medicated kingsuperspecial the pill eats me every morning and as I stand at the mirror resisting I find my world is stuck between chemicals and pain do they cause burns? will this end? can I ask it to? if only there was nothing nobody would feel a void and I would be free. but instead I am tied love finds me in the dark and I am obligated to function so the chemicals come choke wake struggle maintain fix teetering connections in my head broadcasting hate, fear, and doubt wrapped in medicine medicine perserving my life saving it from myself 011014 ... unhinged he dared scream of hypocrisy when everyday he took so many pills that when he wasn't taking them because he hadn't had time to get the prescriptions refilled that none of us recognized him those things aren't always safe and i wanted to yell and hit him and make him see they were killing him pill by pill but i was also medicated in a very different way and i could only mutter "what did you say?!" with only the slightest exclamation point he used to do the same he used to want to be in love with me but he wasn't and he didn't know why and he went to oregon and found what was easy and brought her back i don't talk to him anymore because in his mind i wasn't allowed to be medicated too because i wouldn't trust the doctors to 'help' me i wanted him to 020302 ... Ivonna She grabbed the different flasks filled with pills, different colors, different reactions... She piles them up on the coffee table, by color, by amount, by need. Them she went in the kitchen, poured herself a big glass of fresh water. At first, one by one, but the water started to become scarce and she began to grab four, five, six at a time. Suddenly, down she went. Lights out and all. Good bye, good night. I won't see you later. 020303 ... Freak One more medicated peaceful moment. 020506 ... BloodyRedVelvet Whatever it takes baby. Got anything stronger? Mail it. 040201 ... a thimble in time Why do I feel trapped in a world bent on taping bigger and better band-aids over real and imagined wounds? And no one is immune... 040226 what's it to you? who go blather from