whining cole I realized that this is what I do here, so I'll just start fresh here. I know all I'm really doing is whining about not having the one I want, watching him love someone else, waiting for the times when he's glad to see me - truly glad, when he wants to cuddle and love me. So I end up whining a lot, because let's face it: we just don't fit! It is in fact quite probable that I'll fill this page up with endless whining... at least it will be in it's place! 030806 ... ferret karl's good at it 030806 ... cole I dreamt about her the other night. It wasn't like a dream, though... it was like I awoke with an awareness of her, of what it means to be here and that I don't belong. I feel better about it, to know exactly where I stand, even though I am sorely out of place. It's so sweet, so important that I stay as long as I can, enjoy as much as I can, before I get rubbed out. 031028 ... white_wave and i will try to restrain myself from whining about it... the rest of world is not that interested in my problems.. 040302 ... white_wave i don't know this blatherskite named cole. but i know someone in real life with that name. not a name i expected to come across so randomly. he plays a strange role in life right now. that's why i'm feeling a bit bizzare at the moment... 040302 ... stork daddy you always talk about what a deadbeat he is. and it's true, you try a lot harder than him, you have a lot more things. but i think the real reason you hate him, is because you know that despite all of this, you doubt that you're much happier than him. 040514 what's it to you? who go blather from