dafremen nemerfaD is a twisted egotistical asshole with his head shoved so far up his ass that he brushes his hair with a toothbrush. 010515 ... ladybird what colour toothbrush? 010515 ... bono in lingerie Purple? 010515 ... denzel All asses need a brushing once in a while. 010515 ... nocturnal is funny as hell, even if he doesn't always mean it that way. 010515 ... nemerfaD has apparently inspired so many detractors, that some of them are going as far as to nick my gimmick being daffy spelled in reverse (but without half the tact, but then again, i guess that fits too) 010515 ... psychobabe dafremen we love you lol 010515 ... Dafremen Finally! A blather with my name on it. : ) Glad to see I can instill such passion and activistic fervor! I almost ALWAYS mean it that way nocturnal, almost ALWAYS. Actually nemerfaD YOU stole that from me, check: backwards and you'll see what I mean. As for tact, um..well do0d..I'm not sure how to tell you this but, half of nothing is still nothing. Keep the cards letters and hate coming people, no reasonable derisive comments will be refused! If anyone would like ask me a question...go for it. I'll try not to break character as I answer them. Thanks for the luv P.B. and peepz... : ) Daffy - - P.S. First good ear wax question gets 50 bonus points. 010515 ... Dafremen P.P.S. Actually it WASN'T backwards it was: sdrawkcab 010515 ... nocturnal so about that earwax..... why is it yellow? snot's greenish, poop is brown, blood is red, piss is yellow, so are earwax and piss somehow related? 010515 ... Dafremen I'm not sure how ear wax would react to piss them both being yellow and all. I'm going to start soliciting volunteers for a little research so as to get to the bottom of this mystery. I think probably the most irritating thing about earwax is that you don't notice it until it starts dripping down the side of your ear. That can be hard on good shirts. 010516 ... nocturnal do I get the 50 bonus points? huh? huh? if that wasn't good enough, I have more, or I could at least make some up. 010516 ... Dafremen 35 bonus points noc, actually asking ABOUT ear wax rather than fitting earwax into a question about something else is a little lame for your abilities. Or as your parents might say: "Look at this earwax question? What is THIS you wrote? You're capable of much better questions than this punkin. If only you would just APPLY yourself you could be anything or do anything that you wanted." 010516 ... nocturnal well, that impression of my parents was really kind of inaccurate. it'd be more like, "why can't you think?! you used to do much better work. are you on drugs? are you depressed? what's wrong with you? where'd the other 15 points go? that's it. you're doing nothing but thinking up questions incorporating earwax for the rest of the week, or at least until you earn all 50 points. am I understood?" but I will work harder, for I have disappointed myself as well as others. I am so ashamed. but in my defense, I did have to give johnny back the other have of the brain we apparently share, so I'm not working with the whole thing. 010516 ... nocturnal well, that impression of my parents was really kind of inaccurate. it'd be more like, "why can't you think?! you used to do much better work. are you on drugs? are you depressed? what's wrong with you? where'd the other 15 points go? that's it. you're doing nothing but thinking up questions incorporating earwax for the rest of the week, or at least until you earn all 50 points. am I understood?" but I will work harder, for I have disappointed myself as well as others. I am so ashamed. but in my defense, I did have to give johnny back the other have of the brain we apparently share, so I'm not working with the whole thing. 010516 ... nocturnal shit. I hate when people do that twice and now I've done it. I feel like such an idiot. sorry. 010516 ... Dafremen You are the smartest idiot here. No apology necessary. Well you OR Johnny that is, depending upon who has the brain on any given day. 010516 ... psychobabe lmfao, i dont think i can make up a good earwax question :( oh well i dunno. So many questions, so little time to say them in. But help me with this one... why is that we think, and when we do we go into such deep thought some people actually go insane??? 010516 ... Dafremen I believe we think because it's worked out pretty good for us so far what with the recent census revealing that for the 10,000th year in a row, we are the dominant species on the planet. So I guess thinking makes sense. Where we get sto0pid is when we start to take our thinking so seriously that we actually almost breathe life into our thought in the form of this self-centric attitude and view of the universe that invariably serves only to puff up our little egos and aid us in deluding ourselves. When people go insane they have almost invariably gone way too far into the realm of self indulgent "fluffy" thinking. This philisophical crap that we bat back and forth for no particular reason except to entertain the mental exercise. They take it seriously, like life, they take it and their part in life way too seriously and then blow their minds out on mental tailchasing. I feel sorry for these folx, for sure, but hey they brought it on themselves. Thanks for the question, I'll be thinking about it some more. 010516 ... nocturnal hey, philosophy is not crap. that's all I had to say about that. 010516 ... Dafremen Agreed, philosophy is not ALL crap. Just that "brain teaser" philosophy that some pseudo-intellectual twerps like to wrap around themselves like a mental mink stole. 010517 ... nocturnal otay, I'll give you that. just makin sure you weren't discrediting the subject of the only class in which I got an A this semester. I can only work well with things that I like. 010517 ... blather spell check nocturnal made a terrible spelling mistake. what an idiot. she used have when she seemingly meant half. this place is just full of bad spellers. 010517 ... SaxyWeed speling makes no diferrense 010517 ... dannyH Good job kicking the crap out of the self indulgent. You are truly the King of the shut_the_fuck_up_blather, but don't you sometimes feel your reactions to people are just you getting the same kick in reverse. I'm interested to know what you think, not just what you think about what someone else thinks. 010518 ... Dafremen Oh I always tack on a healthy does of what I think danny. It's just that sometimes folx are just so busy focusing on what you said that they didn't want to hear, that they tend to ignore the constructive things a person might say. I say "f*ck em!" if they get somethign good out of it, fine. If they choose not to, fine. Either way, I'm not going to force feed my opinion down ANYONE'S throat. Neither am I going to have their's stuffed down mine. Each blather is like new playdoh. Ready for me to mold it into something other than what it was. I enjoy it. Damn it...I DO! Fuck you Danny, leave me alone 010518 ... Dafremen Hi!! Welcome to the party!! Beer's over there, snacks over there, playstation that way, PC(with cable modem) that way, leave your coats here and take your shoes off please. Oh and have a blast! ! If you need me, I'll be right over there. 010518 ... DannyH Yeah, fuck me. All my compliments come backhanded. Nice party. What's in the dip. 010518 ... bono in lingerie :::grabs a beer::: Nice place you got, Daffy. I'll be over here, if anyone wants me to start yodelling or something. 010518 ... nocturnal blather party, huh? so daffy can talk a fairly good game, we've seen that much...but I'm quite interested to see if he can throw a good party. I'll be stationed by the beer, drinking and watching people if anyone needs me. don't worry, I get much more lively once I've had more to drink. 010518 ... nocturnal well...I dunno. maybe it's just that I just rolled out of bed about ten minutes ago and I'm still tired, but this party is just not really all that rockin right now. 010518 ... nocturnal yeah, that's it. I'm leaving. 010518 ... Dafremen Hey bono! Hey Nocturnal! Nocturnal? Hey where'd she go? Nice garter bono! 010518 ... recovering addict all the tact i ever needed to learn, i learned right here ;) what a babe 010518 ... nocturnal hey daffy. I had to come back. damn cup went empty again. anyway, where'd ya go? 010518 ... Dafremen I was here, sorry, they had a Revenge of the Nerds marathon on comedy central. I couldn't tear myself away from the screen. 010518 ... nocturnal wow, you really do know how to throw a party.....? 010518 ... Dafremen Hey and if THAT's not enough to convince you, I have TWISTER in the closet. Just waiting for the party to slow down a bit first then we'll shift it into HIGH GEAR! 010518 ... nocturnal wait no longer my friend...let's get this party started!!! 010518 ... flo i've got a bottle of gordons 200 cigarettes and a massive bag of weed thats asys we can have a good time. oh, and leter there are some pills coming in, which is nice 010518 ... nocturnal thank you, flo. I've been waiting for something to actually happen. 010518 ... bono in lingerie I figure you're all too shy to ask, so... :::starts yodelling::: 010518 ... flo my god is that britney over there with madonna, lets go and put something in their drinks and see if we can make them dance for us. i love you all sooooooo much, you are all so talented and oh i don't know, lets have a hug. where did i put my cigarettes, do you want one... can i have one of yours. 010519 ... alberta can i come in, i've got a bottle and dave said it would be o.k. 010519 ... recovering addict hey daffy where did the scathing truth go? i can't find it in this cupboard over here.... 010519 ... Dafremen Wait! The night is still young. I'll start hurling it up all over the place eventually! 010519 ... flo if everybody else has gone home i think i'll take britney upstairs and do bad things to her while we get madonna to tidy this place up a bit. 010520 ... Sol hye, whats all the noise comin' form over here? Hey you havin' a party? exceellent, is anyone invited? 010520 ... Dafremen Come on in Sol, I was just watching flo and brittany.... 