impact mareberry i watched my words stream down your face like tears on my pillow. i kept silent so long, intent to remain nameless, faceless. i thought i might have changed you, my words seemed so much stronger then. but now i realize that i am too weak to make an impact on you, too lost in my regret to try again. 990505 ... andrea her expression perfected by make-up & good lighting causes my face to seem dull & plain in comparison & not at all how i imagined. my streaky blush & smeared mascara smudge my face. no matter-why would anyone look at me when they could gaze upon her? copyright 1999 000101 ... lost I make an impact on lives through truth as well as lives I get passed you eyes and leave an etched memory forever its my gift my intentions ARE only well ITS MY GIFT!!! 010427 ... lost god damnit thats what i get for trying to type so fast. 010427 ... nonlucid It seems odd that any small event or action should have the power to change something major - a step off a cliff can kill somebody, an exploding bomb (only takes a moment to press the button) can destroy the world. But, on a large scale, it doesn't really matter if you or I die - on a universal scale it doesn't really matter if the Earth ceases to exist. There's also all the events the occurred up to a certain point which are part of the action - the decision to step or placement of a pebble to make you trip - the time required to make the bomb So maybe it's not so fantastic after all... it's still weird 040713 ... Arabian Proverb A lion's roar carries not so far as the whisper of a beautiful woman. 071208 ... Rob rumble shake boom floor 080903 ... flowerock some things stand out in my memory. I was walking with a professor at the U_of_A when I was maybe 15 years old. He was a prrofessor with classes in history/sexuality/politics. We were talking about the current state of certain things and about what it may bring. Being so young and unaware of the broad_reality and the real_effects of what was happening around me I said in response to something he said "it's so silly" he said "no, it is far from silly, it is terrifying." we were silent the rest of the way to the class room. He was right. 140705 what's it to you? who go blather from