confused thenestor (n.) All of us. 981210 ... thenestor (n.) All of us. (adj.) How we all are. (v.) What blather did to me. 981210 ... megan me, myself what i feel how i act not to you, or them just to me and everyone 990901 ... Lyndsay the way he makes me feel, and the reason I hate him, and the reason I need him 991212 ... nameless the word confused is confusing and my mind is going crazy when its confused i feel like on the edge of something-i cant get up and i dont wanna fall so the only thing i can think about is the thought that confused me so much and i cant concentrate on anything else til i figure it out but when i think about something too much it gets even more confusing 991217 ... anastacia "ooos" and "ahhs" fill my head but who are they for sure not me rolling pages of stars and lambs I cringe you can't see me even though my clouds glow and your mouth is sewed shut 000318 ... dean-bean Sometimes I pretend to be more confused than I am. I seem more harmless that way, and I hear more hidden things that way. The only drawback is that some people believe the act, even when its over... 000319 ... Brad what daniel?? you mean you arent really confused? you had me fooled. 000319 ... daxle about what I want about what I feel about everything 001229 ... Maketty What exactly is going on here? This site makes no sense.. 010512 ... DannyH if you have spooted the lack of sense then you know exactly what this site is about. Stay a while, click on a name and follow the blateroons around for a bit, but beware. Blather is like crack to an active mind. Welcome. Enjoy the show. 010512 ... Laura I loved him I truly did, not the love of a child, where sitting at the same lunch table at school means you are dating, not the love of a teenager, when you meet up at the movies, or foolishly have sex, calling it making love, I loved him with all the love inside me, I loved him like a woman loves a man, hot, fast, calm, frenzied, in any way you can love, I did love him. So why now, why after such a little time, can I see the softer side in this new man, why, if my love truly was pure and perfect, why can I kiss him and wish for more? I dreamt of him, his lips on my face, his hands on my neck, Should I feel this way? Guilty because I have kissed again? I am confused as of what to do, should I try and be unhappy to respect my love for him? Or should I move on, and kiss some more? 010604 ... kinkazoid my podeom is gone...im confused 010612 ... black-dyed gel product What's bigger than a table, slightly orange, and dressed to kill? 010612 ... nemo my permanent state of mind 010614 ... Casey I have this uncanny knack for confusing people when I talk to them, but that is probably because I don't like talking to very many people. 010614 ... lost Too many words to choose from on blather. Too little time. So many things to say I don't know if I should start by being perky and praising the world's beauty or be synical and scoff at the pointlessness of it all. Too many choices, so little time. I'm so confused. 010625 ... god giraffe 011029 ... Doodle Girl i decorate envelopes for you. colorful, random envelopes, hoping that they will explain, more than words, my feelings for you. i send them off, containing largely more mundane letters. we said we needed this distance, i thought the glass would clear-- i miss your laugh, your crinkly eyes, your smile, your voice, your silly jokes. but does this equation equal some sort of permanence? will you be a different person when i see you again? will i? all i feel right now is that the physical distance between us may be large, but the mental and emotional distance feels like the width of my chain that hangs around your neck (or did you take it off to sleep?) 020105 ... shatazap i think im more confused than ever. what i need to know is how you truly feel about me. am i that damn creep like i always tell myself? help me understand you i still am lost and shaken. battered and broken. i tell my self this. i am so fake. you know? i am so fake. i am no one and yet i pretend to be everyone. i will be what you want me to be. as fake as can be. i wanted you to be who you are. and then if it doesnt work. fuck it, its over. see? thats what i want. and its so hard for that to happen.  sometimes i wish that everything and everyone would just leave me alone for a brief minute everytime everyone and everything is around so i can find what i am saying and what i am hoping. what will my next word be that i will make everyone love me [love- i hate that word.] so i think i will sit in the corner now and sleep. what will i dream of. what am i.  need being need dreaming need finding find me dammit. you are the only one who can. 020520 ... eklektic he told me he was confused about his personalitysexuality. why does the only person i've ever really loved have to be so confused. i've got his answer. but he seems to not understand it. 020711 ... - . 020803 ... ryro the white noise of thought lulling me into conplacency and protecting me from an expenditure of energy on a quest I believe to have meaning. 020803 ... notalice I don't know what this is. I don't understand how to use it. It makes my head want to explode- not understanding things. But its interesting. I suppose. Maybe I'd be a better judge if I had a clue what was happening. Yes. Yes I think I would. 