don't even use the word ( I said this!!!) but some folks do and they LIE about *me yes they do 100920 what's it to you? who go blather from