blessed jennifer you are such a badass the lights change for you other's lives change for you you remain constant and perfect a year ago, you begged for a kiss now others beg to have one from your sweet lips you are content in your new-found happiness your brain is teeming with ideas original and magnificent and you gloat about them *you* are original and magnificent and everyone longs for your company you have it all and not just on the surface you swarm with onlookers who long to bask in your glow I stand back amazed at what my life has become what it's been reduced to and I wonder to myself if I will ever be so blessed 010116 ... deb i only wish i could count myself blessed ~ yes, yes i know everything seems to be going my way, i'm engaged and all, and to the guy more grand than i could have dreamed- but i feel so alone here in this empty room ~ the gilmmer of diamonds doesn't begin to replace the twinkle in your three-shade eyes or the curled-up edges of your crooked perfect grin ~ yes, i'm blessed- but i'm still sad 010116 ... Paragraph Who was i to recieve this? I'm still not sure why God would pair up a scared little boy wit a perfect woman, who (I'm sure) at times feels like his mother. "You did WHAT with Nate?" But this I do know, so don't argue with me - I know you'll want to... This scared little boy doesn't know what he has. But he knows it's special. And as much as I don't deserve you, You're mine. And I will kill to keep you. 010312 ... an enemy of the sea so as violence is discouraged my swarms of censorship swarms quickly changed the subject In my view, No One's Crazy! 010523 ... The Truth A simple prayer can render you blessed. Blessed. The opposite of cursed. The accrual of positive energy to your soul. Ask for it. Believe it's coming You will Recieve it. Give thanks. Who do you ask? Ask anyone. anyone can bless or curse you. Lift you up, or thrash you down. Ask God. He Loves You And He fills you with love to give to others. You may need a little practice at first... when you enter into the arena of blessedness... but stick with it, and one day a mere thought to God will change someone's life right before your very eyes. 010523 ... unhinged when you have the thought "i am never going to open my eyes again" as you feel the impact of the semi with your car and you do open your eyes again you are blessed. even more so when you open the car door and walk away from it with nothing more than a few bumps and bruises. that accident was scary. 010523 ... RedArmageddon please take care of yourself don't hurt yourself you're so fragile as am i i'll take care of Winston and you can see him if you'd like he is happy but i know he enjoyed your visit as did i a little bit or more than you know do what is right and what is not me or me or not try to understand your life is bigger than mine but not my heart your new man your new love is all you ever wanted how foolish of me i am not like prince Hamlet nor was meant to be but i die just the same my words fumbling embarrassing i was always embarrassed and i'm glad you don't have to listen to me anymore or be embarrassed because you are near me this cliche has just about reached the end of its usefulness and now the nightmares 031113 ... delial blessed_be 031113 ... unhinged never thought it would be a frequent word in my vocabulary hhhmmm 090115 what's it to you? who go blather from