lemon_soda User24 an it harm none, do as ye will. 030913 ... quotree do as thou wilt shall be the whole of the law 030913 ... getting more and more obscure24 lex talionis 030913 ... the knights who say ni! ni! 030913 ... gwyllynne spaghetti! 031111 ... pvcpillow *mwah* 031112 ... . . 031119 ... Doar fugitive 031119 ... Lemon_Soda Don't go spreading that around, Doar. 031119 ... Doar oh man, you know i've aided and abetted... 031119 ... Lemon_Soda Man, theres just not alot to say about me, is there? Or is the prospective conversation promise to be to depressing? 031121 ... misstree i've got plenty to say about you, but most of it isn't stuff that a keyboard can convey properly, and again with that not wanting to give away the unfair advantage thing. and my scanners detect that you're concerned about the opinoins of others. five smacks with a rolled up newspaper for you. 031121 ... Lemon_Soda If I lived a life without caring about other peoples opinoins, I wouldn't care about anything you had to say. I DO care about what you have to say, therefore I care about others opinoins. (Modus Tollens) Besides, its not like I'm fishing for compliments. I don't really care what people post in here. I just think its nifty to see stuff written under a page about me. 031121 ... Death of a Rose we are the underground secret society of sour_pops... all hail sour pop! Hail! Hail! Hail! 031121 ... Death of a Rose i'm starting to get the hairs rising on the back of the neck feeling. 031127 ... Lemon_Soda wonderful. I love that feeling. Its the shit that comes right after that sometimes gets me, but heck. Atleast you know its going to interesting. 031127 ... Death of a Rose jesus, mary and scared silly donkey. i knew it was you behind me. 031127 ... Lemon_Soda Cause you felt the poke and saw both my hands? Ah, no. Just kidding. Thats the sword on my belt.Really. 031127 ... Death of a Rose opinions sminions.......potato...tomatoe. cursh them like bugs we will! . 040123 ... scarlet it seems ironic that you are pushing off and roaring while i am drawing in and whispering. ironic or appropriate? sheesh. we're a coupla nincompoops, is all. 040226 ... Lemon_Soda blurgle 040226 ... Doar Yes! I finally have a picture, instead of imagining a giant walking/talking pop bottle. 040809 ... witchesrequiem it always leaves you even more thirsty... 040810 ... . nice smile 040810 ... Lemon_Soda Actually I'm an anthropomorphic aluminum can given life by a freak accident involving a spore covered mattress and magnetic fields. 050520 ... Lemon_Soda *pacing* Test is tomorrow... and your blathering instead of studying... Test is tomorrow... *bubblebubblefizfizbubblefizfiz* 050602 ... misstree *pets fur* you know you'll do fabulous. quicher worrying. take a deep breath, and somewhere in that breath is a little bit of me, cuddling ya. be well, babe. 050602 ... Lemon_Soda Hmmm... Wondering were my spark is, my push, my oompf, my musing inspiration. Do you suppose the more content you become, the less fractured and desperate your creative outlet will be? Am I exchanging genius for peace? Or do i just have a writers block? 050609 ... Doar In my oh so humble opinion, it's writers block. Could be writers cell as well. oh and by the way you have your answer on Doar 050621 ... Doar nevermind. 050621 ... LS Is a megalomanaical masturbating mormon with writers cell and a BLT. 050621 ... green tea Dear Lemon Soda, I am a fan of your fizzleness. And am truly patriotic towards your carbonated self. [Read: I am super glad I know you. Well... the very little of you that I know.] Steepingly, Green Tea 050621 ... Lemon_Soda Was recently assigned this category by the d i s c classic perso nnal prof ile system taken during a "team" meeting with a personality accessor whose job is to make us work together well: Pattern: Counselor Emotions: is approachable; shows affection and understanding. Goal: Friendship; happiness Judges others by: positive acceptance of others; ability to look for the good in people. Influences others by: Personal relationships; "open door" policy. Value to organization: remains stable and predictable; develops a wide range of friendships; listens to other's feelings. Over uses: indirect approach; tolerance. Under pressure: becomes overly flexible and intimate; is too trusting without differentiating among people. Fears: pressuring people; being accused of causing harm. Would increase effectiveness through: attention to realistic deadlines; initiative to complete the task. Counselors are particularly effective at solving people's problems. they impress others with their warmth, empathy, and understanding. Their optimism makes it easy to look for the good in others. Counselors prefer to deal with others by building long-standing relationships. As a good listener with a willing ear for problems, a Counselor offers suggestions gently and refrains from imposing his or her ideas on others. Counselors tend to be overly tolerant and patient with non-producers. Under pressure, they may have difficulty confronting performance problems. Counselors may be indirect when issuing orders, making demands, or disciplining others. By adopting the attitude that "people are important", Counselors may place less emphasis on task accomplishment. tghey sometimes require help in setting and meeting realistic deadlines. Counselors often take criticism as a personnal affront, but they respond well to attention and compliments for well-done assignments. When in a position of responsibility, Counselors tend to be attentive to the quality of working conditions and provide adequate recognition for memebers of their group. *sets paper down* I figure they nailed it. Kinda scary, but I agree with the general overview. 050712 ... Lemon_Soda And thankyou, Green Tea. Its a pleasure knowing you as well. You know us beverages haft ta stick together. 050712 ... misstree amazingly accurate, my fillulent friend. especiall from a work-type perspective. *nuzzles from afar* 050712 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl *waves* i've probably said this before, or maybe that was just in a dream (yes i do sometimes dream about writing stuff on blather, and so im puzzled when it isnt there) *looks paranoid* yes so where was i.....ah yes..... i find you very intriguing, Mr Soda. i noticed we've been on quite a few of the same blathes, and your posts interest me. care to begin a deep and meaningless discussion? at your earliest convenience, of course. 