gut like rain. we went out to eat last night, and i made myself forget about everything falling down around me. when we got home, i remembered. i wussed out. what i couldn't throw up, i washed away with laxatives. i don't want to change out of my pajamas until you tell me that it will be okay. 010428 ... marjorie i was thinking that maybe i shouldn't. i did anyway, ignoring that silly gut instinct. that feeling deep inside you when you know you're going to not like what happens. whenever things are important, invariably i fuck them up. 010529 ... girl you can't explain to anyone else. how hard it is to keep a few morsels in an empty stomach. when your head and your gut both demand to get rid of them 011031 ... babygirl you can't explain to anyone else. how hard it is to keep a few morsels in an empty stomach. when your head and your gut both demand to get rid of them 011031 ... saves the day My gut is burning. Won't you find me some water? Hey just forget it, can you bring me gasoline? Collect a couple forks, hold them three feet apart, wait for lightning to strike to burn me up. Cuz I don't think that I have got the stomach to stomach calling you today. My head is swirling been carried off in the sky. and where it lands is where it lands. I guess that I will get another head then get on with my life leave you somewhere beneath the waves of time. And I'll wear glass shoes and plastic wrap. No, I'll just wear my insides. yeah. You wanna know who I really am? Yeah, so do I, yeah so do I. Cuz I don't think that I have got the stomach to stomach calling you today. Right now I am turning off the lights. Cuz I don't think that I have got the stomach to stomach calling you today. 011031 ... snickers Sometimes throwing up helps me eeze pain. Like emotional pain. It's a good feeling to me, to have my little secret. It's my own guilty pleasure. It's gross as hell, but what a relief. I dont understand the laxitive thing though. Don't you get cramps or anything from that? How long does it last? To me, it doesn't sound too appealing. 011031 ... kx21 M_Theory:- Mind - Body 040407 ... misstree reptile brain rumbles things invisible to the overevolved parts whose convolutions dance waltzes in corsets while bellygut howls and stomps (saves the day- i like) 040408 what's it to you? who go blather from