020812 ... erika i alone sit at home wondering, thinking, wishing he'd call. no i'm not some obsessed person, just someone who cares. and wonders. and cries. over someone who was once loved and who loved me in return. or so i thought. or so i wish. or do i? sometimes i question, was it real? was it a fairy tale turned nightmare? was i just a joke, a pawn in his scheme of things? i only wish i knew, or rather, i like being in the dark, that way i can't hurt anymore than i do, for the truth is probably more painful, though i wouldn't know, for he was never quite honest with me. i wish he'd contact me, at least for some closure, for how can someone just drop someone? like a used beer bottle or cigarette butt? was that all i was for him? did he even care? i gave so much and got so little, why did i put up with all i did? i don't know, probably for the fool-hearty notion of true love. though i believe there is no such thing now. i've been hurt to many times by to many people. i trust no one. expecially of the male persuasion, thanks to the memory of one man, whom is a boy still. i wonder if he realizes what he did to me, how he has forever scared what i feel my life was, and forever try to be. how do i get over it? i can't trust anyone, as soon as i get close, i back away, for fear of the person becoming the boy i knew. and loved. but it was all for nothing. i wish he'd call. i worry about him, only because i care, but that is something he seems not to feel for me. he doesn't care, i doubt he ever did, or he ever will again. two and a half years, gone, never to be back again. oh well, i know what i had was real, i wonder if it was mutual, at least i am being mature and trying to be friends, though i'll let him play his games and try to become the man he thinks he already is, though he has a long way to go. what should i do? feel? act? respond to situations that arise around me? i'm lost in this sea of courtship, betrayal, and forgiveness...... 021101 ... ya sometimes i get so confused and i dont know why. like something in me feels incomplete or something is nagging me at the back of my mind but i dont know what it is. i dont know how to express my feelings because im not sure what i feel. how can you put feelings to words when feelings are so much more intense to describe? if you say you feel sad that may mean different things to diffent people. they have different experiences and so sad to them may mean something totally different than what you think of it as. 021220 ... Bizzar When he becomes my complete undoing -drives me crazy But I realize that hes my only sanity When Im scared that hes not what I want But even more scared that he is When one minute he seems like he couldnt be more in love And the next he seems like he wants something or someone else When I want more with him But Im too scared How I want to tell him I love him But I dont want to know his response When I want him to be the only one for the rest of my life But... ... but I just dont know 030216 ... superstrings embrace the confusion, the vertigo of true consciousness is a release from the bindings of manufactured reality. 030515 ... shivers sometimes im not confused, but then i start to wonder y and i think of so many reasons of y i should be confused. Then i wonder about things that r better left unsaid and become confused all over again. i hate it, i just cant leave good enough alone. Im so confused... 030515 ... InAQuandary i hate this feeling when there's a sudden rush of emotions and you don't have any idea where its coming from you're suffocating you feel trapped you feel like you're sinking into the depths of the ocean you're swallowed by the swirling waves of the sea you look up you realize that you're so far away from the surface no matter hard you try and swim your way out the current is pulling you down next thing you know you're running out of breath you're drowning…drowning… drowning… 030816 ... tortuous seems like i'm always this way now. thoughts flooding and drowning me. i wish i knew how to swim. 030829 ... mina When i saw this word I just knew that you posted here. Just let me know when I can, and Ill help you swim. 030829 ... Villified Justifed? I always thought I had that type of bisexuality where you'd be happy forever with either or. Now, I'm remembering that I have never been happy with anyone. What does sex have anything to do with it? 030831 ... woody Yes Yes i am confused sometimes the fire comes and burns me up and then i know, oh i burn, and i know where to go and what to do and why i know who i am and i try to be me and i do well but other times the flame goes out. i'm in the dark, but the pain is real it consumes me it's dark help me up before i lose it i can't live alone it locks me in the basement where i scream inside and slash the monster comes alive. it feeds off of me my mind, my thoughts, my heart oh yes, there is the leather and the wood the blood and the fear the screams that say nothing and everything take me now, monster or is this me? if i only knew... 030913 ... metamantrg why is this trapped by responsablity stuck in this hell hole confused dont know what to do no help from others imprisond for life wished I could leave confused by this what can I do 030915 ... TK you PrOmissed me you'd be