lingering EECP Why is this my order? It hurts so much. Its not really a quesion. Just a cry for change. 020415 ... bird (hes mad i tell you....MAD!) ominous, like the echo of a long-since silenced scream 020416 ... hungryghost Autumn came to visit and stayed til noon. Autumn road on horseback raining through the town. Autumn spent a fortune weeding the garden. Afternoons craved a bacon and egg sandwich and the two road out of town wearing ten-gallon hats and charged who might they be with an arresting law. Autumn sure had class feet. 020915 ... Becky I linger here... 020928 ... celestias shadow after they give you your second cup of coffee, that means you should leave. 030903 ... silentbob i'm still there with you. 060524 ... falling_alone the taste will linger through to waking up within four hours, maybe less if i continue this patter, it will linger even after i brush my teeth, scrub down my tongue, it will seep into my throat from the depths of my stomach, which at this point feels bottomless. 060524 ... unhinged battered_woman_syndrome underneath there is still part of me clenched that i couldn't save you i already knew it was impossible but it didn't stop me from wishing hoping trying because i was blessed with a family that cared enough to not leave me behind that cared enough that i have a net of loved ones and even i can be lulled by the comfort of an oxy_blanket still some days when my heart aches for that chemical comfort i want to call you and talk you down from your ledge when i feel like my ledge is further and further away i want to call you and let you know there's at least one human being on this planet that loves you roughdraft 111122 ... shiv0m Before you crash ...leaving me lingering in some loopy thoughts....... I should say gunyt...have sweet dreams....it's about time for me to get lost. 😛 160106 what's it to you? who go blather from