euphoria aqua pulse pure unrestrained joy. 001029 ... Rhin is what i feel, everytime i hear your voice over the phone... is what i feel, when you play your piano for me... is what i feel, when i receive gifts from you... is what i feel, everytime i listen to your mellow jazz... is what i felt, when you first told me that you were in love with me... is what i still feel, when you tell me that you love me more every day... is what i will feel, when i finally feel your breath upon my face... 001115 ... Oscar mingled with terror my hands are sweating and shaking. funny that i am perfectly willing to enter situations where i may risk bodily harm without a second thought, but matters of emotion and affection reduce me to the depths of fear. thus am i ruled by dichotomy pisces the two fish headed in opposite directions apropos 001115 ... splinken i've been blathering too long. i've gotten an eye for the style of the regular blatherers. i know who oscar is. i need a new hobby. 001115 ... lovers lament no drug has given me yet. just some restless high i guess. tear stained face to the sky. begging for a scrap off the table. 001121 ... wazit _o_joy_o_bliss_ 001205 ... MollyCule always makes me think of the episode of Beverly Hills 90210 when Emily Valentine slipped some "euporia" into Brandon's dring at the "rave" 001214 ... firehunden to see you there in the darkness pale of skin eyes so bright you look away but then look back the candles burn a little grin warm and fuzzy in my core a need of you like nothing else your touch your smell a silk caress a soft breath everything you are and nothing more 010303 ... unhinged i'm trapped. i wanted to feel happy but then she walked in with you. she said she was 15 and i knew. that's the one. that's the one he like loves or something. the one he's seeing even though he knows he could get his ass thrown in jail. i wasn't going to get fucked up. i wasn't. and then i saw her glitter on his face. and nothing has ever sparkled so cleanly in my eye. i want to feel euphoria but i just feel numb. i want to love you but i'll let you run to your other prettier girls. ha...how i get wrapped in it. 010304 ... biomechanoid Is untrue happiness 010620 ... Death of a Rose i have experienced this 5 times in my life and i can't remember when or where it happened. i'm just left with the certain knowledge that it has happened. 031223 ... ryen this moment this sound this feeling only if forever. 040305 ... Rachel is caused by drugs, perchance? 040324 ... nemo dr bockmans euphio machine 040324 ... in a bad mood thus I hate my life Yeah, after a while, I feel like a dumbass being on blather for so long. I feel like a loser, surprisingly. I don't feel spiritual after a while. I feel like a lonely little fuck with no friends, chilling on blather, when secretly, I just want to be fucking wasted with real friends, and I'm obviously in a bad mood now. I wish classes would start and that I'd lose twenty pounds. I wish I were hot. Fuck this. Fuck myself. I'm stupid. 040827 ... o-0-o Chamical Happiness 050509 ... camille no fear no restraint total release of all inhibition 050509 ... cornflaxe81 like having wind rush through your hair while smelling cherry blossoms and listening to your personal music device oblivious to all that surrounds you and the implications of global warming, terrorism, the tight job market, over specialization, the child labor that made your jeans, and the dog shit you're stepping in 050509 ... delial so much negativity for a word so full of bliss, yeah? this is the word he uses to describe the feeling we're sharing sharing... god, i can't even wrap my mind around the fact it's shared mutual... sure, i had a feeling all along but having him put my dreams into words? having him say what i've thought all along? yeah, i can see why he'd be euphoric it's such an appropriate word for this two-way dream come true, right? i can't even believe this is happening i keep expecting to wake_up so far though, all pinching myself does is leave a bruise i treasure those marks. 050510 what's it to you? who go blather from