underlying unhinged when i look at my face in the mirror after putting makeup on and it sickens me because i still know what's underneath 050927 ... unhinged creeping_up again, this feeling of internal non_worth. i can't look myself in the eye. stress turns my depression and anxiety into a malicious internal presence with leads to me being exhausted, snuffed_out . 180615 what's it to you? who go blather from