apathy nullspace sometimes it seems like the only safe approach not as simple as just not caring...that implies some sort of laziness...rather, it can be the result of years of caring, and being let down. if i expect nothing, if i do nothing, i will not be disappointed with the results. in fact, i care just enough to be apathetic 000108 ... violet apathy ring two bones wrapped around a thick finger (perhaps you feel it is contagious) tiny, it fits my index perfectly (you are unaware of my definition) on an opposite hand completely (if anything, not this) 000903 ... birdmad so who gives a fuck about apathy? 000903 ... misstree I do. 010103 ... misspudding if love is true love, hate is also love, albeit a sour version of that which is true, and apathy is the purest form of hate there is. i wish you didn't hate me, dear. 010307 ... unhinged god, i hate this how can anyone be apathetic about anything? i just don't get it. apathy is usually just a guise, a way people hide the truth. don't you have passion for anything? you aren't alive if you don't totally consumingly care about at least one thing on this earth. don't sit there and tell me you hate the world. that is a lie. you are so transparent. i see right through it. don't you think i do that? when i care about something the most and don't think i should or can't handle that i do, i just tell myself "oh i don't care" but before i even finish thinking the thought i know it is a lie. you've become so good at lying to yourself, that you don't even recognize when you do it anymore. someday i will make you realize that not everyone in the world wants to hurt you. why do you have to hide from me? is it because you love me but just can't admit it? i care. 010307 ... yeah ... 010307 ... michael buffer In this corner, wearing the purple trunks, weighing in at six letters and three syllables, it's your friend and colleague...ladies and gentlemen...APETHY! And in THIS corner, donning a pair of knickers made of licorice, weighing in at a hefty seven letters and three syllables, the sought-after capability that few can ever possess...EMPATHY! 010309 ... drunken referee Okay, fellas...I want a clean fight. No rabbit puke or anyfin like that...If ya gotta let it go, lemme know so's I can stick my head b'tween your thighs. Put yer gloves t'gether...and let the fightin' commence! 010309 ... the holy bell DING! 010309 ... APATHY I don't give a shit about you. You're nothing. You're going down! 010309 ... EMPATHY (dodging APATHY's blows) I can really understand your situation...always on the road...your girlfriend must be having a tough time, what with all those groupies that hang around your dressing room... 010309 ... APETHY I'll shut yer face! (throws poorly-aimed right cross; EMPATHY lands a few quick blows to APATHY's torso). You're just a face with a body. Fuck you! Your blood is my wine! I'll drink from you yet! 010309 ... EMPATHY (side-stepping APETHY's left uppercut) You must have had a really tough time growing up. School was probably hard for a guy like you...always mouthing off to the wrong guys. I can relate, man. I've been through that. It's okay. You don't have to feel bad about it. 010309 ... APETHY (grunting as he receives several blows to the face) You trying to walk in my boots? I'll walk all over you! (throws a few quick jabs, blocked and returned by EMPATHY) Say...I heard your dad passed away a few months ago. 010309 ... EMPATHY (dancing around APETHY) Yeah. Went in his sleep, though. He had a good life. I'm sure he's in a good place. 010309 ... APETHY (laughing) He ain't in a better place! He's in the fuckin' pit with the lord of the flies! Man, you're one hell of a naif! I'd pity your poor ass if I had it in me! 010309 ... the ghost of sexual gratification (calling from the audience) Don't take that shit from him, EMPATHY! Beat his ass down! 010309 ... APETHY (turning to yell at THE GHOST OF SEXUAL GRATIFICATION) Shut the fuck up! I can't concentrate on hitting this jizz bag with you runnin' your mouth off! 010309 ... EMPATHY (slamming fist into APETHY's jaw, accompanied by a vicious *crack*) That must have hurt an awful lot. I know how that feels, y'know? I've been dealt some pretty nasty blows. Man, have I been hit! That was a pretty damn good punch right there though, huh? 010309 ... APETHY (stumbling backward in a stupor) Awwww! Jesus! That ain't fair! I hope you broke your fingers throwin' that shit at me! (falling to his knees) Damn it! It's like Denzel Washington himself came in the ring and drained all the piss right outta me! 010309 ... Denzel Washington (jumping into the ring and putting his arm around EMPATHY's shoulder) Well, I got here a little late. But my spirit was with you the whole time. Man, I was here all along in spirit. Hold on a sec... (bends over to grab CD player; presses the play button; Marvin Gaye's "Sexual Healing" plays) That's better! 