practice typhoid perfection long lasting usury awareness watching 000424 ... m building and rebuilding catching glimpses of rainy, grey mornings and sick beds my house is your house is our house we practice, incessantly pretend we are confident 000425 ... unhinged ROOM #8 If Death had a curfew I'd be sure to be out spending my time holding a prayer fosteria blowing to the wind in high beam head lights schizophrenic fits of uncontainable laughter jumbled in evidence of a razorblade eclipsing binaries twinkling on the white erections of hypocritical christianity seen from a distant hilltop to strains of Angst's cacophony You are living inside of a joke don't wait up Death is staying out late tonight ( ivet ) 010511 ... phil My typing skills need a little bit og improvbemnt I am typeing as gast as aI vca n in order oto limp=]rove lamd thyiong to keep my hanmds in the right [paisting as well I cna 't ateseem to ovmamnd ge to do that well I alost do c=contt0rol o f a few odds and ends wehere and there but I nee de to be avle to tp-ope uip to 564 wopplm a nad I an a totla ewerick I wdontl;t ithinign kI am fettign anty betttetr at this and I dont[ thinkj gin O INa t, Damn it Iln aa fuiotat plater not a typist 020318 ... phil sorry my pinky is messed up from using the mouse to much 020318 ... marjorie keep at it maybe one day you'll learn to tie those shoes then you can throw aside the velcro and the pink kitty heads pulled taut over your feet strings strings you want to tie your shoes and you want to play the violin 031204 ... User24 hi, I'm calling in relation to an application I've made to study Information Technology and Philosophy with you this october, the application number is (blahblahblah). I really just phoned to say that I really want to come and study with you, I know I haven't got the relevant qualifications, but as I said in my personal statement, I feel a calling to study, and this really is true, I enjoy expanding my knowledge of everything, and I think that IT and Philosophy are an ideal combination for me; I can express philosophical ideas via computers. Also, you seem a perfect choice for me - the course encompasses everything I'm interested in, and Lampeter seems like an ideal learning environment for me - I hate living in a city [although Northampton's not a city, it is the largest town in the UK], so the remoteness would be a benefit for me, give me some space focus on studying. Also, from a purely practical viewpoint, you accept a large proportion of mature students, which aside from the obvious attraction, means that, hopefully, the atmosphere will be less typically 'studenty', and more about actually learning the disipline. Anyway, I've probally filled half of the tape up by now, so thankyou for listening and considering me. I won't let you down. thankyou. 040114 ... TK stalking u again sounds good, you ever go through w/ that? 040116 ... u24 actaully, no, I didn't.. but it turns out I didn't need to, either. got an unconditional offer from Lampeter. so now me and Linds are going to Lampeter on the 3rd to the 5th of Feb, so that Linds can have an interview. If she gets accepted, then we're off! yay! 040124 ... mon yay :) 040124 ... deb I stand with dish in hand, talking aloud to no one, reciting the words, trying them on to see how they fit. I ramble on to myself, forcing each word into being, weaving them into this explanation I wish I did not need... And suddenly, I crumble, sitting upon the kitchen floor, face buried in empty hands, dry sobs echoing. Have I cried so much already...? These words, twisted thus, will never have a happy tone. How could they? I tremble and try to be certain they exit properly, but there is no right way to say something as dark as this. And so, I think of him again, and seethe. 100917 what's it to you? who go blather from