i_am tit i know i am more than i seem. i hate how i am perceived. i could be more than meets the eye. 010707 ... yummychuckle high 010708 ... shhh I am surrounded by beauty completely. You are an amazing thing. Our reality is what we make of it, and so this very moment is lost and floating if I shape it to be that way. Every second that we have, we have a chance to change everything. Its like my life is being summed up in all these movies and conversations and books and art...there are so many perspectives on so many matters. everyone has a place, has a little slot that they fall into, we function as one entire being on a singular level so we don't realize it right now that we are part of a whole, but later it all comes together and we are just a mass. we are a system of noise light color potential matter, we are vulnerable to the throes of every day society. we are our own victims here. everyone has the decision to let themselves run their own life or someone else run it for them. when we walk out the door, we say to ourselves that we are leaving home and going out into theworld. but the world IS our home, and so we are welcome anywhere we are. on an astral plane you dont worry about mundane matters such as money. you can do anything you want and that is freedom. no matter what the circumstance, you can BECOME. we are at the point of "almost".... there is this spectrum of thought, there are so many different levels and so many different realities. life can be summed up in so many two word phrases that it gives me a headache. 020725 ... phil today 020729 ... Reverend Lough In this modern day and age, Western civilization has taken over. The world, The general masses Have conformed to Their god, their governments, And their superficial, Mechanical routine That they call living. They, The people of modern earth, See black and white. Right or wrong, heaven or hell. They don't see what lies between, In the Grey Area. I Am the Grey Area. Copyright 2002 021219 ... Kristopher I am Jack's screaming headache. 021219 ... xle something to run away from 021220 ... among the rest i am... meaning that i do exist. i am elsa {among the rest}-- probably naming the different personalities within you is not healthy. i have this tendancy to name anything and everything. elsa, lesa, lilaccutie, death by ink, mist fairy, morbid faerie, 27, Isabella, Margot, Cecilia. they are all me. and i am nothing but 030220 ... jane nothing 030221 ... magdalena I AM: nothing I HURT: myself I LOVE: not much I HATE: *you* I CRY: dry tears I FEAR: my inner demons I HOPE: tommorow is better I FEEL ALONE: often I TALK: to myself I LISTEN: to the voices I BREAK: people's hearts I SEE: my faults I SMELL: the roses I TASTE: the bitter aftertaste of a brutal fight I WORK: towards nothing I REMEMBER: better times I SLEEP WITH: the sheets I HIDE: my inner child I PRAY: to a dead God I WALK: to where the sidewalk ends I DRIVE: myself insane I SHATTER: my self-confidence I BREATHE: toxic fumes I PLAY: mind games I MISS: my ignorant childhood I LEARN: something new everyday I FEEL: akward I KNOW: only that I know nothing I DREAM: of being awake I HAVE: only myself in the end I WANT: a hug I FALL: in love easily I AWAIT: for completion I LIVE: for tommorow I DIE: a little bit more each day I FIND: little things amusing I SCREAM: silently I CHOKE: on my thoughts I THINK: too much...and yet never enough 030223 ... Eowithien i am something that i do not know of yet. i am a being but not necessarily human. i am a female thing. i am an object of others fun and games. i am in inadimate blob that sits in a desk, scribbling things and babbling quietly. i am someone that doesn't know their own name. i am. 030228 ...   nothing. But i'm not telling anyone anything they don't already know. 030228 ... :-* in dire need of some lovin'. 030228 ... Bizzar I am something completely different to you today than I was yesterday. I am your girlfriend when its convinient... for you. I am cheating on you everytime I do what it is you told me to do (hang out with MY friends) You are a walking contradiction, and Im sick of being confused. Make up your mind: Do you want me around, or not? 030602 ... celestias shadow alive 031012 ... x swinging in erin's backyard in the dark while her parents sleep ansd she watches through her window, unable to yell at me. i light a cigarette to enrage her further and guarantee that she'll slither out of the house as low as she can. off in suburban rest period down to the high school. swings, cigarettes, and addressing the most palatable topics of sex/objects and parental restraints. 031013 ... x swinging in erin's backyard in the dark while her parents sleep and she watches through her window, unable to yell at me. i light a cigarette to enrage her further and guarantee that she'll slither out of the house as low as she can. off in suburban rest period down to the high school. swings, cigarettes, and addressing the most palatable topics of sex/objects and parental restraints. 031013 ... User24 at work, mind a cacophany of thoughts as usual, it's becoming harder to focus on one task at a time, the amount of ideas in my head, it's all I can do to scribble them down here on blather, lest they escape me. 031013 ... User24 *phony 031013 ... ME LET THEM ESCAPE YOU. YOU WILL FIND YOURSELF THEN 031014 ... endless desire the_one 031226 ... nonsensical lost in a daze of words swirling in my mind, on paper, in dreams and the tiny bits of conversation while read the dictionary. 031226 ... ethereal I am but a child trying to reclaim her innocence. And you still deny me the pleasures of being pure. These tests have me failing, when will I finally rise above? Fly. 040427 ... kookaburra i am kookaburra hear me rawr!!!! 040427 ... birdmad late_from_work, again 040427 ... jthemo i am? no, i am nothing without what i wish to be. you know that brief moment of silence during a storm when you drive past a bridge overhead? the few seconds when the rain's troubling patter stops. the one blink when you feel you might float outwards into sunshine again the brief state of peace that the world grants you that is what i wish to be 040427 ... Borealis I am blasphemy incarnate. well maybe thats a tad presumptuous but I'm pretty dang close! 040428 ... ethereal no longer. 040429 ... Eowithien a lost little girl. confused about your choices. upset. missing my special someone horribly. 