050713 ... LS Sure. You can email me, or try to catch me on IM or start a blathe dedicated to it. I love talkies... talktalktalktalktalk.... *wanders around randomly until an openmanhole invariably sucks him in* 050713 ... emanon shenanigans 050718 ... LS Just an update... Doing well, have a daughter, got a job as a real estate agent, finished first year of gong fu. 060207 ... IGG hey dude long time no blatherstalk. hope your life is going how you want! love from your friendly neighbourhood IGG. 060207 ... Lemon_Soda another update: Starting learning my sword forms, still working in the office, and have a side job at a movie threater. Single. 060515 ... Doar INCOMING DUCK!!! quack. 060515 ... Lemon_Soda I know you even warned me, but that duck hit me square in the face! 060515 ... Lemon_Soda UH, update, I guess. I'm a REALTOR now, and I also have a job as the general/resident manager of an apartement complex. Yay, salary. Salary good. I'll be 26 friday. I have a girlfreind. UM...thats about it. Doin' good. Yup...pretty darn good. You? 060829 ... Lemon_Soda Todays my Birthday. Yay! 060901 ... misstree happy belated birthday! i'm glad you were born! 060902 ... Hooray! Here's to another twenty-six years of thee! 060902 ... Keil Happy even more belated birthday! I hope to live to 26. I will probably be eaten by another random duck. Can you substitute ducks for the bacon in a BLT? LOL! if you add oregeno, you get a D-O-L-T. Hahaha, I love it when i act stupid. :) 060908 ... Doar Singing Offkey dude. sorry i missed your b-day bro. Hippy freakin B-lated Birthin Day to ya! . 060908 ... lemon_soda HEE! (flushs beet red and twists his plaid skirt between his forefingers and thumbs) Thanks blatherfam! 060908 ... rhin i love that you wear skirts. also, Happy B-Lated Birthday! 060909 ... Emptyness Alive mind, body or soul? Eyes, Hands or lips? 061001 ... Lemon_Soda Soul before all others, Emptyness. The symbol that I am. More important than my body, more important than my mind. I would sacrifice both to keep my soul intact. Eyes. When I look into peoples eyes, I really SEE them. IF they let me, I'll study them for as long as possible. Eyes are the gateway to the soul. People look away when they don't want you to see. Thats proof enough. 061001 ... Emptyness Alive sometimes people look away because there scared, of life, of love, of life, ashamed that they cannot live how they wish to live. what do people see when they look in your eyes? 061010 ... Emptyness Alive you said once that love is a moment like everything else. when did the break up with you. No im stalking you im just looking through my past blathes an just saw dat dats all 061010 ... Emptyness Alive im not stalking yopu sorry i just read what i wrote. sorry 061010 ... Lemon_Soda Firstly, you would have to ask the people who looked what they saw, not me. If you mean to ask "what do you see when you look in your own eyes?" I would say its impossible to do that, so I don't know. IF I take it alittle further towards what I think your getting at, one could ask "What do you see when you look inside of yourself?", and to this I would respond, "I see a child, pleasant in demeanor, plain of clothes, trying his best, and worrying he might come up short, but he isn't sure." Please give me the blath title you found that quote of mine on and rephrase your second question so I understand it better. I don't mind stalkers, but I also understood you weren't one. Also, I've read enough of your blathes to know you don't type like that. Take your time. I'm not here to judge anyone but myself, and I shouldn't even be doing that. 061010 ... Lemon_Soda heres a little update for those lemon_soda fans: I've got 2 careers now. Not only did I finally become a REALTOR, but I got a job as the general manager of a hotel. I'm happy about my first closing. It was a small comission(bout 900) but it made me feel real good. On the significant other front, my girlfriend told me she loved me and wanted to know why we don't have sex. WHO-boy. I told her love was a good thing and she should keep on loving. She told me unrequitted love really hurts and I said I know. But its a hurt we give ourselves, and its a hurt we can take away. When she asked me again why we don't have sex I told her because I didn't want to have sex. She countered by calling me cold. Infact, she calls me distant and cold alot. She says I'm to philosophical for my own good. She also got upset at me because i never yell at her or tell her what she's doing wrong. Familys alright. Both blood and spirit still welcome me into their homes. Its funny, but I have like, 6 house keys that arn't mine. Zelda and Wesley are enjoying living at the hotel with me, but i think they would like to be able to run free more. Right now, all time outside of the room is on a leash. I think I"ll get a membership to the dog park and makesure no other dogs are there and take. Eh. My brain flubbed on writing more. 061013 ... Lemon_Soda I just want to take a second to state how much I dislike the random patchs of spam that have somehow infected blather. I dislike patchs of spam on blather alot. there. I said it. 061016 ... Emptyness_Alive Heya, sorry i didnt blathe back i used to be able to blathe only when i was round a friends house and i dont like asking things of them. sorry. The quote was on love. im one of those people who thinks with their heart not there head, and my favourite points of life are those moments unlike all others. that kiss, that view. i love making people smile i always have done. one my Ex's had never had a nice BF, they all just used her. i made her cry because i cooked her a candlelit dinner. Being Philosofical sorry my spelling isnt to great isnt always the greatest way in the world. dont lose your GF because of lack of intamacy. Though if sex is an intamite moment to be shared with someone you love then follow your heart. Emptyness_Alive@hotmail.co.uk 061018 ... Lemon_Soda She takes acts of intimacy as teasing. And I don't love her. I like hanging out with her. She can be fun. But she can be petty too. I dunno. We had a talk and as long as I make an effort to hang with her more than once or twice a week, we should be fine. 061018 ... Emptyness Alive you dont sound to fond of her? you sound hung up? 061019 ... Emptyness Alive resigned to doing something you want to do? what does she/you mean by teasing? (playing with her heart type teasing?) 