010520 ... Dafremen Ok so I'm supposed to apologize to DannyH for being so short with him. F*ck that. Danny's probably Irish Italian like me so he can take it and he prolly doesn't expect me to do anything except maybe tell him to go f*ck himself.(Which you will notice I have refrained from doing, and if you DIDN'T notice...GO F*CK YOURSELF!) So DannyH, here's a beer...let's sit down and talk about WHY I blather about what I think about what other people think instead of blathering about what I think. 010521 ... Dafremen Any more questions? 010521 ... Dafremen DannyH, You asked a question/ made a comment that I have answered. You said: "You are truly the King of the shut_the_fuck_up_blather, but don't you sometimes feel your reactions to people are just you getting the same kick in reverse. I'm interested to know what you think, not just what you think about what someone else thinks. " In answer to the first question. No I do not. I have absolutely no emotional baggage that I wish to discard here on blather or at you folx. I do not feel hate, malice, disrespect, annoyance, or superiority over anyone here. The blathers you are talking about are simply another form of expression. Think of some of my stuff as "reactive blather" It's sort of like shooting a gun through a U-shaped tube, I just take whatever someone writes that strikes me as absurd, hilarious or just plain inspires me to respond and then I use their own words as a way of creating a NEW blather and shooting it right back. I am the U-shaped tube. Think of the blathers that some people write as a magazine. Well my reactive blathering is akin to cutting up that magazine and making a collage from it. I basically use the other person's blather as a canvas to say whatever I like, whether it appears confrontational, judgemental, abusive, flippant, happy, trivial, funny, deep, insightful. See it doesn't matter to me, in fact, quite often I just let my mind go without me and read what I wrote afterwards. It's probably the thing I find MOST hilarious about my detractors here on blather. Supposedly blather is part of an online ARTIST community, normally seen as tolerant, open-minded and accepting of different forms of expression. However only maybe half a dozen blatherers were even able to get BEYOND what they THOUGHT they were reading to the reality of what they were reading...MY CREATIVE EXPRESSION. Not all art makes you happy or sad, some makes you angry, some fills you with shame, some bores the piss out of you, some makes you want to kick the artist's ass. ART IS.(period) Some folx just don't understand this, but fancy themselves artists nonetheless, and THEY'RE right, after all aren't we all in one way or another? Artist really aren't as open-minded and tolerant as folx would have you believe. They are cliquish, snobby, and VERY close minded when it comes to politics, social issues and what does or does NOT constitute "normal" behavior. Many people's reactions to my reactive blathers serve as perfect examples. It doesn't bother me though, like I said I find hypocrisy amusing as hell and you wouldn't BELIEVE the laugh my wife and I got when this one chick(do0d?) named fanta said that I was taking all of my problems out on other people. That I had a chip on my shoulder and wanted to dump my bucket of sh*t on other people's heads. (We REALLY guffawed when she talked about planting a rose bush in the bucket of sh*t. : ) I'll tell you what I did with MY bucket of sh*t...I put it down and walked away from it...years ago.) See the reason we laughed so hard is that this lady was obviously confused about me. She had confused my blather with ME. Her mistake was my entertainment.(We spent like a half hour doing this little improvised skit where my wife was fanta and I was some redneck threatening to "WHOOP HER ASS" and "Shove that rose bush where the sun don't shine." Heheh. "So fanta, you ever had yer ass whooped?" "No, no I haven't." "Well maybe that's the problem." Heheh it went on and on. (Sigh) Life is good! To answer your question as briefly as possible: I don't rant when I blather Danny, I'm just creating something...that's all. Now to the second part of your question: "I'm interested to know what you think, not just what you think about what someone else thinks. " Fine Danny, I've put some of my stuff up here, some of it I had here, some I did from memory and I will CONTINUE to put stuff up there so that you and everyone can see some of my NON-reactive blatherings. Good question Danny, thanks. P.S. The "Fuck you Danny, leave me alone" thing. That was just blather, it was what I thought was a successful attempt at humor. 010522 ... ^^^^^^^ P.P.S. You'll find my blathers at: meet_roger_dafremen. 010522 ... ^^^^^^^ P.P.S. You'll find my blathers at: meet_roger_dafremen. 010522 ... unhinged aaahhh...he finds the words to say that the nonconformist is just a conformist in disguise. i've been missing you around here. tact and a little charlie_parker are all anyone ever needs. 010522 ... Dafremen That's right, TWIST MY WORDS why dontcha? If you were a candy you'd be Good n'Evil. If you were a ship you'd be the H.M.S. PMS. If you were a car you'd be a SLAMbourghini. If you were a sexual position you'd be Dog-Me Style. You are, unhinged, probably the most precious blatherer of them all to me. You clever bitch wannabe you! : ) 010522 ... Dave Christ yer kind-a like my uncle. He's a real pain sometimes but all the kids want to hang out with him. He says hard-core clever bits and lets all of us have some of his corn squeezins. WHile I'm at it, I disavow and claim shenanigans on my "so-called brother" Teenage Jesus. I did change the damn bong water; and other stuff to. Crap- I get tired of him. 010522 ... SaxyWeed The party still here or did the beer run out? 010522 ... Dafremen Oh the brew still flows man.....it's in the bathtub. Take what you like, keep what you don't drink. 010523 ... DannyH Cheers Daffy. I'll take that beer with a black bile chaser. Here's to you, And here's to me, And if at times we disagree Then fuck you, And here's to me. *CLINK* :::knocks whole lot back and finds temporarily mislaid sense of humour in bottom of glass::: 010523 ... unhinged OK I WILL...so there. it's kinda funny that i miss you when you aren't here considering the first couple weeks i would have been content to see you disappear into the rubble. i'm a pretty forward person and here i find no reason not to say what comes to mind. i thought that was the point....what some people label as cynicism is just the product of growing up with a self-proclaimed realist for a father. almost every night at the dinner table, i heard my dad talk about some fight or another he had instigated at work. my dad was a union officer for his local for awhile. the liberal democrat rabble rouser runs in my blood. i can't help it :-D so where's the 151 kool-aid? damnit...i wish people would quit moving that cooler...i can still feel my toes. 010523 ... DannyH Just read meet_roger_dafremen. Dug plastic plants...rubber people, we know why the clown smiles. Not sure about the guns. I live in a country where they're a lot harder to get hold of and I wouldn't have it any other way. Supply has a way of creating its own demand. Do you think hand grenades should be freely available too? Your logic kind of suggests it. Actually, that could be kind of fun. I could throw one through the open window of my local branch of the Universal Church of the Kingdom of God and get some fucking sleep on a Sunday morning. 010524 ... Dafremen I guess my question for you would be, which would you prefer: A society in which there is a statistically slim possibility that you could be killed with a gun.(The figures for the United States on an annual basis amount to .001424 percent of our population. Go do the research yourself, find the population of the country then find the total deaths per 100,000 people. It works out to somewhere near 33,600 deaths per year including police shootings, suicides and accidents as well as violent crime related gun deaths . That SOUNDS like a big number, but as a percentage of the population it is a MINISCULE decimal fraction of a percent.) Or would you rather live in a society where history has shown that it is statistically PROBABLY that the authority of the people will be usurped by their government? I'm not sure whether you're Liberal or Conservative. I'm dead in the center because there are compelling arguments on both sides for various issues. Liberals seem to want to "even the playing field" among all races and classes of people and yet they abhor guns. What they don't seem to realize is that guns are a necessary evil in a violent world if you wish to "even the playing field". The majority of us are peace loving folx. However there are some that are NOT peace loving folx, these people want to DOMINATE and conquer and or spread their ideologies by force. IF they have guns and the peace loving folx DON'T then they get what they want. It's that simple. Perhaps you will say, "but it only turns into an escalating arms race". To that I would have to say, that is true, but remember, the race isn't being escalated by the folx who want peace, it is escalated by those who wish the upper hand in order to dominate. In most cases the more BRUTAL of these dominating violent peoples tend to live outside the law. This means they don't particularly care about gun regulation anyhow. The same thing holds true for the group of peole who run the government. While there may be no danger of a dictatorial government in either of our countries NOW, who the HELL are WE to take away the only recourse that some FUTURE generation of our countrymen may have should THEIR government cease to exercise their will. People honestly need to stop looking at life as if it's just breathing, and having a pulse. Real life is freedom. Guns help make the big guys and the small guys the same size. The cost? Well here in the United States the price of some future generation's liberty is 0.001424% of our population annually. Although my heart goes out to the innocent victims, I honestly feel the sacrifice is not in vain. I'm sure some day some oppressed future citizen will agree. 