ending josh an ending's always required before you get a new beginning. 981218 ... sillyelly that is it. it is final. we can't turn back. things will never be the same again. 990505 ... marjorie somehow we're always ending on this note this one note this discordant tone this misunderstood word this melody formulated late at night when minds get tired and vertigo sets in and what looked like an ending was just a beginning and what you thought was beginning ended before you could stop it or start it or do anything at all 000214 ... old hick The universe is doomed to either an ultimate heat death, or a big crunch. With either eventuality, everything will eventually return to nothing. The pessimist in me says "Shit! Nothing I do matters!" The optimist in me says "Sweet! Nothing I do matters!" Either way, I guess I can afford to just relax. 000217 ... the one before it began it was already ending. you were too old and I was too stupid. I cared too much and you could never care enough. I was in love before i knew what love was and in the end we just hurt each other. the fighting was silent and the peace was too. you never knew how to tell me but i knew all along. I guess in the end it was worth the waste. but i still lost all respect for you. And they say you have nothing but good things to say about me. Im sorry we ever tried. 010715 ... swarm we need an ending to realise there was a purpose for our beginning. 020629 ... alora There are no happy endings, because nothing ends... --Schmedrick, The Last Unicorn (see rhizome.) 021003 ... stork daddy are you happy? i don't know. men don't always know when they're happy. 021003 ... just kickin it there are subtle delineations. slight distinctions. loss of the perception of unity. change in prescribed values. this is also a beginning. a mutation follows from a base structure, however, that base structure is a previous mutation. all glory is fleeting. 021003 ... DevilsLyric "so we struggle and we stagger down the snakes and up the ladder to the tower where blessed hours chime and I swear it happened just like this a sigh, a cry, a hungry kiss the gates of love the budged an inch can't say much has happened since but closing time I lift my glass to the awful truth which you can't reveal tot he ears of youth except to say it isn't worth a dime and the whole damn place goes crazy twice and its once for the devil and once for christ but the boss don't like these dizzy hights were busted in the blinding lights busted in the blinding lights of closing time" an end is so comforting 030309 ... not important I hate you and what I have become my soul is slipping away I sold it just a few weeks ago and it is time to pay my debt when we speak again it won't be the same you might not realize its absence I will be Dorian, beautiful, unchanged six months from now you won't see lines of worry on my face or love in my eyes 030725 ... ashmanzhou ending begins the beginning of the ending of ending the beginning of ending we see that it is not the beginning we savor for us or the or the ending we crave but the process we must complete knowing that is to hell and blooded death we are going the headlong rush to oblivion we are gone to somewhere we only just seem to belong what matters is not really inside thats said by someone wishing not to appear so shallow to others around them cause and effect i say god damn them so slam this sham of life incarnate living inside my soul made reincarnate i must hate i will hate i can hate but dont hate the fact that my gate to life is no great passage of hope but only something i broke to survive in my world a revived and unfurled banner of myself that is left to itself corrupt and bloodied forever i have studied myself to escape this hellish mind rape mouth agape we stare it takes shape beware this world isnt ending its only beginning to feel so unreal no time to heal the scars this is real reality we face a pace in a race to fast for feeling and in ending we are left reeling so end i send my word to die burn we will burn and light up the sky 030726 ... ferret endingnidnendingnidne thisisonlythebeginningninnigebehtylnosisiht 030824 ... Risen We used to sit and wonder about the ending. How on earth we could ever have had what we had, and let it end. How it ended. How the ending ever came about. What happened was this vague half-memory, we'd buried for more reasons than we could count. But now that we're in the second ending, I remember the first. Because it was exactly the same. This same slow petering out, the same moments where you'd come back, then fade away again. The difference this time is me. I'm not holding on, I'm not obsessing. I'm not some stupid lovestruck child trying to contact you by any means possible. I'm not ill, I'm sane and well and I have a life to live. My dissertation made it in without you, my life will move on without you. This ending is better. Probably how it should have been the first time. 150918 ... f the ending it will be further than last time but it may not be what Saturn had to go through. Basically, there doesn't seem to be one. There doesn't seem to be purpose in language either it's not for anything. 150918 ... f So go, Venus will sleep where it's innocent to. and the blond women will dance. If i don't come, i won't be able to write about it, that's all. 150918 what's it to you? who go blather from