061019 ... Lemon_Soda I'm fond of her when I first see her, when we go out to eat, when we go shopping, or when we hit a dungeon. I am fond of her when we sit on my bed and watch tv together, one of us strokeing the other platonically. I am not fond of her opinions nor the way she thinks. I am not fond of how her emotions control her. I am not fond of the ease inwhich she can condemn other people for what I view to be silly reasons. Hung up? Define Hung up. I often resign to doing things because unlike many people I know, I have come to the personal understanding that my personal concerns are rooted in selfishness and shouldn't be indulged more often than restraint. I am not miserable because of this. Infact, sacrifice has only enriched my life. She means by teasing petting and kissing. This gets her in the mood and she is then disappointed when I stick to my decision to remain celibate. I feel stuck on this issue however, because if I don't show her atleast some physical affection I'm being "cold" again. As for the heart, she knows she doesn't have mine. We have discussed it bluntly many times. Why does everyone think that just because your dating you have to automatically fall in love? 061020 ... Emptyness_alive@hotmail.co.uk 1. i never said you had to be in love. 2. hung up cant get enough 3. in some ways you love her she may not have your heart but part of you loves her that even i can tell 4. can i ask y ur celibate? 061023 ... Lemon_Soda Eh. Moot now. We broke up yesterday. She didn't want to wait around to see if I would fall in love with her. 061023 ... Emptyness Alive ouch im sorry dude u k? 061023 ... Lemon_Soda Well, I wasn't in love with her, so I don't have a heck of alot of heart ache over it. ITs probably better, really, that we didn't keep going out. No sense in trying to force chemistry and all that. I was disturbed at how she believes I have trouble letting people in. I always felt I was rather personable. BUt hey, can't please em all. Plus, now I get to enjoy the status of singal again, without heart-lag(kinda like jet lag). 061023 ... Emptyness Alive its nice to feel as though you dont have to worry though. an u no its true. u aint stupid. what is it u want? i mean really want 061024 ... Lemon_Soda As far as a woman is concerned? Who knows. Experience has taught me that you'll know from the get go. ITs happened before, it'll happen again. I'll see her from across the room and she'll see me and that will be that. 061025 ... Emptyness Alive u work at a hotel right? av never wanted to go an say hi to a custourmer just because they just made ur heart flutter? 061026 ... Lemon_Soda Can't do that. It isn't proffessional. 061026 ... Emptyness Alive do u ever want to though? Do you ever thin with your heart not your head? sorry bout all the questions 061030 ... Lemon_soda If there was the urge, and I have had this urge, I quickly remind myself who I am and where I am. This causes the urge to subside. We often do things simply because we have the urge and this can lead to misery, disappointment, frustration. I do not believe such urges come from the heart. They are a reaction of my body, and in my experience, i can't trust my body to make my decisions for me. Thinking with my heart is as simple as having compassion and basing my decisions on what compassion dictates. The heart does not urge us to do anything selfish, like in this example. If I pursued her, because I know nothing about her, it would be because my body likes the way she walks, smells, and looks. I will not be fool enough to try to pursue a relationship with someone based on nothing more than that, let alone risk my proffessional integrity. and I encourage questions. 061109 ... Emptyness Alive what are you afraid of? what is ur dream? 061114 ... Lemon_Soda I am afraid of everything and nothing. I have answered this question before, but i don't remember were I wrote my answer. There are a thousand thousand horrible possibilities, even unto neverending. One could spend a life time pointing out and cowering over all the things that could happen. Only a fool does not fear. I donot, however, spend my time cowering. Jst because we are afraid of something does not mean we must empower it and belittle ourselves. As for dreams, I have many. The one I entertain the most is having the resources necesary to establish a freehold and collect my loved ones there. I am on my way to this dream. 061114 ... Emptyness Alive gather not collect surround yourself in loved ones y? do you need to be loved or do you wish to love? 061115 ... Lemon_Soda Both. I have both and I want more. To be loved is so wonderful. They are always there when i need them, even if I don't realize it at the time. I love loving. Everyone gets a hug. YAY LOVE! Lets love some more. There is the essence. 061115 ... Emptyness Alive my friends and those who know me love me. sometimes i think to much. when people first meet me their reactions are the same girls say aww and boys respect me though they dont know why and some guys are jealous. the more my friends love me the more it will hurt them when i leave. i know three girls are in love with me and i wish it was not so because they will be hurt the most when i leave. i cannot stop loving so i will not. i cannot hate people i find it impossible. would you get bored by the love around you do you not need new love 061116 ... Lemon_Soda If love is recognized, it can never be boring. New love is an essential. We are garunteed that those we love will leave us, by choice, circumstance, or death. The only way to keep love is to keep loving more. 061116 ... Emptyness Alive to true so sad but true its a shame the leave us if u r loved by the mass u could get bored by there love unless it is shown openly i am bored of my life so i do spontaneous things to make peeps happy what would u do if u wer no longer needed 061120 ... Lemon_Soda Nolonger needed? As in, everybody everywhere would get along without me? Thats kind of already the case. Nobody has to have ME specifically. Atleast not so much that they wouldn't get over it if I was suddenly gone. What would I do if I felt I couldn't help anyone? Probably go reclusive, maybe become a monk. I dunno. I really think this would have to happen for me to know what I would do for real. 061120 ... Emptyness Alive do u want to be used? i dont mean in a dirty way 061121 ... Emptyness Alive wer u going to get married sorry you dont have top answer that one 061121 ... Lemon_Soda We are all of us used. We all provide essential and non-essential factors in other epoples lives. Just as we use others. Think more than materially onthis one. A supply of affection, stress relief, money, ideas, etc. All of these things and more come to us from other people by choice or not. We are users and the used. I don't mind it at all. As for your second question, yes I was going to get married, but now I'm not. I'm not going to go into it out of respect, however. 