040430 ... pete i am here, sitting in this room that is so usually full of sounds of cheer and socialization. i am here alone, it is a little past noon. i am seemingly unemployed, luck decided to frown upon my last 'for sure job,' allowing it to fall through on me. i am hurt. i am alone. i feel new, as if the tears that fell as i lay on that couch in that lonely apartment freed me from who i was and allows me to become who i am. 040503 ... skinny eternal stratosphere minivan conversation 040606 ... Connecting..the.dots.. over dramatic and sometimes drastic 040610 ... lacunas coil i am not time grown old, i merely grow old with time. the world may spin beneath me every day, but i spin along my own way. i am not the sun nor the grass. simply i grow and sprout and bloom and whither away. 040611 ... nonlucid I'm not so sure about that one 040702 ... JustOnMonday I am your hopes, dreams, friend, love. I am yours. 040804 ... daxle i_am_becoming 040804 ... f i am yours always and forever. 040805 ... TK Arithmophobic 040901 ... rock on wrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrong wrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrong wrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrong wrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrong wrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrong wrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrong wrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrong wrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrong wrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrongwrong 040906 ... peppermint I am wrong? Hmmm, I'll have to think about that. 040906 ... god i am the missing link between john denver and ornette coleman. i am the oatmeal of destiny and romance. i am the burning skull head that visits your sweetest dreams and squirts oatmeal of of it's eye-sockets i am invincible i am woman maybe not 040914 ... kidblink I am Sunday morning wearing pink converse goodness. I am try anything once. 040924 ... Deomis I am as changing as the sea I wonder what makes the sea tides change I hear the ocean waves- chrashing thru my brain- I see my own reflection in the waters I want to know just who I am I am as changing as the sea I pretend that everything is okay I feel my sand castle crumbling away I touch the broken walls of me I worry that nothing will change I cry as the water washes my castle away I am as changing as the sea I understand that I can't change everything I say I just want to change a few things I dream of escaping my mind's confines I try to get away I hope that one day I will know how I am as changing as the sea 041205 ... tr I am what you will never be... 041218 ... pSyche I am a complete idiot. damn it. why do I have to be so stupid! I didn't mean it that way! It was a joke... Why do I always hurt them!?!? I cannot do anything right sometimes. I am useless. 041220 ... Piso Mojado so far away from right now at this moment i am covered in fat i am dressed in purple i am listening to house i am loved by someone i am so young i am so old i am alone i am full i am drunk i am in christmas lights i am typing to stave away the emptiness that i so often deny (that i have denied exists this very day) i am a crappy writer, but my need my desire my insides must come out in this puke of my unmediated soul i am in this moment i am here again and again i am moving forward at a snails pace i am loved i am understood i am still myself i am a daughter i am i am i am still on blather after how many years and my writing hasnt improved at all blather is still a social competition realm that i have lost i am too young i am over my head i am not read i am unsure i am not prepared for these older men i am not enough i am not anything i am everything i am lost i am still here barely breathing i am tipsy i am ugly i am a shadow of what i could be i am a beautiful skeleton hidden in flesh i am a pseudopsychology major i am a pseudo student i am blech i am awe i am in awe of these amazing people of my friends i am unsure of why they bother (dont they know) i am crushed by these truths untruths of inflated deflated ego i am terribly alone and terribly ugly i am struggling i am i am i am here but i am repeating i am like everyone else i am starbuck mochachino nonfat extra dry i am uncomfortable first date (but he doesnt notice) i am the only one awake in my house i am spew i am garbage i am ego feces i am too much food stuffed and restuffed and shoved outside and told to shut up i am all of these i am none of these i am rising despair 060115 ... *Amy* I am the favourite of God and Devil 060305 ... I am. I am. 070611 ... Indonesian "iam" in de basket my favorite dish ! 070611 ... r. m 070730 ... unhinged most always singularly_and_quietly alone 071028 ... hsg sitting patiently, working to change my mental_weather before i expect the world's weather to change for me. i hope i don't lose sight of this. i will_not lose sight of this. i always remember this. i am not a victim; i am a choice, my choice. 071028 ... Ouroboros All that stress has dissipated in the last week. All that stupid job stress and driving in LA traffic stress is gone. I am back to being me. I wake up early, I watch the sun rise. I eat delicious food and converse with others. I watch the birds. I do yoga in the afternoon. I ride my bike all over town. I watch the sun set. I read. I think. I feel. I am 080205 ... ever dumbening i am gonna give you some james-is-jealous-of-you stress! haha keep up the good non-work. 080207 ... little wonder back? 080208 ... dafremen ...Who said that? 080209 ... no reason fleeing the continent today! 080626 ... oren ♫ I_said... 080627 ... steampunkrock therefore i think sum_ergo_cogito in practice, this proves false 080628 ... hsg ^^^ or simply those who do not think do not really exist. i am... what i identify with. 080629 ... lux a mess. 081002 ... In_Bloom Hungry Thirsty Impatient But I'll lay the banquet for you 081111 ... 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I am the pledge of allegiance to the country of Canadian_hypocrisy_maybe that drives me to indulge my libertine excesses by buying a 300g bag of semi-sweet chocolate chips but not eating them all at once because that would do unpleasant things to my digestive system. Also, I hope for peace. 120720 ... fishawk Love 141105 ... Doar And will be. I will not bend or break. I_am. . 141105 what's it to you? who go blather from