010524 ... Dafremen P.S. Besides, that piece really isn't about gun control, it's about the responsiblity that we have to FUTURE generations, both as parents and as a nation of citizens. We enjoy the rights, we need to shoulder the responsibility that comes with it and stop asking society to regulate and take care of our responsibilies for us. 010524 ... DannyH Come on daffy, the will of the people? don't you think that was usurped some time ago. OK I grant you I was looking at your election from outside but from here it looked like the will of some fat arsed Florida pensioners and the future presidents friends and family members. I'm not being elitist here. We've got an election on here in britain that makes yours seem like a hellenic ideal model of democracy. Our left wing party has turned more right wing than the conservatives and the conservatives have tried to push farther right wing and fallen off the edge. We effectively have a one party state. I just don't fancy the chances of the few of us who care enough with the few guns we could afford to buy standing much chance against the police and the army. We're not going to shoot our way to democracy on an individual basis, we'd only end up shooting each other in a row over the fine points of the new constitution. 010524 ... DannyH I agree with you about the rights and responsibilities thing though. 010524 ... Dafremen Heheh so what you're saying then is: "F*ck it, we've already given up a bunch of our liberties anyhow, what will giving up the rest of them harm?" I can only ask you to THINK about that statement for a few minutes. 010524 ... Dafremen P.S. In fact, come to think of it, you've already pointed out the TREND that our centralized governments have been following. One of slowly and effectively curtailing individual freedoms one by one, while we cheer them on. Does that somehow make disarming the citizens an even better idea? 010524 ... Dafremen P.P.S. As for your estimation of the people's ability to stand up against the police and the military: Wasn't it that exact same attitude on the part of the British monarchy that lost them their American colonies in the first place? 010524 ... Dafremen I just tried Sour Skittles. The ones I tried had the Green Apple flavored skittles. Apparently they are normally Lime flavored green ones. I think I like the Green Apple ones better though. Limited time only. Sigh. 010530 ... unhinged wildberry skittles are the BEST. major league baseball and wildberry skittles...can't beat it 010530 ... Dafremen Ok, I'm a little (insert either PISSED or EMBARRASSED...Im not sure which yet) I've been eating sour Skittles all day and I've developed ulcers in my mouth. This is not only painful, it hurts too. Ouch.. to make matters worse, I have more of these Skittles to eat and they're burning my flesh everytime I eat one. 010530 ... surrealchereal skittles are like life eh? both burn our flesh but we don't want to stop because we know there is more. 010530 ... Dafremen Ah! There you are my lively little skittle! 010531 ... surrealchereal a little skittle so free to be i have been released to finally be me 010531 ... Dafremen So are you a SOUR skittle? Or a regular skittle? 010601 ... surrealchereal Im goin back sic a being fat better to be thin when i die than fat so it'b back to sour i want my meth 010601 ... surrealchereal that's right meth, I'm a fucking junkie been clean for 3 weeks I want my meth TV ouch. sick of it, fuck it I am going to die from this thats why man, I'm surreal I aint real I am not online I live in grime please take me maybe i'll die this time i'm gonna die from adiction all us (insert surname here) do 010601 ... Dafremen MY wife goes all jukie eyed around meth too. I understand how it is...no doubt. You snort it? Smoke it? (winces) Shoot it? 010602 ... The Truth Well, I've read (most of) it. I wont say what I feel like saying...I know exactly how you'd react, and there is way too much egotistical testosterone filled rhetoric in here already. So, I'll just say this: I hope you realize that the way you percieve yourself GREATLY differs from how the rest of the world percieves you. I wish you wouldn't poison everything intelligent you say with your ego stroking nonsense...You could actually make an improvement on the world then. But hey, to each his own, right? 010602 ... Dafremen You forgot and said what you felt like saying. I forgive you. (How's that for testosterone filled rhetoric?) 010602 ... Dafremen Nocturnal is convinced that I love her. What SHE doesn't know is that I've replaced her regular coffee with freeze-dried Folger's crystals. Let's listen in and see how she reacts shall we? 010604 ... nocturnal at work what daffy doesn't know is that it couldn't have been my coffee because I don't drink coffee. it's all about the diet coke. 010604 ... Dafremen What nocturnal doesn't realize is that we've replaced her Diet Coke with freeze-dried Folger's crystals. Let's listen in and see how she reacts, shall we? 010604 ... nocturnal at work I literally almost spit my diet coke out when I read that. not because it was folger's, either. I had to look away from the screen so I would swallow it. 010604 ... The Truth HA...HAHAHA... Now THAT'S funny! 010604 ... Sol im begginning to feel like a complete ignoramus, educate me please (i am the founder of blatherschool whats folgers? 010604 ... johnny west It's a state of mind, similar to pre-orgasm euphoria. Most scientists chalk it up to a "dandruff fluke syndrome", whereby the dead scalp pieces infect the brain. 010604 ... nocturnal at work johnny's shitting on your foot. it's coffee. 010604 ... lost who are you? you have given me some pretty good advice. theres onething i have always wondered. how old are you? 010604 ... nocturnal at work daffy's old. very old. 010604 ... nocturnal I hate that guy! 010604 ... Dafremen Jo0 loaf me...jo0 no jo0 do. 010604 ... nocturnal well, actually, maybe you're right...nope. I'm pretty damn sure I hate you. I hate everyone that makes fun of me, for at least an hour. 010604 ... Dafremen Thees mehbe she is tro0, mehbe she is not, I dunno. But Jo0 loaf me, thees I know. Jes Jes Jo0 loaf me. Jes Jo0 do. 010604 ... johnny west Tell me, Daffy...I'm a Leo. What's special about Leo's? I'm curious. I don't know much about astrology. 010604 ... Dafremen EVERYBODY loves a Leo. Good thing too, cuz if ANYONE needs love love and more love...its you precious folk. I'll tell you Johnny, I've known quite a few Leos and the one thing that always struck me about them was the way I could almost never turn one down for a favor. There was this one time when I was on my way out to my car to go home. I still smoked at the time and I had just ONE cigarette left in my pack and no change for another. As I was leaving, I overheard my good buddy Tom(A Leo) asking another guy if he had a smoke. The guy, Mike, said no he didn't have one. I was determined that I was NOT going to give my last smoke away and so I pretended not to hear as I walked past and headed toward the door. I could have gotten out the door at that point, and in fact, did, when Tom's voice shouted towards me, "Hey Roger, got a smoke?". Before I knew what was happening, my arm had automatically shot toward my shirt pocket, pulled out the pack of smokes and tossed them over my shoulder backwards at Tom. To this day, that memory reminds me of "the voice" from Dune or Star Wars. Other than that I hear Leos are good cooks and that you folx ALSO get "gut feelings" like us Libras which you need to learn to follow. My guess is Johnny that if anyone says anything negative about a friend of yours that you are quick to defend your friend and even get angry with the person talking about them. Loyalty is an important quality, and misplaced loyalty is not an uncommon mistake with Leos. Follow your hunches Johnny, keep your carefree outlook on life and stop relying so much on other people's love and understanding as your own. You're like the lion in the Wizard of Oz, you're strong, but only when you think you're strong, which is only when you think you're safe. You need to learn as the lion did, that either way, safe or not, it's all in your mind and you're just as strong either way. That about sums up what I have to say about that. : ) 010604 ... nocturnal I love leos. I fall for 'em every time. aries and leos supposedly have good sexual chemistry. at least that's what I've read. we both enjoy the thrill of the hunt, the flirting period often goes to extremes. 010604 ... nocturnal otay, daffy. your time of being hated by me is now through. I'm sure you're relieved. I loaf Jo0 once again. 010604 ... Dafremen Ahhh loafed..ees der any oader wae to be? 010605 ... Dafremen This is where I am SECRETLY apologizing to nocturnal for making her the butt of not just one but TWO of my delightfully lame Dog_Boot_Company blathers. I heretofore pledge not to make her the focus of anymore Dog_Boot_Company ads. In return I am hoping that she will restore me to my place of prominence on her list of my_favorite_blatherers and reinstate her loaf for me. We'll wait and see what happens. Either way it should be a mighty comfortable wait in my Dog_Boot_Company Camo Trailblazer XL's. 010605 ... lost hey daf I am a libra whats good about them. 010606 ... Dafremen I know you are. Why do you think I've been watching you? Go hear and read about Libras: http://www.gnarf.net/users/dafremen/Zodiac/Libra.htm 010606 ... lost how did you know i was a libra? 010607 ... florescent light he didn't he just says he did so he can be percieved as more powerful than he actually is 010607 ... Dafremen Actually florescent light is mistaken. I've known you were for awhile Harlan(lost). The clues were in one of your blathers. 010607 ... florescent light Still, I stand by my initial argument about you wanting to be percieved as more powerful than you actually are. 010607 ... Dafremen And I continue my position of refusing to deny it. Call it Libran vanity if you like. P.S. See also: birthday 010607 ... lost ah yes, i forgot about that blathe 010607 ... Persona Dafremen made me cry thank you I needed that 010620 ... Dafremen No problemo kiddo. Hope it helped. 