why_i_write_at_blather lost i write here because i can say the things that i feel. nobody can truely judge me because they dont really know me, and people know me by who i am not for who i show myself as. 010618 ... dB Because if I didn't my head would explode splattering brain matter, puss, tar, and other goop all over the landscape. 010618 ... nocturnal because it's cool, I like almost all the people, and because you can only play so many free cell games before you start to lose your mind...in a bad way. 010618 ... sabbie .. because everything likes to be aired- even doonas, knickers and thoughts ..because everything including muses like to dress up in their favorite outfits and be taken out for a night on the town .. because you know the socks right at the back of the drawer? the ones that you never wear? if you listen carefully you will hear them sobbing quietly into the darkness. 010619 ... unhinged to know myself to talk to you to know you to prevent myself from going crazy 010620 ... Dafremen To get back at my high school English teacher and because OCCASIONALLY you folx amuse me. (Whether you know it, meant it, or not.) 010620 ... unique butterfly to get out what i'm feeling. 010620 ... Persona What better place to write a wee poem about a hot dog that got boiled too long, swelled up and split down the middle? 010620 ... silentbob i wonder why people so commonly misspell pus. 010620 ... NinNy Nu Nu probably because they prefer the word pussy. 010624 ... Casey Because none of you know me. I can say what ever I feel without the fear of being judged. Because you all are entitled to your own opinions and they don't effect me 010624 ... NinNy Nu Nu ummm i write on this to waste money. and to be sad and get a brain attack. 010624 ... black-dyed gel product I make banana fuck 010624 ... bijou because big_brother_blathers 010624 ... johnny west I don't. I didn't. I did. I do. Because. 010624 ... The Truth I think I'm addicted. Fate brought me here, and I can leave and never come back if I chose, but I always come back, always. 010703 ... Becky Because I like to randomly write under words that no one cares about. 010703 ... Dafremen Now THAT was the truth...Truth...finally sheesh! 010704 ... User24 It's totally unique, not a chat room, not really a message board, un-moderated, no rules, no stopping, etc, and there's always the promise of the unknown just around the corner in a room, sorry, a blath, you haven't found yet. So that's why I write here. 010705 ... yoink why i write at all 010706 ... izzi because i can put in my opinion about stupid subjects and not look like an idiot genius. 010713 ... burden Because my dad won't let me have dinner unless I do. 010715 ... Aimee "Good buys, earthy aromas - people know me here" 010716 ... camille http://www.finalfantasy.com/top/images/top/themovie.jpg 010716 ... grendelbirdmad to forestall the inevitable exploding_head_sequence 010717 ... power through passion Because it's absolutely amazingly interesting. It is quite the little bit of chaos... words flying here and there, lots of different random thoughts. Not to mention that people aren't afraid to actually put what they think, instead of the sanitized bullshit you might get if you talked to them face to face. 010722 ... kx21 To vary its shape of Hole... 010722 ... kx21 More precisely, To vary the shapes of its Hole... 010722 ... deadinside i have tried to leave befor but without blather i would go crazy. this is a place i can write stuff and not care what people think (though i sometimes do). this is a place where i let out some steam, and say exactly what im feeling (because it's hard for me to do that in front of a person) because for some reason you people draw me back. I like the ride never knowing where it will take me next. it's like a stroll down memory lane without having to walk. because you people are like me in so many ways(yet different in so many). because i feel like i dont belong here and i like to piss people off. 010812 ... kx21 Specifically, to vary the shapes & landscapes of one of its special Hole... the_hole_in_me... 010812 ... stupidpunkgirl blather helped me get through a really painful time in my life...breaking up with my boyfriend..and it still helps me every time i write on it. i am so grateful to blather and the people on blather...words cannot express my graditude 010812 ... Norm I need a way to record my thoughts, and I want to see how people react to them 010827 ... Inanna Thought is a form of energy. 010827 ... nattasha I'm overwhelmed at the thought of being able to write and yet be unknown...to express my pain somewhere... 011029 ... jestification i'd like to take a load off my friend's ears.........................i get sick of "uh-huh's" as replies............i can write about petty and important stuff all at the same time.......................it's really fun to play with words................................ it's better than watching tv.....................because i live so far from the levee now. 011207 ... the one cus im bored and i feel like i have too much to say but really nothing at all and i just want to feel cool. yea. thats it. this place makes me cool. :) and thats why im here. 020110 ... ClairE Adam was driving me home and we'd been talking about schizophrenia and all I could do was frown, and he looked at me and said, "You need to keep your head busier this break. Do more than go online all the time," with genuine concern. And inside my head I said, "What do you think blather is for?", but I stopped myself from saying it out loud. I write at blather because I found blather. 020110 ... shiva so that i can put things out of my head without worrying about anyone i know reading them. ever. damn. 020111 ... freakizh because, like it's written on the front door, this mere experiment takes different forms when placed in unique hands/keyboards of total strangers throughout the world. is funny, though, how people can trust their deepest feelings about random words to maybe psycho citizens with razors, over their families, their friends, and themselves, in general. the bless of being anonymous. 020111 ... phil .oO .O .o .oO .oO .OO .o .O .oOo .OO .O .oo .oo .o .oo .o . 020209 ... searching because i can say all the things i bottle up inside, get them off of my chest, and eventually gain perspective and let them go (i hope) now that i think about it though...this is just another way to hide and not confront the real world. its easy to blather when i know the people i am talking to will never hear me...and the wall keeps growing 020209 ... blown cherry all of the above :) 020209 ... pralines&cream I write me feelings down so that someday I can re-read them and remember what it felt like to me me at this time in my life. 020209 ... lady lunchbox i started blathering here with the intentions of saying nice things about my boyfriend. how shallow. eventually i realized that i can write my every thought here, and none of my friends/lovers/enemies/acquaintances ever have to know what goes through my head. however, i can get support and feedback from all of you, my blather friends. i've blathered about some of the toughest things i will ever have to go through, and it's helped me deal. when i need to have a good cry, i come here and blather and shed some tears. if i've had a good day, i can write about it and feel like someone cares. it's an amazing forum for sharing thoughts and feelings, and i will never be able to stop blathering. thank you all for your time. long live blather. ;-) 020210 ... lycanthrope because i only like quality writing in my notebooks 020430 ... bethany because i have an obsessive personality 020430 ... Freak I write because its my way of getting things out and being heard and just a hobby. Im always writing but it seems pointless unless someone is going to read it. But at the same time I wouldn't let anyone I knew read the things I write therefore Blather is the perfect answer to my situation! 020508 ... kerry i write at blather because my notebooks get lonely i write because my palms are sweating and there are ten million thoughts buzzing everywhere i write because the *voices* tell me to i write because i am obsessive compulsive i write because i read and because i quake and think and shudder with anticipation of what to write next 020508 ... kill rhythm i write here because it is easier to type than to write for me...my hand gets tired fast, and my mind works a lot faster than my hands when writing. and i like to hear the replys of the people here more than i do of my so called friends. its nice when i dont get a reply, and its nice when i get engouragement. 020508 ... jessicafletcher i feel safe, and as i have said many many many times, "i love all of you" 020516 ... CJ because why write everything in a note book that no one will see plus it is fun 020516 ... ClairE I_don't_know. 020530 ... Ive Gone Incognito Bc if I wrote it all down in a note book it's inevitable that some day he would find and read it, yet even here I feel unsafe bc he knows of this place, colors may be changed here soon because I -need- a place to vent AND feel safe (IcantlethimfindmehereIcantlethimfindmehereIcantlethimfindmehere) @ the same time 020530 ... Syrope it's safe, unlike so many other areas of my life. there's no one i can vent all my feelings too. i wouldnt want to impose that on cathy, cuz she listens to so much anyway, and the only other people i'm close to would judge me. i can rant and rage and say things i had never had the courage to say before. sometimes i wish i could erase some blathes, but i cant, and thats good because they remind me that i *am* capable of such emotion, that i don't really hafta be stepped on all the time. i can put happiness and hope into words and not feel like whomever i'm talking to will think i'm silly. i can put despair and loneliness into words and feel like someone or something is now sharing that burden (and in fact i read on the previous blathes of that page that someone is indeed in the same situation as me) and that makes it easier for me to carry. i don't have to be ashamed of my contradictory emotions here...i can go from swearing revenge on someone to how great someone else makes me feel...and i can record the tiny bits of memories that resurface after being hidden for so long. i can come back to blather and read the story of my life... 020612 ... Sintina because it feels so good to loose myself in it at odd times like this... because it feels so good to get lost... because writing is so expressive and I never have time to do it any other way.. because much of myself is here... not just in me and my words, but in you and yours... 