closure scuzz I need closure. I need to prune some dead branches. I need your acceptance. Closure will only come when I've accepted my mistakes and the pain drawn from those. Accepting is to give in to? Closure will not come for some of these branches. The bark is too hard. 021228 ... jane i will never get closure 021228 ... Reverend Lough i need to let go. it is time that i do so. time to move forward. i love you. 021228 ... werewolf closure's just holding your breath. 021229 ... jane holding breath takes time time heals all things 021229 ... misstree finally, i can exhale. it is done. all things proceed from here. 021230 ... Nukemall fall flat on your face, then ask for codeine. closure will follow. 031010 ... misstree "i can't quit you babe," but i'm on a good run, and there's no going back this time. "but i got to put you down for a while" because seeing you makes my hand reach without my permission, makes my heart stretch in ways it shouldn't, in ways i thought it had forgotten, at least for the moment. but you still do strange things to my stomach, and you really shook me babe, so i'm afraid i'm keeping the laptop, it has all my words, and i'm afraid i won't answer my phone, and i won't see who you are once you're gone. 031218 ... unhinged you_can't_quit_me_baby ... ha the sound of him hanging up the phone 'well that's absolutely fine with me' 031218 ... unhinged damn you_cant_quit_me_baby ggrrrraaahhh i need a vacation. bad. (people in ohio don't use adverbs. ever) 031218 ... misstree last night was the last time you would have hosted the ska show. the one that you got by starting to co-host medieval chant in the same slot with my water brother. the one that i was so proud of you for, that taught me so much about an entire world i knew nothing about. the one where if there was more than one person there, anything could happen. i would spend sundays writing and playing freecell and listening to desmond dekker and the_toasters and skavoovie and the epitones and everything was alright, the weekend could shut its doors. but it was someone else, someone who played a few compilations start to finish because they didn't know ska. they couldn't even pronounce half the bands they played. you will be back in chicago by now, and i don't know if i ever want to see you again. if patterns hold true, i will see you, sometime. if patterns hold true, you will always twist that little knife. you're gone. stay away until i have bricked over the whole. 031222 ... unhinged if i ever get it, it will be years from now 040630 ... emmi until we meet again 040630 ... love & hate Something she wont give me and i refuse to give myself. I love her, and i always will so i am frozen in time with that single feeling choking me... 040701 ... misstree over a year and part of you is still stuck inside me. i've moved on, i've screamed, i've ranted, i've forgiven, i've fucked, i've drank, i've sobered, and my heart has gained the thrill of a new Mate, stunning celebration, and yet, you're still in there. i don't need you gone, but i need that window closed. 060710 ... LS A-FUCKING-MEN. 060710 ... flowerock. Maybe release is better. Open, relax, process, let go, flow on 160613 ... unhinged is a myth things don't close they just change into other things she was telling me one night about how she had to go back home the following week because her dad was really sick, dying sick. she said something like 'i guess i will never get the closure from my dad i really want' i said something like 'maybe you were never supposed to have closure with your dad' when i looked up at her, her eyes were filled with tears. i got up and gave her a hug. 160613 what's it to you? who go blather from