hiding amy from things they haven't said. 980906 ... trakie seems to myself that i hide well, but people always find me... except when i really want to be found, they never do. 991228 ... birdmad in plain sight 000824 ... Chrity go to: i_have_words 010408 ... ellen cherry charles osama's hiding in my pants 020106 ... Mahayana [{behind words}] ::ive seen you:: [wanting me & wanting you] [{behind words}] ::ive see me:: [wanting you & wanting you] 020318 ... Mahayana [{behind words}] ::ive seen you:: [wanting me & wanting you] [{behind words}] ::i see me:: [wanting you & wanting you] 020318 ... velvetdesire [hiding] behind a cell of velvet desire silently wishing away eternity 020319 ... lycanthrope behind a pseudonymn...and some pretty bodacious biceps 020319 ... sotto voce ...and seeking...i had so much fun playing that game where i could find the best hiding places, and as i could not inhabit all of them at once, i'd introduce a new role to the game, one who could manipulate the space in a closet or between the curtains or in a box that would seem to the seeker way out of reach or too crowded for any hider. under my direction, concealment became an art until i had hidden most of the hiders, and then i myself would hide, in one of the obvious spaces, to be found first, so i could follow around the seeker thenceforth and witness the frustrated search and eventually busting out all the hiders, who, by then, had ample time to get over the fear of their discovery and had become antsy to be caught. sigh. to be a small child again. 020320 ... Invisible })i{( Butterfly i'm always hiding from myself , and seeing things how i want to see them...i hope this doesn't turn out to be sucha bad thing 020602 ... CrAzYpInKmOnKeY I know im not great but i try U claim u love me but inside i die do u know the pain you are causing me? i cry and cry theres no way u cant see but go to ur friends and pretend im not there,but then come back to me and pretend u care. 020607 ... melissah i was hiding when i hugged you for one last, final time i was hiding when those sobs shook your body and i didnt let mine join in i was hiding within myself for so long and now im finally ready to whisper the thousand tiny things ive been saving but you are gone forever. and i cannot hide from that bitter truth. 020809 ... Hairthief Am I hiding here? The cyberworld is like a cosy blanket. No one can get to me. No one can see me. The security and confidence that generates is addictive. I only appear when I wish and on my terms, then disappear into the ether. Should I stop hiding and face whatever I'm required to face? Does it matter either way? No don't answer, I'll go and hide for a little longer and think about it. 030208 ... nighean_siofra sometimes i get the feeling that someone is hiding from me. its like i know they're there but i just can't quite catch a glimpse of thier face its the feeling you get when you walk in to a room, and know that someone is watching even though as you glance about its obvious no one even notices you're there... 040815 ... kookaburra nobody has ever seen the realy me. isnt that more than a little sad? 040815 ... globalfruitbat nah. I've had the same close (incestously, ridiculously close) group of friends for seven years--yet they don't know the real me. I'm actually moving away in January (to the UK, hurrah! suprise visist to the boy [see James] which may or may not be a good idea, but is definitely off topic)becuase it is too hard to let them in and waaay too hard to keep them out. 040816 ... jane i really really do not want to go. 070624 ... x i don't want to go iver, lets go to a spar instead. 070625 ... daxle ? 070625 ... unhinged from you living half a block away from him that invaded my shambhala center from dude that yelled at me for throwing my trash in the dumpster it is only 48 degrees here today (the thought of going outside makes my bones ache) but if i hermit myself away in here all day i'll do nothing but cry damnit i find myself wishing to go to the doctor and become medicated if_only i had the means 110507 ... sedrftzsxdc naw, more like kickin it on the low. tick_tock 110615 ... sedrftzsxdc no, wait, more like... tic_tauk 110615 ... arwyn I made a blanket fort and filled it with pillows and fairy lights because, right now, life is just too fucking hard. I don't need the horrors of current events when the realities of my past keep digging up more and more trauma for me to deal with. I'm taking my box of books in with me, closing the sheets, and I'm not leaving until everything is okay again. I will be shocked if that ever happens right now, but I know I'm just overreacting. 190404 ... dafremen They did this to us. I fortunate to avoid most of it, but caught a whiff of it and watched how it separated me from those of my generation. The made us unsure of ourselves. The working class used to be the MOST sure of ourselves. They made us into children..like them. We used to be the adults in society,(those who do what is unpleasant but needs to be done) now we are chronic children with our cargo pants and our teddy bears..with our juvenile fantasies and responses to fear. And it's not pathetic..it's just tragic. It's no one's fault..I watched it all happen. They brainwashed us..and I was fortunate enough to have been fucked hard by authority very early on..so I resisted letting them in my head. They tried to destroy us to give their mediocre children an advantage. To give their spoiled shitless, inexperienced and so clueless kids a chance to be leaders. But it was becoming more and more obvious that their children were looking like MORONS compared to our children. So they "educated" us..to dumb us down. To make us easy for incompetent rulers to rule. And as shallow, clueless, deluded, selfish and sociopathic as they are..they didn't forget one thing: blanket forts don't stop bullets. 190405 what's it to you? who go blather from