sleeping_alone lady lunchbox please come here and snuggle up close to me 020216 ... freakizh i've been like that for an eternity, and look at me, i'm so happy, whoohoo, fuck you. 020526 ... unhinged i can't sleep when i'm not alone. that doesn't mean that i want you to sleep in the other bed. i am a creature of habit. 020526 ... CJ I usually sleep alone but I miss the nights that I didn't. I was reminded earlier that I will have to sleep alone for a long time. 020526 ... girl_jane At least I have a green body pillow and a giant stuffed carrot with 'display only' written on the tag. 020526 ... squint i'll be like this for a very long time also. well. i can just... wait. 020526 ... stork daddy when i had no lover, i courted sleep 020527 ... Mahayana tonight i can not handle it it is too much to bear i wish i had someone to hold tonight *sighs* if only depression was tangible id hardly ever be alone 020527 ... Kate I wish I knew you were safely at home. Dashboard Confessional I didn't get to see you on Friday when you came back from Senior Trip just as I was leaving for the final day of Districts. I came into the band hallway and caught her eye and she came into the hallway and told me not to come into the auditorium because you were there in a black shirt and a messenger bag and a bad haircut. So I left with a hug and a wanting to see you. 020527 ... Ive Gone Incognito means I'm not sqwished into the wall and that I don't have to share and that I can -sprawl- out bc every once in a great while I just need to be selfish and say "fuck off and sleep on the floor!" 020530 ... ClairE He once said people should sleep sprawled all over each other, like puppies. This_still_holds_true. 020530 ... Zoe what i will be doing for a long time. 020530 ... Erinicolejax I have to sleep alone. At least for a while. Till I know who it is I should sleep with forever. Then we can buy a big bed and sleep right in the middle. 020531 ... Syrope can be a blessing after you spend the night in a bed with someone who doesnt want you to touch them. if i'm in the bed with someone, i want to snuggle, no matter if i have that kind of feelings for them or not. but when its someone who doesnt know you that well or would be uncomfortable, you have to hover on the edge and be conscious of your movements... 020601 ... blown cherry It doesn't feel right to be away from you like this 021026 ... GirlNamedLover sleeping by yourself at night can make you feel alone your girlfriend said so she's a little ho that dont mean we fucked around that night last week when you left town 021026 ... unhinged even when he's right here you know people, i'm not looking for endless love or anything like that; i have a very hard time believeing that that shit exists. but i would like a hug every now and then. that would be nice. it never really fails. i'm always sleeping_alone. 021026 ... failing to make sense of it i grind my teeth when i sleep. it's a stress thing, you can hear it all over the house, through closed doors, over the radio and TV, even. when i slept with him, i didn't do it, not once. now that i'm sleeping_alone again, i wonder if my family would consider bringing him here, if not for any other reason but to stop that infernal racket. 021026 ... DavesHeroinGirl It's so much easier when you have someone wonderful to keep you company. 030130 ... bethany sure there's no snoring but then i have to jill off and i miss him so much i never thought i'd miss him this much 030130 ... gay gizmo you used to sleep with me i miss that 030202 ... unhinged there's this boy that lives hundreds of miles away from me and when i am sleeping_alone late at night clutching my covers as i cry, i always imagine it to be him that i really am hugging. i wonder if he can feel it. 030202 ... pipedream i would like a snuggle, please. won't get one for a long time. oh well. play the waiting game. 030305 ... Annie111 Sleeping on a twin mattress with you was always uncomfortable especially with one blanket and often I was turned against the wall with my tears. Until I felt your warm breath beside my ear. All I wanted was your arm on the cradle of my waist. That's all it usually takes. And you were so good at it too. 030312 ... Thoth He checked his watch, he watched the clock, the clock spun its relentless cycle of hours and he heard nothing from her. In blank, dreamless sleep, the cool night air and soft sheets and pillows were no solace. The chirping of crickets in the night rang with a metallic echo in the emptier recesses of his mind. The silence as the heaviest portion of sleep drifted over him seemed to carry with it the weight of finality. 030312 ... Richard Brautigan It's time to train yourself to sleep alone again and it's so fucking hard. 030312 ... girl_jane unhinged- ditto 030313 ... Ursula K. Le Guin But why was Ike lying here thinking about old Maston? His train of thought trailed off into the incoherencies of advancing sleep. Just as he relaxed, a thrill of terror jolted through him stiffening every muscle for a moment--the old fear from far, far back, the fear of being helpless, mindless, the fear of sleep itself. Then that too was gone. Ike Rose was gone. A warm body sighed in the darkness inside the little bright object balanced elegantly in the orbit of the moon. 030426 ... niska might as well be, becasue he comes home before i wake up, though it's not his choice. schedule_conflict. we need a family meeting. 030426 ... User24 i hate sleeping_alone, makes me miss my girl. luckily, we live together, so I don't have to. 030426 ... smurfus rex I bought a big body pillow after she and I split and I'd fall asleep holding it just like I held her. Then I got over her, and the body pillow became a prop for when I'm on the Playstation. 