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in the worst sense of the words
damn stupid winter
i bought myself flowers today
since no one else does
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i think it's nice to buy yourself flowers
(but sorry to hear of the sadness)
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it's a common side effect of cold greyness, but i bought myself new albums, thai food, and beer to go with the flowers. i currently feel bleak rather than dismal.
but i think i've found a new hobby. flower arranging is like painting with plants.
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pleasepleasePLEASEplease take pictures.
I love flowers.
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my last one was better: yellow spider mums and holly berries
this one white roses and red carnations
but i will take some pics the best i can with my laptop camera and put them on my myspace for you ls.
www.myspace.com/urbanbodhisattva
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Thankyou!
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just finished posting the new pics
i need a real digital camera
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the roses are prettier now that they are beginning to open; it's been so long since i've had a bouquet of roses that i forgot. i forgot they do that; open, unfurl, twist and reach from the center outwards.
sometimes i feel like a bud forced to stay shut.
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ls
i realized the other day that my profile on myspace is set to private. if you would like i can email you pics instead. the roses are dead now. just the carnations are left.
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unhinged,
as i walked home tonight,
so many thoughts flew through my mind,
most of all,
i thought of how i could express them
to you
to auburn
to doar
in the end
i couldn't.
i love.
i love.
i love.
so many,
so few.
i don't know
i don't know
i don't know
i'm not sad
i'm not lonely
i sure as hell hope i'm not pathetic
but i love
those who
can't
don't
can't
love me.
at least,
not yet.
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(these past two weeks have especially sucked. i hate it when that happens. everyone i know seems to keep reminding me that i care too much. wish i had a valve i could turn off and on.)
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once_again the valve is currently stuck in the on position with just a trickle left coming out
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home alone, the place is torn apart, this time sunday it won't be home.
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what's it to you?
who
go
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blather
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