010309 ... APETHY (still on his knees; looking completely bewildered) What's this shit?! Is this some kind of post-apocalyptic, pseudo-religious, quasi-criminal, semi-menstrual cycle? WHAT'S THIS SHIT?!?!?! 010309 ... Denzel Washington (grooving to the music) Oh...me and EMPATHY go back a long way. You see, right after I did "Philadelphia"...that's the one with Tom Hanks, y'know...I was treating everyone like garbage. I didn't want to sympathize with anybody's problems. "Fuck 'em all," I said. And then I had a vision. Directly following a mediocre sexual experience, I was visited by my pal here. And he put me right! 010309 ... EMPATHY (also grooving to the music) You got that right! I taught him how to see things from the other side, APETHY. It's not all about you, man. You gotta put yourself where other people are. You gotta understand their pain. You gotta EMPATHIZE! 010309 ... Denzel Washington (smacking EMPATHY in the nuts) Shut up for a second! I love this part! (singing)"...Let's make love tonight..." Man, that's sweet. 010309 ... EMPATHY (massaging his aching genitalia) Anyway, that's the message, dog. You gotta roll with the shit, and you gotta be the shit. Do you get me? 010309 ... APETHY (a sudden understanding clouds his face, as if a hamster has been jammed into the crack of his ass) I think...I feel...the shit. 010309 ... Denzel Washington Are you feeling the shit, brother? 010309 ... APETHY I think...maybe...I AM the shit! Yeah! I am the shit! 010309 ... EMPATHY (smiling and walking over to the kneeling APETHY) Do you realize what this means? Do you realize what you've accomplished just now? 010309 ... APETHY I think...I GOTTA SHIT! (he jumps out of the ring and squats above the drunken referee, letting his brown matter rip through the purple trunks and fall into the abyss of inebriation that lies beneath his ass). 010309 ... EMPATHY (sobbing) Damn! We were so close! But he couldn't even spell his name right! He forgot about the second "a"! Damn! 010309 ... Denzel Washington (comforting EMPATHY) It's okay, brother. You can't expect APATHY to change so soon. It's that damned John West's fault anyway; he's the bastard who's spittin' all this shit into the digital domain for all to read! Damn HIM! 010309 ... johnny west (floating from a helium bicycle pump) Don't blame me...EMPATHY's knickers have been distracting me this whole time! It's only natural to confuse "APATHY" with "APETHY". Look at you, Denzel. Before I took you in, you couldn't tell "parrot" from "peripheral". Or have you neglected to tell EMPATHY about US? ("Sexual Healing" fades out, replaced by Johnny West's "Sex With Small Things") 010309 ... EMPATHY (tearing himself away from Denzel) What's THIS shit? Have you been pleasing other parties, some of which crave sexual gratification through the theft of several antique B movie actresses? TELL ME! 010309 ... Denzel Washington (smiling nervously) Well, uh...I was gonna tell you...but you were always so...unapproachable. Can't you empathize? 010309 ... EMPATHY Hell no! Even I'm not that divine! Find some other hole to stick your dick into! 010309 ... APATHY (jumping back into the ring, naked) I got it! I know the answers! I took a shit, and NOW I can feel the shit AND be the shit! I can be both, simultaneously brushing my teeth and cooking a roast! 010309 ... Denzel Washington You've seen the light, my friend! 010309 ... EMPATHY Why don't you get him to suck your dick? 010309 ... Denzel Washington Hmmm...That's a pretty damn good idea! 010309 ... Johnny Wests Cousin Johnny West remembered how to spell, Denzel got APATHY to give him a few blowjobs, EMPATHY took to selling his sexy self to retired Chippendales dancers, the referee died from "shit asphyxiation", Michael Buffer stole EMPATHY's knickers for his own dirty escapades...and they all gained the ability to empathize! THE END. 010309 ... johnny west And remember to search around like homosexual dogs again some time...for soon I will explain the mysterious disappearance of Jackie Chan's Penis-Enlarging Granola Bar recipe! Be ready for it when it comes to ya! 010309 ... Moe well...I think the subject has sufficiently drown in its own vomit now, lets just take a piss on it and go away 010324 ... Dan Peirce Apathy can be used constructively. Apathy is powerful and can be used selectively. I've found it at www.apathyology.com. What do you think? 010524 ... Photophobe Listless in the sun, we never really cared so much for anyone. Theres nothing to do; why should we be afraid of you? 010525 ... brill sparse spap 011018 ... lovers lament i want to pull you from inside yourself make you realize that you had what you wanted why did you have to make me feel so worthless just one more obstacle in the room for you to overcome so surprised that i didn't want to be one 011019 ... spooky fish i have telapathy, the ability to not give a damn even from extreme distances 011019 ... dB I like not caring. It's much less cluttered. 011019 ... aeon flux I used to not care, but years of apathy have transformed me into the ultimate empathetic person. woe is me. 011020 ... the two if i cared i wouldn't be here since it's too hard to listen to your emotions and blissful when you can just ignore them and go put someone else through hell 020724 ... phil today 020729 ... Mandijabster The world is full of apathy... ...but like, who cares? 