eddie
Erin I know your wrong
Wrong for me...for everything
But what makes me always want you
Your soft pink lips your yellow specked green eyes, I seem to always want to kiss you and hold you...yet Eddie, I know I shouldn't have you.
Even though I want you more than the world
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er ummmmmmmmm i love u 4eva 010118
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meme hey 010225
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Erin die 020126
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angie i have always been very interested in eddie vedder...i wanan figure out his brain... 020127
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dud don't_fucking_call_eddie_vedder_daughter 020127
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for hecuba he's happy with the new girl who he can talk to and listen to forever
he's happy with the new girl who he says is the female version of himself
he's happy with the new girl who everyone stares at
he's happy with the new girl who i will never be

even though i know it would never work out between us no matter how hard i tried, i cant help but still be in love with you
will i ever not be in love with you?
everytime i think of you or see you or hear your songs or see jonah or remember you or have you enter any train of thought, my heart breaks
i love you
i cant help it
i want to stop, i want to move on
i want to be ok with you not being mine
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eddie monster eddie vedder sucks
worship eddie monster
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jane rocky_horror_picture_show 020808
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jane who are you anyway? 020812
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eddie monster i am the driving pain in your pelvis
i am the thing that you think you have learned how to manipulate
i am the one who tucks you in at night after your dreaming
i swim in ocean blue
i am the one waiting to screw over a few of you
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jane now it seems like i'm the one who's supposed to wait 020825
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you know who why? 020826
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.. you know why 020830
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dont you ? 020830
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eddie monster fucking and screaming and drowning and bleeding and pleading and yelling and needing and numbing and menacing and fueling and trembling and focusing on nothing 020901
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? how does that make you feel 020905
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eddie monster the same 020905
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/ how do i make you feel 020907
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eddie monster maybe happy
for the first time in a while

i smile only becouse it is funny that people think they judge a feeling threw a facial expression or a formation of the mouth
that ignorance
is enough to make me smile
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jane do you think i am ignorant?
i do everything in my power not to be. i listen to people, hoping to catch a slice of knowledge an understanding. i know i have empathy, more than most people do. i do try, which is more than i can say for a lot of people.
does that make me ignorant?
or am i ignorant just for asking?
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eddie monster the smile bit didn't have much to do with you
it is just something that jumps threw my mind all the time and it makes me smile in a sad way
being misunderstood is such a sad thing but there is a sort of black humor to it
know what i mean
like at work
you smile
but your not happy
your fucking job sucks
you unhappily smile to try to make someone else smile
who returns the smile with the same uneasy feelings
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eddie jane, if i felt you were ignorant i would tell you strait forward
your young
you have many lessons to learn
i enjoy your company
although i'm sure i'm only confusion you may not understand for years
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mybleedingfingers or more likely, forever 020907
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jane i have many lessons to learn
but i have learned lessons
just like everyone

i don't claim to know everything
but i know enough
and i'm happy with that

i enjoy your confusion
but i can only understand if you want me to
if you want to be understood
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eddie iwanttobangyou 020908
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god are you kidding? 020909
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cynic yeah, are you? 020909
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eddie not i
said the liar
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jane let's go, then 020909
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eddie your so far away
i've always wanted to go to san diego
bare with me
we could meet up some time
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daxle I visited san diego for 18 years... you're not missing much 020910
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jane do you have an email or phone number you want to give me 020910
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eddie sure
i'll email you tomorrow
night
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jane what the hell 020915
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main shut the bell 020915
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white It's a case of failing identities.
It's a matter of fact.
It's a wrongly sought scene for you and me, to make us something that we're not.

But you didn't see the signs,
the waivers of admission.
You didn't see the lines,
To cross with his permission.
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white_light It's a case of failing identities.
It's a matter of fact.
It's a wrongly sought scene for you and me, to make us something that we're not.

But you didn't see the signs,
the waivers of admission.
You didn't see the lines,
To cross with his permission.
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................. testing 020917
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e onetw0three 020923
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c cum0nme 020924
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eddie monster eddie's the man 021124
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sarah eddie is amazing. i wish i would have been my self with him when i had the chance. and now that i've met the love of my life, eddie finally comes around softer to me, he tells me things. he tells me hes in love with me and that i can do no wrong if i was with him. oh eddie when will you understand that its not you, it was me, it was me all along, i wasnt letting my self love you. and im sorry but things cant go on the way they once were, i love someone else, the way i wanted to love you. . . 040315
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preggers i know, get this, i finally got back here i have decided that i need to do something that absolutely involves someone but you can like sign a contract if you want no responsibilty, you're not going to like this idea---i'll tell ya later, but i need cc to help me out... as much as i love eddie, i just can't help it and since...oh, i'll get back 040315
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lorna my best friend. i don't know what i feel for you and i'm leaving so i would rather not think about it. but sometimes, when i'm with you..it just all feels right.

we can't have each other right now.
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