010621 ... Dafremen Oh nocturnal....will you EVER be back? I honestly think you should be slightly flattered at the fact that I have dedicated not ONE but TWO of my patented "Chinese Blather Torture" pieces. What can I say? You are a special lady who deserved the extra attention. P.S. I got an email from a stranger. It contained a single link: www.softpaws.com Apparently SOMEONE enjoyed dog_boot_company. : ) 010621 ... Dafremen If I called you names would it help to get you motivated? By the way the dog_boot_company thing is just me archiving the blathers before they get spread hither and yon. I'm not starting it up again.(Til next June 5th anyway...and then just for the novelty of reviving a year old gag) I've come up with a phrase to describe it as you can see.(Blathers that go on long after the should have gone off) "Chinese Blather Torture". Between that and reactive blathering I've been having a ball! : ) 010621 ... nocturnal at work um, I really don't care about that stupid dog_boot_company thing. I didn't even read it, to tell you the truth. and no, calling me names or anything else you do will not motivate me. if I feel like it, I'll post something, otherwise, well, I just won't. 010621 ... Dafremen You're a hard nut to crack kiddo. Alright then I guess I'll just do that OTHER idea I had where I convert regular files(like pictures and programs and the like) to all letters.(You won't be able to read it..the letters will numerically represent the original program.) Then I will create a blather in which I will start posting software for anyone to cut, paste and run my conversion program on. After they're done, they'll have a copy of the original file(picture, program..the like). Should be a blast. You see dearest nocturnal..I'm not satisfied to repeat the same types of blathers as the masses all the time. I must innovate and revolutionize the blather industry with a dazzling array of new blathering techniques. : ) Daf P.S. The letter thing is called TRATS. I will write the first version tonite. It'll be really primitive, just doing the binary to text file conversion. The final version will have error checking and will allow you to break up really big programs into several smaller blathers. P.P.S. It actually turns any messageboard or guestbook into a file server. : ) 010621 ... florescent light you've hit an all time low I've seriously begun wondering about your sanity 010621 ... Dafremen Why thank you. 010621 ... nocturnal I agree w/ florescent light. and as for daffy, well...you told me once to try not to be so predictable. try taking your own advice once in a while. 010621 ... Dafremen see Hypocrisy (Wait a minute...didn't you already read that? Well what the hell are you so suprised for then?) P.S. I think you both sound like you'd make GREAT bunnies for the Playboy mansion. YES..I'm talking about (points)YOU....and Hugh. 010621 ... johnny west Where the hell is know where? If that's where I'm going, I need to know. 010701 ... Dafremen IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHERE I'M NOT GUNNA TELL YOU JOHNNY..(NOT YELLING...CAPS LOCK IS STUCK...KEYBOARD MUST BE 10 YEARS OLD.) 010701 ... Dafremen Hey Spart...are you there? Do0d this is weird...we're both AT blather and yet somehow we are ALSO in Quake2. That's kinda cool...in a strange maybe-I-should-get-a-life sort of way ya know? (click on blather to respond) 010702 ... Spartacus life, heck, this is life kinda, ain't it. you are the center of it many a times :P 010702 ... Dafremen Quake2 is a lot like life in many ways. Perhaps that's why I enjoy it so much. It's like life without the bills. 010702 ... black-dyed gel product has herpes HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHA ~~~falls out of chair laughing~~~ 010703 ... Noxius Flotimus What the fuck is going on here? 010703 ... Dafremen And theeeeeenn? (Quoting Chinese Drive Thru lady in Dude, where's my car?) 010703 ... Noxius Flotimus Who the fuck is Dafremen? }8) 010703 ... splick last_night_dream 010705 ... Dafremen No Danny, That one wasn't close to call at all. It was a Yummy, being a dipsh*t and that's what I called it as. As you may or may not know, it is NOT my policy to rag on suicidal folx. If I get the impression that the person is TRULY suicidal as opposed to BORED with being a kid stuck at home with your parents, your hormones and vacous thoughts of your social life...if I get that impression, then I might respond with some empathy. All the second kind need is a good swift kick in the ass and a month of bootcamp. Yummy fits in that group. See the suicide blather and an entry by trazlo to see an example of the other group. I'm not without empathy. I just don't go slopping it around indiscriminately at whoever whines about their life the loudest or most convincingly. Two other examples: See: OWN then See: DEAR_MOM_AND_DAD This time the subject was Parents, freedom and responsibility. Something that most angst ridden teens refuse to acknowledge is ENTIRELY in their heads. They'll get the freedom and responsibility that they want AND get away from their parents when they get the F*CK out of their parents' house and get a job. Period. (Some would rather mooch and bitch.) 010711 ... Dafremen Damn good beer! I'm drinking a Negra Modelo next. Want one? 010711 ... Dafremen I think my blather is broken....hope this works.. 010711 ... i hate my name its changing im not yummychuckle or yeah..kick in the ass... ...yeah um my life is pretty damn good so that was dumb of me, dafremen is right (duh, he always is, right?). and I'm not gonna do that stupid shit anymore and I'm going to put effort into getting help and crap. so i wasn't fucking crying I was happy because even though i was an idiot at least it made me realize I was/am an idiot and i should get help and... hmmm can't seem to phrase words right... anyway a big fuck you to nobody in particular. and thanks and really, don't tell me ur glad I'm here or any of that fucking nonsense because its fake sympathy, AND I do not deserve sympathy (more like a kick in the face?). anywho...whats up. 010711 ... Dafremen I'd prefer you didn't wallow either, you're too intelligent for that. No, I'm not always right. In fact I've probably ben wrong about more things in my 32 years than most folx will in a hundred. I just try not to make the same mistakes twice. (Notice I said try...that doesn't mean succeed.) I've made so many damned mistakes in fact that the number of them that I make on a daily basis these days is a decimal number anymore. I should probably tally them on a monthly basis instead. They'd be about 2 maybe 3. On a really bad month about 5 mistakes. Maybe once a year or once every year and a half a BLATANT f*ck up. Rest assured I'll learn from it. See I had an excuse for making the mistakes myself....if anyone had made the same mistakes before, they weren't talking when I was younger. That was then...this is now. I'm here...I'm talking...unfortunately I guess you have to be without advice for the majority of your life to realize that making the mistakes yourself is a crock of sh*t and any insight into the forseeable future is to be greatly appreciated. From Daffy's Quotes: "I made the mistakes...so you don't HAVE to." Unfortunately, dumbass being the natural human state...we prefer to repeat the f*ck ups for ourselves.(Quite often because we've been advised not to. Now that IS some stupid sh*t huh?) So stop wallowing, stop fixating on yourself and your parent's splitting up and leaving you feeling victimized, grab a beer(digital beer has no minimum age requirement) or don't...either way I'm just gunna kick it here with DannyH drinking good beer and listening to the waves hit the shore. 010712 ... mistaken gawd ok i am not wallowing, i was jus responding and getting it out because I thought people deserved the apology and all that and I've been writing other crap and I have not been thinking about it...*sigh* i have happy new blathers anyways. see_my_vest --anyway-- im seein logan 2day and we're gonna sit around and stare at walls and hes gonna smoke but I'm not cus i don't feel like it 2 day... ok i gtg get ready, have happy days. i don't like beer. digital beers, either... 010712 ... Dafremen For as long as you run around calling yerself mistaken instead of YummC or Yummychuckle or Chucklette or something...yer wallowing. 010712 ... kingsuperspecial I don't know if that's necessarily true, D. If YC wants to change her name, and it's going to stand to her as an example of changing her attitude, then I think it's a positive thing, not wallowing. reminders of lessons learned, and whatnot. better a changed name than a scar on the wrist or something worse. hey, did you guys kill all the beers, or what? by the way, I loved the "hit myself in the thumb with a hammer" analogy. priceless. it's a miracle I can still use my thumbs, but man, I'm sure glad I've got them. They're damn useful. 010712 ... Dafremen Even when they're blackened, bloodied and swollen huh KSS? Yea, beer's over there...Danny's sitting on the cooler..."guarding it" he sez.."guzzling the beer from it" I say. P.S. That name is not a reminder to the Yumster...it's theatre. She knows the difference, and I'm sure she'd choose theatrics over being reminded of her mistakes...any day. Can't say I blame her. (But that won't stop me from harping about it. When opportunity knocks...I answer the door.) 010712 ... DannyH Plenty more in here Kingsuperspecial [Reaches down between legs, pulls out a tube and puts it in Kingsuperspecial's hand] get your lips round that. 010712 ... kingsuperspecial hmmmm...a Boddington's! My favorite. :: cracks the can:: I can hardly wait! ::pours into tall glass :: Nothing like a liquid lunch - little hair of the dog, as it were Cheers kiddies! 010712 ... baby satan you don't know this, but i swapped all of your beer with urine. you're all drinking piss! ::: vanishes into a hellish bordello ::: 010712 ... Dafremen Heheheh what baby satan doesn't know is that demons piss German beer. (Just don't drink it straight fom the tap...) Cheers gentlemen. 010712 ... Aimee Daffy - Do you only love me because I'm a leo? 010712 ... mistaken I think he only likes me cus i'm a libra. *sigh* fuck you my name has been changed and I'm not goin back. :0) love ya! 010712 ... nocturnal I think he only likes me cuz I hate him so much. I probably hate him so much cuz I'm an aries. I'm sure that's at least partially to blame for why I hate so many people so quickly. but anyway, yeah. that's all. oh, wait. my point was supposed to eventually be that, by the transitive property, he therefore only likes me cuz I'm an aries. 