boyfriends tears of the night I will have a hard time to find one, becuase they will have to be better then my brother. Sounds wierd but my brother has been there for me always. he has protected me and watched out for me. and he makes me feel good about my self. and any boyfriend i have is going to have to be like him. Is going to have to please me like my brother. They are going ot have to take up the hole that i have becuase my brother is leaving for collage. 010720 ... sage girl always suck. they get you into trouble, make you wait for them when they're gone, do they ever even really love you or do they just say that so they can fuck you? 010925 ... silentbob one of the many reasons girls can't be my girlfriend 010925 ... j_blue we weren't ever boyfriends but then afterwards we both said we were as an aside, i like saying boyfriends its a distinct gayism if you think about i catch myself telling other people that lesbots and hets are boyfriends its just easier i'm lazy 010926 ... yummychuckle the title scares me small commitments are even too much for me. but throw around the word forever like I throw around my body. 010927 ... Sonya the sullen feline They cause so much trouble I wonder why it is that I treasure each and every one that comes into my life. Ugh at times I wish I was a lesbian because at least I would understand the person I'm with more seeing as how she'd be the same gender. Maybe I'm wrong I don't know, I'm just fucked in the head right now. What did I ever do to deserve these circumstances?! Why must it be this way? I love him and that's that. Nothing could possibly change it. They could run me over with a tank and then drag me across hot coals and I'd still love him... 011014 ... niki still haven't had one... 18 and never had a boyfriend i almost did this summer then my entire world changed when i started my freshman year of college and he didn't there's just no time i get so close and feel the need to push away...is this bad? i want...need a man but i can't deal with one i feel to self-conscious around boys and can never really be myself which wouldn't be fair to either of us i love/hate boys 011014 ... lost waddya know im one of those. 011015 ... niki one of what? 011015 ... Norm Fucking dork 011015 ... lost the only reason i wrote that is because i was trying to see if i could get into my list of words without putting my email address. and it worked 011015 ... psychobabe *Sigh* boyfriends huh..man they can be the best sometimes. But god damn they can hurt...Sure i'd love to have one, i've had a few, but for some reason each of them except one has cheated on me with another chick..isnt really a good thing for a chicks self esteem The guys i've dealt with, was it me? was it them? which was the problem? i always kinda thought it was me that was...like i let them down for some odd reason even tho i didnt do anything to bring anything like that upon the relationship. God damnit i hate cheaters! why do they seem to just get your trust then fucking BREAK it down into nothing! eh you can get real vulnerable when your like that..: ( "all the times that i've cried, all thats wasted its all inside, and i feel all this pain stuffed it down! its back again! and i lie here in bed...all alone..i comand..and i feel that tomarrow will be ok" .....dont you love that lyric from staind? o0h i do, makes so much sence from a hurt persons point aview. But really was it my fault? was i the problem? I just dont know, boyfriends can be a great thing, they can love you, treat you the best and be extremely kind. Dont get me wrong they arent all bad. Its just the ones i've mainly delt with 011025 ... lost i know how you feel, most of my girlfriends have cheated on me. i just want one to care... i mean actually care. then i can die. 011025 ... psychobabe see thats what i'm talking about. All of em except one cheated on me with another chick and god that just kills, i mean you tell this person you like them alot almost even love and then they fucking cheat on you! eh maybe i'll find one that will be perfect for me sooner or later 011026 ... lost i hope you do too. i definetly hope i do. 011027 ... the one waking up from a dream where you still exist. the way we were before. Its funny how things happened, cuz in my dream you left me waiting too...expecting more. A simple kiss is all i wanted and i was fooled to believe that you'd come back. But you did come back. In real life anyways and now im not so sure that i want you with me. i miss you, i do. but i cant get over the feelings of being used. the endless aching in my stomach, to think that you love her still. I dont know what love is anymore but i wish that you would just give me one last kiss. 011130 ... Aimee not boyfriend so much as sexual slave.... 011130 ... Ali why do men have to be like they are? i try so hard to make them happy, but all i get in return is a broken heart. I dont know what it is. but i sure dont deserve to feel like this. all i do is cry at night, wishing everything would be ok. but its not, and never will be. its over. im just too scared to let it go for the fear of being alone. by myself. thats not something that i want. i want a man to love me like i love him. i always care too much and they never care enough. i dont get the love that i gave to them in return.i dont think i will ever have a relationship that lasts. the one and only guy that i ever loved doesnt really want to be with me anymore. he might lie and say he does, but he doesnt really. he justs wants to get away from me as soon as he can, and never come back. he wants me out of his life for good. why doesnt he want to be with me? i treat him as good as i know how, but somehow that just isnt good enough. he thinks that he can just sit back and not put out any effort into our relationship and everything will be ok. not so. thats not how it goes baby. you have to give in order to receive. you cant just expect things to be ok when you never put out any extra effort. the poetry you used to write for me, and the romance is gone. and its probably never returning. i try to make this relationship work, but its obviously not working. its not turning out the way i expected it to. i never thought i would get hurt like this. love dhouldnt hurt. i thought you would always be there for me, but i was wrong. youll just up and leave me one day. and youll never think of me again. i wont matter anymore, and ill be out of our life. just another girl. i thought i was special to you. am i? do you really love me like you say you do? i would really like to know. im so confused right now, i dont know what to think anymore. all i know is that this isnt my fairytale romance like it used to be. its a living nightmare that i wish i could escape. bye baby have a nice life. hope you enjoy it and i hope its what you wanted. goodbye. 