sisters a girl dear sister, my attempts have never been your fualt. The reasons were a compound of guilt, anger, and curiosity. I wanted to see what comes after dead and Mom beat me so vigorously that night. And I always feel just not good enough, and that translates to a terrible fear of failing. I know you have your moments of self doubt and depression--but I struggle with mine everyday, every reflection. I doubt you realize how much idolize you. i wonder if you know that you're one of the main reasons that i haven't killed myself. and if anything ever happened to you, i think i would kill myself or fall into the blacket depression. because, i have no other really strong emotional bond. i have one link of emotional stability and it lies with you. i hope you take care of yourself. don't be so reckless. 050214 what's it to you? who go blather from