020612 ... delial I don't write very often. I pretty much lurk. But I come here and read because, as corny as this sounds, it's inspiring to me. I envy the way_with_words so many of you have... I put my feelings down in graphic form...because I am very bad with words. I can never get my thoughts out the way I want them to come out when it comes to writing. So when I found this place...and lost myself in its depths, its labyrinth of text, I found a way to somehow bring myself closer to how I sometimes wish I could be. There are so many thoughts I relate to, so many ideas I share, and so many things some people have been able to articulate that I can't imagine being able to do myself, that when I find them, it makes me feel like there are other people out there that share something I feel, so I feel almost at ease with the fact I myself can't write it, because at least there is someone else in the world who can. People say practice when you're bad at something, but I feel like some things you are born with. And sometimes I wish I was as gifted with words as you all...but I'm happy with the fact I can read them. And now I've yakked on and on. I'm sleepy. I ramble. 030819 ... nomme you tell me me you tell tell me you 030819 ... oldephebe delial i thought you were authentic and eloquent 030819 ... Mahayana b/c something called me to it... i call it fate, i dont even remember how i got here or what i was looking for when i came across blather, i knew what i wasnt looking for and that was the ability to communicate and fall inlove with any woman ever again, i thought i was safe here and more in control of what people would be able to say to me here ... little did i know what was instore for me when i wasnt searching, all i knew and further know was that i was meant to be here, i cant even begin to imagine how horribly different my life would have been without being here, i never would have met all you wonderful people, i love knowing everyone, even those of us i dont agree with all the time, but thats the beauty of it, of ourselves... i couldnt imagine your life | and i couldnt imagine mine cuz quite honestly i would have ended it without a certain special someone i met here, for this ... blather will always hold an extremely special spot in my heart ... no actually blather is my heart, my life, that which brought me back together with the one i love [i write at blather b/c as apart of fate i complied] 030819 ... nomatter I came here by accident. It's so nice. Feels neverending. And anonymous. 030915 ... oldephebe the threads of fate pull ever tighter..i clicked go and here i am..so here we sit poised and posed in varying degrees of grace on rickety bar stools, sipping stale beer all after noon..disgorging our intellects, our souls, the apocrypha of ashen faced souls giving a gaelic ghosts groan through empty halls..the taste of the sour swill is indelibly stamped on ones breath..the BEER that is NOT the writhing cyryllic characters..yeah..i'm bringin' the bleak real early today..got up early to graze on gutter water..oh so why do i write at blather..?..part compulsion, part attention defecit or scatter brained as i like to call mahself..part gorging mahself on the feast and festival of language and ideas..and now it's time for the Compulsory Contemplation of Porn..right then..porn break over..now i sit hollow eyed and yeah bleak with self-loathing that usually follows my carnal catharsis..it's compulsory by the way..what phylum of fakery am I from?..hmm i think i may have just garishly violated some blather issue or tenent of taste or something.. uh...later then 040114 ... endless desire for my sanity. and because, for some reason, all these people have me convinced that they are horribly unique and understanding. a step above the usual crap we see in society. i like believing that. 040114 ... minnesota_chris blather is the world. A particularly American, teenaged, lazy segment, but the world nonetheless. 