curtain auto cross reference system A sea anemone. See see_through. 011209 ... angie drawn open shutters falling cracking bending snapping withering away 021226 ... taojones big and red and velvet-heavy, that curtain falls so fast---i keep checking my pulse, but with the wrong fingers, i think... and it's much too loud to distinguish a heartbeat, anyhow, from the rest of the noise. i'm supposed to call in a few hours' time; i'm starting to shake just thinking... should we mix-it-all-up? everything between and around us---all of the little worlds and rules and suppositions, mixed cocktails of term and feeling...? but this is just an excercise, remember; these are just perfunctory stretches, the groans are real but not in the same sense-of-meaning as the True Being of one's Self. that comes later, during the phonecall... C U R T A I N 021226 what's it to you? who go blather from