010712 ... mistaken (yelling) Oh yeah and does anyone want a margarita? I'm makin some... *whur of blender is heard over speech* 010712 ... dB Hey Daffy, just thought I'd say that your write up on Tauruses in What is your sign was quite accurate. (I'm shocked). Although, the fibbing thing I dont' agree with. When I was a kid I'd tell some wild stories (we are talking ages 5 through to 10). But now I serve the truth and the truth only. It's one of the things I hold very dear to me (hence my hate of lawyers, marketing people etc). The loving to give gifts, just this week I sold a 1991 brand new illustrated edition lord of the rings to someone in Arkansas. This lady bought it off one of my few ebay auctions as a present for her husband. After I found out it was a present I threw in a big as and quite rare pop-up edition of the hobbit (cost me $50, but I threw it in for free as a sruprise). I do this kind of thing all the time, it feels really good when you've got someone on the phone from Japan who learned a few words of english and got a translator so they can thank you in person for getting them something they really wanted. Dreams come true? Well in a way that is my job. A company will have an idea about some form of expansion or diverification or something like that that they think is really far fectched and they don't have the resources or the people to make it happen, so they call me. I come in start up a whole new buisness inside their business and treat it as a seperate entity all together, make it work, make it profitable and then merge it completely with the company. Than my job is done an I move on to the next one which was lined up three months in advance. I don't fully understand why I'm the one that gets these jobs, but as far as I can tell the empployers seem to think that I'm the only one who can push people into doing something difrerent and completely untried and actually get them to pull it off. As for the rage. It took a long time, but I have it mostly under controll mostly by putting that energy into music. Anyway, enough of this blathering about me. But I am fairly surprised as to how accurate you were. You really enjoy this stuff don't you? *Much Peace* 010712 ... Dafremen I enjoy finally being able to understand people Db...yes very much They've always been a mystery to me, which has been very distressing since I have that basic Libran love of humanity. (Tempered with a healthy dislike for the mob) Aimee no..but that helps. Yummy..the name sucks...keep it. Noc...indeed...your mental intensity and stubborn pride plus that incredibly admirable if not more than a bit irritating compulsion to win all have me absolutely spell bound. I also hit my left testicle with a hammer three times a day. I hope that clears that up. Oh Db...so what you're saying is...you learned to "Control yourself". : ) 010713 ... kingsuperspecial hey dafremen, I was just reading around and discovered evidence that you are "a vulgar, insensitive, desensitized example of all the mysogyny and hatred that is wrong with this world.". Fuck yeah, I knew we had something in common. that, and the whole not wearing pants at the computer thing. 010721 ... OuT Oh, hi. 010721 ... Dafremen Hey there Out! Wazzap? 010726 ... peyton I don't neccesarily like him, and I don't agree with many things he says or his opinions, or even half the time the way he delivers it. But, his intelligence is obvious, and his writing style and mechanics are excellent. I have laughed at many things he's said, and almost cried at some too. I'd say I look at him the way I'd look at a knight across the field carrying the enemy standard. Knowing the conflict that exists, but still having a respect for who that person is. ::wishes he might one day get a sheep for Christmas:: 010731 ... Dafremen Never you mind about the having the sheep handed to you peyton. Continue to recognize the civilized nature of conflict and they will come to you....in DROVES. All of them desperately seeking SOMEONE who knows what is what and what is not, which is black and which is white. They need this, gray is NOT an option for them, never truly can be, just lighter shades of black or darker shades of white. Continue to define the two with descretion and insight, and they will look to you as their shepherd...they have no choice, such is the role of a sheep. Meanwhile I will continue to be hated or loved, disregarded or respected. Grudgingly offered my just due by the shepherds, feared, misrepresented and reviled by the sheep. I think that I can live with that. 010731 ... Daf Hope this fixes the blather. 010731 ... jimmyjam Hope this fixes the blather. 010731 ... Dafremen Grrrrr..still broken 010731 ... nocturnal it was quota problems, people. jeez. ya know, it never hurts to click the "us" button on the opening page and email the blather people about what's happening when it's not working properly. then you find out what the problem is. I do it every time. 010731 ... Dafremen Heya to0tz....thanx for checking into it for me. I'm impressed.....TAKE A DEAD MUNKEE! (See Aimee? Toldja this would work out..) 010731 ... BiTcH SlaP what the hell is going on here 010801 ... nocturnal I don't want your damn dead monkey. 010801 ... Dafremen Tsk, tsk...why so snippy red? 010801 ... nocturnal don't ask. you probably wouldn't care, anyway. 010801 ... Dafremen You misjudge me...you have my undivided attention an empathy. What's on yer mind Zhu-zhu? 010801 ... nocturnal well, if you really wanna know..... I did something stupid to piss off a few of my friends. this was about a month ago. anyway, I never apologised and last night one of them called my cell phone and left a message. it was basically to tell me that I'm a bitch and should apologise and that all of my friends have been going out without me. first of all, that's not true cuz I went out with a couple of them on saturday, but that's irrelevant. anyway, I basically just wrote the bitch an email in response to say fine, I really don't give a shit. I was gonna apologise, but now I'm not and I don't wanna hang around people who don't wanna hang around me. I would expect that I would be kinda sad or upset about having just written an email cutting myself off from at least half of my friends, but I'm not. it just kinda filled me with even more hate than I had before. sorry if I accidentally direct it towards blatherskites. I don't mean to. 010801 ... Dafremen I think it's sad that you're pride kept you from apologizing in time. I understand how it feels to feel obligated to make amends. That bl0ze cuz you wanna do it on your terms so that there's no doubt it's sincere. I'm glad yer coping with it and hey blather_is_blather have at it. There...now will you PLEASE take the dead monkey? 010801 ... nocturnal it wasn't pride. I didn't see the people I pissed off for a while, and it's been so long now I stopped even thinking about it. but whatever. I honestly don't care. I'm not even angry anymore. in fact, I've already made some general plans for the weekend. 010801 ... nocturnal and I really have no room for a dead monkey. sorry. 010801 ... Dafremen Well dearest noc, you're welcome to be as bitchy as you would like any time you would like to without offending me. In fact, one might venture to say it's your forte. : ) 010802 ... nocturnal at work and I would agree with them. but, my friends called me to say that the girl who called me should not have brought them into it cuz they have no hard feelings toward me. so now I'm just one friend down. no loss, she's always been a bit of a psycho, controlling bitch anyway. 010802 ... Dafremen I guess maybe it's true what they say about likes repelling and opposites attracting after all huh? 010802 ... nocturnal no, she's a cancer. aries cannot ever ever ever get along with cancers. I've tried and have never succeeded. she's a different kind of bitch. for example, in the message she left me, she kept saying "I love you, honey" repeatedly. if I'm bitching at someone, the only thing I'd say repeatedly would be something more to the effect of "fuck you, honey." and that's the key difference. 010802 ... Dafremen Oh I know what you mean. I've been married to a Cancer for 11 years. They certainly can be difficult to understand. They're extremely moody and the women can be a handful of crabbiness that needs to be constantly attended to or they get real nasty and they're so emotional that they're very hard to reason with if they're upset. They can't take criticism well at all, no Cancers do. You have to be careful for their sensibilities are easily offended. It's a difficult tightrope, but I have gained much from her Cancer qualities. She is the ultimate conservative I was a reckless dreamer. It is a very difficult relationship but it has it's rewards. Anyhow that lady sounds like a real b*tch, I'm glad she's out of yer life. Thanks for reading me type about the missus. P.S. Watch out Cancer women are emotion personified, if they get pissed off...REVENGE is inevitably on their minds. They can be EXTREMELY vindictive. 010802 ... nocturnal I am very well aware of the unreasonable sensitivity of cancers and of their constant need to be tended to. if feelings get hurt because of my straight forward nature and the touchiness of a cancer, that's too f*cking bad. that's not something I'm willing to tolerate or work around. and I'm not afraid of people looking for revenge. I know for a fact that I could do ten times worse to them than they could ever do to me. it's one of the rewards of observing people as intently as I always do. I know how to hit where it hurts. 