crawling birdmad evolution fish walk on puddles like an amphibian jesus somewhere between earth and heaven 011120 ... so fucking lost crawling palms bloodied knees torn crawling through cuts infected bruises swelling crawling through this head down hair dragging crawling through this shit blinded by it all. if i close my eyes it makes it easier. if i close my eyes i might dissapear. i close my eyes and hope like hell i wont be here when i open them again on my hands and knees 020717 ... Nathan88 and inching its way to the worse day of my life we shall see 030207 ... Death of a Rose a net of pen stained binders, swinging on fake chains, creaking and slapping each other. Hanging like forgotten pictures. 031016 ... Risen My skin is crawling. I never knew what that meant before. I'm itching so badly that it feels like a million tiny bugs are crawling on my skin. Which isn't too far off.. lots of bugs are crawling around beneath my skin. Post-operative infections are just so much fun. I've spent more time being treated by doctors and nurses in the last week than I have in decades. Right now I am so angry that I want to beat the crap out of a punchbag, or go buy a load of second hand crokery and smash it... but of course that would require being able to stand up and do things. I hate being trapped in my own head. It is not safe here. 170805 what's it to you? who go blather from