there for me when I needed you, I need you when I get back home, we can run away togeather if you want, just don't leave w/ out me!! 030915 ... Toxic_Kisses no you know what go, just go... 030915 ... metaman Will not leave for the greatist pay off in the end is having someone that cares I could not leave the most important thing thats happen to me and that will ever happen for this I do see will share my life with the 030916 ... blown cherry this may well be the worst of the not-great places we've been to, but at least we're here together, that must still be worth something 030916 ... ShilohLives I can't seem to figure out what is going on lately. I mean...It's like... Ok... So it's Junior year and everything and all mof my friends can go off campus..So I'm like freakin alone. I can go off campus too, but I don't wanna go alone and I can only think of two people I would really enjoy hanging out with. Those two people have friends that are always around, or they are busey. Another one of my "friends" is going through "drama" and so he dosen't have time to say hi. I don't know. I need friends that are girls or something. and then there is this feeling of I can't even explain it. I'm just all confused inside and I wish I could scream. It's not that my life sux or anything like that...but WTF is wrong with me. I dunno...I need friends that aren't guys...then I don't have to fall for them. And I need to move to the city so I don't have to drive 2 houers to get to class...and I need to get a life. and I need to figure myself out....I don't think I ever will...but it's a start..Right? 030927 ... Staind_And_Souless She makes me feel like the world is about to turn upside down and rain backwards. Like I'm just some pawn in the game she's playing. But there's a part of me that knows if I kissed her, she'd kiss back. That's what confuses me. 031101 ... pac_AzWeThinkWeIz what i am is confused 040302 ... white_wave so there is someone that thinks i am highly indecisive. and i am also highly confused if i like or hate myself right now. because i don't like to annoy people. and it's hard when i just want everyone to like me. i think blather was easier to deal with when it was more impersonal. like when i write poetry prose stuff and not have to be overly honest about my emotions. i really don't need advice from anyone right now on how to live my life. so i'll stop subconsciously asking for it. 040302 ... missing27pieces what's all this blathering about. what does it mean to blather anyway? 040325 ... . . 040426 ... insane_child what the hell is this place? i'm lost... grr 041006 ... andyg is it always bad? 041012 ... Cornerstone The human body and the universe grew from this, not this from the universe and the human body. 041012 ... acidshank im confused about my friend. of course, we're friends, but she has such evil words at times. as if the daggers or her heart were meant for me.its almost alittle to harsh sometimes. im confused about him. do i really want it all? why is it that i cannot seem to speak. get comfortable. my thoughts scratch me. burn me. i want him...if only i could just know. why wonder? why must you learn before you can know? 041215 ... frenetic i think i do love you. this pisses me off. 041215 ... frenetic or maybe i don't. 041215 ... dawn its fun to be confused 041216 ... rage i thought things were supposed to be good 050614 ... Night_Angel How do you know what someone is thinking? How can you tell what is going through their minds? I wish there was a way to know because right now I have no idea what is going in my mind, or theirs. I was so in love and now I'm just lost for lack of a better word. These people in my life play me for what they want and then I feel alone and lost again, confused on the events that just ran through my life. Am I even living the life I want or simply doing what I am supposed to? I realize this may not make a lot of sense, but I need to simply say, Damn, I am so fucking confused. Help me. 060418 ... sooa she gets to talk to you, i get to fuck you. i dont know which i like better. 060808 ... maybe... talk while you fuck? 060808 ... Ninny oh ! it's ok to cry.. its medicine. Elise, why do you make me climb through the boot of your car? I wasn't supposed to go home, I was supposed to get on a boat atthe docks.. not far from where time begain. I haerd all the noises and i was really excited bouncing on my bed don't you remember? Why was it then that you called me up to watch the planes crash into the twin towers? I don't like watching that its horrible, it's like going to hell. I just wanted to know who effing did it! Sweety showed me an article in Delhi, it said that the Americans did it to themselves and there were no Jews in the building. I don't know what to believe (when I went to hospital I berried a clock in the garden.. my mum was there). If it was a small extemist group of Muslims thenitwas like almost unbelievable how they did it withso much synconision and perfection. What were they trying to say? That America needs to redistribute the money - to make the world a better place? To me the world was going to hell the last 5 years - not to heaven, YOU DON'T NEED TO KILL PEOPLE LIKE THAT TO MAKE A POINT! Why did Sweety give me a book to read? The Magus by John Fowells. check the last chapter... I didn't make a typing error when i said if you wanted to go for a wal in Hyde park... the whole house is watching. I wish someone would tell me the truth. Is this a set up? When did it all start? Stop lieing... its giving me a headache. If it was a setupi then why was it that before I met Sweety I have a vision of me wearing all white, running a guset house in India and owning a grand Piano? The first thing he said to me was "Piano" that was the name he gave me, he always wears white and he is the managing director of two Ayurvedic Hostels/Resorts in south India. I wonder what's going on. Thanks for the pink cowboy hat! 070322 ... f oh well... that was hell. what planet is this ? 