010802 ... Dafremen Ok, so I figure S'Bob is due either here...or at my other blather which I will point out to him here: meet_roger_dafremen (Just figured if he was gunna try to make a point by trashing my 2 blathers that I might as well point him in the right direction. Especially since I can't WAIT to see how it all comes out.) Netertainment indeed!! (I would have left well enough alone, but: A)Bob didn't ask, he attempted to "make a point" instead. I prefer the former...the latter just entices me to toy with the "point maker". B)Who knows? It could be entertaining and I believe I'm due to swing back toward the negative end of the scale this month anyhow, so what the f*ck? C)It could end here. That's entirely up to S'Bob. ) 010919 ... Dafremen I forgot to leave this here...for DannyH. (Pulls out that special Chimay Ale I've been saving for a special occasion.) If you come back Danny...that's a special enough occasion for me. 011012 ... DannyH Don't mind if I do old boy. Chin chin and here's to you. I've been trying to wean myself off blather lately. I'm that close to finishing the first draft of my first novel. Just lacking that extra little bit of whatever it is and trying not to waste it in here. Sorry I cut off the what_is_art debate just as it was getting fiery. I was just about to let off another salvo when the world found a new gear of insanity. Rather distracting... Mmmm, now that is good beer. 011013 ... nocturnal first novel? oooo, danny's gonna be famous! everybody, suck up while you can! 011013 ... Dafremen I want to do the actual WRITING of my story free_gold_bricks today. I think I will try. 011014 ... surreal Oh yeah? Well I'm a Cancer/Leo and I resemble that remark er.. description! :( I can't help it, I try, but I can't help it. That's why I don't have a man to love me. sigh. If I were someone else I would have a man to love me. But if I were someone else and a man loved me, he still wouldn't love me. 011014 ... nocturnal I just accidentally hung up on him on icq. oops. I swear that wasn't intentional. 011015 ... Dafremen yea sure. trust me lady, someone hanging up on, ignoring or walking away from dafremen is not exactly ground breaking news. I love it when a plan comes together. : ) 011017 ... Dafremen Welcome to the party! O.K the whole thing's been divided into color named rooms. Keg's are in the green and red rooms, of course. Bo0yas in the orange room, thought the green would look good next to the orange vinyl beenbag chairs. Gratuitous sex is in the blue room, not coincidentally, so is gratuitous violence, you'll notice a pit in the middle of the room, kinda let the mood of the room do it's magic and let the night sort it all out. There's the purple room, yellow room, the white room (with black curtains...for the old folx, I'll prolly be in here most of the night) the peach room, the black room the aquamarine room and the list really does go on and on. In case you'd like to come up with your own room color motif, there's some fabric swatches for the swatch-inclined. I've got corny movies in the brown room and romantic comedies in the pink room. There's twister in the rainbow room with mousetrap, clue and sorry under the coffee table in the corner. Everything's free, so if some guy comes asking for donations to the Beer and New York Police and Firefighter's Widows and Orphans fund, he PROLLY isn't legit...although the beer could run out, in which case we'll want to make sure the NYC police and fireman's widows ain't without now won't we? (Extra suds for the widows do0d...no doubt.) Enjoy people, that's what it's here for, be good to each other....and thanks for coming. 011023 ... DannyH Is haiti the plural of hiatus? Don't make me have to find out. 011215 ... Norm You are one smart man "I-just-hit-my-thumb-with-a-hammer-so-now-I-think-I'll-cut-it-off" stupid. hahahaha It's so true! 011215 ... Norm what's a detractor? 011216 ... Dafremen someone who talks smack or speaks negatively of someone. 011216 ... Dafremen No danny, hiati or hiatii would be the plural of hiatus. Haiti if capitalised would be a small tropical island nation and two of them would be a pair of Haitis. If I'm wrong, I'll do that really cool trick I did with the Jim Beam at my last party...BACKWARDS. (er ouch...hold up on that..) 011217 ... Toxic_Kisses Your back! *She says stating the obvious* Or wait maybe you were always here and I just didn’t realize bc I'd been away *Frowns slightly* *Shrugs* either way glad ta "see" ya ^.^ 011217 ... Dafremen Thanx chicklette. Things are looking up these days and I'm actually close to getting a permanent internet connect down here in Mejico. Glad to be back...hope I turn out to be worth the wait. 020207 ... Effingham Fish Wiser than us all, but still not quite as wise as he thinks. But what do I know? 020216 ... nemerfaD I can't believe this page is still going on. 020312 ... Dafremen I can't believe you've been gone for so long. 020322 ... Dafremen By the way fEesh...don´t tell anyone this, but you are the Piglet of my blather fantasy world. However, I am not Pooh. I am Owl. Make of that what you like. : ) 020510 ... nemerfaD never gone, just intensely bored and aware of the futility 020510 ... Dafremen I find it hard to believe that you could get so easily bored....you haven't been reading...THIS much is obvious. 020529 ... DannyH Pip pip old chap. Not done much on here lately except how_to_make_blatheworld which met with a respectful lack of engagement. How goes it? Still kicking against the pricks? Any advice for a writer with a chronic confidence crisis? Any beer in the fridge? 020604 ... Dafremen Allo ol´ bean! Been missing you round these parts. It´s just not as much fun kicking the pricks since they stopped kicking back, so I just nudge them with my foot once in awhile and keep hoping for a brawl...you know. The beer these days is Pacifico and if the wallet will let me, an occasional Negra Modelo (Which, by the by, I highly recommend.) Let me take a look at your blathe and see if you and I can´t get into a good old fashioned row like the good old days. Sigh...how I long for the good old days at times Danny ol´chap. 020604 ... User24 From what i hear, DaFreMen has drippy earwax.. 020617 ... Dafremen Hey there User24...long time no type. So WHO told you about my friggin earwax? I'm up to a half a case of Q-tips a day, specially since the little toilet paper twisty drills I used to make, stopped working. Thatnk gawd for all of this ear hair, helps to hold it in. 020617 ... van gagh "I'm just an eccentric little artist" you? an artist? time to cut off my other ear 021018 ... Dafremen You may cut off as many parts as you wish, but you'll never determine what_is_art through acts of masochism. 021018 ... Annie Wilkes i thought you went away. go away again. 030214 ... Dafremen No. Thanks for thinking of me though dear. 030215 ... jane wants you to talk about sagittarius 030217 ... Dafremen Sagittarius is next then dearest jane. 030404 ... .....(me)..... Dafremen hello, yes, you're right, I've not been on track recently, (i hope that blathe -was- directed at me, else I'm gonna look like a munchkin (dont ask, I don't know)) ahem... My mind's been wandering all over the place, personal projects including 3 websites (nodeworld being the furthest along) a book, paganism, a tech magazine, a business selling digital artwork, all half finisihed... anyway, yes, I've been trying to concentrate on not talking to people, just imparting my opinions and knowledge. 030502 ... Toxic_Kisses hay you!!!! ^.^ For some reason I think you would have some awsome book_recommendations so I wanted to ask what you would recommend in the non-fiction catagory? After all seeing as how I'm -in- a library I could get it right awayif its availible ^.^ 030509 ... Dafremen That really depends upon your interests Jane. If you like a lot of little interesting facts, I'd recommend anything from the Uncle John's Bathroom Reader series. If you'd like some really good insights into astrology, I'd recommend a book that I found recently called You're Every Sign by Phyllis Firak-Mitz or any book at all by Linda Goodman (although Star Signs delves into some pretty far out ideas. Love Signs is fascinating though and very insightful.) The Prophet by Kilahl Gibran(don't have my copy handy, might've misspelled that name) Cosmos by Carl Sagan is brilliant and Ideas and Opinions by Albert Einstein is one of my personal favorites. There is a book called Pantheism by Paul Harrison and a book about Islam called the Book of Inquiries by Ahmad H. Sakar PhD I recently read a book called SNAPS by James PErcely, Monteria Ivey and Stephan Dweck which reminded me of the years I spent in the orphanage near Chicago. It's quite funny and I'm sure, if you'd like something humorous, that you'll find it there. Excuse Me, Your Life is Waiting by Lynn Grabhorn offers a very effective approach on improving your quality of life.(Whether her theories on how it works are correct remains to be seen) Those are a few to start with. Not sure if any of those will be to your liking, but I suspect that at least one of them, and maybe most of them will be. Yer bud, Daf 030509 ... TK Jane? do you think I wouldent notice that? or is it that you did it purposly to see my reaction and test me like some lab rat!? 030509 ... Toxic_Kisses if your intrested on info about Islam and the culture you might also want to read Princess: a true story of life behind the veil in Saudi Arabia ~ Princess Sultana’s Daughters both by Sasson, Jean P And Veiled Courage: inside the Afghan woman’s resistance by Benard, Cheryl All these books are truly quite informative BTW I'll over look you calling me the wrong name if you can over look that I blew up @ you 030509 ... Dafremen Heheh I screwed up. I had just finished on blatherers_appearances, and I have been in horrible pain lately. This bus driving gig kicks ass for learning about people, but it sucks for the spinal column. Sorry dear. It will NEVER happen again. Please forgive me. As for your reaction, hey, yer a Sag...it's forgotten dear, because I know one of your fondest wishes is to be able to explode and have people pretend like it never happened. (Did it ever happen?) I am very interested in all types of belief systems. I need to understand where people are coming from..it's important to me. For some reason, I need to be able to give people respect on their own terms. (F*ck em if they disrespect me.) I doubt you will find many of those books in the library(sorry), but I'd be more than happy to share mine with you if you can't find any of them. Sorry again for the name mix-p, I know how much that can piss a woman off...Dorothy. : ) (Just kidding N.W.) 030510 ... Toxic_Kisses While not intentionaly looking I came across some more info in relation to the books I'd previously recomended to you (have you checked any of them out yet?) and thought you might find it of intrest First something you can read right away Trouble in Herat By Alissa J. Rubin http://www.msmagazine.com/mar03/rubin.asp if you look around you'll find a few more articals on the topic as well and now for another book something I think you and your daughter will both enjoy reading, Persepolis by Marjane Satrapi The book tells the story of Marjane growing up in the 1970's and 80's while living through the Islamic Revolution and the war w/ Iraq. 030521 ... User24 how u doing these days, dafremen? 