040114 ... Alvarny As I scroll down blather, it is like walking down a lane full of thoughts, brushing shoulders with speech bubbles. I cannot see the faces behind them, but I cannot help but feel equal and respected with these mental beings. Blather is not American, it is universal. And it is a place whereone can love and feel loved. Thank you all. 040115 ... ShilohLives I write at blather because I can get out all of my depressing thoughts and then put on my normal face for the world to see.. Blather is here for me when I need something that I can just spew to. 040115 ... whitechocolatewalrus blather is the answer i never asked for. a non-dream come true. 040115 ... minnesota_chris This is interesting. People's responses tell a lot about their personality. What is the purpose of other people? To inspire, to make you forget, or possibly they control you? 040116 ... misstree to be a contrast to angst. to entertain myself. to worship words. 040116 ... celestias shadow Because I can spill all my words out somewhere. Because sometimes I feel like if I don't get it out, I'll explode. Because it's the best medium I've ever found for letting words flow out. They don't even have to make sense. Because mostly, people here are not judgmental. Because I don't know any of you well enough to be embarrassed at anything I say. Because I can be honest here like I can't anywhere else. Because that honesty matters to me. Becuase everyone here matters to me. And because, most of all, words_matter to me. 040117 ... silentlybroken Because I need to know I'm not alone. I have to believe that my words still have meaning, that someone, somewhere is reading my pain and understands. This is my chosen medium, this is my safe_house in a world of silent thorns and barren horizons. 040118 ... silentlybroken But everywhere I look its like they know... 040118 ... falling_alone becuase i feel like a part of something great and its this secret that not many know about so i dunno... or in other words: i feel special *grin* 040119 ... misstree apologizes for the mood of the day because i need a place to put misfit words and thoughts and hearts. being a poet is foocking hard. each word is weighed against its will, nearly every construction deemed uninhabitable, but here in the galleries of moment-spun glass, they can find a home where they will not crumble under my own disapproving gaze, they are not degraded for not being more. blue is the place where the peasents go while i wait for heroes to be born. 040129 ... ambermoon i love to right my feelings down and this site lets me say what i want. without feeling scared that i may sound dumb or stupid. were else can you do that? 040211 ... superleni blather makes me feel like i'm alive and there's a world full of excellent magical people out there, and here i can touch them and know bits of them and that's one of the best things ever, oh, and i can say anything i want in the time i want and maybe someone will read it and maybe they won't, but feels good to put it out there... 040211 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl because i need the release from judging, prying eyes is that so wrong? 040212 ... jimmy i guess lycanthrope was my first name...a name i've always had an infinite for mainly because i love horror movies and video games and then once i saw my poems were becoming okay under that name i thought i'd make that my totally serious, i'm really reaching for the golden ring, relative to the quickness with which i churn out blather's standards of course. just to relieve any pressure i may have felt, the pressure in the real world we always feel to have to be consistent, or to live up to what we have or could have done. so werewolf then became my less elegant, more to the point, but secretly synonymous character who i didn't like to start fights with, or quibble as but just be the kind sweet person i usually am agressive in a limited scope, but disinterested if it doesn't have to do with something i originated stork daddy on the other hand was my more contentious side also my more irreverent and disrespectful side when i'm in person, this all is more in real time where i tend to feel compassion towards most people and be friendly, but my mind cannot help but leap to mockery or argument just as an option, as a part of analyzing any given situation. which i then apologize earnestly for with the more conscientious leanings of my nature so that i'm often torn between expression and guilt at that expression and my audience is always the key determination in what i present with blather though, since their judgement of me is not unified, or stuck permanently to my image in a general sense, i can just play both roles and win fans over in both ways alternating when need be. 040223 ... white_wave i do that too. the different names i use are like therapy. each one revealing the conflicts they have with each other. so when i settle on one name i have found focus and peace of mind. 040223 ... ee beep peep because it's so easy 040224 ... Expand because sometimes i find someone who might have had the same thought, i never feel alone while i'm deep in others thoughts. And your thoughts expand my mind. Then i just have to write. 040224 ... Expand because sometimes i find someone who might have had the same thought, i never feel alone while i'm deep in others thoughts. And your thoughts expand my mind. Then i just have to write. 