paralyzed mareberry i felt my heart fall limp the moment we parted and every day since then has been a battle to drag my half-alive, half empty body from here to there. the Battle grows more and more fierce every minute, every hour. i feel like i’m losing. and i hear your voice every night and sometimes for one second i forget how far apart we are and i can move *both* my hands. but then i remember and i’m caught in the still frame of a moment of joy amidst my agony. 001229 ... j_blue by my own philosophy 011120 ... User24 once you realise that everything os nothing, and nothing is everything, it's hard to keep focus. 030701 ... apocalynx makes sense, no focus, one blurred picture black plus white makes grey. all perspectives considered, i'm miles above the fence, or is it miles below, on a perfect line anyway just heightened with too much information, too many voices, and thus no decision, just apathy and a rapid heartbeat. you are not here, you are with many other boys bots, oh she comes to me and comforts me with scratches and broken veins, can i move from this futon. 041224 what's it to you? who go blather from