030619 ... Dafremen Doing well...working on a my home page...finally. How are you doing do0d? 030619 ... User24 I'm going through a massive change in attitude towards life (for the bette, I think) it's quite annoying actually becuase I can see how I'll be by the end of it, but I'm just not there yet.. odd. homepage online yet? 030619 ... Dafremen No. I have the main page done...as usual I want to do more things than I have hands or webspace for. I want it to have a messageboard, guestbook, a huge links page with a link for every practical or entertainment need. Still I spend hours perfecting each page. Gawd it's awful. 030619 ... User24 yeah, I know the feeling, I always have too many pet projects on. 030619 ... User24 btw, where did you get "dafremen" from. I always think it sounds like "the free man" which is kinda cool, IMO. 030619 ... User24 ah.. never mind, I'll learn to read before I type one day. 030619 ... somebody you are like a stream; constant, yet changing. laughter helps you. 030625 ... Dafremen How very observant of you. Thank you for an apple out of nowhere..for this curious gift from the river. Yours truly, 8)Daf (the stream) 030626 ... anonymous everyone seems to hate you for some reason, I think you're pretty sound. well, ok, not everyone, but you're definately a contender for most_hated_blatherskite and I honestly don't know why. 030630 ... formerly pralines god, it was a fucking joke! 030630 ... TK in a hurry user24, I always thought Dafremen's name sounded like "Daft Man" hehehe but every one knows Dafremen's far from daft ^.^ 030805 ... oldephebe dafremen can be kind of infuriating if you don't get his skewed sense of humor and uh if you're reasonably confident about your cognitive reach or capacities or own egg headedness or delusional omniscience then hey you won't feel so threatened or infuriated at his antics - some of the things daf has posted here show a formidable intellect - you know, not some exhibitionistic dillentante whose mastered some crib notes - but he seems to have this thing for tang but look my advise is to be that irrevocable center of your universe and ah then it really won't chafe as much if someones world view differs from your own personally i'm going to catch up on some of his dissertations on astrology i find them to be simply scintillating well not really that was just sibilant juxtaposition for alliterations sake - and really it sounded kind of sycophantic - but ah i do find his thoughts/theory on astrology kind of interesting but i will not be sipping tang though it really churns the gastric juices no sir no abdominal heaving for me but you know, it's not such a bad thing if you encounter someone whose cognitive reach rivals or even surpasses your own - its challenging- and what is this meritocracy without challenges - me, i grow from every encounter (sure that's an odious aphoristic nugget but sheath your inscissors there's a great deal of verity in such vapidness) sure, i'm a blather neophyte, so take my pontification for what it's worth God! i love this place! 030805 ... Dafremen Ahh to be loafed eEs der aynee oder wey? : ) (What's not to love about this place?) I think some folks have figured out my Motus Operandi: Attention Deficit Disorder allowed to run its course. The ones that read and misjudge(or is it that they judge correctly..hmmm?{shifty sneaky-eyed look})..well hell, it wouldn't be half as much fun without them. 030805 ... Dafremen Well if not Tang, howz about a Chocolate Yoohoo? see also: just_a_matter_of_time 030805 ... User24 dafremen, do you think life is solid and constant like stone, or fluid and viscous, like earwax? 030902 ... Dafremen Unpredictable in the short term, reliable over the long haul. Fluid in a day to day, moment to moment sense, but settling into a fairly predictable set of cycles and rules. Greater complexity creates more complexities in the form of variables. In stark contrast, the further down we go, the simpler everything gets, and the closer we get to the ultimate simplicity, that of unity. In the final number lies hidden the key to the ultimate understanding, for him who reaches it. Wiser still is the one who understands that the end and the beginning are the same and that in the number ONE lies the key to the eternal essence of that which binds us to everything, everywhere forever. 030902 ... realistic optimist noooooo! i just get all riled up an want to start taking_it_to_the_streets and start reading your wonderfully incisive words and you go and leave. (breathe, smile, and let go) damnit! i hope you poke your head back into the blue box every once in a while i hardly knew ye, but ill not soon forget ye. 031007 ... Dafremen I have been thinking about this leaving thing, and I have known it was coming for a couple of years now. (see also..DAFFY I think.) But I AM taking_it_to_the_streets and ITS WORKING! Oh my gawd how it is WORKING! The group has grown from one to two to 7 of us now. And we haven't but begun. I will be driving down through the Baja California peninsula on Sunday, spreading the message of unity, of brotherhood (and sisterhood.) As far as we can get in two days. We have a key to get in (what_the_hands_of_men_hath_wrought) and we have a message: Those things that bring us together are of unity. Those things that divide us are of man and his ego. We will invite them to join us in coming together. Haven't completely hashed out the details, but that's what the Monkey_with_a_hammer is. It is the idea that we have a voice now (our hammer), but we don't know what we're going to do with it (a monkey with a hammer) but we know that eventually, if we wait too long, time will take the hammer from us...so we must wing it...and SWING it! It's working...oh my gawd, I am so glad for the day I just got up and decided to DO it. (I tried before, but gave up for lack of the BALLS...finally I just said..F*CK IT! Someone's gotta do something, might as well be me!) We can do this!! We just have to believe in ourselves and know that our message, that of unity and people coming together and treating each other right is NOT crazy, it's not illogical, it's not impossible...it just needs US to make it happen. Thank you so much for your kind words...ALL of you! Here is what I can give back to this site which has given so much to me: I will finish the insights_into_humankind series. (Sagittarians...I saved the best for last...heheheh. Ok fine, I saved the best...for lazt.) I will expand the astrology FAQ. I will answer any remaining questions on ask_dafremen. I will give you all progress reports as progress progresses. I will love you always. I will do what I can to make this world a better place for you, your children and their children. I will dedicate my life to slowing the wheels of the machine that has been chewing our dignity up and spitting us out with such stunning regularity. I will love you ALWAYS. I will have a place at my table for you if you should decide to come visit. I will be there for you, you have my email. I will not let you down, just be patient with me, I am quickly becoming a very busy man. I will look for you on IM if I am there. My AIM is rogerdafremen, my MSN is dafremen@hotmail.com. And finally...I will love you guys ALWAYS and I mean that sincerely and with such heartfelt remorse for having to leave you, yet such conviction that I am doing what is right and true, that one day you will KNOW exactly how deep my love for you runs, because you will see it in the changes taking place all around you. Love..your best blather_bud, Daf P.S. Here's an interesting ANAGRAM: ROGER_DAFREMEN = FREEDOM_RANGER (Just noticed that a week ago.) 031007 ... Dafremen Make that.. What_the_hands_of_man_hath_wrought 031008 ... oldephebe Daf - it's really unfortunate that I happen to live on the east coast..it would've been pretty neat if we'd gotten a chance to chew the fat. I pray that your calling takes you to the summit of your gifts..your communion with the Source. Let this be a new and lasting inaugeration of The Season of The Spirit. I am convinced that is the only thing that will save Man from his/her current plight. All paths, all signs seem to converge to say this One thing..be well Daf. Don't be suprised if you get an emial or two. (wich for me is a lot) I still will very much be looking forward to your book. Please let me know when it is on the market. oldephebe 031008 ... stork daddy this is getting close to 1 MB. that's one mega blathe 031008 ... TK I right this moment am in the mist of replying to your E-mail, it may not be done until Monday but that’s bc I'm being vary per-snik-A-T about how I word things so that they come out just the way I want them to (whooooot! I Love spell check!) 031011 ... Dafremen : ) I'm on pins and needles. 031012 ... Happy Toxic_Kisses Did you know this page takes a loooooooooooooooooooong looooooooooooooooooooog looooooooooooooooooooog time to load? Bla! Any who I'm ~FiNeLy~ done w/ my reply, read it @ your leasure theres no rush, I simply thought you'd want to know ^.