040224 ... Expand because sometimes i find someone who might have had the same thought, i never feel alone while i'm deep in others thoughts. And your thoughts expand my mind. Then i just have to write. 040224 ... Expand because sometimes i find someone who might have had the same thought, i never feel alone while i'm deep in others thoughts. And your thoughts expand my mind. Then i just have to write. 040224 ... ethereal to fulfil myself. with words. in hopes of being heard. 040224 ... Death of a Rose i don't. i fingerpaint instead. 040304 ... Syrope mmm i want to fingerpaint. 040304 ... her royal highness the quirk it's cheap therapy it's somewhat anonymous i get angry and depressed late at night and need a place to vent i feel naked and exposed when people close to me read my blathes 040414 ... oldephebe I'm honing the blade. 040414 ... oldephebe before I set it in the fire and thrust it fast and hard into Cane. 040414 ... megan because no one else really listens 040414 ... minnesota_chris I get the feeling, when I enter the Blather universe, that Trinity had in the Matrix, when she entered the Matrix and said "I'm in!" is in! 040414 ... Alfred heh heh 040715 ... lacunas coil therapy 040716 ... dudeinanigloo It's entertaining, and a great learning experience. 040716 ... newme open mic 040716 ... daxle so i can be put in top ten lists ;P 040716 ... Strideo in hopes that one day there will be a top ten list of the top ten top ten lists ;) ... 040716 ... puredream because if I didn't, I'd fall apart. 040716 ... czmember estarocks cpgurrl i write 2 unleash my many incarnations and give them seperate names. and because this TOTALLY ROCKS!!!!!! 040717 ... Jess To make new friends! 040807 ... Splinty I can write anything about anything...it will be forgotten among all the other words, but it will always be there, ever until blather dissapears. Unlike me. 040807 ... misstree to balance out chatty crap. yes, as a matter of fact, i am in a pissy mood. 040807 ... Cardiac Arrest Aw. Licks for Misstree. 040902 ... p2 because i_have_turds 040902 ... spiffy because for the most part people seem to be pretty open minded and non-judgmental here. though i do know that if people get too annoying (like kx21) then they will be juged and such. so if i don't get annoying i'm good. but then i worry about getting annoying. which makes me want to stop writing here. but i can't. so even here i worry about being judged. i think no matter what i will anywhere, i even worry that my best friends judge me. and i just kinda contradicted myself there... oh well. and because i need to get out my stupid pathetic feelings and such somewhere where they will actually be read. even though i don't know why anyone would want to read them. but at least here i really don't know. i have no clue if even this here will be completely ignored, or will be read by countless people. and because i like to read people's thoughts. i find it very interesting to jump into people's heads. sometimes i can so relate to someone else and it's nice to know there's someone out there who feels the same way. i guess i know that there are probably millions out there, but i don't get to read all their thoughts. so then i forget that there are. and the thought that there are millions isn't really comforting. it's just the... um, well... i don't really know how to put it. uh.. never mind. i lost myself. ignore that. and that's another thing. sometimes someone will put something into words that i just can't. so then i can quote them if i'm trying to explain something to someone else.. or something. and yeah that's it i guess. 040903 ... spiffy but i was stupid and showed this site to people i know because i wanted to show them this cool thing that i found. now i have no idea if they come here or not. this is why i've decided to use a new name. but it's hard to let spiffy die. i guess i'll just kinda linger. 040903 ... spiffy i say that because people say it's anonymous but i was trying to say that it's not so anonymous to me but i kinda forgot to and yeah ok i'll shut up now. 040903 ... thunderbuck ram Different reasons at different times, but all the time there's something in me (whether banal, shallow, obscene, deep, insightful, wondrous, witty, crass, spiteful or whatever) needs to come out. 040908 ... camille last retort~ an idea that someone can see under the words an idea that someone is listening and understands or can relate~ 041023 ... sameolme I write in order to record the scintillating brilliance of my thoughts for future generations, so that the grandeur of my mind can be of benefit to all of humanity. 041023 ... magicforest fuck if I know, but I can't seem to stop...and I find myself in a blurred run through the watery pixels here more and more often lately... is strangely sad 041023 ... nineteen the boy is gone in the wilderness until next week. something needs to fill the void. 060709 what's it to you? who go blather from