fair deb its not fair- how can you make me miss you like this? i spent so much time trying to not think about you because for the longest time, when i didn't know where you were or if you even cared anymore, i had this unbearable wanting to talk to you and i couldn't. i loved the thought that you were mine, all mine, but as much as i would love to, i cannot lock you in my closet and kkeep you there forever. This is one of those letters that you write but never send, but knowing me, i'll send it anyway. (or perhaps, just toss it onto the internet for the world to read... haha) ~i've spent all night thinking about you and wondering if you've read my last email- but i can't check it unless i'm home. and im not. damn. can i cry now? no- i cant. and not because i'm with jen and jen, but because i can't. i seem incapable, and yet i will find myself weeping over nothing in just a few short days. hours, perhaps. i dont know. ~i wish i could keep you. i wish i could see you, if only once. really see you. look up (since i'm so freaking short) and into those eyes and read them in an instant but just continue looking anyway... but will i ever have the opportunity? ::sigh:: ~i love our bantering; flirting is more the word, really, over emails, but as the beautiful kitten, Xerox (yes the cat is black and white- gorgeous animal) comes nearer, -ok i lost the train of thought. ~do you know what i miss the most? that quiet smile i could hear upon your lips on the phone- i miss hearing it turn to a little pout when i said i had to go- i miss the quiet whay you said goodbye and then I love you, and i know- could SEE the way you watched the phone after you pressed that evil button that disconnected your voice from mine- ~::sigh:: sorry. i depress. i know. but i can't help it. i miss you- the way i smiled even if i only saw your name within my buddy list- ok stop, deb, just stop- stop. now. but i dont want to. i miss you... you are the rest of me, and i miss me. you. us. where did we go? did we have to? and, can we turn around somehow? until i ache again, me... 991205 ... Ruby Let's be fair. Shut the hell up and listen to me. 991229 ... ace if there is a god out there, a fair and just one, there wouldn't be an inequity of sleep distribution and happy childhoods in the world. 000224 ... silentbob Fair by Ben Folds He shouted out his last word And he stumbled through the yard And she shattered her last china plate And spun off in the car When he lunged onto the hood She stopped to tell him she'd been wrong He was thrown head over heels Into the traffic coming on But then all is fair in love Did you get my other letters Sometimes I think I oughta call Cause you know I often wonder If you open them at all Every couple nights or so y'know You pop into my dreams I just can't get rid of you Like you got rid of me Oh but I send my best Cause God knows you've seen my worst But then all is fair in love (All this breathing in, never breathing out) I guess she made her way Through the mob too late to hear him say That he'd gotten all he'd wanted A crowd to watch him bear the pain He'd been keeping in - so what - All is fair in love 000706 ... ubliss ***ubliss: The Ultimate Bliss*** Subject: Fair & AIR Is there such a THING called FAIR? FAIR stands for Floating in the AIR. Seem NEAR yet so FAR... Copyright2000 000918 ... *Ziima* "Fair is foul, and foul is fair" -The Three Witches (Macbeth, Shakespear) 010314 ... trazlo fairness is selfish. the need to be compensated for what one feels they deserve. life isn't fair, death isn't fair, love isn't fair and hate isn't fair. thats how it is so get over it. i believe a people would be a lot better off if they didn't worry so much about being treated fairly 010406 ... general direction uhhhh....shakespeare meant the pretty fair not the state of mind fair 011111 ... ladybird I don't think anyone said that he didn't 011221 ... little idiot "life isn't fair." the greatest understatement in the history of understatements. 021112 ... cole It's like the toothfairy: nice idea, but not real 021118 ... Scorshie Maybe life is fair, and fair just isn't always what we think it is or enjoyable 030513 ... x twisted x i wonder why people think that everything has to be fair. if youve been alive for at least 3 years, you can see that people get stepped on, people get pushed around, we all get our hearts broken. we see everything in the sense of the here and the now...but what we fail to see is the future. maybe the action to make it "fair" will happen in the years to come. have some hope..or something. either that or stop complaining. 040705 ... nonlucid more than fair - accept the miracles we take for granted as what we deserve, and complain bitterly about the perceived major misfortunes which come our way, mostly no worse than others have weathered countless times, but "I" am different, and it's always the first time 040705 ... Maria It's not fair! Ubiquitous love is evil and spawns from someone who hates! Because how can I spend so much time thinking of someone who will never love me back? 071010 ... ungreat I don't think its fair that choices proceed to be stolen from me. I don't think it's fair that money is taken. I don't think it's fair that my education may be compromised. I don't think it's fair that I have this diagnosis. This thing in my brain that makes me obnoxious. I don't think it's fair that the meds make it better and at the same time I feel worse. I don't think it's fair that i can't even get a unique disease. I don't think it's fair that I might be a guinea pig until proven otherwise. I don't think it's fair that contraceptives don't work and I'm not allowed to get pregnant. I don't think it's fair to know that the things I want I can't have. I don't think it's fair that I can't even get upset. All this almost entirely thanks to a pill. 080620 what's it to you? who go blather from