torment tazfab i live in torment thinking of one person, one person i once betrayed and then nurtured, and then lost. 001215 ... misstree all night, among quiet marble and flowers that never die, i think of nothing but her face as you look into it, her hand in yours, her nervous giggles, her stories of virginity lost, her arm curling around you in the car. nowhere in this handful of coals can i find you looking at me, taking my hand, stroking my arm, smiling at me, putting your arm around me, showing me that i was anywhere, *anywhere*, within you. 020701 ... blue star You are so sweet to me. like carmelized sugar. why are you so nice? Why am I special to you? You're not someone that I'm supposed to like. I never thought that that kind of thing would make a difference to me... but it is right now. it's making the difference. Your spirit is so heartbreakingly sweet, and stupid, and guileless. Why are you wasting it on me? 020702 ... little fury bug i swear to god if he talks about her one more time, i will rip my heart out, stick it in a box, and fed-ex it to him. 020703 ... kitten go mew my sisters tormented me when i was little. they confused me to no end. i used to think i was a little boy who had a sex change. oh blather. 031219 ... misstree *shudder* i had forgotten that i wrote that. some betrayals are best left dead. 031219 ... Death of a Rose is here. 040309 ... Best to not. All torment directed at me shall return to the tormenter tenfold, without my having to lift a finger. 080522 ... unhinged when you feel like it isn't good enough, do something about it. 080522 what's it to you? who go blather from