^ *prances off to read more blather* 031016 ... Dafremen Well...you may as well know, I read your response and reacted to it in, what I think you will find a MOST surprising manner. We have a new game to play dearest. A cat and mouse game..question is, are we the cat? Or are we the mouse? P.S. Yes, I put a Ramen in the micro and it was done and cooled by the time this page got done loading. : ) 031016 ... Toxic_Kisses I am the cheese and I stand alone . . . . . . . . . . . . . . w/n this mousetrap . . . . so tell me just how hungry are you? 031017 ... Dafremen Let me put it this way. A bear trap wouldn't stop me from trying to pull you out of there dear. I am your friend to the bitter end, whether you understand, are able to see or not. I will be there to help you out of this. 031017 ... Unbridled I have been struggling with the way of the world for some time now. Human consciousness is expanding & some of the results have been quite disturbing. If only we could look into each others eyes with truth, love & universal understanding. Maybe then we could bring this planet back to where it belongs. Wouldn't paradise be nice? I think deep down you all realize this is the way. Don't be afraid to speak up your minds are valuable. 031018 ... Dafremen Thank you. Please email me. You have touched me deeply..the lone fighter also hears the call of belonging. You inspired this: opus_of_the_human_race Thanks again. 031018 ... oldephebe Daf - Please check your e-mail. Peace.. 031124 ... alice forgive me if the novice-like naivete that i display is annoying to you insanely electronically literate characters but having stumbled upon this little endeavour and i was hoping for some kind of elucidation - i have only surveryed a few pages but already i have some creeping curiosity about your ways and wiles (i speak of you blatherers collectively not to be reductive but because it is a term which you yourselves seem to use and which seems to bring you this extraordinary sense of solidarity and nationality - even when delicately masked by animosity - it really is like a little world in here isnt it which is why i suppose i feel so apologetic barging my way in 'Take me to your leader' - the times when you mention the internet cafe or your pay days are similar. anyway just a few questions - if anyone would be so kind as to answer them i would be grateful - why do you feel the need to create here in this virtual space? do you create elsewhere (ie in reality)? is it something about the anonymity and lack of face-to-face contact that you find intriguing/creatively inspiring? cheers - would be nice to hear back 040222 ... margaux [you sound like oldephebe] why did you write this on 'dafremen'? see: welcome_to_blather for the answers to your other questions, start looking around. i think there's a why_i_write_at_blather for a start good luck! 040222 ... alice it was the third page i got to stumbling mumbling around - thanks for the answer 040223 ... apathetic Al first i thought you meant atavistic fervor..as in primal passion and under cooked red meat and a conspicuous dearth of eating utensils and no sense of social and or table time etiquette/propriety...i would really wanted to literally inhabit the mental milleau of fury or outrage and all i could authentically pull of was apathy.. 040905 ... apathetic Al first i thought you meant atavistic fervor..as in primal passion and under cooked red meat and a conspicuous dearth of eating utensils and no sense of social and or table time etiquette/propriety...i would really wanted to literally inhabit the mental milleau of fury or outrage and all i could authentically pull of was apathy.. 040905 ... peyton always liked him 050518 ... Toxic_Kisses Still like him ^.^ Daf as to answer a previous question of youre's as to were I've been Well I'm currently spending a lot more of my time in various waiting rooms, and while I always bring an interesting book to read (you never know if they’ll provide good mags) I often times find my self dazing off into thought, I never realized till now how distracted I allow myself to get by other people, TV, radio, the computer and even reading until now. Never realized how much of my time was devoted to listening and reading other peoples thoughts and feelings as a form of avoidance. My only complaint is that some times the waiting rooms are too cold other wise I really appreciate the time I have to just sit and think w/o distraction ^.^ 050904 ... daf And what, pray tell, is it that you are waiting for Ms. Besos? 050904 ... Effingham Fish I like Piglet. 080920 ... dafremen He's getting by...isn't he? They say that the meek shall inherit the Earth. Here's to Piglet's world. 080920 ... who knows is he back yet? 101123 ... Toxic_Kisses Dafremen I’m Sorry. I realize my telling you I’m a sorry piece of shit fixes nothing. Mainly because I’m not telling you anything you haven’t already known for a long long time. When you needed me I up and left Despite saying I wouldn’t. I’ve written you unsent apologies over the years Sometimes bc I don’t like feeling so shitty and guilty over what I did to you and I think apologizing might make that feeling go away, or at least subside a little bit. Sometimes bc I just want to get it the fuck done and over with There Its DONE! At least now it’s fucking done and I don’t have to think about it every time I see the clock double it’s digits (11:11 – 10:10 – 9:09 – 4:44 ect) at least I can say I ~TRIED~ to fix things between us. Other times I’ve tried to thread my words like a spider weaving its web, to find ~Just The RIGHT Words~ and string them along in ~Just The RIGHT Way~ Honestly I’m just as selfish as I ever was (if not more so), nor have I ever proclaimed to be otherwise, at least in this regard I haven’t changed. Yet mostly I wanted to take away the pain I caused you, and if I couldn’t do that then at least to ease it in some way. But then I wouldn’t send the letter bc I was afraid, not of you and what you have to say (Dafremen you have every right to feel the depths of negativity towards me and I’m more than willing to hear it from you) no I was afraid that no matter how or what I said I couldn’t take away the hurt I’d caused you to feel. More then anything I’ve wanted to be able to take out the thorn I’d put in your paw, yet no matter what I tried to say my letters always come out sounding manipulative (Sincerity, Sunshine and Apple Pie) and/or angry. Truth be told I am angry, at myself. Part of the reason it’s taken me so long to apologize is that I don’t want to be forgiven, I don’t want things to be fixed and smoothed over - because I’m fully aware that I don’t deserve that. I’ve never stopped hating myself for what I did to you, but more then that I hate how what I did negatively colored your perception of the world and the people around you. I’ve seen the pain and mistrust in your writing, and while I’m not conceded enough to think that I’m it’s soul source I know I had my part to play in it. I don’t want or deserve to be forgiven nor do I expect what I’ve written to solve anything, but you have the right to know how much I’ve always deeply regretted deserting you and that I am and always have been sorry. Although I feel deeply ashamed of what I did to you I decided to made this public bc my betrayal of you is equally as public. 140403 ... TK although = even though 140403 ... Soma did you know your name backwards is nemerfad? Sounds trendy, you nemerfad-setter, you. 210313 ... Bizzar It's nice to see you're still here, friend. Over 20 years ago, when I first began frequenting these_blue_pages, yours was one of the first names that became familiar. While the recent page is so much smaller than it once was, the comfort in the familiarity of blather, and its bookends, is immeasurable. I hope you're well. 220221 ... Bizzar It's nice to see you're still here, friend. Over 20 years ago, when I first began frequenting these_blue_pages, yours was one of the first names that became familiar. While the recent page is so much smaller than it once was, the comfort in the familiarity of blather, and its bookends, is immeasurable. I hope you're well. 220221 ... daf It has been awhile. So many things have happened since then. Left a marriage. Found a real sweetheart who treats me well. Floating around the universe doing whatever pays a bill and keeps us free to do what we like with our time. Right now it's being a handyman, but soon something else too. As life moves closer to the end, I've begun to feel that motivation the old have to: tell their stories, write their memoirs, shake a cane at the little bastards cutting through their yards, to pick up the pace, pull out the bucket list, spend nights alone with their regrets, smelling the flowers, trying to figure out what all of it was for. So far, I'm pretty happy with the results. I lost a few friends, family, allies and acquaintances over this public debate about bodily autonomy, but attachment disorder has it's advantages. Writing a book about birds. Working on an album. Helping a step kid climb out of the life skills hole that public education was trying to stick him in. A good life it's been indeed. How about you? How have things been since you were here last? What's the same? What's different? 220223 ... Bizzar How to even begin to sum up the time. What's new or not new? I feel like the best way I could sum up that time is that I have spent so much of it asleep. Resting in the darkness of abuse and trauma, masked and hiding inside myself for survival. and I have spent the last 2 years waking up. I started writing music again. I started writing here again. I owe the life that I am rebuilding to supportive partners and new friends. I have learned a lot about my neurodivergence and the effect that it has on my emotions, and have found reasons there for the ways that I tend to handle things. It's been eye opening. It's been scary. Coming out of repression and depression and staring down at where you once lied, looking in the eyes of your own trauma - it's a hell of a ride. but within the last 2 years I have found my people in an online community, people who make me feel safe and loved and leave me feeling like it's OK to bare my soul. People who look at my scars and think they're beautiful. While it's been heavy and scary at times, there has been beauty as well. I have 2 kids. I own a home. I have a job I enjoy. And I of course understand the privilege that I have to be able to focus on my mental health and not my physical health or safety. It's nice to see you still kicking around here. The familiarity of that is comforting in its own way. Glad to here you're doing well. 220302 ... x . 220303 what's it to you? who go blather from