061121 ... Emptyness Alive thats fine i wont pry 061122 ... Emptyness Alive have you ever introduced someone to blather? 061123 ... Lemon_Soda I've tried. They don't post, but they might read. 061123 ... Emptyness Alive i tried but they dont seem interested its strange people who i expect to like this site dont the ones who are the type to use this more than any other dont you do have to find this site yourself to be able to use dont you? 061124 ... Lemon_Soda Oh, no. It works better that way, but I myself was introduced to it by a friend, and I post regularly. 061124 ... tessa no 061209 ... sab today you were my blather orical thank you. the_less_said_the_better 061218 ... jayha i have no clue what the hell..no idea 061219 ... Lemon_Soda tessa:yes sab: Your welcome? jayha:what? 061219 ... Lemon_Soda Might make my first commercial sale soon. Here's hoping. is trying hard to succeed. 061220 ... Doar dropping by with xmas goodies Breathtaking Bat's Balls Batman!!! . 061220 ... Lemon_Soda Good to hear from you. 070104 ... Emptyness Alive heyo dude hw u doin? 070109 ... lemon_Soda All is well as is always. Yourself? 070109 ... Lemon_Soda Hi Sally. 070605 ... Lemon_Soda Oh my gosh its a STREAM! And the words came tumbling out. A fat, dumpy cloud is frowning and walking like a penguin in the dark blue fog. You can hear ghosts wailing, but its not words to be exact. They flutter out of the floor, the walls, and the roofs of houses. Like sheets in the wind, drawn taught and released. Look at them, they are so lonely. She was getting married. Now she doesn't have a face. Where did they come from? Who are they? The clown doesn't even seem to hear. None of them go close to him. He seems to not care. Where did he come from? Their all around me. Flutter, flutter. White against the background of deep blue. The dirt under my feet fell from their hands. As they fly above me I wonder where they are going. The night seems to be fading and the ghosts wail is not so loud. It gets smaller and smaller in pulses until the ruckus of a the city waking snaps me away from their mournful call. Now people are walking the streets and sidewalks. Some swing their arms and others are using umbrellas even though it isn't raining. Its amazing. They don't have faces either. But they seem so happy. Purple zoot suits and big , beautiful feathers sticking out of their hats. The cop, standing in the road points and the cars go. I cry it is so wonderful. It seems I can feel all around me the life of us. It makes me hungry and hurts my neck. I take a sit at a booth and the waitress is walking ont he counter. She gives me a drink and I reflect. There are lovely bushes reaching up for that English weather to feed their habit. ts just like smoking we can't help it. Every feel like the universe is laughing at you but your really not that concerned about it. I've been that way for some time. It seems things are and I are so they are the way they are and thats okay. I've got tea and faceless dancers who will one day be sheets. I really like the dance of thecity I"m inn but it can give you a really big headache if you try to listen to it all at once. Think about ideas and images swhirling together as a tornado and you'd have some idea about wat I'm getting at. Is wveryone keeping u I might be about to explode!!! I got somethi g to say that almost everyone here will able to agree or not with: I love holding hands with people. Its so reassuring and nice. No harm, no bad touch, no stickygrosssmell. Just comfy comfort. Try it when your walking or if you sitting, but not when your eating unless you can feed eachother or your eating sushi. That is a lot of fun. eating sushi with your hands. I epecially like doing it holding hands. What do you want be ttoday? You could n=you know but you make the best you if you do what you do for a very long time. Everyone likes to be useful ut if you keep changing your mind your not going to be very good at an one thing in articular and if thats the case your not going to be very happy with yourself because for all the time you've put in you don't have much to show for it and as much as we like to say it doesn't matter or I don't care we DO and if you really think about it, how can you afford NOT to do something for the longest time and get better at it if the alternative is to have done nothing, left nothing, been NOBODY, just another statistic. AAAAaahhhh thats nice. Like ice, Very cooling. It flows, it waves, it laps against my comfort, ticling it and massaging it so that I am very. I hope it continues atlest for a little while. It reminds me of being on the beach at night, when there is a chill in the air. Its the rain. I love the feel of the rain. It falls from the sky, one drops at a time, reminds me of the way she walks. I always told myself never never leave. Now she doesn't rain on me. It ws so nice. A smile that brought cool clouds on a hot summer day, then a warm rain, then a cool one. Oh so nice. I could lay back and look up into the thundering grey as all the angels wept and it spashed on my eyes and nose and into my mouth. Angels tears are so tasty. Like a refreshing stream. Ahhhh...I love clouds and grey skys! It has nothing to do with depression...it just feels so, empowering to be out in the weather. I love the idea of dancing in the rain. Moving together, getting wet letting the wind drive us together and apart. So lovely in that blue dress....really lovely. Well, looks like I have time for one more song folks... HELP! Every time i think I know what I know...everyone points out in a ways I can't ignore...that I' not so smart...but is it possible to be any smarty then we've had the opurtunity to grow into? I'm mean experience has aalot to do with it? shouldn't I be expect peoleto trust me if i was raised to trust? Shouldn't I naturally expect the same from everyone else? Its only fair o asume from what my life has shown me that everyone can be just as them as they are taught to be. I'm not so sure we'' have much preprogrammed outside of survival, joy, and fear. That being sad, we gotta go with what we're shown....LOVE YOR CHILDREN! 070605 ... REAListic optimIST hi lemon soda. i missed you while i was away from the blather blue. i feel that we are parallel souls in some way. 070605 ... Lemon_Soda Welcome back! 070606 ... Lemon_Soda I just like to blathe on my blathe. 