030908 ... Ali why do men have to be like they are? i try so hard to make them happy, but all i get in return is a broken heart. I don't know what it is. but i sure dont deserve to feel like this. all i do is cry at night, wishing everything would be ok. but its not, and never will be. its over. im just too scared to let it go for the fear of being alone. by myself. thats not something that i want. i want a man to love me like i love him. i always care too much and they never care enough. i dont get the love that i gave to them in return.i dont think i will ever have a relationship that lasts. the one and only guy that i ever loved doesnt really want to be with me anymore. he might lie and say he does, but he doesnt really. he just wants to get away from me as soon as he can, and never come back. he wants me out of his life for good. why doesnt he want to be with me? i treat him as good as i know how, but somehow that just isnt good enough. he thinks that he can just sit back and not put out any effort into our relationship and everything will be ok. not so. thats not how it goes baby. you have to give in order to receive. you cant just expect things to be ok when you never put out any extra effort. the poetry you used to write for me, and the romance is gone. and its probably never returning. i try to make this relationship work, but its obviously not working. its not turning out the way i expected it to. i never thought i would get hurt like this. love shouldnt hurt. i thought you would always be there for me, but i was wrong. you'll just up and leave me one day. and you'll never think of me again. i wont matter anymore, and i'll be out of our life. just another girl. i thought i was special to you. am i? do you really love me like you say you do? i would really like to know. im so confused right now, i dont know what to think anymore. all i know is that this isnt my fairytale romance like it used to be. its a living nightmare that i wish i could escape. 030908 ... watever boyfriends, sigh they're great at sumtimes and stupidly amazing. 031013 ... reckless poet fold me up throw me down do anything but hold me close do anything but express your love cuz i cant hear it you've made me rip off my ears tear out my eyes and sew my mouth shut nothing for you, now is there? i'm worthless to you so now do you realize that you should leave me? alone... so i can heal alone...forever away from you alone...so i can live 031219 ... Beautiful Well mine really pisses me off. im only fifteen and ive had three or should i say four, including the one i'm with one now. i hate it when he lies to me because i get so mad. he chooses his rugby and boys over me. what an ouch eh? i wish he could be more like my best friend who is a boy but hes not here now. he left half a year ago but still rings me. hes everything i girl could want and more if you know what i mean. hes perfect but were friends so what can you do? Well thats all i have to say now if i say anymore i might get more cross and dump his A$$ 040220 ... splat you're allowed to say "ass" here; internet speak not required. 040220 ... Tev What I wish I had, entirely pathetically too much... wish I didn't need... wish my friend were... yes. But he isn't, no guy will be. That's alright. I don't need guys. I lie. 040220 ... pixelkid Effort. Major effort. And pain, most of them cause pain. It's funny, while it's happening, you're everything to each other. You're his family and he is yours and then suddenly, without warning, bang, it happens and all that was felt this morning is gone by bedtime. Two and a half years after meeting that random blue haired guy in a club in my hometown. thinking he was sweet, not like the others, wouldn't hurt me. Didn't, until two weeks ago when he chose another girl to be with. To kiss, to hold, to take to family gatherings where I was once not too long ago. And so, I am edited out, all my pictures are gone from his walls, and his from mine. We are two where we were once one. It hurts less everyday. I am individual again. 040321 ... stork daddy she didn't hate any of them. each had been a lesson. some of them had seemed out of chronological order to her, but she forgave fate. she liked thinking that she was tucked away in the corner of all of their different dreams. she liked thinking that on some nights a longing for her touch was palatable in them, led them to drink or go to bed early. none of them had been cruel to her and she was grateful to them for that, pleased with herself for finding them rather than some other fairy tale from which there is no recovering. the problem she had always had with fables always was that their moral was of no use to the characters. it hadn't been like that with them, life had been very forgiving to her for her cruelties and mistakes and she hoped it was kind to those she had loved as well. she wanted to peer into their fogged up windows on christmas eve, or float over the bed while they were making love to their new girlfriends. she loved her current boyfriend, a man she very well might marry, more than she'd ever loved anyone, but it was true to her, and not something to be told to him, that she didn't really, in a strict sense, think the memories he created with her were any better or more important than the memories she had had with her boyfriends past. they had all been good for what they were. it was this forgiveness that made her love now so strong, so unbending. 040321 ... Carissa Puccio N.Y i think boy friends are important to have you never can be bord, you always would be out of the house,you won't be around to fight with you little brothers and sisters.And if think your life sucks you will be happy if you have a boyfriend because you wold have a new and good life 040411 ... Kez All my fuckng boyfriends used me to get to my best mate shes so pretty an they all like her cant they except me 4 who i am and not b sleazy gits who just wanna shag.They said they loved me an would 4 eva but 4 eva is ova i tried my best 2 keep them happy i did everything they wanted me 2 do i spent my money on them but they didnt give nothinn return.My heart aches but at least i wont get hurt even more 040423 ... Maggie I'm having major problems with boys and it is bullsh**!!! My now ex- best friend takes all the guys I really like and it is not funny it really pi**es me off I wish I was beautiful and I wish I can go back from my gothic ways to my old self but it won't work I know for a fact. The guy I really like she took him from me and we were going out still. And she told me to not be mad but i'am and I won't get over of what she did . sometimes i want to do things that will hurt me majorly but when i start to i can't because i think of the guys i like and of my true love before he moved he was kind and sweet and i loved him but when he moved he changed that made me super mad but anyways i want a man that will treat me with great respect and love i want a man that will always be true to me but i know it won't happen because like my saying to everyone i'm short, ugly, and retarded and should have never been born!! 040426 ... pink! something i have less than one of 050824 ... lucy still on my everyoung mind 060319 ... lucy still in my everyoung mind 060319 what's it to you? who go blather from