irresponsibility sameolme I'm sitting here wandering around in blather, when I came back to this town in order to move all my stuff out of the apt. so I can stop paying rent on a place that I'm not living. I have to shut phone swervice, register the car, dentist appt., etc.and so on, but I just can't. So often, I just shut down, kind of a philosophic anorexia. "you can't make me live my life." I'll come out of it, and feel guilty about the wasted time, maybe tommarow. 040621 ... ego hum Hell me, even responsibility doesn't feel that great. We gotta keep trying Responsible for? 220417 ... ego hum responsible for ourselves 220417 ... k . 220418 ... gili anxiety is unfulfilled responsibility. to lvie we must create meaning and connection. boy do i miss ours and your sweet, undeniable face. 220419 ... augasta hum I face 220419 ... ego hum my karma/condition doesn't preclude enlightenment nor does your's 220419 what's it to you? who go blather from