070607 ... Lemon_Soda . 070627 ... Lemon_Soda . 070627 ... Lemon_Soda Sorry about the "."s I got ahead of myself. Just an update. I am single, nolonger working at the hotel. I got a staff position at my real estate firm so I can work on sellin stuff and still get an hourly rate. I am struggling with the Truth of Decision. Any suggestions would be helpful. 070627 ... . arrogance does not necessarily convey confidence nor wise thinking 070715 ... Lemon_Soda What is the differance between arrogance and confidence? 070715 ... Christ without the cross waddup LS! how ya been dude. 070715 ... pSyche I believe that arrogance has a certain element of pride. An arrogant person would feel a need to repeatedly proclaim their worth, while a confident one would know that their actions and skills speak louder than bragging words. 070715 ... kung Fu mmm... yeah, if you are confident, why would you need to tell someone ? i have always believed arrogant people are very insecure about who they are, they over act, they become something called a control freak, create conflict, because simply they don't like themselves. It is a cover up and an over blown ego at the same time. I just look at those people, i don't flinch because i'm sorry to say, i feel sorry for them. 070716 ... Emptyness_Alive heyo dooode long time how u been so sorry i aint been posting been missing for awhile what u been up to? 070829 ... Bitch Lemon Soda tastes like shit. 070829 ... Lemon_Soda Hey Emptyness, good to read you again! Not much. being a single father, working on my real estate. Took a break from gong fu this month. Got a graphic novel in the works. Rediscovered my love of City of Villains and Ghost in the Shell. YOu? Bitch: It depends on how you prepare me. As for eating me raw, well, that is circumstancial and preferance varies with taste. 070829 ... Emptyness_Alive wow how old is ur child? what is ur childs name? oooooo send me a copy of the book if u please ive left home started work as a activity instructor which is shit pay but good prospects 070830 ... Lemon_Soda She's almost 3, and her name is Emer, which is gaelic for the seven womanly virtues. If and when my novel gets done I'll send you a PDF since I'll likely not try to get it published. 070831 ... Emptyness_Alive why not im sure it'll be a brilliant novel whens her bday? enjoy being a dad? nice name what about work still at the hotel? Email is: KISA_Guardien@hotmail.co.uk Emptyness_Alive@hotmail.co.uk 070831 ... . . 070904 ... somebody Usually you are more optimistic than your words on the dating page. Hang in there! I'm sure the right woman is out there, prowling about, hunting you down, just waiting to scandalize you with her big_tits_of_blather and her scintillating intellect. 080116 ... Lemon_Soda I can't really say Im optimistic because thats just unrealistic, but I can say I usually have a really good attitude. And thankyou for the lift up. I think I might wait a little while longer, but if I'm stalkable, I'm sure someone will stalk me, which is kind of endearing in that psycho sort of way. 080117 ... critic Do you have anything to say that is not provoked in conversation? 080421 ... Lemon_Soda Yes. If you need evidence, go through my list of blathes and look for the ones I started. I take it your getting tired of my mouth, since I couldn't possibly know what I'm typing about nor is it even remotely possible I carry my own opinions about what other people write. Infact, I'm most likely an instigator who likes to mentally masturbate all over everyone else' fine work, forevering marring it with my immaturity and crude literary skill, constantly acting out against a harsh blue world because I just can't seem to find inspiration my self. Or not...who knows, right? 080421 ... doar is a man I'm glad to call friend, at least here on blather. Would be nice to call you friend in the real world dude. . 080421 ... Lemon_Soda Send me your number, we'll touch base. cst_il_011@yahoo.com 080422 ... Lemon_Soda BOY has it been a minute... Speaking of, this year marks my 10 year aniversary here on blather...is that messed up or what? I honestly think I'll be here in another 50 years. Just for the hell of it. You guys are great....even the assholes...I love it. Its like a realm of pure ... "stuff"... I dont' knwo if that makes sense but I've been coming back for a VERY long time( I"m sure several of you ahve me beat in that arena). Its like a family...disfunctional as all hell and including all aspects of what I do and don't want for the rest of ever...and I smile and smile and smile... Shout out to misstree and by extension "love" whom without I most likely would never have found nor nested in this place. So how is everyone? Doing okay? OOoooohhh...I'm curious...and maybe a little vain("little.Hah. thats laughable.) but how many of you consider me one of the wandering voices of blather, part of the landscape, for batter or worse, when you think of it? I think I have had too much beer tonight and I need to go to bed now. 080812 ... Lemon_Soda BOy, I was sure hammered that night. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda I really do come across as an arrogant monkey/meat puppet attention seeker, at times and I am o.k. with that. 080926 ... amy hey lemon_soda so do i. 10 years -- that's longer than me, i think. or, about the same. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Hehehe... Though now that I think about it, Im going to go ahead and endorse that message. I really can be an arrogant monkey/meat puppet seeking attention can't I? And I guess I am ok with that. Guilt or shame has never stopped mee before. Came close, though, in I_ruined_blather Maybe a few other places, but I don't remember. Always nice to get an objective perspective. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda 3 Lemons 500 ml Soda Water (Fizzy Mineral Water) 200 ml Water 150 gms Sugar 200 gms Ice Preparation 1. Boil the water with sugar until it has completely dissolved, then leave it to cool. This is your sweetening syrup. 2. Squeeze the lemons to get juice. 3. Then mix the syrup with lemon juice, soda-water and stir it together. Add the syrup slowly to adjust the sweetness to your own tastes. 4. Put ice it to the glass and pour the lemon soda over it, its nice to present with slices of lemon and orange in it. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Nice. I'll have too try that. I'll let you know how it turns out. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda These jumbled memories, I hope I won't lose them as I grow older. Nostalgia crushes me like a giant tidal wave of lemon soda. Bittersweet memories, painful in a pleasant sort of way. I miss my dog, I miss my friends, I miss anything that I no longer possess. And now my future is punching me in the nose, but I'm not bleeding yet... I hope it stops before it, I hope it stops before it breaks... Running it all together like coleslaw on a summer day, but I can still see the pieces of shredded cabbage & mayonnaise. And I hope that right now I'm the same person that I'll ever be and I hope that the little kid inside me never decides to pack up and leave. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda I'm a complete and absolute nutter who can pretend tobe anything but reality constantly has me crying myself to sleep because the truth of the matter is while I can pretend to be anything anytime anywhere I am actually nothing a hollow shell of a person who only says what he thinks people want to hear except on blather where I try to be as insulting as possible without actually calling anyone names all in an effort to draw attention to myself because I can't get any real attention in real life. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda twenty something and still dieing twenty something and still lieing twenty something and not a day older twenty something and not a day bolder twenty something still so sad twenty something still so bad twenty something nowhere, no way twenty something nowhere to stay twenty something alone at the start twenty something alone in my heart My angst i wish would go away A stupid cost i have to pay My love proclaimed and happy am i So why do I still gaze up at the sky? 080926 ... Lemon_Soda I tell it like it is, weather it is, or not. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Lunatic Giant recipe ingredients: 1 oz Blue Curacao liqueur, 5 oz beer, 1 oz nut-toffee schnapps, 1 splash raspberry cider, 1 splash Schweppes® bitter lemon soda, 1 oz vodka 080926 ... Lemon_Soda I tell it like it is, WHETHER it is, or not. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda This is Lemon_Soda and my identity has been stolen. Let this be a lesson to you. Always shred your important documents. Dont' give ANYONE your credit card information. Make sure you get a confidentiality agreement from anyone you do business with. Remove the vocal chords of your dog. 080926 ... amy youch. what is this? just for the record, i agreed that i'm an arrogant whatever that was, because I know that I am, to a certain extent. Lemon_Soda has always been completely reasonable, in my mind. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Surely we have better things to do than... No....no I guess we don't. ;) 080926 ... Lemon_Soda I'm guessing someone started posting under my handle and it took off as some kind of momentary fad. Its actually quite flattering. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda I'm guessing someone started posting under my handle and it took off as some kind of momentary fad. Its actually quite irritating. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda So I had a great day today. Work was kind of so-so but Ihelped my Bosses secretary put together a new printer(more like hook up) and because I be really anally retentive sometimes I took, like, 3 hours to do it. All while getting paid! Plus I had a few oppurtunities to expand my portfolio of business and had a great update meeting with another agent in the office concerning some land I've been trying to unload since the begining of the year. I hope I can afford to fix my car. The break pads are going out something fierce and I'm a little tight on money right now. It is NOT a good sign when your grinding metal on metal, however, and I drive to work each day PRAYING to the almighty that my wheel doesnt over heat and pop off right in the middle of transit. maybe I'll make that yellow cake in the cabinet I"ve been saving tonight. I still have choclate frosting to put on it. I can be quite the homemaker when I've a mind to be! Speaking of which, do you suppose I would look better with frills on my apron? Also, I'm considering dieing it a powder blue. I love blue! And it would totally go with my dorothy dress.(Being a guy, it still fits me perfectly! I thought my shoulders would be a problem, but its actually cut just right. What a great find at the bargain store!) 080926 ... Lemon_Soda See hell naw, that ain finin' ta be me. Yah got sum-sumthin' ta say ya'll should jes' get it out and stan' 'hind it. Tha' way we can least talk like bra's, cause I kin be coo' if'n ya'll 'll jes talk to me. suckas. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda "Onward still he goes, Yet ne'er looks forward further than his nose." 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Interpersonal Behavior Tries to please and fails Aggression comes out in indirect ways Sometimes agrees to do things for others and then doesn’t follow through Often feels pressure to perform, and has expectation and fear of failure, procrastination Also passive-aggressively defeats his own inner critic, so can’t discipline self Sometimes acts out annoying behavior while not consciously knowing its impact on others. Group, Organizational, Community, Work Behavior In case of people under the power of others, the passive-aggressive behavior can be planned consciously, e.g. employees stealing, being absent Motivation Fails in a way that indirectly expresses anger and defeats others in order to preserve autonomy in the only way he feels he can, because aggression is not allowed Core Issues Harm issues, punishment for aggression, shame Modeled after passive-aggressive parent Opposite reaction to violent parent Statement I can’t do it. Underlying Thought I will fail in order to preserve my autonomy Distortions of Perception Sees self as cooperative Sees people who are controlling as assertive Sees people who are judgmental as perceptive Dimensions Involved Power, value Healthy Capacities Blocked Assertive, cooperative, self-valuing, responsible Activating Conditions Situations where the person’s performance will be judged (or he thinks so) Authority figures, powerful people Demographics Common with teenagers Common in people who are under others’ power Distinctions The victim pattern also involve failure and sometimes indirect anger, but the victim is trying to coerce others into caring for her, while the