031007 ... Mesdup i really dont care about this word 031116 ... ferret "a" is all for it 031116 ... mt my scarlet_muse fondest affection remains for the distances he taught and the passions he placed. 031116 ... no reason or maybe i've developed some kind of shell, some kind of feeling block; a big, magic hula-hoop of apathy, that surrounds me and only lets in emotion that can push stuff back away 031203 ... stork daddy you think it's because you're smarter than him, but maybe it's because he's smarter than you. 040307 ... Ter ill change. . .later Apathy doesn't mean mean or anything. 040310 ... uhaaaanei ku o ko a Tentative warmth and Welcome Lost in the cold steel of your labret 040312 ... apathy Having lived my life as vunerable caring man, I have found myself lost in the desire to become apathetic. I know that this isn't truly possible, but It's still my desire. The part that baffles me is this: why, if I care so much for her, can I not forgive myself for the things that she has done to me? 040327 ... minnesota_chris Blue canary in the outlet by the light switch, Who watches over you? Make a little birdhouse in your soul! thought this page could use a little TMBG 040327 ... anne-girl whatever... who cares? 040807 ... misstree is drunk again i miss my scarlet nothingness. there is a comfort in the void, a certainty. you can build walls there without interruption. 040807 ... id the darkside of my center makes itself known without hesitation and my conscience knows better i have too many struggles between what i know i should do and what my instincts and body want to do at a given moment 040807 ... sven If my dark-half were to take over, I guess I would be psychopathic and that is not desired. The question becomes what is the exact distance between me, my dark-half, and the me that is more concerned for others well being than for my own. How long before I'm pushed too far, if I ever am pushed over. 040807 ... misstree is drunk again see: sociopath. see: monster. see: demon. see: what happens when you finally recoil. 040807 ... u24 tired. long day makes even more tired. and then a stupid spark. first anger. then recognition that we're helpless. frustration. hints of depression. time alone. head buried under pillow. i cried a little. thought about biting myself, briefly. i decided not to go down that road again. head whiring. i can't stop going over it. defence_mechanism engaged: apathy. i can't smile without feeling a little sick. talking and moving is a bit of an effort. it'll pass. sigh. there's no resolution. we just have to bite our blistered lips again. damn, it takes effort to work my way out_of_this. got to shut out the bad without engaging total apathy. breathe. what I really need is some fucking aggressive music (I find that I get a lot of energy from music). need to soak up some adrenaline. ahh yes. strapping young lad - detox. I'm laughing now. that's much better. 080626 ... Syrope i read today. even in the bits of our conversation that i saved (thinking that no matter what they would touch me and remind me that i was in love once) you're taking up for everyone i mention. you took up for everyone but me. it makes me sad that i was so blind. i even found the conversation i had with her, defending your bumming and mooching ways. how pathetic was i? i just really find myself not caring any more. i had always thought when i reached "apathy" i would reach back to you and see what we could salvage. but i underestimated myself. you're drawn to the weak, the tragically self-conscious. that's just not me any more. 080626 ... no reason great things that are happening lately but there's still a constant dull sense of apathy i don't know what to do about it 090212 ... not found When depression takes over almost anything can become a victim of apathy's uncaring and acidic attitude. After all to acid everything is a joke. It even is represented as such in her generic formula. [H+A−] HA! The fact that simple tasks such as eating, grocery shopping, taking out the recyclables become these monumental accomplishments says it all. Apathy takes away all of my interest and excitement about life. Apathy and depression are a mated pair that needs to be divorced. 090213 ... minnesota_chris Sometimes I wish I could take something seriously, for more than a day or two. Never have, probably never will. 100118 ... . meh, who cares? 100119 ... niecespieces Apathy is a cold blanket. It embraces my active mind and numbs it to a place of solemness and uncertainty. The air circulates differently here it stagnates and creates haze in front of any glimmer of intensity. From this blank place, I long for the emotion I once felt. Though difficult, crying for hours represented the depth that human emotion can take. Each tear diving like acid through a multitude of layers towards the soul. Burned deeply, these tears left tubular veins that left the core vulnerable. This vulnerable being twitched with over sensitivity, and slowly lost the touch it once reacted overtly to. This numb catacomb of acid tubes blinks vapidly and without cause. 130627 ... unhinged still doesnt get and still tries to convince herself its the way she wants to be 130627 what's it to you? who go blather from