030427 ... endless desire i guess its better sleeping alone so very often. . . bc then when i finally have the chance lie with you, it fills me to the brim of completeness 030516 ... fall of a sparrow It's not a good situation. What's worse is that there's no end in sight. sleeping alone is even less fun in a big bed like the one I had last year because there's just a lot more space to not be filled with her. I have to say though. Smurfus rex makes a good point that seems like it should be taught as a parable. 030516 ... who i am doesnt matter anymore Im so much more comfterble with my baby next to me, i get deeper sleep. even if he does snore. 030916 ... misstree again, but i don't seem to mind quite so much. there's always someone to dream of, and really, i'd rather wait for the proper morsel to arrive than have so sleep next to someone that wouldn't be worth relinquishing my precious need. 030917 ... imposter is a sad, lonely thing. Miss_you_beside_me 030917 ... unhinged sleeping_together i think right now my life is too hectic to be anything but sleeping_alone. i'm used to it again. it was so hard to get used to again. how would i get all this work done if we were sleeping_together ? 030917 ... girl_jane If I sleep at all... 030918 ... x so where are you, my little needle? 030918 ... crimson i fall asleep much easier next to you i dont even need the TV on 030920 ... nomatter I cried. All the pillows and sheet and blankets were cramping my smile. I was crowded, but really too alone. 030920 ... ferret i cried, i was overjoyed. i was sad. i was so fucked up. but it was all okay. no ok but okay. the real kind. the kind that makes you go "what the FUCK?" in the morning. that kind. the kind that really sobers you up. the kind that makes you sit alone all quiet in class just WAITING for fucking lunch to start. 030921 ... celestias shadow really sucks. falling asleep in someone's, or several someones, arms is the only way to go. 031028 ... girl_jane This was not the case Monday night...It was the only good thing about any Monday-ever. 031029 ... Doar every night. 031029 ... Lemon_Soda Prefferable. I can snooze with other people, but I'm generally uncomfortable sleeping next to them. I put sharing a bed higher on the scale of intimacy than sex. 031029 ... reue i don't necessarily think that its more intimate than sex, but its definatly a better feeling that sex. more pure, you don't have to second guess that there was any lust involved. for me anyways 031029 ... lady lunchbox the last three months, while you've been away....that's all i've done. and i don't want to do it anymore. 040318 ... pete Sleeping alone is depressing, though of my life I've done it for most of the time. I have an extra blanket which usually finds itself in my arms when I wake up in the morning.. comforting when I'm sleeping, though showing its hollowness when I wake up. To feel your warmth when I drift into this dream from the others, ah what a joy that would be! Yet I cannot see it happening anytime soon, though I have hope and believe it will happen.. atleast once. What a way to wake up! To see the sun and look into your eyes... 040318 ... Syrope i used to dread it but now i can't imagine not sleeping alone i know in my sleep the way i struggle and the things i murmur would give too much of me away and so i only find comfort in quantity, not quality 040318 ... tchiseen she faced the wall when she slept with the radio on i dont know what its like anymore to hear her climb into bed and say my name 040421 ... love & hate I never sleep alone, i close my eyes and she is there, the same as it used to be, lieing there with my arms around her, placing soft kisses on her face as she lies there like an angel. She is always there, sleeping beside me, making me feel not so alone, making me feel safe. Making me feel she still loves me even though she doesnt. What a dream, what a wonderful dream. It will be reality, once i'm gone, i will be lieing in her bed, next to her, holding her tight as she cry's herself to sleep for no reason at all. I will be there always, that i promise. You will never have to sleep alone again. 040421 ... Borealis at this point there is only one person who would hold me at night in spite of the thrashing, and muttering, and screams of some unknown pain. anyone else would run. rightfully so. I love you, but I cannot claim you...thank you for not leaving dearest star 040709 ... Borealis I will never be entirely accustomed to sleeping alone... though I anticipate it will continue to be my norm for a good long time 040709 ... Ouroboros tonight will be the first night in 12 days 061003 ... acrs sleeping_with_you 080625 ... In_Bloom When alone, we don't sleep Together we drift in and out Ahhh The safety, rest, recovery and power of of defiance Again and again 090722 ... past i look forward to the sleep_over in the fort of blankets and pillows 090722 ... unhinged ouch maybe not even in the same bed, on the same couch, but at least in the same house. as we woke up this morning, the dog came barreling down the stairs to find me awake, ears perked, tail wagging. (what i left behind when i was too busy taking care of you) he held me when i wept. i didn't feel ashamed, like i needed to hide it. i let the tears fall and he took his thumb and wiped them. i am trying so hard not to dial the phone right now. (but less hard than yesterday) 100811 what's it to you? who go blather from