passive-aggressive is trying to indirectly achieve autonomy. The victim blames others while the passive-aggressive blames herself. The defiant pattern also involves a reaction to perceived domination, but the rebellion is direct. The compliant pattern also tries to please others, but there is little unconscious resentment or it doesn’t get acted out. The insecure pattern can feel pressured to perform and an expectation of failure, but there is no unconscious need to fail to defeat others and not a lot of unconscious anger at others. Related Patterns The passive-aggressive pattern usually includes the insecure pattern. Controlling is the opposite of passive-aggressive Assertive is the healthy goal for a passive-aggressive person. A passive-aggressive person may need to become defiant for a while in the process of growth. Dynamics with Other Patterns and Capacities Passive-aggressive people are often attracted to controlling people in a destructive way, and vice versa. Passive-aggressive people often gets into serious conflicts with controlling people. A passive-aggressive person often makes others very frustrated while feeling bad about himself for doing this. He will often not give his partner what she wants. How to Relate to Passive-aggressive People Circumventing: Be cooperative. Don’t be judgmental, angry, controlling Disconfirming: Be completely accepting of who they are Protection: Don’t expect or want anything from them Healing response to a passive-aggressive person being assertive: Be cooperative. Make sure they have a positive experience in asserting themselves How to Experiment with Healthy Behavior and Attitude Work on becoming aware of your underlying anger and resentment at being controlled Work on becoming aware of your desire to defeat others or get back at them or annoy them Work on becoming aware of your need to fail in order to accomplish the above two things Work on allowing yourself to be just who you are, on feeling that you are OK as you are, that you’re sense of worth doesn’t depend on other people’s opinions Work on expressing your anger and standing up for yourself [and everything listed under the compliant pattern] Healing Choose people who don’t pressure you to be a certain way or to perform, who accept you as you are Choose people who appreciate your being yourself, who don’t need to dominate or have their way, who can handle confrontation and anger Protect yourself from being controlled or harmed or judged Don’t take on people who are very powerful or judgmental until you are strong enough Choose people who will support you in becoming assertive 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Right on. I consider that incredible insightful into my character,clearly explaining many of my traits, actions, and motivations. It is entirely possible that if I study it enough and learn to except things as they are instead of masking them with my own misconception and misinterpretations I just "may" make some progress. Lot f good "healing" advice in there. If I didn't know any better, i'd say you were someone I've had a personal relationship with who genuinely wants to help me but without directly taking responsbility for the good advice. Perhaps anonymity prevents the above passage from being tainted. Wisdom is wisdom, after all, no matter what package it comes in or whose mouth speaks it. I think I'll print this one out. Thank you. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Jay Earley? 080926 ... Lemon_Soda 202 Accepted The request has been accepted for processing, but the processing has not been completed. The request might or might not eventually be acted upon, as it might be disallowed when processing actually takes place. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda 405 Method Not Allowed A request was made of a resource using a request method not supported by that resource; for example, using GET on a form which requires data to be presented via POST, or using PUT on a read-only resource. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Error: Rampaging elephant error. Hide the peanuts and try again later. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda "Instructions: usage known." 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Cannot be made non-poisonous. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda lemon_soda Status: Offline - I'm a 100% candy lover!! :3 Profile URL: Profile Views: 29 Age: 15 Gender: Female Location: somewhere over the rainbow!! XD Ethnicity: Filipino Eastern Zodiac: Rooster Western Zodiac: Leo Member Since: Aug 16, 2008 About Me I'm an otaku who watches anime 24/7 XD I love to draw and paint!! i create mini mangas just for fun! XD I'm a candy addict!! i love to eat tons of sweets!! XD a natural cosplayer!! XD I love to cosplay and come to anime conventions!! 080926 ... Lemon_Soda http://lemon-soda.livejournal.com/ 080926 ... 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Lemon_Soda what is this 080926 ... Lemon_Soda I've never seen that live journal before in my life... And I am totally not a girl. But I do like manga, anime, and cosplaying... And candy... MMMmmmcandy. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda a total concentraition of the arching metal connects bites deep slides further seperates loosed from the material I gaze at the sky as my mind drains away like the last of my sanguine treasure I thought it would never end I didn't want it to end Now it ends And I am at peace. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Disclaimer: Suicide points generally offer the best "view" one can get. No denying that. Nothing against suicide points as such. Whether its called the suicide point, or lamb's rock, or anything....suicide points will generally have a rocky precipice overlooking a deep valley with some boulders scattered here and there....actually not just here and there....precisely at the point where u will expect to hit the ground if u do decide to leap off....well, thats the whole point isn't it?.....i mean whoever chose this as the stage to end his or her life must have done some calculations (and u can bet these calculations were accurate...i mean the mind is clear u see) as to make sure they cant escape with a broken leg or something....it has to be foolproof....(excuse my impudence).... And coz of the use they have been put into, the locals will be besotted by suicide points and once they realized their potential as tourist attractions.....put the stalls and spread the word.... Lemon soda...lemonade....neembu paani...shikanjami....banta...its all the same...