070322 ... fix confused is a word.... how can i really explain what confusion really is... some things you just can't expalin to anyone thats when you become lonely. just lonely. 070511 ... Mercury Thinking you've got exactly the right answer, but then realizing you didn't understand the question at all. 080707 ... f i feel like I'm sort of floating in a place that don't make no sense no more, i've got an undercurrent of panic that might set in whenever it might choose to. i don't know what that is but i don't like it. 090122 ... ergo Confusing is an action, people commit confusion.. 090122 ... f do you tell your eyes to twinkle? 090123 ... f i guess it can be confusing how to get your balance on a bike for your first time but i guess with courage, you work it out in the end. Without being brave, one will never learn how to ride that bike. I wonder if your eyes will twinkle regardless?? ;) blind courage it is... in the midst... you find confusion.. just to let it be what is is... is the best thing i feel. 090123 ... f i guess it can be confusing how to get your balance on a bike for your first time but i guess with courage, you work it out in the end. Without being brave, one will never learn how to ride that bike. I wonder if your eyes will twinkle regardless?? ;) blind courage it is... in the midst... you find confusion.. just to let it be what is is... is the best thing i feel. 090123 ... f i guess it can be confusing how to get your balance on a bike for your first time but i guess with courage, you work it out in the end. Without being brave, one will never learn how to ride that bike. I wonder if your eyes will twinkle regardless?? ;) blind courage it is... in the midst... you find confusion.. just to let it be what is is... is the best thing i feel. 090123 ... f i guess it can be confusing how to get your balance on a bike for your first time but i guess with courage, you work it out in the end. Without being brave, one will never learn how to ride that bike. I wonder if your eyes will twinkle regardless?? ;) blind courage it is... in the midst... you find confusion.. just to let it be what is is... is the best thing i feel. 090123 ... f i guess it can be confusing how to get your balance on a bike for your first time but i guess with courage, you work it out in the end. Without being brave, one will never learn how to ride that bike. I wonder if your eyes will twinkle regardless?? ;) blind courage it is... in the midst... you find confusion.. just to let it be what is is... is the best thing i feel. 090123 ... f i guess it can be confusing how to get your balance on a bike for your first time but i guess with courage, you work it out in the end. Without being brave, one will never learn how to ride that bike. I wonder if your eyes will twinkle regardless?? ;) blind courage it is... in the midst... you find confusion.. just to let it be what is is... is the best thing i feel. 090123 ... f i guess it can be confusing how to get your balance on a bike for your first time but i guess with courage, you work it out in the end. Without being brave, one will never learn how to ride that bike. I wonder if your eyes will twinkle regardless?? ;) blind courage it is... in the midst... you find confusion.. just to let it be what is is... is the best thing i feel. 090123 ... f oh dear! Look what happened! 090128 ... In_Bloom Confusion tastes deceptively good Is intrigue poison? 090128 ... Lemon_Soda Well...curiosity DID kill the cat.... 090128 ... . Is what we usually are. It bounces back and forth between you and I. At least this we share. 090129 ... BnB Sometimes I like being confused, provided that I'm not trying to accomplish anything. When I'm confused, everything becomes a fresh and new, and around every corner awaits an exciting discovery. Then again, when I'm confused and I'm trying to accomplish something, then it makes me frustrated that I can't understand what I'm trying to do, and that just leads to more confusion and frustration... 090212 ... lovekilledlove most scenarios around me. the people end up leaving me cold. and i tremble at the thought of your indifference. i thought i knew this woman because she told me stories with her eyes and sang to me in my sleep. but i am a fool. you can't ever know anyone in their entirety, in their hearts and in their darkest. she is like the rest but special. 090213 ... blown cherry are you? 090527 ... plip plop you can't do anything when you are confused even if you want to. 100822 ... f what the hell is going on? 101016 ... re_alisma but, not really, really. 110218 what's it to you? who go blather from