freeze typhoid standing on the rooftop waiting for the sunrise in my pajamas... it doesn't come. i get cold. and go back inside. 000410 ... Meg Well it was midnight and it was new year well you were dancing so I bought you a beer and you said that you took the children. well go ahead now coz they're probably not mine but before you were faking your heart wasn't breaking at all. You were seen by the washing machine in the hall. Should've known by the calls on the phone should've seen by the mess that you leave. Should've known when you never came home. should've known when you never came home that day. Teddy gets wild in august. coz him and little boy blue went and joined a rock and roll band. He said he set fire to his office tie and he sat on his arse while Wendy did crack with Peter Pan 001123 ... unhinged i wish that i could freeze my life into that one perfect second where as i kissed you, my heart flopped over. to live that exact second forever would complete me. i'm scared at the thought of being completed. i'm scared at the thought of leaving you. i have matched my identity to a single word but you changed the meaning it holds for me. all this intensity scares me. the depth of my fear to move on....no, things don't always work out how we plan them to. for example, you. 030618 ... user24 "my heart flopped over" good phrase 030618 ... janaewen artiface 110430 ... unhinged paralysis as a reaction to fear, threat play dead ask me how i feel my tongue will stop working just stop he told me all the time when i was younger what are you crying for? just stop i had no words back then for what i was crying for but_maybe i was crying for parts of myself that were missing something that i needed i'm sure neurobiology would say it was my early life isolation in that incubator but_maybe it was something else more a distant memory from a past life that pushed me out too soon into that incubator where i didn't get the hugs i needed for almost two weeks the shadow of those days is long in my life let me out leave me alone ask me how i feel and my tongue stops working 200701 what's it to you? who go blather from