artificial Quintessensual Let's say it's official: An artifice is artificial. Still no artifice does not mean true, like not red does not mean blue. 991125 ... valis strawberry fields; nothing is real ... 991217 ... andrea fake like the tan of my skin you push your way inside my heart words disguised as promises and loving touches nothing more than lies decode your ways for me can't i see who i'm loving? 991218 ... formica fake sux. sorry i'm not as great as all these others before me. but it sux. 000104 ... girl hollywood 000327 ... aeiou we all are 001021 ... splinken i am. purely. yep. this is not some egocentric_self_loathing crap, either. i like my artificial self. 001022 ... caveman I have a different artificial experience for you. One that has been framed by a tiny white lie, sealed by a superficial hug, and stamped by the words I love you. Could this sound familiar to anyone out there? Reading between the lines has always been a way to survive, but the one time I let down my guard, trusting the person standing next to me, is how I got hurt the worst. Good times gone bad, loss of self control. Fuck, I'm left all alone standing in the artificial rain 011206 ... caveman I have a different artificial experience for you. One that has been framed by a tiny white lie, sealed by a superficial hug, and stamped by the words I love you. Could this sound familiar to anyone out there? Reading between the lines has always been a way to survive, but the one time I let down my guard, trusting the person standing next to me, is how I got hurt the worst. Good times gone bad, loss of self control. Fuck, I'm left all alone standing in the artificial rain 011206 ... ClairE Just because it's fake doesn't mean it's artificial. 011206 ... unhinged artificial = artful archaic english is a beautiful thing 011206 ... Annie111 In fourth grade, we went to school on a farm. That's just the way things are done Down Under. So one day, Stocky asked us what another word for fake was, and I said "artificial" And he said, "Well done! For getting that right, you get to manage the incubator!" So I hatched three little chicks Yellow puffs From the foam cocoon Once i accidentally left the lid off when i rotated the smooth eggs And I got yelled at. Stocky was tough, he didn't accept bullshit from anyone. I heard once he hit a kid. But he was a tough German-Australian farmer, What do you expect. Sometimes a swift kick up the behind Is just what a brat needs. 011206 ... Syrope i dont know why my body feels this way i'm so scared being alone when it gets this bad but no amount of trembling and crying is going to bring you back gone a few hours you've been gone almost 5 and i'm just glad, you know, that you're choosing to support the right people. like your little pledging buddy who doesn't return your calls, because i'm sure it's really important to her that you're there tonight i just like how you can't say no to anyone but me. well, that's not true. you can't say no to me either. you just hem and fidget and change the subject out of answering me, and then when i send an email to ask again, sure i'll get an answer, i'm flat out ignored. i wish you'd just told me no. the first thing in a long time i'm *really* proud of and you don't have the decency to give me an answer. it's ok. i'll go alone and sit among all the people with someone there to be proud of them. dont fucking worry about it. i thought it was just you didn't want to feel obligated but i mean, it turns out you want to support... her so thats why i'm all alone right now but it doesn't explain next week you don't even waste time thinking of a creative way to turn me down when i need your support it's fine. 050323 ... syrope it's december 10 for christ's sake 051210 ... oren I_am artificially alive. There's an electronic device sending signals to my_heart so that it will maintain a normal beat pattern. I_am alive. 060402 ... sirflaccid I don't think any of us truly know what the real thing is anymore. 060403 what's it to you? who go blather from