(actually the only variations come from adding or not adding soda).....There is no "point"...(pun intended)...without lemon soda. You go to any popular spot in a hill station and its always there. And its always being consumed at alarmingly high rates by visitors. This is a typical situation: You go to a hill station...and so do thousands of ur fellow citizens at any given time....even before u reach there u have a fairly good idea of what to do...(ur friends or their friends who have been there have told u what places to visit).....just outside the bus stand or railway station there will be hoardings put up by the tourism dept telling u abt the same places which u already know.....there will be guides/cabbies who will tell u abt the same places....in other words....u do what everyone else does....Now, u hire a cab or a bus and go on a sight seeing tour.... the cab will take u right to the spot so that the only thing u actually have to do is get out of the cab and look....(we in India take our vacations seriously ok...when we say we r going to relax, we mean that....we dont go to the hills so that we can climb them....just take us to the top and we will see howz the view from there...no messing around)....and what u see first is someone selling lemonade....now everyone is drinking it and since u are on vacation and u were just 'driven' up a hill, and since its good for preventing dehydration, u might as well have it also.... Btw, lemonade is actually good to prevent dehydration, which i assume is the reason u get it at the end of a long, ardous journey up the hill....once upon a time. So here u go....there are no hill stations without suicide points and there are no suicide points without lemon soda.... 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Huh... Now I KNOW you know who I am. Which narrows you down to about 3 people. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Mist Wolfe's Werecard From:cst_il_011@yahoo.com Human Name: Adam D. Ruggieri Were Name: Mist Wolfe Phenotype: Wolf Shifting Ability: Mental shift Birthdate: Sep. 1 1980 Birthplace: Champaign, IL Home Territory: Tuscola, IL Dream Territory: Mist Wood Physical Description, Human: 6"1 Brown Hair, Eyes, Semi-Cute Physical Description, Were: White Fur, Brown eyes Human Career: commercial artist Hobbies/Interests: art reading Favourite Movie(s): Interview, and wolfen Favourite Literature: The Myth series by R. Asprin Favourite Art: Pencil Favourite Saying/Quote: "Spoofy" Favourite Song/Band(s): Smashing Pumpkins Favourite Were Movie: Wolf Favourite Were Literature: Stories of Peter Stubbe Favourite Were Art: Anything under Whitewolf Favourite Were Saying/Quote: "Ouch!" Favourite Were Song/Band(s): Runners Favourite Personal Quote: "I don't want to hear it unless your bleeding!" Favourite Season: Fall Favourite Holiday: Ch!ristmas Preferred Prey: Deer, hare Hunting Tips: Get them from above, they never look up. Preferred Method of Attack: Removing any limb slows them down, but, try for the neck. Favourite Non-Were Mythological Beastie(s): Pheonix myth Feelings Toward Vampires: Parasites, but they do cut down on the Human population. Feelings Toward Normal Humans: If they'd leave us alone I'd be fine with them. Personal Therianthropy: My own lycanthropy came when I was 14. I had just read the wolfen so werewolves(though not real ones) where on my mind. I had taken to wandering the woods by my house(Mist wood) at night. It was here a strange creature ( I'm not sure but possibly a wereskunk) reveiled my true nature to me. I spent the night hunting and enjoying my new form. The transformation was far from painful. Infact It made me feel wonderful and powerful. I was a thing of wonder and I'll never forget the expeirience. I wish everone could join me. Right now I own Mistwood (not legally, it's my territory) and share the city with one werewolf and a vampire. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Boy, that takes me back... 080926 ... Lemon_Soda Adam Ruggieri Commercial and Residential Realtor Adam Ruggieri serves as an associate advisor for Sperry Van Ness / Ramshaw Real Estate's Ruggieri team, specializing in the sale and leasing of commercial properties, focusing on hospitality properties. Prior to joining SVN/Ramshaw, Ruggieri served as a marketing and sales manager for Gateway Studios. Ruggieri also has a background in hotel management. He was introduced to the real estate industry by a California-based real estate group, Upward Property Management, specializing in hotel conversions. Ruggieri gained first-hand experience in property development and turnaround projects. In his spare time, Ruggieri enjoys his membership in the Dog Training Club of Champaign-Urbana and his participation as an Elder Brother in Huang Lin Bao Jin, a martial art under the Shaolin Gong Fu tradition. Ruggieri currently resides in Urbana, Illinois. He has one daughter, Emer. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda is sorry that it got out of hand. It started as boredom, then curiosity. I got swept up and made errors in judgement. 080926 ... Lemon_Soda *SIGH* You know what...don't worry about it. I can take a joke. As for the rest of you... Ever have that dream where your standing naked infront of a whole bunch of people? I got that feeling right about now... 080926 ... somebody that's an inappropriate amount of information someone just revealed. 080926 ... elsie Stand tall LS, petty little stalker games are just that, petty and small. 080926 ... ... This man views your words with a light above the head of a voice that is sitting upon a rock above a river listening to the river bend and appreciates the view and the course. And every blood and flesh responses that are made are made in the gratitude of embracing a brother. When the back light begins it will contain those having sipped at compassions cup, having spilled compassion upon the table discarding the cleanup recognizing it and recognizing the place of life it has. 081120 ... Lemon_Soda I... ... 081121 ... krupt L_S: i havent gone far just lost in limbo you must go if you never been... 090616 ... LEmon_Soda Good to read you. 090616 ... Emptyness_Alive hello mr soda how have you been havnt read you in a long while? 090702 ... Doar Mr. Dude. . 090702 ... Lemon_Soda Mostly working. Trying to pass a Cisco exam this weekend instead of celebrating our, *ahem* independance. Thanks for asking. You? ps Hi Doar! 090703 what's it to you? who go blather from